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| thedarkthatiwas |
Author has written 49 stories for Fantasy, Life, General, Friendship, War, Essay, and General. I wrote this poem-scrap a long time ago. It represents who I used to be. I can barely remember that person now. the same as ever, she stalks through life a pretence of company a reality of untrusting solitude her life is a volatile mess what is the point of hope? it never works out that way. Hope is important. Without hope there is no living, no life. Smile at someone, laugh with someone else. Enjoy life to the max. These things all sound so terribly overused, oversaid, dry, meaningless, do they not...? Don't take them as such. Believe them. Live. | |||||||
1. My Last Goodbye reviewsWritten in May. (Was that that long ago) I still find this poem highly disturbing... and yes, the last part refers to the fictionpress people with their reviews and support, last year, the ones of you who still remain to read this. Is as title. Except obvPoetry: Life - Rated: T - English - Chapters: 1 - Words: 205 - Reviews: 4 - Published: 8-12-062. equation reviewsWritten a few months ago. Unlike a lot of my other stuff, this isn't really centred around the angsty madness of last year. It's centred around the illness that provoked... the events of last year. I guess a lot of it's subtle and glossed over... but; thiPoetry: Life - Rated: T - English - Angst/Angst - Chapters: 1 - Words: 160 - Reviews: 2 - Published: 8-12-063. The Joyous Loss Of Remembrance reviewsA short thing I wrote around a month ago, regarding... a stiuation I'd still rather not think about. Mood title.Poetry: Life - Rated: T - English - Angst - Chapters: 1 - Words: 70 - Reviews: 1 - Published: 8-12-064. Ripped » reviewsA poem in 4 parts - my most recent work... written today. I just wrote, and some of it's maybe not that good, but that's why I kept writing... the last part's like the summary, dismayed... I'm not glad of the angst. R&R please...Poetry: Life - Rated: T - English - Angst - Chapters: 4 - Words: 468 - Reviews: 3 - Published: 8-10-065. fictionpress reviewsI was thinking of fictionpress when i wrote this. I guess this is really my experiences, my take on it. I like to think it's insightful. It's certainly different to what you might think.Poetry: Life - Rated: K+ - English - Angst - Chapters: 1 - Words: 129 - Reviews: 9 - Published: 5-20-066. A Dream Of Normality reviewsI know it's not really like my other stuff... but my poetry reflects me, so if I crack, my poetry will drift and jar. It's layered, and probably confusing. But, even so...Poetry: Life - Rated: T - English - Angst - Chapters: 1 - Words: 136 - Reviews: 2 - Published: 2-22-067. Sixteen reviewsA sort-of sequel to 'Fifteen'. It's drifting, and... I haven't written poetry for such a long time. But I wrote this. ...Poetry: Life - Rated: T - English - Angst - Chapters: 1 - Words: 275 - Reviews: 3 - Published: 2-22-068. Talking to reviewsA conversation with someone... when you read the AN you will know what I mean when I say this is a true story. I stood there, and talked, and talked, and let out everything...Fiction: General - Rated: T - English - Angst/Angst - Chapters: 1 - Words: 740 - Reviews: 2 - Published: 12-12-059. The Last Exam reviewsThis isn't really about the exam. It's thoughts of mine, I just sat down and wrote 'em. This doesn't express my feelings as well as I wanted. I havn't updated for ages, ne?Fiction: General - Rated: T - English - Angst - Chapters: 1 - Words: 302 - Reviews: 2 - Published: 11-27-0510. Night World reviewsThis is not about dreams/nightmares; more it is about, uh... well, me, at night. I don't sleep much, instead I... (read poem) Thoughts and emotions.Poetry: Life - Rated: K+ - English - Angst - Chapters: 1 - Words: 233 - Reviews: 10 - Published: 7-15-0511. Fifteen reviewsThis poem was written in the same sort of mind as 'Since February'. "I never asked to be fifteen..."Poetry: Life - Rated: T - English - Angst - Chapters: 1 - Words: 251 - Reviews: 9 - Published: 7-5-0512. Since February reviewsMe thinking about my life 'since February'. I was feeling down because it hasn't really been brilliant so I wrote a poem about it... as usual.Poetry: Life - Rated: T - English - Angst - Chapters: 1 - Words: 309 - Reviews: 6 - Published: 6-27-0513. Almost reviewsI wrote this the night before I wrote 'Nightmare Terror', but only just typed it up . More of my angsty writings about darkness, and needing to escape... more true feelings & emotions...Poetry: Life - Rated: T - English - Angst - Chapters: 1 - Words: 200 - Reviews: 2 - Published: 6-27-0514. Nightmare Terror reviewsAs title. Under Horror because.. well, it goes briefly over a few of my more... horrifying nightmares. I wrote this coz my parents are trying to force me to go to sleep at a normal time, and I don't like having much sleep coz of.. as described in poem.Poetry: General - Rated: T - English - Horror - Chapters: 1 - Words: 190 - Reviews: 3 - Published: 6-20-0515. What Is The Point reviewsI wrote this poem over a month ago but am going to put it up even so because it still represents how I feel about my situation. Most people will not know what I'm going on about but... yes. More of the dp/dr also.Poetry: Life - Rated: T - English - Angst - Chapters: 1 - Words: 361 - Reviews: 6 - Published: 6-12-0516. Spiralling reviewsThe end of this poem is very abrupt, but it is how I felt at the time and place of writing, which was sometime past midnight, sitting in my open window in the night.Poetry: Life - Rated: T - English - Angst - Chapters: 1 - Words: 177 - Reviews: 4 - Published: 6-11-0517. Pointless Trying reviewsThis is a mix of ideas and feelings of mine, woven into a poem. I was semi-depersonalised at the time of writing, which explains some of the odder ideas. It was also written very late (or early). But I don't think it's bad, even so.Poetry: Life - Rated: K+ - English - Angst - Chapters: 1 - Words: 228 - Reviews: 3 - Published: 6-11-0518. Behind Closed Lids reviewsThis has some of the same ideas as in 'Keeping Me Sane', about not facing reality. Ideas about staying in darkness...Poetry: Life - Rated: K+ - English - Angst - Chapters: 1 - Words: 181 - Reviews: 4 - Published: 6-11-0519. Façade reviewsJust an idea of mine. This was inspired by a brief drawing I did of an ornate house FRONT only- a facade- with flames shooting out from behind. (read the poem and understand.)Poetry: Life - Rated: K+ - English - Angst - Chapters: 1 - Words: 225 - Reviews: 5 - Published: 6-10-0520. Owl Sanctuary reviewsThis was a poem I wrote when I was 12, and it won 1st prize and 100 in a regional poetry competition. Just thought I'd post it for all to see ;)Poetry: General - Rated: K - English - Chapters: 1 - Words: 48 - Reviews: 4 - Published: 6-7-0521. Unanswerable Questions reviewsI have depersonalisation/derealisation and this poem was written in the midst of one of the times it was happening... handy hint: DON'T have dp/dr. It makes your life complete hell. (dp is caused by anxiety, so, therefore, don't be anxious.)Poetry: Life - Rated: K - English - Angst - Chapters: 1 - Words: 301 - Reviews: 7 - Published: 5-22-0522. Circle Of Madness » reviewsThis is a set of 3 poems written in the night. They're not my best work, and they may not make much sense, but they represent the circle of madness I go round and round in.Poetry: Life - Rated: T - English - Angst - Chapters: 3 - Words: 275 - Reviews: 10 - Published: 5-22-0523. Keeping Me Sane reviewsThis poem... is me. All I can say. This poem sums up a lot of who I am right now.Poetry: Life - Rated: K+ - English - Angst - Chapters: 1 - Words: 222 - Reviews: 5 - Published: 5-22-0524. Circle Of Death reviewsWell... another angsty, confused poem. I wrote this one in the day but had the overall idea sometime in the early morning. It's basically a lot of (somewhat disturbing) ideas of mine about... death.Poetry: Life - Rated: T - English - Angst - Chapters: 1 - Words: 184 - Reviews: 3 - Published: 5-22-0525. Leave Me Alone reviewsYet another about my EXfriend, who sent me a casual txt the other day which hacked me off coz I know she doesn't care about me, it's just her nasty group wanting to see what I'm up to.Poetry: Friendship - Rated: K - English - Chapters: 1 - Words: 148 - Reviews: 6 - Published: 5-22-0526. The Dragon reviewsComparison between me and a dragon.Poetry: Life - Rated: K+ - English - Angst/Fantasy - Chapters: 1 - Words: 145 - Reviews: 13 - Published: 4-16-0527. Explosive reviewsI tend to snap really easily...Poetry: Life - Rated: K+ - English - Angst - Chapters: 1 - Words: 172 - Reviews: 16 - Published: 3-23-0528. SelfDiscovery reviewsMy gosh, it's not an angsty poem. Now how boring is that. It's just this, uh, poem, about... oh I give up on these silly summaries. Read the title. Then read the poem.Poetry: Life - Rated: K - English - Chapters: 1 - Words: 465 - Reviews: 8 - Published: 3-23-0529. I'm Not Anorexic reviewsOh, well, yeah, my own take on anorexia, based on my own experiences. It's pretty long and crappy and I don't know why I'm putting it up, but, yeah. R&R if you like.Poetry: Life - Rated: T - English - Angst - Chapters: 1 - Words: 482 - Reviews: 8 - Published: 3-23-0530. Memory Scars reviewsUm... do I have to write a summary? Title pretty much says all.Poetry: Life - Rated: K+ - English - Angst - Chapters: 1 - Words: 406 - Reviews: 8 - Published: 3-23-0531. Pessimism reviewsAll these latest poems I have been putting up have been all very angsty and moody, and this one is no exception... title says all, btw. My pessimistic nature awakens...Poetry: Life - Rated: K+ - English - Angst - Chapters: 1 - Words: 322 - Reviews: 2 - Published: 3-23-0532. Angst Filled Anger reviewsI haven't got a clue what this one is about! I was in a random, angry, angst, depressing mood when I wrote it. Rating for content and swearing. Note that I was in a random mood: some of it doesn't make the slightest bit of sense.Poetry: Life - Rated: T - English - Angst/Angst - Chapters: 1 - Words: 175 - Reviews: 4 - Published: 3-23-0533. Questioning My Sanity reviewsWell... everyone does one at some stage or other... a poem about cutting! This, however, is not about cutting in the usual sense, just my own take on it... or my own experiences... current ones, sadly.Poetry: Life - Rated: T - English - Angst - Chapters: 1 - Words: 491 - Reviews: 3 - Published: 3-23-0534. Sleep, Little One reviewsTitle is VERY misleading, check the rating. Pretty dark poem, no happy end either- ye have been warned. I'm just depressed. This was scrawled on a scrap of paper at bout 1 in morn, if that explains anything.Poetry: General - Rated: T - English - Angst/Angst - Chapters: 1 - Words: 145 - Reviews: 4 - Published: 3-23-0535. One Day reviewsThis would be the most random of my works, even I'm not really sure what it's about. What was in the bottle anyway? There will be some confusing bits in it which I was going to extend on but couldn't figure out how, so... but for some reason I think it'sPoetry: General - Rated: K - English - Chapters: 1 - Words: 180 - Reviews: 9 - Published: 3-10-0536. Perfection reviewsOkay, I wrote this in Year 9 (I think it's year 8 in America? NZyr 9) and I'm yr11 (USyr10) now, but I just thought I'd post it and see what people thought of it. It's not really up to the standard of my current writing, but R&R anyway! Plz!Fiction: General - Rated: K - English - Chapters: 1 - Words: 490 - Reviews: 4 - Published: 3-10-0537. Trapped reviewsI wrote this very randomly, just sat down at the computer and wrote it then saved it. Why don't they bother to try...?Fiction: General - Rated: K - English - Chapters: 1 - Words: 652 - Reviews: 2 - Published: 3-10-0538. Hurt Once Too Many reviewsI would have liked this to be 'Life/Friendship' but you can't do that, so, 'Life' it is. I'm angry at the world today. After a while, you never trust anyone again...Poetry: Life - Rated: K - English - Chapters: 1 - Words: 301 - Reviews: 5 - Published: 3-10-0539. No Going Back reviewsI keep on trying to make her be my friend again... but now I've realised there's no going back.Poetry: Friendship - Rated: K - English - Chapters: 1 - Words: 339 - Reviews: 3 - Published: 3-10-0540. Control reviewsBeing, uh, controlled... Title says all. Just read!Poetry: Friendship - Rated: K - English - Chapters: 1 - Words: 360 - Reviews: 4 - Published: 3-10-0541. Let The Sky Swallow Me reviewsI wrote this at around one in the morning, just feeling a little confused and depressed.Poetry: Life - Rated: K - English - Angst - Chapters: 1 - Words: 123 - Reviews: 3 - Published: 3-10-0542. Cutting Off Her Wings reviewsUmmm... yeah, doesn't title say all? It's a cliched expression, yes, but I just felt like writing on it. Sort of angry, some of my thoughts... yeah.Poetry: Life - Rated: K - English - Chapters: 1 - Words: 318 - Reviews: 5 - Published: 3-10-0543. No Animals Were Harmed? reviewsOkay. This is an essay on animal rights. It won 250 in a competition which I won't bother to explain, but if you are living in NZ (unlikely I know) you should know it... College Herald. (NZ Herald)Fiction: Essay - Rated: K - English - Chapters: 1 - Words: 799 - Reviews: 7 - Published: 2-21-0544. What They Don't Know reviewsA little dark, title pretty much sums it up. Everyone thinks they know me, but they really have no idea...Poetry: Life - Rated: K+ - English - Angst - Chapters: 1 - Words: 487 - Reviews: 15 - Published: 2-19-0545. You Could Dream reviewsUmm... A look at a war-torn world, so awful that you don't want to be there at all... but you could dream...Poetry: War - Rated: K - English - Chapters: 1 - Words: 119 - Reviews: 8 - Published: 2-18-0546. Do You Not Realise reviewsA poem "for" my ex-best-friend, who threw her lot in with the nastiest girls I know, betraying me without a care. Grr. PG for mild language. Extremely mild languagePoetry: Friendship - Rated: K+ - English - Angst - Chapters: 1 - Words: 302 - Reviews: 8 - Published: 2-18-0547. Sanctuary reviewsA girl who is lonely, walking through a forest that happens to belong to a nasty girl at school. This is a terrible summary. I'll change it sometime. ONE-SHOT Please review! The story's better than the summary. HOD English at my school loved it.Fiction: General - Rated: K - English - Chapters: 1 - Words: 744 - Reviews: 4 - Published: 2-15-0548. Solitude reviewsThis is a poem I wrote when my life had taken a turn for the worse, about withdrawing into yourself to escape reality. I like reviews! Hint hint.Poetry: Life - Rated: K - English - Angst - Chapters: 1 - Words: 66 - Reviews: 7 - Published: 2-15-0549. Goodbye Tseer reviewsSHORTENED SUMMARY/ A girl is walking through the dense woods near her home when she discovers a creature unlike any she has ever seen before. 5 years later, she receives a vision which tells her to go back to the same place. ONE SHOT Please review!Fiction: Fantasy - Rated: K - English - Fantasy - Chapters: 1 - Words: 1,852 - Reviews: 3 - Published: 2-7-05
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