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since: 10-16-04, id: 440108, Profile edited: 03-23-08
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Author has written 126 stories for Friendship, Love, Life, Family, Young Adult, Essay, and Song.

jess;; seventeen. final year of high school. chronic sufferer of writer's block. french speaker. physics geek. lame to the log base e of thirty seven. often uses math to express the quantity of a certain emotion. or her sarcasm. mostly the latter. and where math fails, she writes poetry. because it's kind of hard to express unrequited lust in terms of math. although, life is rather like a sine graph, and how high you get is dependent on the dilation parallel to the x axis which can be determined by your life experiences...but jess doesn't think she's a nerd. she doesn't study enough. msn whore. speaks often in the third person. thinks too much for her own good. listens to the same song one hundred times on repeat. because listening to a depressing song once just isn't enough. and listening to i miss you three thousand times only makes her miss him more than what is probably healthy. queen of innuendo. insane. wannabe psychiatrist. she thinks. honestly, she has no clue what she wants to do with her life. can have feminist tendencies. atheist. loves australian football. peter wentz's guitar. toby rand's tambourine. loves singing but can't hold a note. so, instead, she loves her singers. and nice eyes. addictive personality, permanently worried about something. also permanently on guilt trips. because she's very good at that. generally changes her mind thirty seven times. daughter of overprotective parents. happy emo. the jesster. pretty sure she's going to flunk ib. loves lyrics more than music. would describe her life with the lyrics to self-conclusion by the spill canvas. is sandra's sexy bitch. solitaire slut. moody cow. has crazy-ass friends. is slowly working on a manuscript. has an addiction to fucked up people. some would call it a magnetic attraction. jess calls it one of two things, depending on how she feels. either an addiction to fucking people up or fucking herself up. normally the former. chocoholic. creative. sketches all the time. when she's not writing. studying two sciences and english at a higher level. is bringing sexy back. ben's slutty cheerleader. rereads her msn conversations. wants to live in paris. in the chateau du versailles. and ride a moped. has spent two nights in paris. seems to always be involved in love triangles, or friendship triangles, or something that requires her to stay up at night worrying because she freaks out that it's her fault. which is a little irrational. coincidentally, that's her middle name. egocentric. self centred. attention whore. is currently reading comment baiser en cachette. loves musicals and acting. writes poetry whenever she's emotional and always starts crying. always. is obsessed with snape and the sex god that is alan rickman. hates showing weakness. hates the fact she has no freedom and parents that refuse to trust her. older sister. terrible sister, worse daughter. loves aladdin. instinctively answers in french. gives objects unoriginal names. such as monsieur vache for her cow wrist pad. actually names and talks to inanimate objects. tends to stare at photos of her friends on her ipod. has a twin. in fact, she had sixty-nine twins. marvellous at fucking up relationships. questions sincerity by the minute. always needs sleep. hopeless romantic. procrastinator. overuses asterisks in msn conversations. narcissist. writes when she's emotional. loves hugs and being held. is a sentimental sort of person. pretty sure she thinks too much. believes that eyes are the window to the soul. stubborn. shadowed mind;;




1. Just to let you know reviews
Just to let you know that you make me happy. For it's for is quite obvious.
Complete - Love - Fiction Rated: K+ - English - Romance/Friendship - Chapters: 1 - Words: 442 - Reviews: 1 - Updated: 5-10-08 - Published: 5-10-08
2. Never Told You
All the things I'll learn to tell you, if you learn to tell me too.
Complete - Love - Fiction Rated: K+ - English - Romance/Angst - Chapters: 1 - Words: 450 - Reviews: 0 - Updated: 4-25-08 - Published: 4-25-08
3. Lessons Learned in Hating You reviews
I taught myself to hate you / For the fear of loving you"
Complete - Love - Fiction Rated: K+ - English - Romance/Angst - Chapters: 1 - Words: 341 - Reviews: 1 - Updated: 4-25-08 - Published: 4-25-08
4. Simple phone malfunction
Who knew that a simple phone malfunction could be/ Representative of the end of something that used to be beautiful, our/ Relationship.
Complete - Love - Fiction Rated: T - English - Angst/Romance - Chapters: 1 - Words: 435 - Reviews: 0 - Updated: 3-27-08 - Published: 3-27-08
5. Block of chocolate
My block of chocolate is finished/And darling, so are we."
Complete - Love - Fiction Rated: M - English - Angst/Romance - Chapters: 1 - Words: 162 - Reviews: 0 - Updated: 3-27-08 - Published: 3-27-08
6. Scares me reviews
because the thought of being without you/Scares me."
Complete - Love - Fiction Rated: T - English - Angst/Romance - Chapters: 1 - Words: 421 - Reviews: 1 - Updated: 3-27-08 - Published: 3-27-08
7. Not an obligation reviews
Confusion in a relationship. No other way to describe it, really.
Complete - Love - Fiction Rated: T - English - Angst/Romance - Chapters: 1 - Words: 747 - Reviews: 1 - Updated: 3-27-08 - Published: 3-27-08
8. Come With Time
The need to slow things down emotionally with someone simply because you're not ready to commit yourself to that extent.
Complete - Love - Fiction Rated: T - English - Romance/Angst - Chapters: 1 - Words: 373 - Reviews: 0 - Updated: 3-23-08 - Published: 3-23-08
9. Something More
When you have a relationship with someone that seems purely physical, and then they decide that they won't an emotional connection and anger gets involved.
Complete - Love - Fiction Rated: T - English - Romance/Angst - Chapters: 1 - Words: 167 - Reviews: 0 - Updated: 3-23-08 - Published: 3-23-08
10. Confusion
This is what happens when you start a poem and finish it while arguing with someone. About determining whether something is worth the feelings of confusion that seem to follow it everywhere.
Complete - Love - Fiction Rated: T - English - Romance/Angst - Chapters: 1 - Words: 328 - Reviews: 0 - Updated: 3-23-08 - Published: 3-23-08
11. As Happy As You Make Me
A rambly love-esque poem. I think that's the only way to describe it.
Complete - Love - Fiction Rated: T - English - Angst/Romance - Chapters: 1 - Words: 313 - Reviews: 0 - Updated: 3-22-08 - Published: 3-22-08
12. Sonnet II reviews
A sonnet-style poem about how looks aren't everything. In fact, they're temporary and one day you'll come to regret the vacuous stare. One of my first sonnets, *constructive* criticism would be appreciated.
Complete - Life - Fiction Rated: M - English - Poetry/Angst - Chapters: 1 - Words: 157 - Reviews: 1 - Updated: 3-5-08 - Published: 3-5-08
13. Sonnet III reviews
Part of my latest project. About letting someone go because you've idealised them until they're not real anymore. *Constructive* criticism would be much appreciated.
Complete - Love - Fiction Rated: T - English - Angst/Romance - Chapters: 1 - Words: 162 - Reviews: 1 - Updated: 3-5-08 - Published: 3-5-08
14. Reply reviews
When someone refuses to trust you, no matter what you do.
Complete - Love - Fiction Rated: T - English - Angst/Romance - Chapters: 1 - Words: 392 - Reviews: 1 - Updated: 2-28-08 - Published: 2-28-08
15. Anything but this
Anything but this - lies and deception and general questioning of what should be done to sustain a relationship, and to what extent denial is justified.
Complete - Love - Fiction Rated: T - English - Angst/Romance - Chapters: 1 - Words: 568 - Reviews: 0 - Updated: 2-23-08 - Published: 2-23-08
16. Never Find Out
Hiding, is it possible for the greater good? And you'll probably read this and take it all the wrong way. But maybe I'm just incapable of writing optimistic poems.
Complete - Love - Fiction Rated: T - English - Romance/Angst - Chapters: 1 - Words: 333 - Reviews: 0 - Updated: 2-17-08 - Published: 2-17-08
17. Afraid
The fear of changing but the willingness to do so for someone. After all, it's the least I can do.
Complete - Love - Fiction Rated: T - English - Romance/Parody - Chapters: 1 - Words: 504 - Reviews: 0 - Updated: 2-16-08 - Published: 2-16-08
18. That Will Never Keep It reviews
Wanting to be someone else because you're convinced that being yourself will never satisfy the person that you're with.
Complete - Love - Fiction Rated: K+ - English - Angst/Romance - Chapters: 1 - Words: 157 - Reviews: 1 - Updated: 2-13-08 - Published: 2-13-08
19. I care about you reviews
When you feel like you're not good enough for the person who cares about you.
Complete - Love - Fiction Rated: K+ - English - Angst/Romance - Chapters: 1 - Words: 198 - Reviews: 1 - Updated: 2-13-08 - Published: 2-13-08
20. The Flood
The confusion that seems to follow you the moment a relationship starts.
Complete - Love - Fiction Rated: M - English - Angst/Romance - Chapters: 1 - Words: 496 - Reviews: 0 - Updated: 2-13-08 - Published: 2-13-08
21. Destination Heartbreak reviews
The path of love, of a relationship, and where it ultimately leads for all travellers.
Complete - Love - Fiction Rated: K+ - English - Romance/Angst - Chapters: 1 - Words: 326 - Reviews: 2 - Updated: 11-25-07 - Published: 11-25-07
22. Too Good For Me reviews
The end of a relationship before it even started, when your friends tell you that he was too good for you, but the reality is, in the afteramth of it all, he was better than you deserved.
Complete - Love - Fiction Rated: T - English - Romance/Angst - Chapters: 1 - Words: 220 - Reviews: 1 - Updated: 11-25-07 - Published: 11-25-07
23. Who You Really Are reviews
Surrendering your heart to someon with the hopes that they look after it.
Complete - Love - Fiction Rated: K+ - English - Romance/Angst - Chapters: 1 - Words: 248 - Reviews: 1 - Updated: 11-25-07 - Published: 11-25-07
24. Paper Doll Revised
A revised version of my first love poem, sans the swearing. Unrequited love.
Complete - Love - Fiction Rated: K+ - English - Poetry/Romance - Chapters: 1 - Words: 284 - Reviews: 0 - Updated: 11-17-07 - Published: 11-17-07
25. Paper Doll reviews
My first love poem. Unrequited love, and when that line between friendship and a relationship becomes blurred.
Complete - Love - Fiction Rated: T - English - Poetry/Romance - Chapters: 1 - Words: 255 - Reviews: 4 - Updated: 11-17-07 - Published: 11-17-07
26. Skin As Paper
The need to communicate the emotion within you before it destroys you.
Complete - Life - Fiction Rated: T - English - Poetry/Angst - Chapters: 1 - Words: 170 - Reviews: 0 - Updated: 11-17-07 - Published: 11-17-07
27. The Goddamn Girl Next Door reviews
Typical girl next door poem with a dash of angst. Not my usual style, and contains structural experiments.
Complete - Love - Fiction Rated: T - English - Romance/Angst - Chapters: 1 - Words: 202 - Reviews: 1 - Updated: 11-16-07 - Published: 11-16-07
28. Daddy's Little Girl reviews
Child abuse. R&R, please.
Complete - Family - Fiction Rated: T - English - Poetry/Tragedy - Chapters: 1 - Words: 258 - Reviews: 1 - Updated: 11-15-07 - Published: 11-15-07
29. StandOffs & Tears reviews
A vindictive poem about the fake solution to a fight, and how the narrator won't forgive even though they've said they will.
Complete - Friendship - Fiction Rated: T - English - Angst/Poetry - Chapters: 1 - Words: 155 - Reviews: 1 - Updated: 6-23-07 - Published: 6-23-07
30. The Sweetest Agony reviews
My first poem in a while, so I'm a little rusty. Anorexiacutting the control it has over someone's life.
Complete - Life - Fiction Rated: T - English - Poetry/Angst - Chapters: 1 - Words: 220 - Reviews: 2 - Updated: 6-23-07 - Published: 6-23-07
31. The Back Alleyways of Melbourne reviews
A girl suffering from a heroin addiction and homelessness NB:Melbourne is a city in Australia
Life - Fiction Rated: T - English - Poetry/Angst - Chapters: 1 - Words: 229 - Reviews: 3 - Updated: 12-9-05 - Published: 12-9-05
32. Whatever way you want reviews
Interpret my words in whatever way you want...
Life - Fiction Rated: T - English - Poetry/Angst - Chapters: 1 - Words: 205 - Reviews: 2 - Updated: 12-9-05 - Published: 12-9-05
33. Freedom reviews
About contemplating suicide and what I think it's like to be anorexic/cutting/suicidal. My opinion anyway.
Life - Fiction Rated: T - English - Angst/Poetry - Chapters: 1 - Words: 168 - Reviews: 7 - Updated: 11-23-05 - Published: 11-23-05
34. My Shadowed Mind reviews
An exploration of what a shadowed mind is. Not up itself as it may seem, just felt like writing something on the topic
Life - Fiction Rated: T - English - Poetry/Angst - Chapters: 1 - Words: 127 - Reviews: 3 - Updated: 11-11-05 - Published: 11-11-05
35. I'll never be what you want reviews
Ok, so I was a little angry when I wrote this, but it came out nicely in the end. About betrayal and the revealing of your past
Life - Fiction Rated: T - English - Poetry/Angst - Chapters: 1 - Words: 153 - Reviews: 4 - Updated: 11-11-05 - Published: 11-11-05
36. The fucked up child of society reviews
A bunch of my random thoughts. It might not make much sense, but I like the rhythm of it. A cynical view of society.
Life - Fiction Rated: T - English - Poetry/Angst - Chapters: 1 - Words: 150 - Reviews: 10 - Updated: 11-4-05 - Published: 11-4-05
37. Fake reviews
Everything is fake. Most of this poem doesn't make sense, and it is far from my best.
Life - Fiction Rated: T - English - Angst/Poetry - Chapters: 1 - Words: 169 - Reviews: 12 - Updated: 10-20-05 - Published: 10-20-05
38. I'm not okay reviews
I'm not okay, I'm not fine...I couldn't think of a better description. Self harm, eating disorders, and the lies around them.
Life - Fiction Rated: T - English - Angst/Poetry - Chapters: 1 - Words: 138 - Reviews: 7 - Updated: 10-1-05 - Published: 10-1-05
39. Nowhere to run reviews
Falling, with nowhere to run
Life - Fiction Rated: T - English - Angst/Poetry - Chapters: 1 - Words: 79 - Reviews: 5 - Updated: 10-1-05 - Published: 10-1-05
40. Screaming through the night reviews
Screaming through the night, until the blood stops flowing
Life - Fiction Rated: T - English - Angst/Poetry - Chapters: 1 - Words: 100 - Reviews: 4 - Updated: 10-1-05 - Published: 10-1-05
41. Tell me, don't lie reviews
About a friendship breaking down, and questioning why the truth was hidden
Life - Fiction Rated: T - English - Angst/Poetry - Chapters: 1 - Words: 171 - Reviews: 3 - Updated: 10-1-05 - Published: 10-1-05
42. Depression is reviews
Similes and metaphors about what depression is to me
Life - Fiction Rated: T - English - Angst/Poetry - Chapters: 1 - Words: 136 - Reviews: 4 - Updated: 10-1-05 - Published: 10-1-05
43. Starved to death reviews
Don't you hear my pleas? About watching someone with anorexia kill themselves by not eating
Life - Fiction Rated: T - English - Angst/Poetry - Chapters: 1 - Words: 178 - Reviews: 1 - Updated: 10-1-05 - Published: 10-1-05
44. Refusal of Care reviews
I'm refusing all your care, don't want your help
Life - Fiction Rated: T - English - Angst/Poetry - Chapters: 1 - Words: 131 - Reviews: 2 - Updated: 10-1-05 - Published: 10-1-05
45. The Price for Knowing You reviews
Wanting you to make me suffer, pay the price for knowing you
Life - Fiction Rated: T - English - Angst/Poetry - Chapters: 1 - Words: 140 - Reviews: 3 - Updated: 9-17-05 - Published: 9-17-05
46. Refusing to move on reviews
Stuck in the same surroundings, I'm refusing to move on
Life - Fiction Rated: T - English - Angst/Poetry - Chapters: 1 - Words: 58 - Reviews: 7 - Updated: 9-16-05 - Published: 9-16-05
47. Again reviews
And we'll never be together, again.
Love - Fiction Rated: T - English - Poetry/Tragedy - Chapters: 1 - Words: 175 - Reviews: 4 - Updated: 9-16-05 - Published: 9-16-05
48. Hurt me reviews
Hurt me, Punish me, Kill me
Life - Fiction Rated: T - English - Angst/Poetry - Chapters: 1 - Words: 92 - Reviews: 10 - Updated: 9-11-05 - Published: 9-11-05
49. Free Of His Legacy reviews
A bit darker than most of my short stories. Forced ending, as it was an assignment and all. A story of a girl through the psychiatrist's eyes.
Young Adult - Fiction Rated: T - English - Angst/Drama - Chapters: 1 - Words: 1,590 - Reviews: 5 - Updated: 9-4-05 - Published: 9-4-05
50. What I wanted reviews
I'm not sure of what I wanted, but it couldn't have been this life
Life - Fiction Rated: T - English - Poetry/Angst - Chapters: 1 - Words: 200 - Reviews: 5 - Updated: 8-21-05 - Published: 8-21-05
51. Believe In Fantasy reviews
So hard to believe in fantasy...
Life - Fiction Rated: T - English - Poetry/Angst - Chapters: 1 - Words: 127 - Reviews: 2 - Updated: 8-16-05 - Published: 8-16-05
52. Don't Want To Hurt You reviews
Not one of my better poems. about cutting and how it affects those who care.
Life - Fiction Rated: T - English - Poetry/Angst - Chapters: 1 - Words: 187 - Reviews: 6 - Updated: 7-4-05 - Published: 7-4-05
53. That Girl reviews
That girl in the mirror, when did i become her?
Life - Fiction Rated: T - English - Angst/Poetry - Chapters: 1 - Words: 91 - Reviews: 8 - Updated: 7-4-05 - Published: 7-4-05
54. Giving Up Tonight reviews
When you refuse to survive the power of the blade.
Life - Fiction Rated: T - English - Angst/Poetry - Chapters: 1 - Words: 150 - Reviews: 2 - Updated: 7-4-05 - Published: 7-4-05
55. Eternal Freedom reviews
A more positive poem, saying you can survive, you can have eternal freedom
Life - Fiction Rated: T - English - Angst/Poetry - Chapters: 1 - Words: 39 - Reviews: 2 - Updated: 7-4-05 - Published: 7-4-05
56. Thin Like You reviews
About a girl who starves herself and why, what it feels like, and what she forces herself to endure.
Life - Fiction Rated: T - English - Poetry/Angst - Chapters: 1 - Words: 136 - Reviews: 4 - Updated: 7-4-05 - Published: 7-4-05
57. Drowning In Temptation reviews
How temptation is like a river, in which you drift away further from sanity
Life - Fiction Rated: T - English - Angst/Poetry - Chapters: 1 - Words: 113 - Reviews: 2 - Updated: 7-4-05 - Published: 7-4-05
58. The Pain I Caused reviews
Why I would never kill myself, no matter how hard life is. Looking back on those you left behind, filled with regret.
Life - Fiction Rated: T - English - Angst/Poetry - Chapters: 1 - Words: 142 - Reviews: 2 - Updated: 7-4-05 - Published: 7-4-05
59. Marche Partis reviews
C'est ma première poésie en français, m'a laissé savent ce que vous pensez svp. La grammaire suce probablement, désolé
Life - Fiction Rated: T - French - Angst/Poetry - Chapters: 1 - Words: 57 - Reviews: 2 - Updated: 7-4-05 - Published: 7-4-05
60. The Hell I'm experiencing reviews
Looking back and wondering, is this what it was like for my predecessors
Life - Fiction Rated: T - English - Angst/Poetry - Chapters: 1 - Words: 138 - Reviews: 3 - Updated: 6-14-05 - Published: 6-14-05
61. Pretending to Be reviews
About hiding who you really are, disguising that emotion
Life - Fiction Rated: T - English - Angst/Poetry - Chapters: 1 - Words: 96 - Reviews: 5 - Updated: 6-14-05 - Published: 6-14-05
62. Lying to myself reviews
If you repeat it often enough, maybe you'll convince yourself
Life - Fiction Rated: T - English - Angst/Poetry - Chapters: 1 - Words: 131 - Reviews: 8 - Updated: 5-31-05 - Published: 5-31-05
63. My footprints reviews
About how wishing you were erased from life itself
Life - Fiction Rated: T - English - Poetry/Angst - Chapters: 1 - Words: 116 - Reviews: 4 - Updated: 5-31-05 - Published: 5-31-05
64. My Best Friend, A Cutter reviews
About when you learn your best friend has a horrible secret...
Life - Fiction Rated: T - English - Poetry/Angst - Chapters: 1 - Words: 257 - Reviews: 9 - Updated: 5-31-05 - Published: 5-31-05
65. Blind reviews
When you choose to be blind and in denial about people's problems
Life - Fiction Rated: M - English - Angst/Poetry - Chapters: 1 - Words: 135 - Reviews: 3 - Updated: 4-23-05 - Published: 4-23-05
66. A Victim Of Depression reviews
The parents left behind...
Life - Fiction Rated: T - English - Angst/Poetry - Chapters: 1 - Words: 194 - Reviews: 4 - Updated: 4-23-05 - Published: 4-23-05
67. Too Afraid To Say Anything reviews
No secrets should ever be kept...
Life - Fiction Rated: T - English - Angst/Poetry - Chapters: 1 - Words: 126 - Reviews: 3 - Updated: 3-22-05 - Published: 3-22-05
68. Elation Never Last reviews
There's always someone who wants to bring you down...
Life - Fiction Rated: T - English - Angst/Poetry - Chapters: 1 - Words: 95 - Reviews: 1 - Updated: 3-22-05 - Published: 3-22-05
69. Slow News Day reviews
GIve up on me, like i did with hope...
Life - Fiction Rated: T - English - Angst/Poetry - Chapters: 1 - Words: 80 - Reviews: 2 - Updated: 3-22-05 - Published: 3-22-05
70. Destroyed reviews
I'm sorry for destroying your life...
Life - Fiction Rated: T - English - Angst/Poetry - Chapters: 1 - Words: 134 - Reviews: 3 - Updated: 3-22-05 - Published: 3-22-05
71. Memory reviews
Let me fade from your memory...
Life - Fiction Rated: T - English - Angst/Poetry - Chapters: 1 - Words: 144 - Reviews: 4 - Updated: 3-21-05 - Published: 3-21-05
72. Biting My Nails reviews
On the edge of giving in, trying to find something to replace that feeling
Life - Fiction Rated: T - English - Angst/Poetry - Chapters: 1 - Words: 124 - Reviews: 2 - Updated: 3-21-05 - Published: 3-21-05
73. Rescuing Me From Me reviews
For a very, very special friend who i just want to thank...she's done so much for me...THANK YOU! Anyways, this is about how someone has saved you for self destructing
Life - Fiction Rated: K - English - Angst/Poetry - Chapters: 1 - Words: 141 - Reviews: 5 - Updated: 1-28-05 - Published: 1-28-05
74. Priorities reviews
When you've slipped off someone's list of priorities when you need them most, you're going through the most challenging period in your life
Life - Fiction Rated: K+ - English - Angst/Poetry - Chapters: 1 - Words: 223 - Reviews: 2 - Updated: 1-28-05 - Published: 1-28-05
75. Falling Apart reviews
My first attempt at a song. 'I tried to be what you wanted..." Please R&R
Song - Fiction Rated: K+ - English - Angst/General - Chapters: 1 - Words: 244 - Reviews: 4 - Updated: 1-23-05 - Published: 1-23-05
76. Fourteen reviews
About how there are no age requirements in life, one can be depressed and hurt no matter what age they are
Life - Fiction Rated: T - English - Angst/Poetry - Chapters: 1 - Words: 91 - Reviews: 6 - Updated: 1-22-05 - Published: 1-22-05
77. I Hate Myself reviews
When you believe that it's your fault her life turned out this way, and you hate the person you see in the mirror so much because of it
Life - Fiction Rated: T - English - Angst/Poetry - Chapters: 1 - Words: 206 - Reviews: 7 - Updated: 1-22-05 - Published: 1-22-05
78. Without You reviews
About how when your life hangs in the balance of another's choice between life and death, when you need someone so much that you beg them to stay on Earth
Life - Fiction Rated: T - English - Angst/Poetry - Chapters: 1 - Words: 125 - Reviews: 4 - Updated: 1-22-05 - Published: 1-22-05
79. Too Busy To Notice reviews
About how depression can take your life, but while you live, it makes you blind and deaf to others, especially those you love, who we all take for granted
Life - Fiction Rated: T - English - Angst/Poetry - Chapters: 1 - Words: 122 - Reviews: 5 - Updated: 1-22-05 - Published: 1-22-05
80. I Used To reviews
About how depression changes everything, takes away everything you once loved
Life - Fiction Rated: T - English - Angst/Poetry - Chapters: 1 - Words: 177 - Reviews: 2 - Updated: 1-21-05 - Published: 1-21-05
81. Recovering Self Harmer reviews
About how you can never truly beat self harming
Life - Fiction Rated: T - English - Angst/Poetry - Chapters: 1 - Words: 153 - Reviews: 9 - Updated: 1-21-05 - Published: 1-21-05
82. So Called Black Hole reviews
A cynical view on society
Life - Fiction Rated: T - English - Poetry/Angst - Chapters: 1 - Words: 164 - Reviews: 4 - Updated: 1-21-05 - Published: 1-21-05
83. Let The Battle Begin reviews
I like this, i think it has a bit of a poetic feel to it. written when i had convinced myself i could get through this, which i can't. very optimistic
Young Adult - Fiction Rated: K+ - English - Poetry/Angst - Chapters: 1 - Words: 179 - Reviews: 1 - Updated: 1-12-05 - Published: 1-12-05
84. This is me reviews
A note i wrote on an up day. I like the way it turned out, like i could accept myself for who i am, without caring what others thought. Pity that didn't last
Essay - Fiction Rated: T - English - Angst/Poetry - Chapters: 1 - Words: 77 - Reviews: 2 - Updated: 1-12-05 - Published: 1-12-05
85. Killing Myself by Loving You reviews
About when a friend's actions not only affect her, but you as well, and you just don't understand, much less know what to do
Life - Fiction Rated: T - English - Angst/Poetry - Chapters: 1 - Words: 147 - Reviews: 2 - Updated: 1-12-05 - Published: 1-12-05
86. Letters » reviews
Letters written to those who have impacted my life, for better or worse, wriiten to get some of the emotion i feel off my chest...
Young Adult - Fiction Rated: T - English - Angst/Angst - Chapters: 11 - Words: 2,671 - Reviews: 12 - Updated: 12-30-04 - Published: 12-16-04
87. The story of my life reviews
About how every scar tells a tale, a new chapter in the story of my life
Life - Fiction Rated: T - English - Angst/Poetry - Chapters: 1 - Words: 144 - Reviews: 2 - Updated: 12-30-04 - Published: 12-30-04
88. Artistic Destruction reviews
a poem from the cutter's view of a razor. better than some of my other work.
Life - Fiction Rated: T - English - Angst/Poetry - Chapters: 1 - Words: 154 - Reviews: 3 - Updated: 12-29-04 - Published: 12-29-04
89. Supposed to be Perfect » reviews
A combination of fiction and journal entries focusing on the life of a cutter. I don't care what you think, I'm writing this purely for my own reasons, as selfish as that is...
Young Adult - Fiction Rated: T - English - Angst/Angst - Chapters: 5 - Words: 4,576 - Reviews: 13 - Updated: 12-18-04 - Published: 12-13-04
90. I can do this reviews
One of my more positive poems. I can do this...no i can't...i will, just promise me you'll be ok...about trying to stop in order to make someone ok. staying safe for the sake of someone else...
Life - Fiction Rated: K+ - English - Angst/Poetry - Chapters: 1 - Words: 153 - Reviews: 3 - Updated: 12-17-04 - Published: 12-17-04
91. I don't hate you reviews
For a friend. I don't know what happened, i just decided to write what was going on inside my head. 'I hate how...' Let me know how i can improve this
Life - Fiction Rated: K+ - English - Angst/Poetry - Chapters: 1 - Words: 229 - Reviews: 4 - Updated: 12-17-04 - Published: 12-17-04
92. I'm the one reviews
About blaming yourself for another's problems, and then realising its completely true. I'm the one/behind your suicide attempts...
Life - Fiction Rated: T - English - Angst/Poetry - Chapters: 1 - Words: 156 - Reviews: 3 - Updated: 12-9-04 - Published: 12-9-04
93. These walls reviews
When you realise you need help, but the rules you've set, the walls you've built stop you from doing so...
Life - Fiction Rated: T - English - Poetry/Angst - Chapters: 1 - Words: 167 - Reviews: 4 - Updated: 12-8-04 - Published: 12-8-04
94. Eternal Sleep reviews
Suicidal poem from earlier this year. Never fear, its not autobiographical, obviously, coz i'm still here...i think i am at least...Anyways, tell me what you think
Life - Fiction Rated: T - English - Angst/Poetry - Chapters: 1 - Words: 119 - Reviews: 3 - Updated: 12-8-04 - Published: 12-8-04
95. Sorry that reviews
Another apologetic poem. Apologising for all my faults. rated for a little language and references to suicide and cutting. I'm sorry/That i'm the person i am...
Life - Fiction Rated: T - English - Angst/Poetry - Chapters: 1 - Words: 270 - Reviews: 6 - Updated: 12-8-04 - Published: 12-8-04
96. True to herself reviews
exploring a relationship between myself and a friend, who i've messed around a lot. Starts off with anger and eventually attempts to understand why she's this way now.
Life - Fiction Rated: T - English - Angst/Poetry - Chapters: 1 - Words: 204 - Reviews: 1 - Updated: 12-8-04 - Published: 12-8-04
97. I'm Sorry reviews
Written for a friend, after i realised how i had ruined everything by letting her in.
Life - Fiction Rated: T - English - Angst/Poetry - Chapters: 1 - Words: 119 - Reviews: 2 - Updated: 12-8-04 - Published: 12-8-04
98. A pocket knife lay by my bed reviews
I know i said i wouldn't, that i was through with it, but i need it to survive...
Life - Fiction Rated: T - English - Angst/Poetry - Chapters: 1 - Words: 171 - Reviews: 4 - Updated: 12-8-04 - Published: 12-8-04
99. Wasted Tears reviews
A reflection on my past, from the beginning of this year onwards. I've stopped, looking at what a waste some of what i did was...
Life - Fiction Rated: T - English - Poetry/Angst - Chapters: 1 - Words: 40 - Reviews: 3 - Updated: 12-4-04 - Published: 12-4-04
100. One moment reviews
One moment, one memory, one picture, you'll never forget, the scars, the pain, the suffering
Life - Fiction Rated: T - English - Poetry/Angst - Chapters: 1 - Words: 155 - Reviews: 2 - Updated: 12-3-04 - Published: 12-3-04
101. Am I? reviews
My insecurities, my worries, my fears, questioning the past, present, and future...
Life - Fiction Rated: T - English - Poetry/Angst - Chapters: 1 - Words: 126 - Reviews: 2 - Updated: 12-3-04 - Published: 12-3-04
102. Give me a reason reviews
In atime of need, a time of despair, she asks for a reason, a reason to go on...
Life - Fiction Rated: K+ - English - Angst/Poetry - Chapters: 1 - Words: 132 - Reviews: 4 - Updated: 12-1-04 - Published: 12-1-04
103. Useless reviews
Looking back on days gone by, thinking maybe, wondering why she left, but deep down knowing its all my fault, because i was so useless
Life - Fiction Rated: T - English - Poetry/Angst - Chapters: 1 - Words: 272 - Reviews: 1 - Updated: 11-30-04 - Published: 11-30-04
104. Anymore reviews
When your actions hurt someone, yet you can't stop cutting, you beg for them to leave you, and set themselves free...
Life - Fiction Rated: T - English - Angst/Poetry - Chapters: 1 - Words: 96 - Reviews: 4 - Updated: 11-27-04 - Published: 11-27-04
105. Tell me reviews
A poem reflecting my insecurities, my paranoia. "Tell me I'm not worth the trouble and you're giving up on me..."
Life - Fiction Rated: T - English - Angst/Poetry - Chapters: 1 - Words: 147 - Reviews: 2 - Updated: 11-27-04 - Published: 11-27-04
106. Stolen reviews
Constant visions of your face haunt all that remains of my fragile broken mind
Life - Fiction Rated: K+ - English - Angst/Poetry - Chapters: 1 - Words: 54 - Reviews: 1 - Updated: 11-26-04 - Published: 11-26-04
107. Preparing to be Freed
Each seeks solace in different ways, each seeks freedom differently, sometimes for the good, sometimes for the bad, sometimes in a blade
Life - Fiction Rated: T - English - Angst/Poetry - Chapters: 1 - Words: 88 - Reviews: 0 - Updated: 11-26-04 - Published: 11-26-04
108. Never Good Enough For You reviews
Desperate for attention that she needs, yet never receives, crying for help, stuck in a competition she doesn't want...
Life - Fiction Rated: K+ - English - Angst/Poetry - Chapters: 1 - Words: 74 - Reviews: 1 - Updated: 11-26-04 - Published: 11-26-04
109. That is my death reviews
Giving up/Giving in/I can't take this no more...
Life - Fiction Rated: T - English - Angst/Poetry - Chapters: 1 - Words: 60 - Reviews: 1 - Updated: 11-6-04 - Published: 11-6-04
110. Into your arms reviews
When you refuse to let someone inside your mind, because you're so afraid of the consequences
Life - Fiction Rated: T - English - Angst/Poetry - Chapters: 1 - Words: 113 - Reviews: 1 - Updated: 11-6-04 - Published: 11-6-04
111. Stalked
Homesickness and unrequited love dominate young Jane Dunn's day. Read her tale as she endures one day in her average American teenage life.
Young Adult - Fiction Rated: T - English - Angst/Romance - Chapters: 1 - Words: 1,829 - Reviews: 0 - Updated: 11-5-04 - Published: 11-5-04
112. History Repeats Itself reviews
Another poem about cutting. What a surprise. Anyways, it's a different style, or kind of. Tell me what you think
Life - Fiction Rated: T - English - Poetry/Angst - Chapters: 1 - Words: 54 - Reviews: 1 - Updated: 11-5-04 - Published: 11-5-04
113. How I'll Stay reviews
A short poem about blaming yourself for problems you didnt cause
Life - Fiction Rated: K+ - English - Poetry/Angst - Chapters: 1 - Words: 22 - Reviews: 1 - Updated: 11-1-04 - Published: 11-1-04
114. Happier Times reviews
Reflecting on those precious memories, holding on to them tight, and though i shiver with fear, they always bring a smile to my face.
Friendship - Fiction Rated: K+ - English - Angst/Poetry - Chapters: 1 - Words: 79 - Reviews: 1 - Updated: 11-1-04 - Published: 11-1-04
115. All Because Of You reviews
Looking back on the past, why i live this way, and its all her fault.
Friendship - Fiction Rated: K+ - English - Poetry/Angst - Chapters: 1 - Words: 565 - Reviews: 1 - Updated: 11-1-04 - Published: 11-1-04
116. Never Trust Again reviews
A terrible poem based on stuff that happened in 2003
Friendship - Fiction Rated: T - English - Angst/Poetry - Chapters: 1 - Words: 115 - Reviews: 3 - Updated: 10-23-04 - Published: 10-23-04
117. In my scars reviews
The title says it all, different ways of coping with anger and the feeling of being lost
Life - Fiction Rated: T - English - Angst/Poetry - Chapters: 1 - Words: 49 - Reviews: 7 - Updated: 10-20-04 - Published: 10-20-04
118. What are we doing here? reviews
Looks at the world through the eyes of someone committing suicide. Not my best work
Life - Fiction Rated: T - English - Poetry/Angst - Chapters: 1 - Words: 66 - Reviews: 1 - Updated: 10-17-04 - Published: 10-17-04
119. Solace in the knife reviews
Friendship - Fiction Rated: T - English - Poetry/Angst - Chapters: 1 - Words: 138 - Reviews: 7 - Updated: 10-16-04 - Published: 10-16-04
120. Cuts reviews
Friendship - Fiction Rated: T - English - Angst/Poetry - Chapters: 1 - Words: 83 - Reviews: 4 - Updated: 10-16-04 - Published: 10-16-04
121. The Man I Call Dad reviews
Looks at divorce and abuse through the eyes of a child, their feelings that can be so often neglected
Family - Fiction Rated: K+ - English - Poetry - Chapters: 1 - Words: 102 - Reviews: 1 - Updated: 10-16-04 - Published: 10-16-04
122. Hunted reviews
An interesting tale, a tale of someone being chased and murdered. But the end will leave you surprised, i hope.
Life - Fiction Rated: T - English - Angst - Chapters: 1 - Words: 50 - Reviews: 4 - Updated: 10-16-04 - Published: 10-16-04
123. The Rape reviews
A two sided poem which looks at the perspective of the victim and the rapist. Not suitable for the weak hearted, this is sad.
Love - Fiction Rated: T - English - Tragedy - Chapters: 1 - Words: 200 - Reviews: 9 - Updated: 10-16-04 - Published: 10-16-04
124. They Think reviews
A poem about what 'they think' and who someone really is, the horrible secrets she hides
Friendship - Fiction Rated: T - English - Poetry/Angst - Chapters: 1 - Words: 178 - Reviews: 1 - Updated: 10-16-04 - Published: 10-16-04
125. Not Good Enough reviews
A tale of a girl, asking why someone doesn't love her, giving all the possible reasons.
Love - Fiction Rated: K+ - English - Poetry - Chapters: 1 - Words: 68 - Reviews: 2 - Updated: 10-16-04 - Published: 10-16-04
126. Praying For Your Spirit reviews
About the loss of someone close to you, and the process of saying goodbye
Friendship - Fiction Rated: K+ - English - Poetry - Chapters: 1 - Words: 742 - Reviews: 3 - Updated: 10-16-04 - Published: 10-16-04
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