| Shadowed Mind |
Author has written 155 stories for Friendship, Love, Life, Family, Young Adult, Essay, and Song. jess;; eighteen. first year med student. chronic sufferer of writer's block. french speaker. physics geek. lame to the log base e of thirty seven. often uses math to express the quantity of a certain emotion. or her sarcasm. mostly the latter. and where math fails, she writes poetry. because it's kind of hard to express unrequited lust in terms of math. although, life is rather like a sine graph, and how high you get is dependent on the dilation parallel to the x axis which can be determined by your life experiences...but jess doesn't think she's a nerd. she doesn't study enough. speaks often in the third person. thinks too much for her own good. will tell you not to drown. when you are going to bed. listens to the same song one hundred times on repeat. because listening to a depressing song once just isn't enough. queen of innuendo. insane. wannabe psychiatrist. she thinks. honestly, she has no clue what she wants to do with her life. can have feminist tendencies. believer in God. loves australian football. josh pyke's guitar. toby rand's tambourine. loves singing but can't hold a note. so, instead, she loves her singers. and nice eyes. addictive personality, permanently worried about something. also permanently on guilt trips. because she's very good at that. generally changes her mind thirty seven times. daughter of overprotective parents. happy emo. the jesster. ib graduate. who would've known? loves lyrics more than music. would describe her life with the lyrics to self-conclusion by the spill canvas. is sandra's sexy bitch. solitaire slut. moody cow. has crazy-ass friends. is slowly working on a manuscript. has an addiction to fucked up people. some would call it a magnetic attraction. jess calls it one of two things, depending on how she feels. either an addiction to fucking people up or fucking herself up. normally the former. chocoholic. creative. sketches all the time. when she's not writing. is bringing sexy back. wants to live in paris. in the chateau du versailles. and ride a moped. has spent two nights in paris. seems to always be involved in love triangles, or friendship triangles, or something that requires her to stay up at night worrying because she freaks out that it's her fault. which is a little irrational. coincidentally, that's her middle name. egocentric. self centred. attention whore. loves musicals and acting. writes poetry whenever she's emotional and always starts crying. always. is obsessed with snape and the sex god that is alan rickman. hates showing weakness. hates the fact she has no freedom and parents that refuse to trust her. older sister. terrible sister, worse daughter. loves aladdin. instinctively answers in french. gives objects unoriginal names. such as monsieur vache for her cow wrist pad. actually names and talks to inanimate objects. tends to stare at photos of her friends on her ipod. has a twin. in fact, she has many twins. marvellous at fucking up relationships. questions sincerity by the minute. always needs sleep. hopeless romantic. procrastinator. narcissist. writes when she's emotional. loves hugs and being held. is a sentimental sort of person. pretty sure she thinks too much. believes that eyes are the window to the soul. stubborn. is pretty much insane. has the most amazing friends in the world. is going to be a famous playwright, just you wait. shadowed mind;; security is the lockless key. | |||||||
1. Tomorrow reviewsIgnoring the potential for a relationship in favour of still remaining friends.Poetry: Love - Rated: K+ - English - Romance/Angst - Chapters: 1 - Words: 98 - Reviews: 1 - Published: 11-4-09 - Complete2. Meant For Me reviewsGiving up on your dream.Poetry: Life - Rated: K+ - English - Angst/Poetry - Chapters: 1 - Words: 168 - Reviews: 1 - Published: 3-13-09 - Complete3. A Promise I Can Keep reviewsSuccumbing to the same old habits, because they make it all okay.Poetry: Life - Rated: M - English - Angst/Poetry - Chapters: 1 - Words: 158 - Reviews: 2 - Published: 3-6-09 - Complete4. Trains and Colliding Tracks reviewsThe demise of a family.Poetry: Family - Rated: T - English - Angst/Poetry - Chapters: 1 - Words: 170 - Reviews: 1 - Published: 3-6-09 - Complete5. I'm Sorry BabyMocking everyone of his apologies.Poetry: Love - Rated: T - English - Romance/Angst - Chapters: 1 - Words: 709 - Published: 12-3-08 - Complete6. No RegretThe realisation that, in a relationship, you took the fall - and it's made you stronger to make those mistakes.Poetry: Love - Rated: T - English - Romance/Angst - Chapters: 1 - Words: 178 - Published: 12-3-08 - Complete7. I Never CouldThe fear of forgetting someone.Poetry: Love - Rated: T - English - Romance/Angst - Chapters: 1 - Words: 158 - Published: 12-3-08 - Complete8. A Million ReasonsA million reasons not to go back to you"Poetry: Love - Rated: T - English - Romance/Angst - Chapters: 1 - Words: 78 - Published: 12-3-08 - Complete9. Here our story endsAcceptance of the end of a relationship.Poetry: Love - Rated: T - English - Romance/Angst - Chapters: 1 - Words: 70 - Published: 12-3-08 - Complete10. Free Again reviewsThe point after the break up where you realise that you've moved on.Poetry: Love - Rated: T - English - Romance/Angst - Chapters: 1 - Words: 217 - Reviews: 2 - Published: 12-3-08 - Complete11. I Considered You reviewsAbout the aftermath of a break-up, and how though you want to hate him, you can't - the tricks he played on your mind are too long-lasting.Poetry: Love - Rated: M - English - Angst/Romance - Chapters: 1 - Words: 463 - Reviews: 1 - Published: 9-19-08 - Complete12. InnocenceHe took my innocence with him when he left.Poetry: Love - Rated: T - English - Angst/Romance - Chapters: 1 - Words: 249 - Published: 9-6-08 - Complete13. Sexualise Yourself reviewsA cynical view of the need for young girls to be overly sexual in today's society.Poetry: Love - Rated: M - English - Romance/Angst - Chapters: 1 - Words: 293 - Reviews: 4 - Published: 9-3-08 - Complete14. On my kneesAfter a relationship has ended and you've simply been used for sexual gratification.Poetry: Love - Rated: M - English - Romance/Angst - Chapters: 1 - Words: 271 - Published: 9-3-08 - Complete15. I can't love what you've done reviewsPossibly the most painful to write poem that I've ever had to do. Just a relationship with someone close to me, I guess.Poetry: Family - Rated: T - English - Angst/Hurt/Comfort - Chapters: 1 - Words: 370 - Reviews: 1 - Published: 7-29-08 - Complete16. What a jokeBeing in a relationship with someone who knows how to exploit your inexperience for their own gain.Poetry: Love - Rated: M - English - Angst/Tragedy - Chapters: 1 - Words: 614 - Published: 7-19-08 - Complete17. Would you be so kind? reviewsAn addiction to a destructive relationship. "Would you be so kind, would you hurt me/ As I'm forbidden to hurt myself?"Poetry: Life - Rated: M - English - Angst - Chapters: 1 - Words: 269 - Reviews: 1 - Published: 7-19-08 - Complete18. This is goodbye reviewsFirst breakup. Well, I think it is. And this is how it feels.Poetry: Love - Rated: T - English - Angst/Poetry - Chapters: 1 - Words: 428 - Reviews: 3 - Published: 7-10-08 - Complete19. CarrawayesqueThis poem came from a debate about whether the intervention into Indigenous communities was right or wrong, and it was all very much like Nick Carraway's desire for the world to be at "moral attention". Quotes and characters belong to F. Scott Fitzgerald.Poetry: Love - Rated: K+ - English - Drama/Romance - Chapters: 1 - Words: 196 - Published: 7-9-08 - Complete20. Gentle irony reviewsIf it weren't for you, temptation wouldn't cry. But if it weren't for you, I wouldn't be able to resist it either.Poetry: Life - Rated: T - English - Romance/Angst - Chapters: 1 - Words: 211 - Reviews: 1 - Published: 7-6-08 - Complete21. Even Better Without YouI'll survive better without you then in this relationship where you refuse to trust me.Poetry: Love - Rated: K+ - English - Romance/Angst - Chapters: 1 - Words: 140 - Published: 7-1-08 - Complete22. My favourite mindaltering drugWhen you realise that you need someone beyond their duty.Poetry: Love - Rated: K+ - English - Angst/Romance - Chapters: 1 - Words: 519 - Published: 6-21-08 - Complete23. Both of usIt's not me, it's not you, it's the both of us.Poetry: Love - Rated: K+ - English - Romance/Angst - Chapters: 1 - Words: 347 - Published: 6-20-08 - Complete24. No Exception reviewsAll good things come to an end, and this is no exception.Poetry: Love - Rated: K+ - English - Romance/Angst - Chapters: 1 - Words: 224 - Reviews: 1 - Published: 6-8-08 - Complete25. I Miss YouI'm in love with our memoriesPoetry: Love - Rated: K+ - English - Romance/Angst - Chapters: 1 - Words: 411 - Published: 6-7-08 - Complete26. Loves You TooYou'll keep all of it just to hear him say he loves you too.Poetry: Love - Rated: K - English - Romance/Poetry - Chapters: 1 - Words: 347 - Published: 6-7-08 - Complete27. What You Mean To MeI just want you to know what you mean to me.Poetry: Love - Rated: K - English - Romance/Poetry - Chapters: 1 - Words: 171 - Published: 6-7-08 - Complete28. EverythingWe could be/EverythingPoetry: Love - Rated: K+ - English - Angst/Romance - Chapters: 1 - Words: 551 - Published: 5-31-08 - Complete29. Anything, Everything reviewsWhen you slowly realise that you and your significant other aren't meant to be.Poetry: Love - Rated: K+ - English - Angst/Romance - Chapters: 1 - Words: 358 - Reviews: 1 - Published: 5-30-08 - Complete30. Just to let you know reviewsJust to let you know that you make me happy. For it's for is quite obvious.Poetry: Love - Rated: K+ - English - Romance/Friendship - Chapters: 1 - Words: 500 - Reviews: 1 - Published: 5-10-08 - Complete31. Never Told YouAll the things I'll learn to tell you, if you learn to tell me too.Poetry: Love - Rated: K+ - English - Romance/Angst - Chapters: 1 - Words: 477 - Published: 4-25-08 - Complete32. Lessons Learned in Hating You reviewsI taught myself to hate you / For the fear of loving you"Poetry: Love - Rated: K+ - English - Romance/Angst - Chapters: 1 - Words: 359 - Reviews: 1 - Published: 4-25-08 - Complete33. Simple phone malfunctionWho knew that a simple phone malfunction could be/ Representative of the end of something that used to be beautiful, our/ Relationship.Poetry: Love - Rated: T - English - Angst/Romance - Chapters: 1 - Words: 465 - Published: 3-27-08 - Complete34. Block of chocolateMy block of chocolate is finished/And darling, so are we."Poetry: Love - Rated: M - English - Angst/Romance - Chapters: 1 - Words: 171 - Published: 3-27-08 - Complete35. Scares me reviewsbecause the thought of being without you/Scares me."Poetry: Love - Rated: T - English - Angst/Romance - Chapters: 1 - Words: 451 - Reviews: 1 - Published: 3-27-08 - Complete36. Not an obligation reviewsConfusion in a relationship. No other way to describe it, really.Poetry: Love - Rated: T - English - Angst/Romance - Chapters: 1 - Words: 799 - Reviews: 1 - Published: 3-27-08 - Complete37. Come With TimeThe need to slow things down emotionally with someone simply because you're not ready to commit yourself to that extent.Poetry: Love - Rated: T - English - Romance/Angst - Chapters: 1 - Words: 398 - Published: 3-23-08 - Complete38. Something MoreWhen you have a relationship with someone that seems purely physical, and then they decide that they won't an emotional connection and anger gets involved.Poetry: Love - Rated: T - English - Romance/Angst - Chapters: 1 - Words: 183 - Published: 3-23-08 - Complete39. ConfusionThis is what happens when you start a poem and finish it while arguing with someone. About determining whether something is worth the feelings of confusion that seem to follow it everywhere.Poetry: Love - Rated: T - English - Romance/Angst - Chapters: 1 - Words: 358 - Published: 3-23-08 - Complete40. As Happy As You Make MeA rambly love-esque poem. I think that's the only way to describe it.Poetry: Love - Rated: T - English - Angst/Romance - Chapters: 1 - Words: 345 - Published: 3-22-08 - Complete41. Sonnet II reviewsA sonnet-style poem about how looks aren't everything. In fact, they're temporary and one day you'll come to regret the vacuous stare. One of my first sonnets, *constructive* criticism would be appreciated.Poetry: Life - Rated: M - English - Poetry/Angst - Chapters: 1 - Words: 173 - Reviews: 1 - Published: 3-5-08 - Complete42. Sonnet III reviewsPart of my latest project. About letting someone go because you've idealised them until they're not real anymore. *Constructive* criticism would be much appreciated.Poetry: Love - Rated: T - English - Angst/Romance - Chapters: 1 - Words: 186 - Reviews: 1 - Published: 3-5-08 - Complete43. Reply reviewsWhen someone refuses to trust you, no matter what you do.Poetry: Love - Rated: T - English - Angst/Romance - Chapters: 1 - Words: 461 - Reviews: 2 - Published: 2-28-08 - Complete44. Anything but thisAnything but this - lies and deception and general questioning of what should be done to sustain a relationship, and to what extent denial is justified.Poetry: Love - Rated: T - English - Angst/Romance - Chapters: 1 - Words: 675 - Published: 2-23-08 - Complete45. Never Find OutHiding, is it possible for the greater good? And you'll probably read this and take it all the wrong way. But maybe I'm just incapable of writing optimistic poems.Poetry: Love - Rated: T - English - Romance/Angst - Chapters: 1 - Words: 407 - Published: 2-17-08 - Complete46. AfraidThe fear of changing but the willingness to do so for someone. After all, it's the least I can do.Poetry: Love - Rated: T - English - Romance/Parody - Chapters: 1 - Words: 540 - Published: 2-16-08 - Complete47. That Will Never Keep It reviewsWanting to be someone else because you're convinced that being yourself will never satisfy the person that you're with.Poetry: Love - Rated: K+ - English - Angst/Romance - Chapters: 1 - Words: 177 - Reviews: 1 - Published: 2-13-08 - Complete48. I care about you reviewsWhen you feel like you're not good enough for the person who cares about you.Poetry: Love - Rated: K+ - English - Angst/Romance - Chapters: 1 - Words: 244 - Reviews: 1 - Published: 2-13-08 - Complete49. The FloodThe confusion that seems to follow you the moment a relationship starts.Poetry: Love - Rated: M - English - Angst/Romance - Chapters: 1 - Words: 516 - Published: 2-13-08 - Complete50. Destination Heartbreak reviewsThe path of love, of a relationship, and where it ultimately leads for all travellers.Poetry: Love - Rated: K+ - English - Romance/Angst - Chapters: 1 - Words: 396 - Reviews: 2 - Published: 11-25-07 - Complete51. Too Good For Me reviewsThe end of a relationship before it even started, when your friends tell you that he was too good for you, but the reality is, in the afteramth of it all, he was better than you deserved.Poetry: Love - Rated: T - English - Romance/Angst - Chapters: 1 - Words: 282 - Reviews: 1 - Published: 11-25-07 - Complete52. Who You Really Are reviewsSurrendering your heart to someon with the hopes that they look after it.Poetry: Love - Rated: K+ - English - Romance/Angst - Chapters: 1 - Words: 299 - Reviews: 1 - Published: 11-25-07 - Complete53. Paper Doll RevisedA revised version of my first love poem, sans the swearing. Unrequited love.Poetry: Love - Rated: K+ - English - Poetry/Romance - Chapters: 1 - Words: 312 - Published: 11-17-07 - Complete54. Paper Doll reviewsMy first love poem. Unrequited love, and when that line between friendship and a relationship becomes blurred.Poetry: Love - Rated: T - English - Poetry/Romance - Chapters: 1 - Words: 310 - Reviews: 4 - Published: 11-17-07 - Complete55. Skin As PaperThe need to communicate the emotion within you before it destroys you.Poetry: Life - Rated: T - English - Poetry/Angst - Chapters: 1 - Words: 195 - Published: 11-17-07 - Complete56. The Goddamn Girl Next Door reviewsTypical girl next door poem with a dash of angst. Not my usual style, and contains structural experiments.Poetry: Love - Rated: T - English - Romance/Angst - Chapters: 1 - Words: 242 - Reviews: 1 - Published: 11-16-07 - Complete57. Daddy's Little Girl reviewsChild abuse. R&R, please.Poetry: Family - Rated: T - English - Poetry/Tragedy - Chapters: 1 - Words: 273 - Reviews: 1 - Published: 11-15-07 - Complete58. StandOffs & Tears reviewsA vindictive poem about the fake solution to a fight, and how the narrator won't forgive even though they've said they will.Poetry: Friendship - Rated: T - English - Angst/Poetry - Chapters: 1 - Words: 160 - Reviews: 1 - Published: 6-23-07 - Complete59. The Sweetest Agony reviewsMy first poem in a while, so I'm a little rusty. Anorexiacutting the control it has over someone's life.Poetry: Life - Rated: T - English - Poetry/Angst - Chapters: 1 - Words: 234 - Reviews: 2 - Published: 6-23-07 - Complete60. The Back Alleyways of Melbourne reviewsA girl suffering from a heroin addiction and homelessness NB:Melbourne is a city in AustraliaPoetry: Life - Rated: T - English - Poetry/Angst - Chapters: 1 - Words: 235 - Reviews: 3 - Published: 12-9-0561. Whatever way you want reviewsInterpret my words in whatever way you want...Poetry: Life - Rated: T - English - Poetry/Angst - Chapters: 1 - Words: 218 - Reviews: 2 - Published: 12-9-0562. Freedom reviewsAbout contemplating suicide and what I think it's like to be anorexic/cutting/suicidal. My opinion anyway.Poetry: Life - Rated: T - English - Angst/Poetry - Chapters: 1 - Words: 178 - Reviews: 7 - Published: 11-23-0563. My Shadowed Mind reviewsAn exploration of what a shadowed mind is. Not up itself as it may seem, just felt like writing something on the topicPoetry: Life - Rated: T - English - Poetry/Angst - Chapters: 1 - Words: 131 - Reviews: 3 - Published: 11-11-0564. I'll never be what you want reviewsOk, so I was a little angry when I wrote this, but it came out nicely in the end. About betrayal and the revealing of your pastPoetry: Life - Rated: T - English - Poetry/Angst - Chapters: 1 - Words: 164 - Reviews: 4 - Published: 11-11-0565. The fucked up child of society reviewsA bunch of my random thoughts. It might not make much sense, but I like the rhythm of it. A cynical view of society.Poetry: Life - Rated: T - English - Poetry/Angst - Chapters: 1 - Words: 155 - Reviews: 10 - Published: 11-4-0566. Fake reviewsEverything is fake. Most of this poem doesn't make sense, and it is far from my best.Poetry: Life - Rated: T - English - Angst/Poetry - Chapters: 1 - Words: 175 - Reviews: 12 - Published: 10-20-0567. I'm not okay reviewsI'm not okay, I'm not fine...I couldn't think of a better description. Self harm, eating disorders, and the lies around them.Poetry: Life - Rated: T - English - Angst/Poetry - Chapters: 1 - Words: 150 - Reviews: 7 - Published: 10-1-0568. Nowhere to run reviewsFalling, with nowhere to runPoetry: Life - Rated: T - English - Angst/Poetry - Chapters: 1 - Words: 80 - Reviews: 5 - Published: 10-1-0569. Screaming through the night reviewsScreaming through the night, until the blood stops flowingPoetry: Life - Rated: T - English - Angst/Poetry - Chapters: 1 - Words: 103 - Reviews: 4 - Published: 10-1-0570. Tell me, don't lie reviewsAbout a friendship breaking down, and questioning why the truth was hiddenPoetry: Life - Rated: T - English - Angst/Poetry - Chapters: 1 - Words: 186 - Reviews: 3 - Published: 10-1-0571. Depression is reviewsSimiles and metaphors about what depression is to mePoetry: Life - Rated: T - English - Angst/Poetry - Chapters: 1 - Words: 137 - Reviews: 4 - Published: 10-1-0572. Starved to death reviewsDon't you hear my pleas? About watching someone with anorexia kill themselves by not eatingPoetry: Life - Rated: T - English - Angst/Poetry - Chapters: 1 - Words: 187 - Reviews: 1 - Published: 10-1-0573. Refusal of Care reviewsI'm refusing all your care, don't want your helpPoetry: Life - Rated: T - English - Angst/Poetry - Chapters: 1 - Words: 147 - Reviews: 2 - Published: 10-1-0574. The Price for Knowing You reviewsWanting you to make me suffer, pay the price for knowing youPoetry: Life - Rated: T - English - Angst/Poetry - Chapters: 1 - Words: 143 - Reviews: 3 - Published: 9-17-0575. Refusing to move on reviewsStuck in the same surroundings, I'm refusing to move onPoetry: Life - Rated: T - English - Angst/Poetry - Chapters: 1 - Words: 66 - Reviews: 7 - Published: 9-16-0576. Again reviewsAnd we'll never be together, again.Poetry: Love - Rated: T - English - Poetry/Tragedy - Chapters: 1 - Words: 180 - Reviews: 4 - Published: 9-16-0577. Hurt me reviewsHurt me, Punish me, Kill mePoetry: Life - Rated: T - English - Angst/Poetry - Chapters: 1 - Words: 96 - Reviews: 10 - Published: 9-11-0578. Free Of His Legacy reviewsA bit darker than most of my short stories. Forced ending, as it was an assignment and all. A story of a girl through the psychiatrist's eyes.Fiction: Young Adult - Rated: T - English - Angst/Drama - Chapters: 1 - Words: 1,648 - Reviews: 5 - Published: 9-4-0579. What I wanted reviewsI'm not sure of what I wanted, but it couldn't have been this lifePoetry: Life - Rated: T - English - Poetry/Angst - Chapters: 1 - Words: 243 - Reviews: 5 - Published: 8-21-0580. Believe In Fantasy reviewsSo hard to believe in fantasy...Poetry: Life - Rated: T - English - Poetry/Angst - Chapters: 1 - Words: 173 - Reviews: 2 - Published: 8-16-0581. Don't Want To Hurt You reviewsNot one of my better poems. about cutting and how it affects those who care.Poetry: Life - Rated: T - English - Poetry/Angst - Chapters: 1 - Words: 203 - Reviews: 6 - Published: 7-4-0582. That Girl reviewsThat girl in the mirror, when did i become her?Poetry: Life - Rated: T - English - Angst/Poetry - Chapters: 1 - Words: 114 - Reviews: 8 - Published: 7-4-0583. Giving Up Tonight reviewsWhen you refuse to survive the power of the blade.Poetry: Life - Rated: T - English - Angst/Poetry - Chapters: 1 - Words: 192 - Reviews: 2 - Published: 7-4-0584. Eternal Freedom reviewsA more positive poem, saying you can survive, you can have eternal freedomPoetry: Life - Rated: T - English - Angst/Poetry - Chapters: 1 - Words: 54 - Reviews: 2 - Published: 7-4-0585. Thin Like You reviewsAbout a girl who starves herself and why, what it feels like, and what she forces herself to endure.Poetry: Life - Rated: T - English - Poetry/Angst - Chapters: 1 - Words: 150 - Reviews: 4 - Published: 7-4-0586. Drowning In Temptation reviewsHow temptation is like a river, in which you drift away further from sanityPoetry: Life - Rated: T - English - Angst/Poetry - Chapters: 1 - Words: 137 - Reviews: 2 - Published: 7-4-0587. The Pain I Caused reviewsWhy I would never kill myself, no matter how hard life is. Looking back on those you left behind, filled with regret.Poetry: Life - Rated: T - English - Angst/Poetry - Chapters: 1 - Words: 182 - Reviews: 2 - Published: 7-4-0588. Marche Partis reviewsC'est ma première poésie en français, m'a laissé savent ce que vous pensez svp. La grammaire suce probablement, désoléPoetry: Life - Rated: T - French - Angst/Poetry - Chapters: 1 - Words: 87 - Reviews: 2 - Published: 7-4-0589. The Hell I'm experiencing reviewsLooking back and wondering, is this what it was like for my predecessorsPoetry: Life - Rated: T - English - Angst/Poetry - Chapters: 1 - Words: 172 - Reviews: 3 - Published: 6-14-0590. Pretending to Be reviewsAbout hiding who you really are, disguising that emotionPoetry: Life - Rated: T - English - Angst/Poetry - Chapters: 1 - Words: 134 - Reviews: 5 - Published: 6-14-0591. Lying to myself reviewsIf you repeat it often enough, maybe you'll convince yourselfPoetry: Life - Rated: T - English - Angst/Poetry - Chapters: 1 - Words: 168 - Reviews: 8 - Published: 5-31-0592. My footprints reviewsAbout how wishing you were erased from life itselfPoetry: Life - Rated: T - English - Poetry/Angst - Chapters: 1 - Words: 151 - Reviews: 4 - Published: 5-31-0593. My Best Friend, A Cutter reviewsAbout when you learn your best friend has a horrible secret...Poetry: Life - Rated: T - English - Poetry/Angst - Chapters: 1 - Words: 327 - Reviews: 9 - Published: 5-31-0594. Blind reviewsWhen you choose to be blind and in denial about people's problemsPoetry: Life - Rated: M - English - Angst/Poetry - Chapters: 1 - Words: 142 - Reviews: 3 - Published: 4-23-0595. A Victim Of Depression reviewsThe parents left behind...Poetry: Life - Rated: T - English - Angst/Poetry - Chapters: 1 - Words: 201 - Reviews: 4 - Published: 4-23-0596. Too Afraid To Say Anything reviewsNo secrets should ever be kept...Poetry: Life - Rated: T - English - Angst/Poetry - Chapters: 1 - Words: 158 - Reviews: 3 - Published: 3-22-0597. Elation Never Last reviewsThere's always someone who wants to bring you down...Poetry: Life - Rated: T - English - Angst/Poetry - Chapters: 1 - Words: 117 - Reviews: 1 - Published: 3-22-0598. Slow News Day reviewsGIve up on me, like i did with hope...Poetry: Life - Rated: T - English - Angst/Poetry - Chapters: 1 - Words: 102 - Reviews: 2 - Published: 3-22-0599. Destroyed reviewsI'm sorry for destroying your life...Poetry: Life - Rated: T - English - Angst/Poetry - Chapters: 1 - Words: 168 - Reviews: 3 - Published: 3-22-05100. Memory reviewsLet me fade from your memory...Poetry: Life - Rated: T - English - Angst/Poetry - Chapters: 1 - Words: 168 - Reviews: 4 - Published: 3-21-05101. Biting My Nails reviewsOn the edge of giving in, trying to find something to replace that feelingPoetry: Life - Rated: T - English - Angst/Poetry - Chapters: 1 - Words: 154 - Reviews: 2 - Published: 3-21-05102. Rescuing Me From Me reviewsFor a very, very special friend who i just want to thank...she's done so much for me...THANK YOU! Anyways, this is about how someone has saved you for self destructingPoetry: Life - Rated: K - English - Angst/Poetry - Chapters: 1 - Words: 175 - Reviews: 5 - Published: 1-28-05103. Priorities reviewsWhen you've slipped off someone's list of priorities when you need them most, you're going through the most challenging period in your lifePoetry: Life - Rated: K+ - English - Angst/Poetry - Chapters: 1 - Words: 243 - Reviews: 2 - Published: 1-28-05104. Falling Apart reviewsMy first attempt at a song. 'I tried to be what you wanted..." Please R&RPoetry: Song - Rated: K+ - English - Angst - Chapters: 1 - Words: 259 - Reviews: 4 - Published: 1-23-05105. Fourteen reviewsAbout how there are no age requirements in life, one can be depressed and hurt no matter what age they arePoetry: Life - Rated: T - English - Angst/Poetry - Chapters: 1 - Words: 105 - Reviews: 6 - Published: 1-22-05106. I Hate Myself reviewsWhen you believe that it's your fault her life turned out this way, and you hate the person you see in the mirror so much because of itPoetry: Life - Rated: T - English - Angst/Poetry - Chapters: 1 - Words: 210 - Reviews: 7 - Published: 1-22-05107. Without You reviewsAbout how when your life hangs in the balance of another's choice between life and death, when you need someone so much that you beg them to stay on EarthPoetry: Life - Rated: T - English - Angst/Poetry - Chapters: 1 - Words: 155 - Reviews: 4 - Published: 1-22-05108. Too Busy To Notice reviewsAbout how depression can take your life, but while you live, it makes you blind and deaf to others, especially those you love, who we all take for grantedPoetry: Life - Rated: T - English - Angst/Poetry - Chapters: 1 - Words: 153 - Reviews: 5 - Published: 1-22-05109. I Used To reviewsAbout how depression changes everything, takes away everything you once lovedPoetry: Life - Rated: T - English - Angst/Poetry - Chapters: 1 - Words: 197 - Reviews: 2 - Published: 1-21-05110. Recovering Self Harmer reviewsAbout how you can never truly beat self harmingPoetry: Life - Rated: T - English - Angst/Poetry - Chapters: 1 - Words: 167 - Reviews: 9 - Published: 1-21-05111. So Called Black Hole reviewsA cynical view on societyPoetry: Life - Rated: T - English - Poetry/Angst - Chapters: 1 - Words: 181 - Reviews: 4 - Published: 1-21-05112. Let The Battle Begin reviewsI like this, i think it has a bit of a poetic feel to it. written when i had convinced myself i could get through this, which i can't. very optimisticFiction: Young Adult - Rated: K+ - English - Poetry/Angst - Chapters: 1 - Words: 204 - Reviews: 1 - Published: 1-12-05113. This is me reviewsA note i wrote on an up day. I like the way it turned out, like i could accept myself for who i am, without caring what others thought. Pity that didn't lastFiction: Essay - Rated: T - English - Angst/Poetry - Chapters: 1 - Words: 81 - Reviews: 2 - Published: 1-12-05114. Killing Myself by Loving You reviewsAbout when a friend's actions not only affect her, but you as well, and you just don't understand, much less know what to doPoetry: Life - Rated: T - English - Angst/Poetry - Chapters: 1 - Words: 152 - Reviews: 2 - Published: 1-12-05115. Letters » reviewsLetters written to those who have impacted my life, for better or worse, wriiten to get some of the emotion i feel off my chest...Fiction: Young Adult - Rated: T - English - Angst/Angst - Chapters: 11 - Words: 2,898 - Reviews: 12 - Updated: 12-30-04 - Published: 12-16-04116. The story of my life reviewsAbout how every scar tells a tale, a new chapter in the story of my lifePoetry: Life - Rated: T - English - Angst/Poetry - Chapters: 1 - Words: 142 - Reviews: 2 - Published: 12-30-04117. Artistic Destruction reviewsa poem from the cutter's view of a razor. better than some of my other work.Poetry: Life - Rated: T - English - Angst/Poetry - Chapters: 1 - Words: 156 - Reviews: 3 - Published: 12-29-04118. Supposed to be Perfect » reviewsA combination of fiction and journal entries focusing on the life of a cutter. I don't care what you think, I'm writing this purely for my own reasons, as selfish as that is...Fiction: Young Adult - Rated: T - English - Angst/Angst - Chapters: 5 - Words: 4,844 - Reviews: 13 - Updated: 12-18-04 - Published: 12-13-04119. I can do this reviewsOne of my more positive poems. I can do this...no i can't...i will, just promise me you'll be ok...about trying to stop in order to make someone ok. staying safe for the sake of someone else...Poetry: Life - Rated: K+ - English - Angst/Poetry - Chapters: 1 - Words: 168 - Reviews: 3 - Published: 12-17-04120. I don't hate you reviewsFor a friend. I don't know what happened, i just decided to write what was going on inside my head. 'I hate how...' Let me know how i can improve thisPoetry: Life - Rated: K+ - English - Angst/Poetry - Chapters: 1 - Words: 242 - Reviews: 4 - Published: 12-17-04121. I'm the one reviewsAbout blaming yourself for another's problems, and then realising its completely true. I'm the one/behind your suicide attempts...Poetry: Life - Rated: T - English - Angst/Poetry - Chapters: 1 - Words: 144 - Reviews: 3 - Published: 12-9-04122. These walls reviewsWhen you realise you need help, but the rules you've set, the walls you've built stop you from doing so...Poetry: Life - Rated: T - English - Poetry/Angst - Chapters: 1 - Words: 173 - Reviews: 4 - Published: 12-8-04123. Eternal Sleep reviewsSuicidal poem from earlier this year. Never fear, its not autobiographical, obviously, coz i'm still here...i think i am at least...Anyways, tell me what you thinkPoetry: Life - Rated: T - English - Angst/Poetry - Chapters: 1 - Words: 119 - Reviews: 3 - Published: 12-8-04124. Sorry that reviewsAnother apologetic poem. Apologising for all my faults. rated for a little language and references to suicide and cutting. I'm sorry/That i'm the person i am...Poetry: Life - Rated: T - English - Angst/Poetry - Chapters: 1 - Words: 295 - Reviews: 6 - Published: 12-8-04125. True to herself reviewsexploring a relationship between myself and a friend, who i've messed around a lot. Starts off with anger and eventually attempts to understand why she's this way now.Poetry: Life - Rated: T - English - Angst/Poetry - Chapters: 1 - Words: 222 - Reviews: 1 - Published: 12-8-04126. I'm Sorry reviewsWritten for a friend, after i realised how i had ruined everything by letting her in.Poetry: Life - Rated: T - English - Angst/Poetry - Chapters: 1 - Words: 136 - Reviews: 2 - Published: 12-8-04127. A pocket knife lay by my bed reviewsI know i said i wouldn't, that i was through with it, but i need it to survive...Poetry: Life - Rated: T - English - Angst/Poetry - Chapters: 1 - Words: 177 - Reviews: 4 - Published: 12-8-04128. Wasted Tears reviewsA reflection on my past, from the beginning of this year onwards. I've stopped, looking at what a waste some of what i did was...Poetry: Life - Rated: T - English - Poetry/Angst - Chapters: 1 - Words: 40 - Reviews: 3 - Published: 12-4-04129. One moment reviewsOne moment, one memory, one picture, you'll never forget, the scars, the pain, the sufferingPoetry: Life - Rated: T - English - Poetry/Angst - Chapters: 1 - Words: 161 - Reviews: 2 - Published: 12-3-04130. Am I? reviewsMy insecurities, my worries, my fears, questioning the past, present, and future...Poetry: Life - Rated: T - English - Poetry/Angst - Chapters: 1 - Words: 129 - Reviews: 2 - Published: 12-3-04131. Give me a reason reviewsIn atime of need, a time of despair, she asks for a reason, a reason to go on...Poetry: Life - Rated: K+ - English - Angst/Poetry - Chapters: 1 - Words: 134 - Reviews: 4 - Published: 12-1-04132. Useless reviewsLooking back on days gone by, thinking maybe, wondering why she left, but deep down knowing its all my fault, because i was so uselessPoetry: Life - Rated: T - English - Poetry/Angst - Chapters: 1 - Words: 293 - Reviews: 1 - Published: 11-30-04133. Anymore reviewsWhen your actions hurt someone, yet you can't stop cutting, you beg for them to leave you, and set themselves free...Poetry: Life - Rated: T - English - Angst/Poetry - Chapters: 1 - Words: 124 - Reviews: 4 - Published: 11-27-04134. Tell me reviewsA poem reflecting my insecurities, my paranoia. "Tell me I'm not worth the trouble and you're giving up on me..."Poetry: Life - Rated: T - English - Angst/Poetry - Chapters: 1 - Words: 189 - Reviews: 2 - Published: 11-27-04135. Stolen reviewsConstant visions of your face haunt all that remains of my fragile broken mindPoetry: Life - Rated: K+ - English - Angst/Poetry - Chapters: 1 - Words: 93 - Reviews: 1 - Published: 11-26-04136. Preparing to be FreedEach seeks solace in different ways, each seeks freedom differently, sometimes for the good, sometimes for the bad, sometimes in a bladePoetry: Life - Rated: T - English - Angst/Poetry - Chapters: 1 - Words: 155 - Published: 11-26-04137. Never Good Enough For You reviewsDesperate for attention that she needs, yet never receives, crying for help, stuck in a competition she doesn't want...Poetry: Life - Rated: K+ - English - Angst/Poetry - Chapters: 1 - Words: 142 - Reviews: 1 - Published: 11-26-04138. That is my death reviewsGiving up/Giving in/I can't take this no more...Poetry: Life - Rated: T - English - Angst/Poetry - Chapters: 1 - Words: 88 - Reviews: 1 - Published: 11-6-04139. Into your arms reviewsWhen you refuse to let someone inside your mind, because you're so afraid of the consequencesPoetry: Life - Rated: T - English - Angst/Poetry - Chapters: 1 - Words: 147 - Reviews: 1 - Published: 11-6-04140. StalkedHomesickness and unrequited love dominate young Jane Dunn's day. Read her tale as she endures one day in her average American teenage life.Fiction: Young Adult - Rated: T - English - Angst/Romance - Chapters: 1 - Words: 2,102 - Published: 11-5-04141. History Repeats Itself reviewsAnother poem about cutting. What a surprise. Anyways, it's a different style, or kind of. Tell me what you thinkPoetry: Life - Rated: T - English - Poetry/Angst - Chapters: 1 - Words: 77 - Reviews: 1 - Published: 11-5-04142. How I'll Stay reviewsA short poem about blaming yourself for problems you didnt causePoetry: Life - Rated: K+ - English - Poetry/Angst - Chapters: 1 - Words: 36 - Reviews: 1 - Published: 11-1-04143. Happier Times reviewsReflecting on those precious memories, holding on to them tight, and though i shiver with fear, they always bring a smile to my face.Poetry: Friendship - Rated: K+ - English - Angst/Poetry - Chapters: 1 - Words: 103 - Reviews: 1 - Published: 11-1-04144. All Because Of You reviewsLooking back on the past, why i live this way, and its all her fault.Poetry: Friendship - Rated: K+ - English - Poetry/Angst - Chapters: 1 - Words: 132 - Reviews: 1 - Published: 11-1-04145. Never Trust Again reviewsA terrible poem based on stuff that happened in 2003Poetry: Friendship - Rated: T - English - Angst/Poetry - Chapters: 1 - Words: 156 - Reviews: 3 - Published: 10-23-04146. In my scars reviewsThe title says it all, different ways of coping with anger and the feeling of being lostPoetry: Life - Rated: T - English - Angst/Poetry - Chapters: 1 - Words: 63 - Reviews: 7 - Published: 10-20-04147. What are we doing here? reviewsLooks at the world through the eyes of someone committing suicide. Not my best workPoetry: Life - Rated: T - English - Poetry/Angst - Chapters: 1 - Words: 84 - Reviews: 1 - Published: 10-17-04148. Solace in the knife reviewsPoetry: Friendship - Rated: T - English - Poetry/Angst - Chapters: 1 - Words: 183 - Reviews: 7 - Published: 10-16-04149. Cuts reviewsPoetry: Friendship - Rated: T - English - Angst/Poetry - Chapters: 1 - Words: 113 - Reviews: 8 - Published: 10-16-04150. The Man I Call Dad reviewsLooks at divorce and abuse through the eyes of a child, their feelings that can be so often neglectedPoetry: Family - Rated: K+ - English - Poetry - Chapters: 1 - Words: 137 - Reviews: 1 - Published: 10-16-04151. Hunted reviewsAn interesting tale, a tale of someone being chased and murdered. But the end will leave you surprised, i hope.Poetry: Life - Rated: T - English - Angst - Chapters: 1 - Words: 72 - Reviews: 4 - Published: 10-16-04152. The Rape reviewsA two sided poem which looks at the perspective of the victim and the rapist. Not suitable for the weak hearted, this is sad.Poetry: Love - Rated: T - English - Tragedy - Chapters: 1 - Words: 245 - Reviews: 9 - Published: 10-16-04153. They Think reviewsA poem about what 'they think' and who someone really is, the horrible secrets she hidesPoetry: Friendship - Rated: T - English - Poetry/Angst - Chapters: 1 - Words: 233 - Reviews: 1 - Published: 10-16-04154. Not Good Enough reviewsA tale of a girl, asking why someone doesn't love her, giving all the possible reasons.Poetry: Love - Rated: K+ - English - Poetry - Chapters: 1 - Words: 93 - Reviews: 2 - Published: 10-16-04155. Praying For Your Spirit reviewsAbout the loss of someone close to you, and the process of saying goodbyePoetry: Friendship - Rated: K+ - English - Poetry - Chapters: 1 - Words: 187 - Reviews: 3 - Published: 10-16-04