3/30/08- So times flies, what's new? I've been writing a lot of poems and posting them on facebook, but this is the first time I've actually gotten around to coming back here and updating. Yes, for the most part my poems are still wonderfully depressing and a few from January will have to be marked M because they get pretty graphic. Again I must reiterate, do NOT read my poems if you are a cutter and/or suicidal. Believe me, even writing them (which is supposed to help me get my feelings out and feel better) and especially reading them later led me to do things I really wish I hadn't done. If my own poetry can be a trigger for me, I'm sure it could be a trigger for you, and I don't want anyone to hurt themselves because of something I've written. For anyone else, feel free to read, as long as you're not too squimish. And on one last note- I've left in the ending part of my old profile for a while now, and I see no reason to remove it, but I no longer stand by those poem favorites. If you want to see what kind of writer I am now, read one of my more recent works (there ARE some that won't be rated M and there's even one that's actually happy/not emo!!). Of course, for my early works, the poems I list below are not bad, but honestly, my style has changed greatly over the last two years and I believe my new style has far more potential.
11/21/07- Yep, the day before Thanksgiving and I finally got around to updating my profile and even uploading a new poem. If anyone's been reading up on my page (which I doubt), you know how I said before that I'm not depressed? Well, apparently I lied. The penname still doesn't quite fit me though, cuz to be honest rage is the emotion I have the most trouble expressing. It sounds better than a really emo, sad screen name though, so for the time being I'll leave it be. Anyway, since I last updated in 2005 basically my whole world has changed. Not just that, but I now understand better where the feelings that motivated many of my poems came from. Basically, my poems are sad and depressing; I'll admit that now. While most of the earlier ones have positive or at least redeeming endings, I can't say that about all of my poems, especially the newer ones. I'm going through some stuff right now...have been for a while actually. My poems will reflect that and are not intended for anyone under the age of 12 or 13 or whatever this site has decided a "teenager" is. I'm an adult now (yay, lol...18, but still), so I don't really care anymore. But anyway, I would also caution anyone who is dealing with serious depression, addiction, cutting, suicidal thoughts, or other similar problems against reading my poems, at least while you are in a vulnerable state, as they might provoke/intensify your problem. But enough of that; here is what's left of my old and familiar profile (the part I consider still mostly factual) for any who are interested (it starts abruptly because my old greeting does not fall under that "currently factual" category):
I love hearing from any and all reviewers. I enjoy reading the reviews that compliment me and I can use the others as construstive critism, so no matter what you think of my work, feel free to respond. I will try to review one of your works if you review one of mine, but unfortunatly, I can't make that a promise.
If you feel like reading a poem or two of mine and don't know which to read, I can give you a suggestion. My personal favorite is Faith, followed by Guilt and then Analysis. Oh yes, and if for some reason you would like to leave a review but can't because the site is having problems, feel free to e-mail me to tell me what you think of my poem(s). I look forward to hearing from anyone who would be so kind as to review my poems (and stories if I ever write any).
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