18 year-old Canadian female. Clinically depressed. Aspiring poet, novelist, and
songwriter. Compassionate, yet selfish. Deep, yet sometimes incredibly
shallow. Likes to experiment with different styles here and there.
Unsure of self, and trapped in a pre-made mold. Dislikes hypocrites,
yet is one herself. Doesn't know how to break free... yet does.
Contender's top five (based on comments and personal preference):
1. Needle (21)
2. Cyanide (10)
3. Out of Place (7)
4. Tattered Little Deliverance (2)
5. Prisoner (13)
Newest things in Contender's world
November 13, 2005
November 2, 2005, the night before the first
anniversary of my first time telling anyone about my struggle with
homosexuality, my parents confronted me about a poem they found on this
page, called Exposed, that deals with that. I guess that means it took
about a year for me to come out. That is, I think, relatively fast.
I know I haven't posted much lately, but I thank all
those who have taken the time to faithfully review my work... kudos to
Liz and Shadow. The reason I haven't been posting is because I'm
attempting to write a collection of short stories, which turned into a
novel, and I want to have it mostly finished before I start posting it
on here. It's taking up most of my time and creative energy, which is
why poetry has been slow-coming. However, now that I'm out of the
proverbial closet, I'm posting another poem on that topic today, so eat
your hearts out. Special treat for all you reviewers.
Ah, for awhile I was proof-reading a story for
Spartacus, but I think that's over now and I'm back to a plain
reviewer, which is okay. I think it turned me into too much of a
grammar freak.
Hmmm, I am working full time these days, which takes up
much of my time that I might otherwise use for writing. I am also
attempting to learn to play the guitar, but that is slow-going, as I
care more to be writing than playing music. The tune can come after the
lyrics for my stuff.
December 18, 2005
Posted my latest poem today... hadn't written many poems in the
past 2 months, and I think this one's pretty good. As for my novel, it
is coming along, and I may soon begin to post portions of it for
reviewing. Things are settling down for me personally, and I think
that's mainly a good thing. I'm not sure I'm ready to pass judgement on
that yet.
March 28, 2006:
Wow, it's been ages. My life and emotions have recently swung out
of control, past the point where poetry can do anything for me, so I've
hardly written in the past 4 months. Still working on that story when
I'm able, although I now have two others (somewhat) in the works. I'll
probably be posting here again soon enough, once I can get my head back
on straight. Well, um, be sane, I mean. Heh heh heh.
June 24, 2006: It
stinks when one has to pause in writing a long work, because she's
indecisive about the ending and how to bring it about. I don't want to
post tidbits of my longer work on here until I'm sure I'm finished.
Due
to a suggestion from a reviewer, I posted a free verse type thing
today. It's not poetry, it's more a descriptive paragraph, but I want
reviews on it, because I'm trying to get back into writing more now,
and I inevitably need guidance. Any reviews on "Peace" would be
appreciated.
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