Shadowed Mind
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since: 10-16-04, id: 440108, Profile Updated: 03-06-09
country: Australia
Author has written 155 stories for Friendship, Love, Life, Family, Young Adult, Essay, and Song.

jess;; eighteen. first year med student. chronic sufferer of writer's block. french speaker. physics geek. lame to the log base e of thirty seven. often uses math to express the quantity of a certain emotion. or her sarcasm. mostly the latter. and where math fails, she writes poetry. because it's kind of hard to express unrequited lust in terms of math. although, life is rather like a sine graph, and how high you get is dependent on the dilation parallel to the x axis which can be determined by your life experiences...but jess doesn't think she's a nerd. she doesn't study enough. speaks often in the third person. thinks too much for her own good. will tell you not to drown. when you are going to bed. listens to the same song one hundred times on repeat. because listening to a depressing song once just isn't enough. queen of innuendo. insane. wannabe psychiatrist. she thinks. honestly, she has no clue what she wants to do with her life. can have feminist tendencies. believer in God. loves australian football. josh pyke's guitar. toby rand's tambourine. loves singing but can't hold a note. so, instead, she loves her singers. and nice eyes. addictive personality, permanently worried about something. also permanently on guilt trips. because she's very good at that. generally changes her mind thirty seven times. daughter of overprotective parents. happy emo. the jesster. ib graduate. who would've known? loves lyrics more than music. would describe her life with the lyrics to self-conclusion by the spill canvas. is sandra's sexy bitch. solitaire slut. moody cow. has crazy-ass friends. is slowly working on a manuscript. has an addiction to fucked up people. some would call it a magnetic attraction. jess calls it one of two things, depending on how she feels. either an addiction to fucking people up or fucking herself up. normally the former. chocoholic. creative. sketches all the time. when she's not writing. is bringing sexy back. wants to live in paris. in the chateau du versailles. and ride a moped. has spent two nights in paris. seems to always be involved in love triangles, or friendship triangles, or something that requires her to stay up at night worrying because she freaks out that it's her fault. which is a little irrational. coincidentally, that's her middle name. egocentric. self centred. attention whore. loves musicals and acting. writes poetry whenever she's emotional and always starts crying. always. is obsessed with snape and the sex god that is alan rickman. hates showing weakness. hates the fact she has no freedom and parents that refuse to trust her. older sister. terrible sister, worse daughter. loves aladdin. instinctively answers in french. gives objects unoriginal names. such as monsieur vache for her cow wrist pad. actually names and talks to inanimate objects. tends to stare at photos of her friends on her ipod. has a twin. in fact, she has many twins. marvellous at fucking up relationships. questions sincerity by the minute. always needs sleep. hopeless romantic. procrastinator. narcissist. writes when she's emotional. loves hugs and being held. is a sentimental sort of person. pretty sure she thinks too much. believes that eyes are the window to the soul. stubborn. is pretty much insane. has the most amazing friends in the world. is going to be a famous playwright, just you wait. shadowed mind;;

security is the lockless key.
josh pyke, the time i just bought


1. Tomorrow reviews
Ignoring the potential for a relationship in favour of still remaining friends.
Poetry: Love - Rated: K+ - English - Romance/Angst - Chapters: 1 - Words: 98 - Reviews: 1 - Published: 11-4-09 - Complete
2. Meant For Me reviews
Giving up on your dream.
Poetry: Life - Rated: K+ - English - Angst/Poetry - Chapters: 1 - Words: 168 - Reviews: 1 - Published: 3-13-09 - Complete
3. A Promise I Can Keep reviews
Succumbing to the same old habits, because they make it all okay.
Poetry: Life - Rated: M - English - Angst/Poetry - Chapters: 1 - Words: 158 - Reviews: 2 - Published: 3-6-09 - Complete
4. Trains and Colliding Tracks reviews
The demise of a family.
Poetry: Family - Rated: T - English - Angst/Poetry - Chapters: 1 - Words: 170 - Reviews: 1 - Published: 3-6-09 - Complete
5. I'm Sorry Baby
Mocking everyone of his apologies.
Poetry: Love - Rated: T - English - Romance/Angst - Chapters: 1 - Words: 709 - Published: 12-3-08 - Complete
6. No Regret
The realisation that, in a relationship, you took the fall - and it's made you stronger to make those mistakes.
Poetry: Love - Rated: T - English - Romance/Angst - Chapters: 1 - Words: 178 - Published: 12-3-08 - Complete
7. I Never Could
The fear of forgetting someone.
Poetry: Love - Rated: T - English - Romance/Angst - Chapters: 1 - Words: 158 - Published: 12-3-08 - Complete
8. A Million Reasons
A million reasons not to go back to you"
Poetry: Love - Rated: T - English - Romance/Angst - Chapters: 1 - Words: 78 - Published: 12-3-08 - Complete
9. Here our story ends
Acceptance of the end of a relationship.
Poetry: Love - Rated: T - English - Romance/Angst - Chapters: 1 - Words: 70 - Published: 12-3-08 - Complete
10. Free Again reviews
The point after the break up where you realise that you've moved on.
Poetry: Love - Rated: T - English - Romance/Angst - Chapters: 1 - Words: 217 - Reviews: 2 - Published: 12-3-08 - Complete
11. I Considered You reviews
About the aftermath of a break-up, and how though you want to hate him, you can't - the tricks he played on your mind are too long-lasting.
Poetry: Love - Rated: M - English - Angst/Romance - Chapters: 1 - Words: 463 - Reviews: 1 - Published: 9-19-08 - Complete
12. Innocence
He took my innocence with him when he left.
Poetry: Love - Rated: T - English - Angst/Romance - Chapters: 1 - Words: 249 - Published: 9-6-08 - Complete
13. Sexualise Yourself reviews
A cynical view of the need for young girls to be overly sexual in today's society.
Poetry: Love - Rated: M - English - Romance/Angst - Chapters: 1 - Words: 293 - Reviews: 4 - Published: 9-3-08 - Complete
14. On my knees
After a relationship has ended and you've simply been used for sexual gratification.
Poetry: Love - Rated: M - English - Romance/Angst - Chapters: 1 - Words: 271 - Published: 9-3-08 - Complete
15. I can't love what you've done reviews
Possibly the most painful to write poem that I've ever had to do. Just a relationship with someone close to me, I guess.
Poetry: Family - Rated: T - English - Angst/Hurt/Comfort - Chapters: 1 - Words: 370 - Reviews: 1 - Published: 7-29-08 - Complete
16. What a joke
Being in a relationship with someone who knows how to exploit your inexperience for their own gain.
Poetry: Love - Rated: M - English - Angst/Tragedy - Chapters: 1 - Words: 614 - Published: 7-19-08 - Complete
17. Would you be so kind? reviews
An addiction to a destructive relationship. "Would you be so kind, would you hurt me/ As I'm forbidden to hurt myself?"
Poetry: Life - Rated: M - English - Angst - Chapters: 1 - Words: 269 - Reviews: 1 - Published: 7-19-08 - Complete
18. This is goodbye reviews
First breakup. Well, I think it is. And this is how it feels.
Poetry: Love - Rated: T - English - Angst/Poetry - Chapters: 1 - Words: 428 - Reviews: 3 - Published: 7-10-08 - Complete
19. Carrawayesque
This poem came from a debate about whether the intervention into Indigenous communities was right or wrong, and it was all very much like Nick Carraway's desire for the world to be at "moral attention". Quotes and characters belong to F. Scott Fitzgerald.
Poetry: Love - Rated: K+ - English - Drama/Romance - Chapters: 1 - Words: 196 - Published: 7-9-08 - Complete
20. Gentle irony reviews
If it weren't for you, temptation wouldn't cry. But if it weren't for you, I wouldn't be able to resist it either.
Poetry: Life - Rated: T - English - Romance/Angst - Chapters: 1 - Words: 211 - Reviews: 1 - Published: 7-6-08 - Complete
21. Even Better Without You
I'll survive better without you then in this relationship where you refuse to trust me.
Poetry: Love - Rated: K+ - English - Romance/Angst - Chapters: 1 - Words: 140 - Published: 7-1-08 - Complete
22. My favourite mindaltering drug
When you realise that you need someone beyond their duty.
Poetry: Love - Rated: K+ - English - Angst/Romance - Chapters: 1 - Words: 519 - Published: 6-21-08 - Complete
23. Both of us
It's not me, it's not you, it's the both of us.
Poetry: Love - Rated: K+ - English - Romance/Angst - Chapters: 1 - Words: 347 - Published: 6-20-08 - Complete
24. No Exception reviews
All good things come to an end, and this is no exception.
Poetry: Love - Rated: K+ - English - Romance/Angst - Chapters: 1 - Words: 224 - Reviews: 1 - Published: 6-8-08 - Complete
25. I Miss You
I'm in love with our memories
Poetry: Love - Rated: K+ - English - Romance/Angst - Chapters: 1 - Words: 411 - Published: 6-7-08 - Complete
26. Loves You Too
You'll keep all of it just to hear him say he loves you too.
Poetry: Love - Rated: K - English - Romance/Poetry - Chapters: 1 - Words: 347 - Published: 6-7-08 - Complete
27. What You Mean To Me
I just want you to know what you mean to me.
Poetry: Love - Rated: K - English - Romance/Poetry - Chapters: 1 - Words: 171 - Published: 6-7-08 - Complete
28. Everything
We could be/Everything
Poetry: Love - Rated: K+ - English - Angst/Romance - Chapters: 1 - Words: 551 - Published: 5-31-08 - Complete
29. Anything, Everything reviews
When you slowly realise that you and your significant other aren't meant to be.
Poetry: Love - Rated: K+ - English - Angst/Romance - Chapters: 1 - Words: 358 - Reviews: 1 - Published: 5-30-08 - Complete
30. Just to let you know reviews
Just to let you know that you make me happy. For it's for is quite obvious.
Poetry: Love - Rated: K+ - English - Romance/Friendship - Chapters: 1 - Words: 500 - Reviews: 1 - Published: 5-10-08 - Complete
31. Never Told You
All the things I'll learn to tell you, if you learn to tell me too.
Poetry: Love - Rated: K+ - English - Romance/Angst - Chapters: 1 - Words: 477 - Published: 4-25-08 - Complete
32. Lessons Learned in Hating You reviews
I taught myself to hate you / For the fear of loving you"
Poetry: Love - Rated: K+ - English - Romance/Angst - Chapters: 1 - Words: 359 - Reviews: 1 - Published: 4-25-08 - Complete
33. Simple phone malfunction
Who knew that a simple phone malfunction could be/ Representative of the end of something that used to be beautiful, our/ Relationship.
Poetry: Love - Rated: T - English - Angst/Romance - Chapters: 1 - Words: 465 - Published: 3-27-08 - Complete
34. Block of chocolate
My block of chocolate is finished/And darling, so are we."
Poetry: Love - Rated: M - English - Angst/Romance - Chapters: 1 - Words: 171 - Published: 3-27-08 - Complete
35. Scares me reviews
because the thought of being without you/Scares me."
Poetry: Love - Rated: T - English - Angst/Romance - Chapters: 1 - Words: 451 - Reviews: 1 - Published: 3-27-08 - Complete
36. Not an obligation reviews
Confusion in a relationship. No other way to describe it, really.
Poetry: Love - Rated: T - English - Angst/Romance - Chapters: 1 - Words: 799 - Reviews: 1 - Published: 3-27-08 - Complete
37. Come With Time
The need to slow things down emotionally with someone simply because you're not ready to commit yourself to that extent.
Poetry: Love - Rated: T - English - Romance/Angst - Chapters: 1 - Words: 398 - Published: 3-23-08 - Complete
38. Something More
When you have a relationship with someone that seems purely physical, and then they decide that they won't an emotional connection and anger gets involved.
Poetry: Love - Rated: T - English - Romance/Angst - Chapters: 1 - Words: 183 - Published: 3-23-08 - Complete
39. Confusion
This is what happens when you start a poem and finish it while arguing with someone. About determining whether something is worth the feelings of confusion that seem to follow it everywhere.
Poetry: Love - Rated: T - English - Romance/Angst - Chapters: 1 - Words: 358 - Published: 3-23-08 - Complete
40. As Happy As You Make Me
A rambly love-esque poem. I think that's the only way to describe it.
Poetry: Love - Rated: T - English - Angst/Romance - Chapters: 1 - Words: 345 - Published: 3-22-08 - Complete
41. Sonnet II reviews
A sonnet-style poem about how looks aren't everything. In fact, they're temporary and one day you'll come to regret the vacuous stare. One of my first sonnets, *constructive* criticism would be appreciated.
Poetry: Life - Rated: M - English - Poetry/Angst - Chapters: 1 - Words: 173 - Reviews: 1 - Published: 3-5-08 - Complete
42. Sonnet III reviews
Part of my latest project. About letting someone go because you've idealised them until they're not real anymore. *Constructive* criticism would be much appreciated.
Poetry: Love - Rated: T - English - Angst/Romance - Chapters: 1 - Words: 186 - Reviews: 1 - Published: 3-5-08 - Complete
43. Reply reviews
When someone refuses to trust you, no matter what you do.
Poetry: Love - Rated: T - English - Angst/Romance - Chapters: 1 - Words: 461 - Reviews: 2 - Published: 2-28-08 - Complete
44. Anything but this
Anything but this - lies and deception and general questioning of what should be done to sustain a relationship, and to what extent denial is justified.
Poetry: Love - Rated: T - English - Angst/Romance - Chapters: 1 - Words: 675 - Published: 2-23-08 - Complete
45. Never Find Out
Hiding, is it possible for the greater good? And you'll probably read this and take it all the wrong way. But maybe I'm just incapable of writing optimistic poems.
Poetry: Love - Rated: T - English - Romance/Angst - Chapters: 1 - Words: 407 - Published: 2-17-08 - Complete
46. Afraid
The fear of changing but the willingness to do so for someone. After all, it's the least I can do.
Poetry: Love - Rated: T - English - Romance/Parody - Chapters: 1 - Words: 540 - Published: 2-16-08 - Complete
47. That Will Never Keep It reviews
Wanting to be someone else because you're convinced that being yourself will never satisfy the person that you're with.
Poetry: Love - Rated: K+ - English - Angst/Romance - Chapters: 1 - Words: 177 - Reviews: 1 - Published: 2-13-08 - Complete
48. I care about you reviews
When you feel like you're not good enough for the person who cares about you.
Poetry: Love - Rated: K+ - English - Angst/Romance - Chapters: 1 - Words: 244 - Reviews: 1 - Published: 2-13-08 - Complete
49. The Flood
The confusion that seems to follow you the moment a relationship starts.
Poetry: Love - Rated: M - English - Angst/Romance - Chapters: 1 - Words: 516 - Published: 2-13-08 - Complete
50. Destination Heartbreak reviews
The path of love, of a relationship, and where it ultimately leads for all travellers.
Poetry: Love - Rated: K+ - English - Romance/Angst - Chapters: 1 - Words: 396 - Reviews: 2 - Published: 11-25-07 - Complete
51. Too Good For Me reviews
The end of a relationship before it even started, when your friends tell you that he was too good for you, but the reality is, in the afteramth of it all, he was better than you deserved.
Poetry: Love - Rated: T - English - Romance/Angst - Chapters: 1 - Words: 282 - Reviews: 1 - Published: 11-25-07 - Complete
52. Who You Really Are reviews
Surrendering your heart to someon with the hopes that they look after it.
Poetry: Love - Rated: K+ - English - Romance/Angst - Chapters: 1 - Words: 299 - Reviews: 1 - Published: 11-25-07 - Complete
53. Paper Doll Revised
A revised version of my first love poem, sans the swearing. Unrequited love.
Poetry: Love - Rated: K+ - English - Poetry/Romance - Chapters: 1 - Words: 312 - Published: 11-17-07 - Complete
54. Paper Doll reviews
My first love poem. Unrequited love, and when that line between friendship and a relationship becomes blurred.
Poetry: Love - Rated: T - English - Poetry/Romance - Chapters: 1 - Words: 310 - Reviews: 4 - Published: 11-17-07 - Complete
55. Skin As Paper
The need to communicate the emotion within you before it destroys you.
Poetry: Life - Rated: T - English - Poetry/Angst - Chapters: 1 - Words: 195 - Published: 11-17-07 - Complete
56. The Goddamn Girl Next Door reviews
Typical girl next door poem with a dash of angst. Not my usual style, and contains structural experiments.
Poetry: Love - Rated: T - English - Romance/Angst - Chapters: 1 - Words: 242 - Reviews: 1 - Published: 11-16-07 - Complete
57. Daddy's Little Girl reviews
Child abuse. R&R, please.
Poetry: Family - Rated: T - English - Poetry/Tragedy - Chapters: 1 - Words: 273 - Reviews: 1 - Published: 11-15-07 - Complete
58. StandOffs & Tears reviews
A vindictive poem about the fake solution to a fight, and how the narrator won't forgive even though they've said they will.
Poetry: Friendship - Rated: T - English - Angst/Poetry - Chapters: 1 - Words: 160 - Reviews: 1 - Published: 6-23-07 - Complete
59. The Sweetest Agony reviews
My first poem in a while, so I'm a little rusty. Anorexiacutting the control it has over someone's life.
Poetry: Life - Rated: T - English - Poetry/Angst - Chapters: 1 - Words: 234 - Reviews: 2 - Published: 6-23-07 - Complete
60. The Back Alleyways of Melbourne reviews
A girl suffering from a heroin addiction and homelessness NB:Melbourne is a city in Australia
Poetry: Life - Rated: T - English - Poetry/Angst - Chapters: 1 - Words: 235 - Reviews: 3 - Published: 12-9-05
61. Whatever way you want reviews
Interpret my words in whatever way you want...
Poetry: Life - Rated: T - English - Poetry/Angst - Chapters: 1 - Words: 218 - Reviews: 2 - Published: 12-9-05
62. Freedom reviews
About contemplating suicide and what I think it's like to be anorexic/cutting/suicidal. My opinion anyway.
Poetry: Life - Rated: T - English - Angst/Poetry - Chapters: 1 - Words: 178 - Reviews: 7 - Published: 11-23-05
63. My Shadowed Mind reviews
An exploration of what a shadowed mind is. Not up itself as it may seem, just felt like writing something on the topic
Poetry: Life - Rated: T - English - Poetry/Angst - Chapters: 1 - Words: 131 - Reviews: 3 - Published: 11-11-05
64. I'll never be what you want reviews
Ok, so I was a little angry when I wrote this, but it came out nicely in the end. About betrayal and the revealing of your past
Poetry: Life - Rated: T - English - Poetry/Angst - Chapters: 1 - Words: 164 - Reviews: 4 - Published: 11-11-05
65. The fucked up child of society reviews
A bunch of my random thoughts. It might not make much sense, but I like the rhythm of it. A cynical view of society.
Poetry: Life - Rated: T - English - Poetry/Angst - Chapters: 1 - Words: 155 - Reviews: 10 - Published: 11-4-05
66. Fake reviews
Everything is fake. Most of this poem doesn't make sense, and it is far from my best.
Poetry: Life - Rated: T - English - Angst/Poetry - Chapters: 1 - Words: 175 - Reviews: 12 - Published: 10-20-05
67. I'm not okay reviews
I'm not okay, I'm not fine...I couldn't think of a better description. Self harm, eating disorders, and the lies around them.
Poetry: Life - Rated: T - English - Angst/Poetry - Chapters: 1 - Words: 150 - Reviews: 7 - Published: 10-1-05
68. Nowhere to run reviews
Falling, with nowhere to run
Poetry: Life - Rated: T - English - Angst/Poetry - Chapters: 1 - Words: 80 - Reviews: 5 - Published: 10-1-05
69. Screaming through the night reviews
Screaming through the night, until the blood stops flowing
Poetry: Life - Rated: T - English - Angst/Poetry - Chapters: 1 - Words: 103 - Reviews: 4 - Published: 10-1-05
70. Tell me, don't lie reviews
About a friendship breaking down, and questioning why the truth was hidden
Poetry: Life - Rated: T - English - Angst/Poetry - Chapters: 1 - Words: 186 - Reviews: 3 - Published: 10-1-05
71. Depression is reviews
Similes and metaphors about what depression is to me
Poetry: Life - Rated: T - English - Angst/Poetry - Chapters: 1 - Words: 137 - Reviews: 4 - Published: 10-1-05
72. Starved to death reviews
Don't you hear my pleas? About watching someone with anorexia kill themselves by not eating
Poetry: Life - Rated: T - English - Angst/Poetry - Chapters: 1 - Words: 187 - Reviews: 1 - Published: 10-1-05
73. Refusal of Care reviews
I'm refusing all your care, don't want your help
Poetry: Life - Rated: T - English - Angst/Poetry - Chapters: 1 - Words: 147 - Reviews: 2 - Published: 10-1-05
74. The Price for Knowing You reviews
Wanting you to make me suffer, pay the price for knowing you
Poetry: Life - Rated: T - English - Angst/Poetry - Chapters: 1 - Words: 143 - Reviews: 3 - Published: 9-17-05
75. Refusing to move on reviews
Stuck in the same surroundings, I'm refusing to move on
Poetry: Life - Rated: T - English - Angst/Poetry - Chapters: 1 - Words: 66 - Reviews: 7 - Published: 9-16-05
76. Again reviews
And we'll never be together, again.
Poetry: Love - Rated: T - English - Poetry/Tragedy - Chapters: 1 - Words: 180 - Reviews: 4 - Published: 9-16-05
77. Hurt me reviews
Hurt me, Punish me, Kill me
Poetry: Life - Rated: T - English - Angst/Poetry - Chapters: 1 - Words: 96 - Reviews: 10 - Published: 9-11-05
78. Free Of His Legacy reviews
A bit darker than most of my short stories. Forced ending, as it was an assignment and all. A story of a girl through the psychiatrist's eyes.
Fiction: Young Adult - Rated: T - English - Angst/Drama - Chapters: 1 - Words: 1,648 - Reviews: 5 - Published: 9-4-05
79. What I wanted reviews
I'm not sure of what I wanted, but it couldn't have been this life
Poetry: Life - Rated: T - English - Poetry/Angst - Chapters: 1 - Words: 243 - Reviews: 5 - Published: 8-21-05
80. Believe In Fantasy reviews
So hard to believe in fantasy...
Poetry: Life - Rated: T - English - Poetry/Angst - Chapters: 1 - Words: 173 - Reviews: 2 - Published: 8-16-05
81. Don't Want To Hurt You reviews
Not one of my better poems. about cutting and how it affects those who care.
Poetry: Life - Rated: T - English - Poetry/Angst - Chapters: 1 - Words: 203 - Reviews: 6 - Published: 7-4-05
82. That Girl reviews
That girl in the mirror, when did i become her?
Poetry: Life - Rated: T - English - Angst/Poetry - Chapters: 1 - Words: 114 - Reviews: 8 - Published: 7-4-05
83. Giving Up Tonight reviews
When you refuse to survive the power of the blade.
Poetry: Life - Rated: T - English - Angst/Poetry - Chapters: 1 - Words: 192 - Reviews: 2 - Published: 7-4-05
84. Eternal Freedom reviews
A more positive poem, saying you can survive, you can have eternal freedom
Poetry: Life - Rated: T - English - Angst/Poetry - Chapters: 1 - Words: 54 - Reviews: 2 - Published: 7-4-05
85. Thin Like You reviews
About a girl who starves herself and why, what it feels like, and what she forces herself to endure.
Poetry: Life - Rated: T - English - Poetry/Angst - Chapters: 1 - Words: 150 - Reviews: 4 - Published: 7-4-05
86. Drowning In Temptation reviews
How temptation is like a river, in which you drift away further from sanity
Poetry: Life - Rated: T - English - Angst/Poetry - Chapters: 1 - Words: 137 - Reviews: 2 - Published: 7-4-05
87. The Pain I Caused reviews
Why I would never kill myself, no matter how hard life is. Looking back on those you left behind, filled with regret.
Poetry: Life - Rated: T - English - Angst/Poetry - Chapters: 1 - Words: 182 - Reviews: 2 - Published: 7-4-05
88. Marche Partis reviews
C'est ma première poésie en français, m'a laissé savent ce que vous pensez svp. La grammaire suce probablement, désolé
Poetry: Life - Rated: T - French - Angst/Poetry - Chapters: 1 - Words: 87 - Reviews: 2 - Published: 7-4-05
89. The Hell I'm experiencing reviews
Looking back and wondering, is this what it was like for my predecessors
Poetry: Life - Rated: T - English - Angst/Poetry - Chapters: 1 - Words: 172 - Reviews: 3 - Published: 6-14-05
90. Pretending to Be reviews
About hiding who you really are, disguising that emotion
Poetry: Life - Rated: T - English - Angst/Poetry - Chapters: 1 - Words: 134 - Reviews: 5 - Published: 6-14-05
91. Lying to myself reviews
If you repeat it often enough, maybe you'll convince yourself
Poetry: Life - Rated: T - English - Angst/Poetry - Chapters: 1 - Words: 168 - Reviews: 8 - Published: 5-31-05
92. My footprints reviews
About how wishing you were erased from life itself
Poetry: Life - Rated: T - English - Poetry/Angst - Chapters: 1 - Words: 151 - Reviews: 4 - Published: 5-31-05
93. My Best Friend, A Cutter reviews
About when you learn your best friend has a horrible secret...
Poetry: Life - Rated: T - English - Poetry/Angst - Chapters: 1 - Words: 327 - Reviews: 9 - Published: 5-31-05
94. Blind reviews
When you choose to be blind and in denial about people's problems
Poetry: Life - Rated: M - English - Angst/Poetry - Chapters: 1 - Words: 142 - Reviews: 3 - Published: 4-23-05
95. A Victim Of Depression reviews
The parents left behind...
Poetry: Life - Rated: T - English - Angst/Poetry - Chapters: 1 - Words: 201 - Reviews: 4 - Published: 4-23-05
96. Too Afraid To Say Anything reviews
No secrets should ever be kept...
Poetry: Life - Rated: T - English - Angst/Poetry - Chapters: 1 - Words: 158 - Reviews: 3 - Published: 3-22-05
97. Elation Never Last reviews
There's always someone who wants to bring you down...
Poetry: Life - Rated: T - English - Angst/Poetry - Chapters: 1 - Words: 117 - Reviews: 1 - Published: 3-22-05
98. Slow News Day reviews
GIve up on me, like i did with hope...
Poetry: Life - Rated: T - English - Angst/Poetry - Chapters: 1 - Words: 102 - Reviews: 2 - Published: 3-22-05
99. Destroyed reviews
I'm sorry for destroying your life...
Poetry: Life - Rated: T - English - Angst/Poetry - Chapters: 1 - Words: 168 - Reviews: 3 - Published: 3-22-05
100. Memory reviews
Let me fade from your memory...
Poetry: Life - Rated: T - English - Angst/Poetry - Chapters: 1 - Words: 168 - Reviews: 4 - Published: 3-21-05
101. Biting My Nails reviews
On the edge of giving in, trying to find something to replace that feeling
Poetry: Life - Rated: T - English - Angst/Poetry - Chapters: 1 - Words: 154 - Reviews: 2 - Published: 3-21-05
102. Rescuing Me From Me reviews
For a very, very special friend who i just want to thank...she's done so much for me...THANK YOU! Anyways, this is about how someone has saved you for self destructing
Poetry: Life - Rated: K - English - Angst/Poetry - Chapters: 1 - Words: 175 - Reviews: 5 - Published: 1-28-05
103. Priorities reviews
When you've slipped off someone's list of priorities when you need them most, you're going through the most challenging period in your life
Poetry: Life - Rated: K+ - English - Angst/Poetry - Chapters: 1 - Words: 243 - Reviews: 2 - Published: 1-28-05
104. Falling Apart reviews
My first attempt at a song. 'I tried to be what you wanted..." Please R&R
Poetry: Song - Rated: K+ - English - Angst - Chapters: 1 - Words: 259 - Reviews: 4 - Published: 1-23-05
105. Fourteen reviews
About how there are no age requirements in life, one can be depressed and hurt no matter what age they are
Poetry: Life - Rated: T - English - Angst/Poetry - Chapters: 1 - Words: 105 - Reviews: 6 - Published: 1-22-05
106. I Hate Myself reviews
When you believe that it's your fault her life turned out this way, and you hate the person you see in the mirror so much because of it
Poetry: Life - Rated: T - English - Angst/Poetry - Chapters: 1 - Words: 210 - Reviews: 7 - Published: 1-22-05
107. Without You reviews
About how when your life hangs in the balance of another's choice between life and death, when you need someone so much that you beg them to stay on Earth
Poetry: Life - Rated: T - English - Angst/Poetry - Chapters: 1 - Words: 155 - Reviews: 4 - Published: 1-22-05
108. Too Busy To Notice reviews
About how depression can take your life, but while you live, it makes you blind and deaf to others, especially those you love, who we all take for granted
Poetry: Life - Rated: T - English - Angst/Poetry - Chapters: 1 - Words: 153 - Reviews: 5 - Published: 1-22-05
109. I Used To reviews
About how depression changes everything, takes away everything you once loved
Poetry: Life - Rated: T - English - Angst/Poetry - Chapters: 1 - Words: 197 - Reviews: 2 - Published: 1-21-05
110. Recovering Self Harmer reviews
About how you can never truly beat self harming
Poetry: Life - Rated: T - English - Angst/Poetry - Chapters: 1 - Words: 167 - Reviews: 9 - Published: 1-21-05
111. So Called Black Hole reviews
A cynical view on society
Poetry: Life - Rated: T - English - Poetry/Angst - Chapters: 1 - Words: 181 - Reviews: 4 - Published: 1-21-05
112. Let The Battle Begin reviews
I like this, i think it has a bit of a poetic feel to it. written when i had convinced myself i could get through this, which i can't. very optimistic
Fiction: Young Adult - Rated: K+ - English - Poetry/Angst - Chapters: 1 - Words: 204 - Reviews: 1 - Published: 1-12-05
113. This is me reviews
A note i wrote on an up day. I like the way it turned out, like i could accept myself for who i am, without caring what others thought. Pity that didn't last
Fiction: Essay - Rated: T - English - Angst/Poetry - Chapters: 1 - Words: 81 - Reviews: 2 - Published: 1-12-05
114. Killing Myself by Loving You reviews
About when a friend's actions not only affect her, but you as well, and you just don't understand, much less know what to do
Poetry: Life - Rated: T - English - Angst/Poetry - Chapters: 1 - Words: 152 - Reviews: 2 - Published: 1-12-05
115. Letters » reviews
Letters written to those who have impacted my life, for better or worse, wriiten to get some of the emotion i feel off my chest...
Fiction: Young Adult - Rated: T - English - Angst/Angst - Chapters: 11 - Words: 2,898 - Reviews: 12 - Updated: 12-30-04 - Published: 12-16-04
116. The story of my life reviews
About how every scar tells a tale, a new chapter in the story of my life
Poetry: Life - Rated: T - English - Angst/Poetry - Chapters: 1 - Words: 142 - Reviews: 2 - Published: 12-30-04
117. Artistic Destruction reviews
a poem from the cutter's view of a razor. better than some of my other work.
Poetry: Life - Rated: T - English - Angst/Poetry - Chapters: 1 - Words: 156 - Reviews: 3 - Published: 12-29-04
118. Supposed to be Perfect » reviews
A combination of fiction and journal entries focusing on the life of a cutter. I don't care what you think, I'm writing this purely for my own reasons, as selfish as that is...
Fiction: Young Adult - Rated: T - English - Angst/Angst - Chapters: 5 - Words: 4,844 - Reviews: 13 - Updated: 12-18-04 - Published: 12-13-04
119. I can do this reviews
One of my more positive poems. I can do this...no i can't...i will, just promise me you'll be ok...about trying to stop in order to make someone ok. staying safe for the sake of someone else...
Poetry: Life - Rated: K+ - English - Angst/Poetry - Chapters: 1 - Words: 168 - Reviews: 3 - Published: 12-17-04
120. I don't hate you reviews
For a friend. I don't know what happened, i just decided to write what was going on inside my head. 'I hate how...' Let me know how i can improve this
Poetry: Life - Rated: K+ - English - Angst/Poetry - Chapters: 1 - Words: 242 - Reviews: 4 - Published: 12-17-04
121. I'm the one reviews
About blaming yourself for another's problems, and then realising its completely true. I'm the one/behind your suicide attempts...
Poetry: Life - Rated: T - English - Angst/Poetry - Chapters: 1 - Words: 144 - Reviews: 3 - Published: 12-9-04
122. These walls reviews
When you realise you need help, but the rules you've set, the walls you've built stop you from doing so...
Poetry: Life - Rated: T - English - Poetry/Angst - Chapters: 1 - Words: 173 - Reviews: 4 - Published: 12-8-04
123. Eternal Sleep reviews
Suicidal poem from earlier this year. Never fear, its not autobiographical, obviously, coz i'm still here...i think i am at least...Anyways, tell me what you think
Poetry: Life - Rated: T - English - Angst/Poetry - Chapters: 1 - Words: 119 - Reviews: 3 - Published: 12-8-04
124. Sorry that reviews
Another apologetic poem. Apologising for all my faults. rated for a little language and references to suicide and cutting. I'm sorry/That i'm the person i am...
Poetry: Life - Rated: T - English - Angst/Poetry - Chapters: 1 - Words: 295 - Reviews: 6 - Published: 12-8-04
125. True to herself reviews
exploring a relationship between myself and a friend, who i've messed around a lot. Starts off with anger and eventually attempts to understand why she's this way now.
Poetry: Life - Rated: T - English - Angst/Poetry - Chapters: 1 - Words: 222 - Reviews: 1 - Published: 12-8-04
126. I'm Sorry reviews
Written for a friend, after i realised how i had ruined everything by letting her in.
Poetry: Life - Rated: T - English - Angst/Poetry - Chapters: 1 - Words: 136 - Reviews: 2 - Published: 12-8-04
127. A pocket knife lay by my bed reviews
I know i said i wouldn't, that i was through with it, but i need it to survive...
Poetry: Life - Rated: T - English - Angst/Poetry - Chapters: 1 - Words: 177 - Reviews: 4 - Published: 12-8-04
128. Wasted Tears reviews
A reflection on my past, from the beginning of this year onwards. I've stopped, looking at what a waste some of what i did was...
Poetry: Life - Rated: T - English - Poetry/Angst - Chapters: 1 - Words: 40 - Reviews: 3 - Published: 12-4-04
129. One moment reviews
One moment, one memory, one picture, you'll never forget, the scars, the pain, the suffering
Poetry: Life - Rated: T - English - Poetry/Angst - Chapters: 1 - Words: 161 - Reviews: 2 - Published: 12-3-04
130. Am I? reviews
My insecurities, my worries, my fears, questioning the past, present, and future...
Poetry: Life - Rated: T - English - Poetry/Angst - Chapters: 1 - Words: 129 - Reviews: 2 - Published: 12-3-04
131. Give me a reason reviews
In atime of need, a time of despair, she asks for a reason, a reason to go on...
Poetry: Life - Rated: K+ - English - Angst/Poetry - Chapters: 1 - Words: 134 - Reviews: 4 - Published: 12-1-04
132. Useless reviews
Looking back on days gone by, thinking maybe, wondering why she left, but deep down knowing its all my fault, because i was so useless
Poetry: Life - Rated: T - English - Poetry/Angst - Chapters: 1 - Words: 293 - Reviews: 1 - Published: 11-30-04
133. Anymore reviews
When your actions hurt someone, yet you can't stop cutting, you beg for them to leave you, and set themselves free...
Poetry: Life - Rated: T - English - Angst/Poetry - Chapters: 1 - Words: 124 - Reviews: 4 - Published: 11-27-04
134. Tell me reviews
A poem reflecting my insecurities, my paranoia. "Tell me I'm not worth the trouble and you're giving up on me..."
Poetry: Life - Rated: T - English - Angst/Poetry - Chapters: 1 - Words: 189 - Reviews: 2 - Published: 11-27-04
135. Stolen reviews
Constant visions of your face haunt all that remains of my fragile broken mind
Poetry: Life - Rated: K+ - English - Angst/Poetry - Chapters: 1 - Words: 93 - Reviews: 1 - Published: 11-26-04
136. Preparing to be Freed
Each seeks solace in different ways, each seeks freedom differently, sometimes for the good, sometimes for the bad, sometimes in a blade
Poetry: Life - Rated: T - English - Angst/Poetry - Chapters: 1 - Words: 155 - Published: 11-26-04
137. Never Good Enough For You reviews
Desperate for attention that she needs, yet never receives, crying for help, stuck in a competition she doesn't want...
Poetry: Life - Rated: K+ - English - Angst/Poetry - Chapters: 1 - Words: 142 - Reviews: 1 - Published: 11-26-04
138. That is my death reviews
Giving up/Giving in/I can't take this no more...
Poetry: Life - Rated: T - English - Angst/Poetry - Chapters: 1 - Words: 88 - Reviews: 1 - Published: 11-6-04
139. Into your arms reviews
When you refuse to let someone inside your mind, because you're so afraid of the consequences
Poetry: Life - Rated: T - English - Angst/Poetry - Chapters: 1 - Words: 147 - Reviews: 1 - Published: 11-6-04
140. Stalked
Homesickness and unrequited love dominate young Jane Dunn's day. Read her tale as she endures one day in her average American teenage life.
Fiction: Young Adult - Rated: T - English - Angst/Romance - Chapters: 1 - Words: 2,102 - Published: 11-5-04
141. History Repeats Itself reviews
Another poem about cutting. What a surprise. Anyways, it's a different style, or kind of. Tell me what you think
Poetry: Life - Rated: T - English - Poetry/Angst - Chapters: 1 - Words: 77 - Reviews: 1 - Published: 11-5-04
142. How I'll Stay reviews
A short poem about blaming yourself for problems you didnt cause
Poetry: Life - Rated: K+ - English - Poetry/Angst - Chapters: 1 - Words: 36 - Reviews: 1 - Published: 11-1-04
143. Happier Times reviews
Reflecting on those precious memories, holding on to them tight, and though i shiver with fear, they always bring a smile to my face.
Poetry: Friendship - Rated: K+ - English - Angst/Poetry - Chapters: 1 - Words: 103 - Reviews: 1 - Published: 11-1-04
144. All Because Of You reviews
Looking back on the past, why i live this way, and its all her fault.
Poetry: Friendship - Rated: K+ - English - Poetry/Angst - Chapters: 1 - Words: 132 - Reviews: 1 - Published: 11-1-04
145. Never Trust Again reviews
A terrible poem based on stuff that happened in 2003
Poetry: Friendship - Rated: T - English - Angst/Poetry - Chapters: 1 - Words: 156 - Reviews: 3 - Published: 10-23-04
146. In my scars reviews
The title says it all, different ways of coping with anger and the feeling of being lost
Poetry: Life - Rated: T - English - Angst/Poetry - Chapters: 1 - Words: 63 - Reviews: 7 - Published: 10-20-04
147. What are we doing here? reviews
Looks at the world through the eyes of someone committing suicide. Not my best work
Poetry: Life - Rated: T - English - Poetry/Angst - Chapters: 1 - Words: 84 - Reviews: 1 - Published: 10-17-04
148. Solace in the knife reviews
Poetry: Friendship - Rated: T - English - Poetry/Angst - Chapters: 1 - Words: 183 - Reviews: 7 - Published: 10-16-04
149. Cuts reviews
Poetry: Friendship - Rated: T - English - Angst/Poetry - Chapters: 1 - Words: 113 - Reviews: 8 - Published: 10-16-04
150. The Man I Call Dad reviews
Looks at divorce and abuse through the eyes of a child, their feelings that can be so often neglected
Poetry: Family - Rated: K+ - English - Poetry - Chapters: 1 - Words: 137 - Reviews: 1 - Published: 10-16-04
151. Hunted reviews
An interesting tale, a tale of someone being chased and murdered. But the end will leave you surprised, i hope.
Poetry: Life - Rated: T - English - Angst - Chapters: 1 - Words: 72 - Reviews: 4 - Published: 10-16-04
152. The Rape reviews
A two sided poem which looks at the perspective of the victim and the rapist. Not suitable for the weak hearted, this is sad.
Poetry: Love - Rated: T - English - Tragedy - Chapters: 1 - Words: 245 - Reviews: 9 - Published: 10-16-04
153. They Think reviews
A poem about what 'they think' and who someone really is, the horrible secrets she hides
Poetry: Friendship - Rated: T - English - Poetry/Angst - Chapters: 1 - Words: 233 - Reviews: 1 - Published: 10-16-04
154. Not Good Enough reviews
A tale of a girl, asking why someone doesn't love her, giving all the possible reasons.
Poetry: Love - Rated: K+ - English - Poetry - Chapters: 1 - Words: 93 - Reviews: 2 - Published: 10-16-04
155. Praying For Your Spirit reviews
About the loss of someone close to you, and the process of saying goodbye
Poetry: Friendship - Rated: K+ - English - Poetry - Chapters: 1 - Words: 187 - Reviews: 3 - Published: 10-16-04