| crimson cyanide |
Author has written 51 stories for Young Adult, Love, Life, Essay, and General. Name: Crimson Cyanide (formerly known as Frozenblade and/or cyanide tears) Location: Malta, Europe Age: supposedly 17 Star sign: Capricorn Hobbies: Reading, writing stories and poetry, spending (read: wasting) time with friends... some people think I like to torture myself too I hate: Myself at times, for being too weak to carry on, and too stubborn to show weakness... okay, not "at times". A lot of the time. Favourite singers/bands: Good Charlotte, H.I.M., Nightwish, Within Temptation, Simple Plan, Evanescence Favourite songs: Wounded, Dead Boy's Poem, Sleeping Sun, Wake Me Up When September Ends, Crazy, Bless the Child, Join Me In Death, Tourniquet... need I go on? Favourite books: Thrillers! And the Fearless series, anything about war...whatever! If it's text, I'll read it Favourite colours: Black and dark red Reason for being on Fictionpress: To escape the real world Thanks xxxx If you see yourself somewhere in a story or poem, I'm sorry... hate me if you must Nearly all my poems were written at school (during boring lessons), and they're almost all dedicated to the same person, much as I hate to admit it. A/N: I had to remove "Eulogy to the Hated" since some people apparentely freaked out over it (can't say I blame them). | |||||||
1. A Voice From the Dead reviewsShe killed her baby brother at the age of seven... now she has a baby of her own. The problem is, her conscience won't let her rest, certain that Baby Ryan is her punishmentFiction: Young Adult - Rated: M - English - Drama/Tragedy - Chapters: 1 - Words: 1,658 - Reviews: 2 - Published: 7-20-07 - Complete2. Who Held the Knife? » reviewsThe police assumed it was suicide. Her friends say it was murder. Can she speak to them from beyond the grave?Fiction: Young Adult - Rated: T - English - Mystery/Angst - Chapters: 5 - Words: 4,004 - Reviews: 4 - Updated: 3-31-07 - Published: 8-11-063. Welcome to My FamilyMy entry for an essay competition. Luke returns home after WW2, unable to come to terms with what he's left behind him.Fiction: Young Adult - Rated: T - English - Drama - Chapters: 1 - Words: 1,557 - Published: 3-29-07 - Complete4. White Lilies reviewsOneshot, written during an exam. Two friends are devastated when the third member of their trio succeeds in taking her own life. Better than it sounds, honest!Fiction: Young Adult - Rated: T - English - Angst/Tragedy - Chapters: 1 - Words: 687 - Reviews: 2 - Published: 3-26-07 - Complete5. Sweep up the mess that is my life » reviewsFour individuals ended up sharing a flat. Will they wreak havoc in each others' lives, or help them sort out the mess that is their existence?Fiction: Young Adult - Rated: T - English - Angst - Chapters: 2 - Words: 1,985 - Reviews: 3 - Updated: 3-21-07 - Published: 8-3-066. Circle of Support reviewsWritten as a request from BernieV about three months ago. Having experienced true heartbreak, a girl finds solace in her friendsFiction: General - Rated: T - English - Romance/Angst - Chapters: 1 - Words: 767 - Reviews: 2 - Published: 3-21-07 - Complete7. Crimson Tears reviewsBy coincidence, I got my head bashed open soon after writing this so it really looked like I was crying crimson tears! Blood drawn from biting my lip, blood along my arm using a razor, and the tears that fall when no one's lookingPoetry: Love - Rated: T - English - Angst/Tragedy - Chapters: 1 - Words: 222 - Reviews: 5 - Published: 2-25-07 - Complete8. Valley of Death reviewsMy friends were discussing a certain valley where a lot of people have committed suicide, then thought better of it when they noticed I was listening eagerly. This is the result of that conversation: a oneshot about suicide. See? I didn't jump myself!Fiction: Young Adult - Rated: T - English - Angst - Chapters: 1 - Words: 529 - Reviews: 1 - Published: 2-25-07 - Complete9. Undeserving reviewsA monologue to the girl someone chose over me... It's a bit exaggerated but please read, review and tell me if I'm over reactingPoetry: Love - Rated: T - English - Angst - Chapters: 1 - Words: 92 - Reviews: 1 - Published: 2-22-07 - Complete10. Because of You reviewsThis is what I've become and what I've learnt, all through you. I will never love or hope ever againPoetry: Life - Rated: T - English - Angst/Tragedy - Chapters: 1 - Words: 237 - Reviews: 3 - Published: 2-11-07 - Complete11. Angel of Mine reviewsNightly plea to my guardian angel, if this angel can really hear mePoetry: Love - Rated: T - English - Angst - Chapters: 1 - Words: 152 - Reviews: 2 - Published: 2-2-07 - Complete12. Goodbye Hell reviewsThe final moment before sweet deathPoetry: Love - Rated: M - English - Angst - Chapters: 1 - Words: 97 - Reviews: 1 - Published: 2-2-07 - Complete13. All I WantWhat I want and what you want have nothing in common. I want you... you don't want me... I bet you'll take anyone but mePoetry: Love - Rated: T - English - Angst - Chapters: 1 - Words: 147 - Published: 1-30-07 - Complete14. Broken and BleedingThree people, two wounds, inflicted differently by the same person... a wound of pleasure... a wound of painPoetry: Love - Rated: T - English - Angst - Chapters: 1 - Words: 86 - Published: 1-30-07 - Complete15. Killer reviewsI don't care who deals the final blow, or even if I deal it to myself... I just know that you're as guilty as sin, no matter what Rated for mentions of suicide and murderPoetry: Love - Rated: M - English - Angst/Tragedy - Chapters: 1 - Words: 246 - Reviews: 1 - Published: 1-30-07 - Complete16. Is it Love?Teenage breakup... teenage makeup... Destined for each other, they just can't stay apart for long. Dedicated to two of my best friends, who have shown me that love does existFiction: Young Adult - Rated: T - English - Romance/Angst - Chapters: 1 - Words: 622 - Published: 1-26-0717. FearWhen I was younger, my fears were the usual childish fears. Now, my fears have changed to deeper fears and persistent nightmares... you're in all of them, night and day. At night, you and blood... during the day, you and thoughts of eternal sleepPoetry: Love - Rated: T - English - Angst - Chapters: 1 - Words: 194 - Published: 1-25-07 - Complete18. Do You Think You're God?Can't you see I'm lost without you? Can't you see I'm desperate for your love? What gives you the right to play God with my fate? There's only one aspect of me you can't controlPoetry: Love - Rated: T - English - Angst - Chapters: 1 - Words: 159 - Published: 1-25-0719. Sweet Farewell reviewsI can't give you up, even though you can't be mine. My death is the only thing which can make me say goodbye to you.Poetry: Love - Rated: T - English - Angst - Chapters: 1 - Words: 169 - Reviews: 2 - Published: 1-25-07 - Complete20. Too Late reviewsYou told me not to get sucked further in, that I was only heading for heartache. You told me to get out while I still could, but I can't. I'm in too deep already, I just can't break free.Poetry: Love - Rated: T - English - Angst - Chapters: 1 - Words: 159 - Reviews: 2 - Published: 1-12-07 - Complete21. What Do You Think of Me? reviewsI'd give you anything, but you wouldn't want it. I doubt I ever cross your mind, except as the person you once or twice got a glimpse of...a shadowPoetry: Love - Rated: T - English - Angst - Chapters: 1 - Words: 165 - Reviews: 10 - Published: 12-31-06 - Complete22. Icy Kisses reviewsAn icy kiss will be my legacy to you, since you can't be mine in lifePoetry: Love - Rated: T - English - Angst - Chapters: 1 - Words: 163 - Reviews: 5 - Published: 12-31-06 - Complete23. Am I Pretty Enough Now? reviewsWill I be pretty enough for you as I die? What do I have to do to be pretty enough?Poetry: Love - Rated: T - English - Angst - Chapters: 1 - Words: 146 - Reviews: 1 - Published: 12-31-06 - Complete24. Far From PerfectionYou'll never be mine only because of one thing. You expect perfection, but that's exactly what I'm not, and I'll never be, no matter how hard I try. I'll just never be good enough for you... I don't deserve you.Poetry: Love - Rated: T - English - Angst - Chapters: 1 - Words: 134 - Published: 12-30-06 - Complete25. What Happened to Happy Endings? reviewsDoes the perfect storybook ending only exist in a soppy Disney movie? That's what I think. Not my best work, I just wrote this as a kind of selfanalysis, but you're welcome to read and hopefully reviewFiction: Essay - Rated: K+ - English - Angst - Chapters: 1 - Words: 322 - Reviews: 3 - Published: 12-29-0626. Final Try reviewsThis is a lastditch attempt to show my crush how I really feel towards him. Some friends think I should show it to him, but I don't know... it just seems like there's too much resting on it. Please rr this!Poetry: Love - Rated: T - English - Angst - Chapters: 1 - Words: 145 - Reviews: 1 - Published: 12-27-06 - Complete27. What Next?I admit, I'm lost in you... but now what happens? Do I go on like this, suffering unrequited love, or should I admit that this is a hopeless case? Can I admit this to myself?Poetry: Love - Rated: T - English - Angst - Chapters: 1 - Words: 101 - Published: 12-27-06 - Complete28. Ode to the Unborn Child reviewsMy first prochoice poem! We're saving the unborn children from what life has in store for themPoetry: Life - Rated: T - English - Angst - Chapters: 1 - Words: 309 - Reviews: 2 - Published: 12-22-0629. Farewell SignsHow could we have ben so blind? You were calling out for help, and we didn't hear you. One girl's thoughts once she hears of her best friend's suicide.Fiction: Young Adult - Rated: M - English - Angst/Tragedy - Chapters: 1 - Words: 524 - Published: 12-14-0630. Unlovable reviewsHow many times can you endure rejection? At some point, you can't take it anymore, and you have to ask WHY? Why am I unlovable?Poetry: Love - Rated: T - English - Angst - Chapters: 1 - Words: 143 - Reviews: 1 - Published: 12-14-06 - Complete31. Goodbye reviewsI want this to be read at my funeral the truth of my hatred for life revealed at last.Poetry: Life - Rated: T - English - Angst - Chapters: 1 - Words: 229 - Reviews: 2 - Published: 12-8-06 - Complete32. Alone to Eternity reviewsWhen you're on the outside looking in, true love mocks you making you feel worthlessPoetry: Love - Rated: T - English - Angst - Chapters: 1 - Words: 109 - Reviews: 2 - Published: 12-8-06 - Complete33. Never ForgottenA sixteen year old haunts the site of her suicide. Ten years on, her best friends find her to try and help her find peace. But maybe peace isn't what a once fun loving ghost wants... maybe she wants havoc...or just closureFiction: Young Adult - Rated: T - English - Spiritual/Fantasy - Chapters: 1 - Words: 1,065 - Published: 11-30-0634. I'm Nothing reviewsI'm worth nothing to you, yet you're my everything. How do you see me? Would you even care if I was gone? I honestly doubt it.Poetry: Love - Rated: T - English - Angst - Chapters: 1 - Words: 129 - Reviews: 1 - Published: 11-30-06 - Complete35. Be Mine reviewsYou're all I want and need, but why can't you see this?Poetry: Love - Rated: T - English - Angst - Chapters: 1 - Words: 97 - Reviews: 3 - Published: 11-28-06 - Complete36. Who Are You?I want to get to know you why do you keep pushing me away?Poetry: Love - Rated: T - English - Angst - Chapters: 1 - Words: 155 - Published: 11-28-06 - Complete37. Tainted reviewsThere's only one person I want to be tainted by: you, you and only you.Poetry: Love - Rated: T - English - Angst/Poetry - Chapters: 1 - Words: 169 - Reviews: 1 - Published: 11-28-0638. Lost in You reviewsI'm losing myself... you're with me non stop, and I just can't go on like thisPoetry: Love - Rated: T - English - Angst - Chapters: 1 - Words: 241 - Reviews: 2 - Published: 11-24-06 - Complete39. Selfish Love reviewsSometimes love that is not returned becomes the most selfish and possessive of allPoetry: Love - Rated: T - English - Angst - Chapters: 1 - Words: 148 - Reviews: 1 - Published: 11-16-06 - Complete40. I Want Out reviewsI can't go on like this... Rejection is better than what you've done to mePoetry: Love - Rated: T - English - Angst - Chapters: 1 - Words: 119 - Reviews: 1 - Published: 10-29-0641. Confusion reviewsDedicated to a person I used to adore, then hated... now I just don't know what I feel towards himPoetry: Love - Rated: K - English - Angst - Chapters: 1 - Words: 120 - Reviews: 1 - Published: 10-29-0642. Legacies Written In Blood » reviewsGaia's time on earth is drawing to a close: the ten years since she was forced into a suicide pact are up. The group will meet and she must end her life... with no choice...Fiction: Young Adult - Rated: M - English - Tragedy/Drama - Chapters: 3 - Words: 1,570 - Reviews: 3 - Updated: 10-18-06 - Published: 8-7-06 - Complete43. Elimination Is the Name of the Game reviewsThe voices told Amber to get rid of her. So she did -stuff the body down a well and forget about it... no big lossFiction: Young Adult - Rated: M - English - Horror/Angst - Chapters: 1 - Words: 699 - Reviews: 1 - Published: 8-10-0644. fight the snakeIt was a foregone conclusion -I tried to fight, but lostPoetry: Love - Rated: K - English - Chapters: 1 - Words: 96 - Published: 8-3-0645. Stolen HeartYou kept on and on until you finally won -take him, he's yoursPoetry: Love - Rated: T - English - Angst - Chapters: 1 - Words: 98 - Published: 8-3-0646. You, Her, Together Forever reviewsThe title says it allPoetry: Love - Rated: T - English - Angst - Chapters: 1 - Words: 52 - Reviews: 2 - Published: 8-3-0647. If Life Was PerfectIn this imperfect world, you chose an imperfect snakePoetry: Love - Rated: T - English - Angst - Chapters: 1 - Words: 107 - Published: 8-3-0648. Embrace the SnakeNight and day, you choose her -the queen of snakesPoetry: Love - Rated: T - English - Angst - Chapters: 1 - Words: 91 - Published: 8-3-0649. Love through a MirrorWill you choose me if I prove I will die for you?Poetry: Love - Rated: T - English - Romance/Tragedy - Chapters: 1 - Words: 395 - Published: 7-8-0650. Love That Will Never Cease reviewsRated for suicide and homicide... Valentino is obsessed with Leah -love gone totally awry...PLS R&RFiction: Young Adult - Rated: M - English - Drama/Angst - Chapters: 1 - Words: 968 - Reviews: 4 - Published: 4-19-0651. I Called You My Friend reviewsI thought you were a friend...but best friends don't do what YOU did...you lying backstabber...Fiction: Young Adult - Rated: T - English - Angst - Chapters: 1 - Words: 882 - Reviews: 1 - Published: 1-25-06