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Dillutional
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since: 12-06-05, id: 504308
Author has written 37 stories for Life, General, Love, Song, Family, Friendship, Romance, Young Adult, and War.

Name: Dillutional to you. I'd tell you my real name...But then I'd have to kill you.

Age: Somewhere between one and one-hundred...Guess...And if you get it wrong then I chop one of your limbs off...You wanna know now?

Demenor: Angsty with hyper bursts

Fav Color: Lime green (doesn't seem to fit me does it?)

Hey Hey Hey. It's me again! Now I do have a story up, but it's not A Thousand Feet Up like I said it would be. I got chappie one of it done, but I'm afraid that I have a terrable writers block on chappie two. I also didn't like the way the writing style that I used was turning out. So therefore, instead I have up a substitute. As The Ivories Run Red. This is depressing and angsy just like almost all of my work, so no change there. I do have to give some credit for this to L. Kantenseter.We had a conversation about our past experiances and she gave me the initial idea for this story.

I'd have to say that I don't mind the way this one's turning out, but if you would leave your reviews at the door, I'd appreciate it.

In a note to my poetry, I thank you for bearing with me through all of my spastic writing. I'm trying some new styles so bear with me. Also my three year anniversary with my wonderful boyfriend is coming up, also, the one year anniversary of my cousins suicide is coming up. Most of my poetry is focused on one of those two things. A little bittersweet, huh? Tell me what you think of the new styles. THX!!


Upcoming Chapters:

As The Ivories Run Red, Chapter Three: perfect family: I'm working very hard on this chapter and if you have any ideas please e-mail me because I have a terrible writers block.


Upcoming Stories:

None as of yet :) But I do have some promising prospects


Poems will come as I write them...Randomely
Words for thought:

'You cannot bleed, where there are already scars.'

'Everything is poison, nothing is without poisonous qualities...It is only the amount that makes it poison'

'Time heals what reason cannot'

'Only so many tears are granted to you in your lifetime. Once those tears are gone, you only have blood left to cry with.'


Note to readers:

Warning: Most if not all of my poetry is depressing and angsty...Along with most if not all of my stories. If you don't like it, don't read it. So I don't want to hear flames about how depressing, angsty or trajic it is...Thank you.

All of my writing is made from, or inspired by my personal experiance...If you don't like that please go away. Thx and Ja ne!




1. Unvirgin heart reviews
Been ravaged and beaten...Frozen and thawed...But you love my heart...My dirty, filthy, unvirgin heart...
Complete - Love - Fiction Rated: T - English - Romance/Angst - Chapters: 1 - Words: 171 - Reviews: 6 - Updated: 1-14-08 - Published: 1-14-08
2. To Forget
To forget: To overlook disreguard...Just forget it. But it's not that easy to forget...The dictionary makes it sound so easy...
Complete - General - Fiction Rated: K+ - English - Angst/Tragedy - Chapters: 1 - Words: 201 - Reviews: 0 - Updated: 1-14-08 - Published: 1-14-08
3. Mistress reviews
I have a date with my mistress, She'll be the death of me. My mistress is my razor, She will set me free.
Complete - General - Fiction Rated: T - English - Angst/General - Chapters: 1 - Words: 150 - Reviews: 1 - Updated: 11-4-07 - Published: 11-4-07
4. Twisted Lullaby reviews
Daddy is supposed protect you, love you...Sing you a lullaby so that you can forget about your nightmares and go to sleep...But to some daddy IS their nightmare...Their daddy sings a twisted lullaby...
Complete - Song - Fiction Rated: T - English - Angst/Drama - Chapters: 1 - Words: 218 - Reviews: 1 - Updated: 10-29-07 - Published: 10-29-07
5. You Chose Me reviews
Laying here with you it's hard to belive...That you chose me...And two and a half years later...You're still here....
Complete - Love - Fiction Rated: M - English - General/Romance - Chapters: 1 - Words: 351 - Reviews: 1 - Updated: 9-16-07 - Published: 9-16-07
6. Soldure reviews
My soldure marches into battle..Just for a child he doesn't know...He didn't have to leave...He didn't have to go.
Complete - War - Fiction Rated: T - English - Tragedy/Drama - Chapters: 1 - Words: 222 - Reviews: 2 - Updated: 9-16-07 - Published: 9-16-07
7. Free reviews
I have so many questions as to why you left..But in the end I know the answere...You left for the same reason I wanted to...To be free
Complete - Life - Fiction Rated: T - English - Tragedy/Angst - Chapters: 1 - Words: 254 - Reviews: 1 - Updated: 8-28-07 - Published: 8-28-07
8. On My Own reviews
I can't let them see me cry..I am the strong one...So I will bleed for you..But only in the silence that surrounds me...And I will greive for you...But only on my own...
Life - Fiction Rated: T - English - Tragedy/Angst - Chapters: 1 - Words: 423 - Reviews: 2 - Updated: 8-27-07 - Published: 8-27-07
9. Broken Hero reviews
It's a grave, only a place for your body to rest throughout it's eternal slumber....I used to be the hero, but on October 2,2006, the hero broke...A true story: he committed suicide, and this is about my first visit to his grave alone.
Complete - Life - Fiction Rated: T - English - Tragedy/Angst - Chapters: 1 - Words: 1,138 - Reviews: 1 - Updated: 8-26-07 - Published: 8-26-07
10. As The Ivories Run Red » reviews
Jasmine always thought Julliard would be an easy goal...But when she doesn't get in she turns to her sister for help, and is sucked into a world she never knew existed.
Young Adult - Fiction Rated: T - English - Angst/Tragedy - Chapters: 3 - Words: 4,438 - Reviews: 5 - Updated: 7-10-07 - Published: 7-5-06
11. Final Goodbye
I never got to say goodbye to you...And now that I have the chance I can't say anything...So I leave this note on your grave to say it for me...This is my final goodbye
Complete - Song - Fiction Rated: T - English - Angst/Tragedy - Chapters: 1 - Words: 268 - Reviews: 0 - Updated: 7-10-07 - Published: 7-10-07
12. Fade
I'm slowly fading away into the dusk....Beacause the sun will not accept me....
Complete - Song - Fiction Rated: T - English - Angst/Tragedy - Chapters: 1 - Words: 146 - Reviews: 0 - Updated: 7-10-07 - Published: 7-10-07
13. In the mirror reviews
That woman in the mirror...She can't be me
Complete - Song - Fiction Rated: K+ - English - Angst/Spiritual - Chapters: 1 - Words: 211 - Reviews: 2 - Updated: 6-19-07 - Published: 6-19-07
14. Even I cry reviews
Yes I am human..No, I'm not always a pillar of strenth..I cried at his grave..But if you see me crying just leave. I'm the one who's always helped you...You don't need to see me like this......rhyming poem Dedicated to all of my friends
Complete - General - Fiction Rated: T - English - Angst/General - Chapters: 1 - Words: 332 - Reviews: 2 - Updated: 6-7-07 - Published: 6-7-07
15. Too Blind reviews
You are too blind to see me now...I'm invisable...It won't be any different when I'm gone...Except then you won't be blind...I just won't be there.
Complete - Life - Fiction Rated: K+ - English - Angst/Tragedy - Chapters: 1 - Words: 210 - Reviews: 1 - Updated: 3-11-07 - Published: 3-11-07
16. Frozen Rain reviews
The November wind freezes my tears as I stare at your grave. They drop to the ground...They freeze on my cheeks...Can't you see how you hurt me. You chose this...
Complete - General - Fiction Rated: T - English - Tragedy/Angst - Chapters: 1 - Words: 152 - Reviews: 2 - Updated: 2-7-07 - Published: 2-7-07
17. I wish we still had love reviews
I wish our family still had the love we had...Before you left...Before you died...
Complete - Friendship - Fiction Rated: T - English - Tragedy/Angst - Chapters: 1 - Words: 285 - Reviews: 1 - Updated: 1-30-07 - Published: 1-30-07
18. Living reviews
I suppose you saved me from myself...Now I'm two years gone from what I once was..Thanks to you.
Complete - Love - Fiction Rated: T - English - Angst/Romance - Chapters: 1 - Words: 290 - Reviews: 5 - Updated: 1-14-07 - Published: 1-14-07
19. Boy that I Knew reviews
The boy that I knew would have never done this...But you weren't a boy any more...You were a man I would never come to know...Because of your sadness...And a twenty two gauge rifle...
Complete - Family - Fiction Rated: T - English - Tragedy/Angst - Chapters: 1 - Words: 566 - Reviews: 1 - Updated: 1-2-07 - Published: 1-2-07
20. Might reviews
You've left me by your own hand...But even though you have...I was hoping you might not be gone...I was hoping..That you hadn't really pulled the trigger...Maybe...You might not...? Maybe..It was just a nightmare..? Please...Let that be...
Complete - Song - Fiction Rated: T - English - Tragedy/Angst - Chapters: 1 - Words: 128 - Reviews: 1 - Updated: 12-19-06 - Published: 12-19-06
21. Left Behind reviews
A little rant I wrote. People say that no one cares...But I know for a fact that they do. The ones left behind hurt more than the dead...I know...I've been on both sides.
Complete - Young Adult - Fiction Rated: T - English - Tragedy/Angst - Chapters: 1 - Words: 732 - Reviews: 2 - Updated: 12-19-06 - Published: 12-19-06
22. The one to leave reviews
I thought I would be the one to take my life...But now I have come out of my depression and it is you who fell in...And now your gone...dedicated to Micheal Loyble
Complete - Song - Fiction Rated: T - English - Tragedy/Angst - Chapters: 1 - Words: 193 - Reviews: 1 - Updated: 11-4-06 - Published: 11-4-06
23. Dead As Your World reviews
We were so close...You where like the brother I never had...You left...I healed...Now you left again...For the last time...By your own hand.
General - Fiction Rated: T - English - Tragedy/Angst - Chapters: 1 - Words: 171 - Reviews: 4 - Updated: 10-9-06 - Published: 10-9-06
24. Just Existing reviews
I wanted to die...I wanted to live...I didn't really care which one...I guess I just wanted to do more than just exist.
Life - Fiction Rated: T - English - Angst/Tragedy - Chapters: 1 - Words: 256 - Reviews: 3 - Updated: 7-7-06 - Published: 7-7-06
25. That's why they call it friendS reviews
I've held your burden for 10 lonely years...But you have always refused to even hear my problems. You say that's why they call it friendS...Oh yeah that's what they call it, isn't it?...Huh...Idiots.
Friendship - Fiction Rated: T - English - Angst/Poetry - Chapters: 1 - Words: 553 - Reviews: 2 - Updated: 7-7-06 - Published: 7-7-06
26. Haunting Smile reviews
Your smile said that you accepted me...You said you would be a friend...Remember? It was four years ago when you became one of them...When you hurt me...And that smile still haunts me...For my stupidity in thinking you where different...
Friendship - Fiction Rated: K+ - English - Angst/Poetry - Chapters: 1 - Words: 321 - Reviews: 2 - Updated: 7-5-06 - Published: 7-5-06
27. Bittersweet Solace reviews
Sometimes one will make any trade...Or pay any price for solace...But every bit of that solace is bittersweet...
General - Fiction Rated: T - English - Angst/Tragedy - Chapters: 1 - Words: 133 - Reviews: 1 - Updated: 3-27-06 - Published: 3-27-06
28. My Fall From Grace reviews
I am sure to fall...From the grace that I once had...The grace I once loved...I once wanted...The grace that I do not deserve.
General - Fiction Rated: K+ - English - Poetry/Angst - Chapters: 1 - Words: 123 - Reviews: 1 - Updated: 3-2-06 - Published: 3-2-06
29. Through My Eyes
Being a demon in a human in a human world isn't easy...When you have the problems of both races...Tea knows that all too well...Through her own eyes.
Romance - Fiction Rated: T - English - Romance/Fantasy - Chapters: 1 - Words: 1,975 - Reviews: 0 - Updated: 2-12-06 - Published: 2-12-06
30. I Remember reviews
Nomatter how well you hide it...Or how much you think I don't understand...I do...I can see the look in your eyes...The same look that I once gave...
Friendship - Fiction Rated: T - English - General/Angst - Chapters: 1 - Words: 141 - Reviews: 1 - Updated: 1-25-06 - Published: 1-25-06
31. A battle with my heart reviews
You have found your way into my life...When I never thought it was possable...
Love - Fiction Rated: K+ - English - Romance/Angst - Chapters: 1 - Words: 157 - Reviews: 1 - Updated: 1-24-06 - Published: 1-24-06
32. Written Thoughts reviews
Everyone thinks that my writing is just scribbling..But to me it is so much more.
General - Fiction Rated: K+ - English - Poetry/Angst - Chapters: 1 - Words: 76 - Reviews: 2 - Updated: 1-18-06 - Published: 1-18-06
33. Teardrops reviews
You hurt her, and she came back, but now you're hurting her again. Can't you see what it's doing to her? It might take her life!
Love - Fiction Rated: K+ - English - Poetry/Angst - Chapters: 1 - Words: 96 - Reviews: 2 - Updated: 1-11-06 - Published: 1-11-06
34. Evils reviews
I'm tired of living with your lies! I don't want to hear them anymore! Let the tears of scorn flow freely!
General - Fiction Rated: K+ - English - Poetry/Angst - Chapters: 1 - Words: 49 - Reviews: 3 - Updated: 1-10-06 - Published: 1-10-06
35. Someone New reviews
Your turning your back on your friends for a love that is wilting before your eyes. What does that say to us?
Friendship - Fiction Rated: K+ - English - Poetry/Angst - Chapters: 1 - Words: 47 - Reviews: 1 - Updated: 1-10-06 - Published: 1-10-06
36. One Day reviews
One day when they push to far the quiet one in the corner might just turn out to be more than they bargained for.
General - Fiction Rated: K+ - English - Poetry/Angst - Chapters: 1 - Words: 105 - Reviews: 4 - Updated: 1-9-06 - Published: 1-9-06
37. Release reviews
Sometimes we think that no one cares, but there are people just waiting to love you, if you let them.
General - Fiction Rated: T - English - Poetry/Angst - Chapters: 1 - Words: 123 - Reviews: 4 - Updated: 1-4-06 - Published: 1-4-06
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