crimson cyanide
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since: 01-22-06, id: 510342
country: Malta
Author has written 51 stories for Young Adult, Love, Life, Essay, and General.

Name: Crimson Cyanide (formerly known as Frozenblade and/or cyanide tears)

Location: Malta, Europe

Age: supposedly 17

Star sign: Capricorn

Hobbies: Reading, writing stories and poetry, spending (read: wasting) time with friends... some people think I like to torture myself too

I hate: Myself at times, for being too weak to carry on, and too stubborn to show weakness... okay, not "at times". A lot of the time.

Favourite singers/bands: Good Charlotte, H.I.M., Nightwish, Within Temptation, Simple Plan, Evanescence

Favourite songs: Wounded, Dead Boy's Poem, Sleeping Sun, Wake Me Up When September Ends, Crazy, Bless the Child, Join Me In Death, Tourniquet... need I go on?

Favourite books: Thrillers! And the Fearless series, anything about war...whatever! If it's text, I'll read it

Favourite colours: Black and dark red

Reason for being on Fictionpress: To escape the real world

Thanks xxxx

If you see yourself somewhere in a story or poem, I'm sorry... hate me if you must

Nearly all my poems were written at school (during boring lessons), and they're almost all dedicated to the same person, much as I hate to admit it.

A/N: I had to remove "Eulogy to the Hated" since some people apparentely freaked out over it (can't say I blame them).


1. A Voice From the Dead reviews
She killed her baby brother at the age of seven... now she has a baby of her own. The problem is, her conscience won't let her rest, certain that Baby Ryan is her punishment
Fiction: Young Adult - Rated: M - English - Drama/Tragedy - Chapters: 1 - Words: 1,658 - Reviews: 2 - Published: 7-20-07 - Complete
2. Who Held the Knife? » reviews
The police assumed it was suicide. Her friends say it was murder. Can she speak to them from beyond the grave?
Fiction: Young Adult - Rated: T - English - Mystery/Angst - Chapters: 5 - Words: 4,004 - Reviews: 4 - Updated: 3-31-07 - Published: 8-11-06
3. Welcome to My Family
My entry for an essay competition. Luke returns home after WW2, unable to come to terms with what he's left behind him.
Fiction: Young Adult - Rated: T - English - Drama - Chapters: 1 - Words: 1,557 - Published: 3-29-07 - Complete
4. White Lilies reviews
Oneshot, written during an exam. Two friends are devastated when the third member of their trio succeeds in taking her own life. Better than it sounds, honest!
Fiction: Young Adult - Rated: T - English - Angst/Tragedy - Chapters: 1 - Words: 687 - Reviews: 2 - Published: 3-26-07 - Complete
5. Sweep up the mess that is my life » reviews
Four individuals ended up sharing a flat. Will they wreak havoc in each others' lives, or help them sort out the mess that is their existence?
Fiction: Young Adult - Rated: T - English - Angst - Chapters: 2 - Words: 1,985 - Reviews: 3 - Updated: 3-21-07 - Published: 8-3-06
6. Circle of Support reviews
Written as a request from BernieV about three months ago. Having experienced true heartbreak, a girl finds solace in her friends
Fiction: General - Rated: T - English - Romance/Angst - Chapters: 1 - Words: 767 - Reviews: 2 - Published: 3-21-07 - Complete
7. Crimson Tears reviews
By coincidence, I got my head bashed open soon after writing this so it really looked like I was crying crimson tears! Blood drawn from biting my lip, blood along my arm using a razor, and the tears that fall when no one's looking
Poetry: Love - Rated: T - English - Angst/Tragedy - Chapters: 1 - Words: 222 - Reviews: 5 - Published: 2-25-07 - Complete
8. Valley of Death reviews
My friends were discussing a certain valley where a lot of people have committed suicide, then thought better of it when they noticed I was listening eagerly. This is the result of that conversation: a oneshot about suicide. See? I didn't jump myself!
Fiction: Young Adult - Rated: T - English - Angst - Chapters: 1 - Words: 529 - Reviews: 1 - Published: 2-25-07 - Complete
9. Undeserving reviews
A monologue to the girl someone chose over me... It's a bit exaggerated but please read, review and tell me if I'm over reacting
Poetry: Love - Rated: T - English - Angst - Chapters: 1 - Words: 92 - Reviews: 1 - Published: 2-22-07 - Complete
10. Because of You reviews
This is what I've become and what I've learnt, all through you. I will never love or hope ever again
Poetry: Life - Rated: T - English - Angst/Tragedy - Chapters: 1 - Words: 237 - Reviews: 3 - Published: 2-11-07 - Complete
11. Angel of Mine reviews
Nightly plea to my guardian angel, if this angel can really hear me
Poetry: Love - Rated: T - English - Angst - Chapters: 1 - Words: 152 - Reviews: 2 - Published: 2-2-07 - Complete
12. Goodbye Hell reviews
The final moment before sweet death
Poetry: Love - Rated: M - English - Angst - Chapters: 1 - Words: 97 - Reviews: 1 - Published: 2-2-07 - Complete
13. All I Want
What I want and what you want have nothing in common. I want you... you don't want me... I bet you'll take anyone but me
Poetry: Love - Rated: T - English - Angst - Chapters: 1 - Words: 147 - Published: 1-30-07 - Complete
14. Broken and Bleeding
Three people, two wounds, inflicted differently by the same person... a wound of pleasure... a wound of pain
Poetry: Love - Rated: T - English - Angst - Chapters: 1 - Words: 86 - Published: 1-30-07 - Complete
15. Killer reviews
I don't care who deals the final blow, or even if I deal it to myself... I just know that you're as guilty as sin, no matter what Rated for mentions of suicide and murder
Poetry: Love - Rated: M - English - Angst/Tragedy - Chapters: 1 - Words: 246 - Reviews: 1 - Published: 1-30-07 - Complete
16. Is it Love?
Teenage breakup... teenage makeup... Destined for each other, they just can't stay apart for long. Dedicated to two of my best friends, who have shown me that love does exist
Fiction: Young Adult - Rated: T - English - Romance/Angst - Chapters: 1 - Words: 622 - Published: 1-26-07
17. Fear
When I was younger, my fears were the usual childish fears. Now, my fears have changed to deeper fears and persistent nightmares... you're in all of them, night and day. At night, you and blood... during the day, you and thoughts of eternal sleep
Poetry: Love - Rated: T - English - Angst - Chapters: 1 - Words: 194 - Published: 1-25-07 - Complete
18. Do You Think You're God?
Can't you see I'm lost without you? Can't you see I'm desperate for your love? What gives you the right to play God with my fate? There's only one aspect of me you can't control
Poetry: Love - Rated: T - English - Angst - Chapters: 1 - Words: 159 - Published: 1-25-07
19. Sweet Farewell reviews
I can't give you up, even though you can't be mine. My death is the only thing which can make me say goodbye to you.
Poetry: Love - Rated: T - English - Angst - Chapters: 1 - Words: 169 - Reviews: 2 - Published: 1-25-07 - Complete
20. Too Late reviews
You told me not to get sucked further in, that I was only heading for heartache. You told me to get out while I still could, but I can't. I'm in too deep already, I just can't break free.
Poetry: Love - Rated: T - English - Angst - Chapters: 1 - Words: 159 - Reviews: 2 - Published: 1-12-07 - Complete
21. What Do You Think of Me? reviews
I'd give you anything, but you wouldn't want it. I doubt I ever cross your mind, except as the person you once or twice got a glimpse of...a shadow
Poetry: Love - Rated: T - English - Angst - Chapters: 1 - Words: 165 - Reviews: 10 - Published: 12-31-06 - Complete
22. Icy Kisses reviews
An icy kiss will be my legacy to you, since you can't be mine in life
Poetry: Love - Rated: T - English - Angst - Chapters: 1 - Words: 163 - Reviews: 5 - Published: 12-31-06 - Complete
23. Am I Pretty Enough Now? reviews
Will I be pretty enough for you as I die? What do I have to do to be pretty enough?
Poetry: Love - Rated: T - English - Angst - Chapters: 1 - Words: 146 - Reviews: 1 - Published: 12-31-06 - Complete
24. Far From Perfection
You'll never be mine only because of one thing. You expect perfection, but that's exactly what I'm not, and I'll never be, no matter how hard I try. I'll just never be good enough for you... I don't deserve you.
Poetry: Love - Rated: T - English - Angst - Chapters: 1 - Words: 134 - Published: 12-30-06 - Complete
25. What Happened to Happy Endings? reviews
Does the perfect storybook ending only exist in a soppy Disney movie? That's what I think. Not my best work, I just wrote this as a kind of selfanalysis, but you're welcome to read and hopefully review
Fiction: Essay - Rated: K+ - English - Angst - Chapters: 1 - Words: 322 - Reviews: 3 - Published: 12-29-06
26. Final Try reviews
This is a lastditch attempt to show my crush how I really feel towards him. Some friends think I should show it to him, but I don't know... it just seems like there's too much resting on it. Please rr this!
Poetry: Love - Rated: T - English - Angst - Chapters: 1 - Words: 145 - Reviews: 1 - Published: 12-27-06 - Complete
27. What Next?
I admit, I'm lost in you... but now what happens? Do I go on like this, suffering unrequited love, or should I admit that this is a hopeless case? Can I admit this to myself?
Poetry: Love - Rated: T - English - Angst - Chapters: 1 - Words: 101 - Published: 12-27-06 - Complete
28. Ode to the Unborn Child reviews
My first prochoice poem! We're saving the unborn children from what life has in store for them
Poetry: Life - Rated: T - English - Angst - Chapters: 1 - Words: 309 - Reviews: 2 - Published: 12-22-06
29. Farewell Signs
How could we have ben so blind? You were calling out for help, and we didn't hear you. One girl's thoughts once she hears of her best friend's suicide.
Fiction: Young Adult - Rated: M - English - Angst/Tragedy - Chapters: 1 - Words: 524 - Published: 12-14-06
30. Unlovable reviews
How many times can you endure rejection? At some point, you can't take it anymore, and you have to ask WHY? Why am I unlovable?
Poetry: Love - Rated: T - English - Angst - Chapters: 1 - Words: 143 - Reviews: 1 - Published: 12-14-06 - Complete
31. Goodbye reviews
I want this to be read at my funeral the truth of my hatred for life revealed at last.
Poetry: Life - Rated: T - English - Angst - Chapters: 1 - Words: 229 - Reviews: 2 - Published: 12-8-06 - Complete
32. Alone to Eternity reviews
When you're on the outside looking in, true love mocks you making you feel worthless
Poetry: Love - Rated: T - English - Angst - Chapters: 1 - Words: 109 - Reviews: 2 - Published: 12-8-06 - Complete
33. Never Forgotten
A sixteen year old haunts the site of her suicide. Ten years on, her best friends find her to try and help her find peace. But maybe peace isn't what a once fun loving ghost wants... maybe she wants havoc...or just closure
Fiction: Young Adult - Rated: T - English - Spiritual/Fantasy - Chapters: 1 - Words: 1,065 - Published: 11-30-06
34. I'm Nothing reviews
I'm worth nothing to you, yet you're my everything. How do you see me? Would you even care if I was gone? I honestly doubt it.
Poetry: Love - Rated: T - English - Angst - Chapters: 1 - Words: 129 - Reviews: 1 - Published: 11-30-06 - Complete
35. Be Mine reviews
You're all I want and need, but why can't you see this?
Poetry: Love - Rated: T - English - Angst - Chapters: 1 - Words: 97 - Reviews: 3 - Published: 11-28-06 - Complete
36. Who Are You?
I want to get to know you why do you keep pushing me away?
Poetry: Love - Rated: T - English - Angst - Chapters: 1 - Words: 155 - Published: 11-28-06 - Complete
37. Tainted reviews
There's only one person I want to be tainted by: you, you and only you.
Poetry: Love - Rated: T - English - Angst/Poetry - Chapters: 1 - Words: 169 - Reviews: 1 - Published: 11-28-06
38. Lost in You reviews
I'm losing myself... you're with me non stop, and I just can't go on like this
Poetry: Love - Rated: T - English - Angst - Chapters: 1 - Words: 241 - Reviews: 2 - Published: 11-24-06 - Complete
39. Selfish Love reviews
Sometimes love that is not returned becomes the most selfish and possessive of all
Poetry: Love - Rated: T - English - Angst - Chapters: 1 - Words: 148 - Reviews: 1 - Published: 11-16-06 - Complete
40. I Want Out reviews
I can't go on like this... Rejection is better than what you've done to me
Poetry: Love - Rated: T - English - Angst - Chapters: 1 - Words: 119 - Reviews: 1 - Published: 10-29-06
41. Confusion reviews
Dedicated to a person I used to adore, then hated... now I just don't know what I feel towards him
Poetry: Love - Rated: K - English - Angst - Chapters: 1 - Words: 120 - Reviews: 1 - Published: 10-29-06
42. Legacies Written In Blood » reviews
Gaia's time on earth is drawing to a close: the ten years since she was forced into a suicide pact are up. The group will meet and she must end her life... with no choice...
Fiction: Young Adult - Rated: M - English - Tragedy/Drama - Chapters: 3 - Words: 1,570 - Reviews: 3 - Updated: 10-18-06 - Published: 8-7-06 - Complete
43. Elimination Is the Name of the Game reviews
The voices told Amber to get rid of her. So she did -stuff the body down a well and forget about it... no big loss
Fiction: Young Adult - Rated: M - English - Horror/Angst - Chapters: 1 - Words: 699 - Reviews: 1 - Published: 8-10-06
44. fight the snake
It was a foregone conclusion -I tried to fight, but lost
Poetry: Love - Rated: K - English - Chapters: 1 - Words: 96 - Published: 8-3-06
45. Stolen Heart
You kept on and on until you finally won -take him, he's yours
Poetry: Love - Rated: T - English - Angst - Chapters: 1 - Words: 98 - Published: 8-3-06
46. You, Her, Together Forever reviews
The title says it all
Poetry: Love - Rated: T - English - Angst - Chapters: 1 - Words: 52 - Reviews: 2 - Published: 8-3-06
47. If Life Was Perfect
In this imperfect world, you chose an imperfect snake
Poetry: Love - Rated: T - English - Angst - Chapters: 1 - Words: 107 - Published: 8-3-06
48. Embrace the Snake
Night and day, you choose her -the queen of snakes
Poetry: Love - Rated: T - English - Angst - Chapters: 1 - Words: 91 - Published: 8-3-06
49. Love through a Mirror
Will you choose me if I prove I will die for you?
Poetry: Love - Rated: T - English - Romance/Tragedy - Chapters: 1 - Words: 395 - Published: 7-8-06
50. Love That Will Never Cease reviews
Rated for suicide and homicide... Valentino is obsessed with Leah -love gone totally awry...PLS R&R
Fiction: Young Adult - Rated: M - English - Drama/Angst - Chapters: 1 - Words: 968 - Reviews: 4 - Published: 4-19-06
51. I Called You My Friend reviews
I thought you were a friend...but best friends don't do what YOU did...you lying backstabber...
Fiction: Young Adult - Rated: T - English - Angst - Chapters: 1 - Words: 882 - Reviews: 1 - Published: 1-25-06