April 'A Beautiful Disaster'

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since	: 04-09-06, id: 520135, Profile Updated: 09-10-09
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Author has written 99 stories for Life, Love, Song, and Politics.

If I am to describe my life story in several words, I usually give a quote of my own:

"I'm a statue that just seems broken,
I'm the truth that's still unspoken,
I'm an arrow of love... What's love? - You've never known...
I'm your fear, so deeply hidden,
I'm the myth you don't believe in,
And you never will - you cannot understand a word."

This quote describes me as a mystery that is still to be discovered.
And, I guess, this mysterious side of me is revealed mostly in my works, written with the purpose to tell people more about me and my life experience, to share and spread my ideas and thoughts, to help people with my creativity somehow, showing them that they are not alone.
I've been writing for almost five years now. But it took me five years to become not only a poet, but a songwriter, mostly a lyricist. I also go in for singing and try my hand in writing prose as well. And I want my future to be connected with this all somehow, as there is nothing better than to do what you truly love to do.

You can find out more about me through my creative works here:
http://april-abd.bravehost.com/Homepage.htm

All my recorded songs are here: http://www.soundclick.com/bands/default.cfm?bandID=824779

My Stories (99)

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1. Hate reviews
Just a burst of my anger
Complete - Life - Fiction Rated: T - English - Poetry - Chapters: 1 - Words: 72 - Reviews: 1 - Updated: 11-26-09 - Published: 11-26-09

2. Replay
My vision of a typical person's life
Complete - Life - Fiction Rated: T - English - Poetry - Chapters: 1 - Words: 74 - Reviews: 0 - Updated: 11-11-09 - Published: 11-11-09

3. Big Knobs' Dicks
Some rant on the subject of politics
Complete - Politics - Fiction Rated: T - English - Poetry - Chapters: 1 - Words: 89 - Reviews: 0 - Updated: 10-28-09 - Published: 10-28-09

4. Dirty Opinion Whore
Evident protest in another portion of sociopolitical lyrics from me
Complete - Life - Fiction Rated: T - English - General - Chapters: 1 - Words: 166 - Reviews: 0 - Updated: 10-14-09 - Published: 10-14-09

5. Endlessly reviews
Lyrics about love seen from a different angle
Complete - Life - Fiction Rated: T - English - Poetry - Chapters: 1 - Words: 142 - Reviews: 1 - Updated: 9-15-09 - Published: 9-15-09

6. Gloomy Crowd's Man reviews
One more portion of encouragement
Complete - Life - Fiction Rated: T - English - Poetry - Chapters: 1 - Words: 123 - Reviews: 1 - Updated: 9-9-09 - Published: 9-9-09

7. Proud
Introspection
Complete - Life - Fiction Rated: T - English - Poetry - Chapters: 1 - Words: 197 - Reviews: 0 - Updated: 8-5-09 - Published: 8-5-09

8. Blow Job Queen
Satire on glamorous whores
Complete - Life - Fiction Rated: T - English - Poetry - Chapters: 1 - Words: 102 - Reviews: 0 - Updated: 8-5-09 - Published: 8-5-09

9. At Any Rate
Lyrics on the same old sociopolitical subject
Complete - Life - Fiction Rated: T - English - General - Chapters: 1 - Words: 108 - Reviews: 0 - Updated: 7-24-09 - Published: 7-24-09

10. Zero
It's dedicated to all writers who lack self-confidence
Complete - Life - Fiction Rated: T - English - Poetry - Chapters: 1 - Words: 97 - Reviews: 0 - Updated: 7-24-09 - Published: 7-24-09

11. Victim
Severe truth about the government, the press and the society
Complete - Life - Fiction Rated: T - English - Poetry - Chapters: 1 - Words: 106 - Reviews: 0 - Updated: 7-17-09 - Published: 7-17-09

12. Charm And Poison
It's about a woman's two guises
Complete - Life - Fiction Rated: T - English - Poetry - Chapters: 1 - Words: 82 - Reviews: 0 - Updated: 7-16-09 - Published: 7-16-09

13. Welcome To Fail
Lyrics about the life of a conformist seen by the eyes of a non-conformist
Complete - Life - Fiction Rated: T - English - General - Chapters: 1 - Words: 153 - Reviews: 0 - Updated: 6-18-09 - Published: 6-18-09

14. The Voice Of Despair
Reflections about the life of a true poet, about the freedom of speech and censorship
Complete - Life - Fiction Rated: T - English - Poetry - Chapters: 1 - Words: 96 - Reviews: 0 - Updated: 6-9-09 - Published: 6-9-09

15. Nothing Else Counts
The charm of love and the tragedy of parting for a day... everyone has been there, everyone knows that and can relate
Complete - Love - Fiction Rated: T - English - General - Chapters: 1 - Words: 126 - Reviews: 0 - Updated: 6-2-09 - Published: 6-2-09

16. Heartlesscanbe? reviews
Revelations
Complete - Life - Fiction Rated: T - English - Poetry - Chapters: 1 - Words: 144 - Reviews: 1 - Updated: 3-23-09 - Published: 3-23-09

17. Accept My Demands
Lyrics inspired by reminiscence
Complete - Love - Fiction Rated: T - English - General - Chapters: 1 - Words: 214 - Reviews: 0 - Updated: 3-11-09 - Published: 3-11-09

18. What's Going On
Lyrics with slight irony
Complete - Life - Fiction Rated: T - English - General - Chapters: 1 - Words: 222 - Reviews: 0 - Updated: 2-25-09 - Published: 2-25-09

19. Every Single Evening's Plot
A slight satire on people's everyday routine
Complete - Life - Fiction Rated: T - English - Poetry - Chapters: 1 - Words: 185 - Reviews: 0 - Updated: 2-17-09 - Published: 2-17-09

20. NoneInThree reviews
A writing about people who know close to nothing about arts but criticise those who write from the heart and have a great experience in what they do
Complete - Life - Fiction Rated: T - English - Poetry - Chapters: 1 - Words: 142 - Reviews: 2 - Updated: 2-10-09 - Published: 2-10-09

21. A Desperate City reviews
Something for the society to think about
Complete - Life - Fiction Rated: T - English - Poetry - Chapters: 1 - Words: 135 - Reviews: 2 - Updated: 2-1-09 - Published: 2-1-09

22. Scarred reviews
My drunk reflections
Complete - Life - Fiction Rated: T - English - Poetry - Chapters: 1 - Words: 137 - Reviews: 1 - Updated: 1-27-09 - Published: 1-27-09

23. Insane
Lyrics about leaving someone you feel something for just to save them from you and your insanity
Complete - Life - Fiction Rated: T - English - General - Chapters: 1 - Words: 273 - Reviews: 0 - Updated: 1-15-09 - Published: 1-15-09

24. Get Over It reviews
A story of a misanthrope
Complete - Life - Fiction Rated: T - English - General - Chapters: 1 - Words: 209 - Reviews: 1 - Updated: 1-4-09 - Published: 1-4-09

25. The Game reviews
Lyrics filled with the truth of life
Complete - Life - Fiction Rated: T - English - Poetry - Chapters: 1 - Words: 228 - Reviews: 2 - Updated: 12-14-08 - Published: 12-14-08

26. Not Now reviews
Thoughts on fear and freedom
Complete - Life - Fiction Rated: T - English - Poetry - Chapters: 1 - Words: 119 - Reviews: 2 - Updated: 12-4-08 - Published: 12-4-08

27. Lies Of A Loss
Parting and cruel intentions
Complete - Love - Fiction Rated: T - English - Poetry - Chapters: 1 - Words: 177 - Reviews: 0 - Updated: 12-2-08 - Published: 12-2-08

28. Romance Is Dead
Lyrics about a personal experience
Complete - Life - Fiction Rated: T - English - General - Chapters: 1 - Words: 236 - Reviews: 0 - Updated: 11-11-08 - Published: 11-11-08

29. Regret, Regret reviews
Lyrics
Complete - Life - Fiction Rated: T - English - General - Chapters: 1 - Words: 256 - Reviews: 2 - Updated: 10-30-08 - Published: 10-30-08

30. Independent reviews
Lyrics
Complete - Life - Fiction Rated: T - English - General - Chapters: 1 - Words: 203 - Reviews: 1 - Updated: 10-30-08 - Published: 10-30-08

31. I'm Fine reviews
Lyrics
Complete - Life - Fiction Rated: T - English - General - Chapters: 1 - Words: 169 - Reviews: 1 - Updated: 10-30-08 - Published: 10-30-08

32. The Extremes
Lyrics about the philistine life
Complete - Life - Fiction Rated: T - English - Poetry - Chapters: 1 - Words: 294 - Reviews: 0 - Updated: 10-9-08 - Published: 10-9-08

33. Revelation
The title is self-explanatory
Complete - Life - Fiction Rated: T - English - Poetry - Chapters: 1 - Words: 178 - Reviews: 0 - Updated: 9-21-08 - Published: 9-21-08

34. Forever Young
A tragedy
Complete - Life - Fiction Rated: T - English - Poetry - Chapters: 1 - Words: 428 - Reviews: 0 - Updated: 9-21-08 - Published: 9-21-08

35. You Know Better
Sometimes the ones we love know us better than we do ourselves
Complete - Song - Fiction Rated: T - English - Poetry - Chapters: 1 - Words: 289 - Reviews: 0 - Updated: 9-21-08 - Published: 9-21-08

36. Dreams
Love and passion
Complete - Love - Fiction Rated: T - English - Poetry - Chapters: 1 - Words: 124 - Reviews: 0 - Updated: 9-21-08 - Published: 9-21-08

37. Stranger
It's about feeling loneliness
Complete - Life - Fiction Rated: T - English - Poetry - Chapters: 1 - Words: 172 - Reviews: 0 - Updated: 9-21-08 - Published: 9-21-08

38. Tomorrow's Exceptional Hero
Lyrics about the thoughtless crowd
Complete - Life - Fiction Rated: T - English - General - Chapters: 1 - Words: 293 - Reviews: 0 - Updated: 9-13-08 - Published: 9-13-08

39. Bury My Love
Lyrics about killing love warning: mature content
Complete - Love - Fiction Rated: M - English - General - Chapters: 1 - Words: 237 - Reviews: 0 - Updated: 9-8-08 - Published: 9-8-08

40. Mine
Hope of sadness
Complete - Love - Fiction Rated: T - English - Poetry - Chapters: 1 - Words: 164 - Reviews: 0 - Updated: 8-13-08 - Published: 8-13-08

41. Sinking reviews
Alcohol love
Complete - Love - Fiction Rated: T - English - Poetry - Chapters: 1 - Words: 113 - Reviews: 1 - Updated: 8-3-08 - Published: 8-3-08

42. Have You?
Questions without answers
Complete - Love - Fiction Rated: T - English - Poetry - Chapters: 1 - Words: 143 - Reviews: 0 - Updated: 8-3-08 - Published: 8-3-08

43. Frailty reviews
It shows that I'm only human, I can also be hurt
Complete - Life - Fiction Rated: T - English - Poetry - Chapters: 1 - Words: 107 - Reviews: 4 - Updated: 7-16-08 - Published: 7-16-08

44. Dedications Part Two reviews
Dedications to once close people
Complete - Life - Fiction Rated: T - English - Poetry - Chapters: 1 - Words: 195 - Reviews: 1 - Updated: 6-30-08 - Published: 6-30-08

45. The One In A Million
It's all about one true love
Complete - Love - Fiction Rated: T - English - Poetry - Chapters: 1 - Words: 197 - Reviews: 0 - Updated: 6-28-08 - Published: 6-28-08

46. Living Today
Reflections about what the most important things about love are
Complete - Love - Fiction Rated: T - English - Poetry - Chapters: 1 - Words: 191 - Reviews: 0 - Updated: 6-21-08 - Published: 6-21-08

47. A Perfect Lie
My lie creation
Complete - Love - Fiction Rated: T - English - Poetry - Chapters: 1 - Words: 146 - Reviews: 0 - Updated: 6-11-08 - Published: 6-11-08

48. Live A Lie reviews
Lie to me once again"...
Complete - Love - Fiction Rated: T - English - Poetry - Chapters: 1 - Words: 227 - Reviews: 1 - Updated: 6-6-08 - Published: 6-6-08

49. I Need You
Love... passion... obsession?
Complete - Love - Fiction Rated: T - English - Poetry - Chapters: 1 - Words: 182 - Reviews: 0 - Updated: 5-12-08 - Published: 5-12-08

50. Reflections At Four In The Morning
Sorrowful reflections in a message to the world
Complete - Life - Fiction Rated: T - English - Poetry - Chapters: 1 - Words: 209 - Reviews: 0 - Updated: 4-15-08 - Published: 4-15-08

51. Missing You
Missing, waiting, grieving
Complete - Love - Fiction Rated: T - English - Poetry - Chapters: 1 - Words: 188 - Reviews: 0 - Updated: 4-15-08 - Published: 4-15-08

52. If We, If Not
And nothing's ever been as painful As just one haunting bitter thought: Where would we be, what could have happened If we... If then... If just... If not?..
Complete - Love - Fiction Rated: T - English - Poetry - Chapters: 1 - Words: 160 - Reviews: 0 - Updated: 3-25-08 - Published: 3-25-08

53. Wonder If It Is Love
I keep thinking if it is love, and I wonder if love has brakes".
Complete - Love - Fiction Rated: T - English - Poetry - Chapters: 1 - Words: 151 - Reviews: 0 - Updated: 3-12-08 - Published: 3-12-08

54. Dedications
Memories, feelings, impressions, both the past and the present
Complete - Love - Fiction Rated: T - English - Poetry - Chapters: 1 - Words: 225 - Reviews: 0 - Updated: 2-28-08 - Published: 2-28-08

55. Hopeless
A rather angry writing
Complete - Life - Fiction Rated: T - English - Poetry - Chapters: 1 - Words: 122 - Reviews: 0 - Updated: 2-28-08 - Published: 2-28-08

56. Romance reviews
A bittersweet love story
Complete - Love - Fiction Rated: T - English - Poetry - Chapters: 1 - Words: 165 - Reviews: 1 - Updated: 2-28-08 - Published: 2-28-08

57. Associations
Assiciations with life, love, freedom and the truth
Complete - Life - Fiction Rated: T - English - Poetry - Chapters: 1 - Words: 172 - Reviews: 0 - Updated: 2-12-08 - Published: 2-12-08

58. A Story Without An End
My thoughts about what is going on with me
Complete - Love - Fiction Rated: T - English - Poetry - Chapters: 1 - Words: 190 - Reviews: 0 - Updated: 2-8-08 - Published: 2-8-08

59. Sunday Morning
The sorrow of parting
Complete - Love - Fiction Rated: T - English - Poetry - Chapters: 1 - Words: 211 - Reviews: 0 - Updated: 1-27-08 - Published: 1-27-08

60. I Let You Go reviews
The title says it all
Complete - Life - Fiction Rated: T - English - Poetry - Chapters: 1 - Words: 147 - Reviews: 1 - Updated: 1-21-08 - Published: 1-21-08

61. Live again?
The conclusion I came to
Complete - Life - Fiction Rated: T - English - Poetry - Chapters: 1 - Words: 191 - Reviews: 0 - Updated: 1-16-08 - Published: 1-16-08

62. Shadow Of Sorrow
A beautiful deceptive mess...
Complete - Love - Fiction Rated: T - English - Poetry - Chapters: 1 - Words: 107 - Reviews: 0 - Updated: 12-23-07 - Published: 12-23-07

63. A Wicked Game reviews
Just temporary thoughts
Complete - Life - Fiction Rated: T - English - Poetry - Chapters: 1 - Words: 101 - Reviews: 1 - Updated: 11-23-07 - Published: 11-23-07

64. The Last Words reviews
An experimental writing about suicide... just influenced by my current mood
Complete - Life - Fiction Rated: T - English - Poetry - Chapters: 1 - Words: 250 - Reviews: 1 - Updated: 11-4-07 - Published: 11-4-07

65. Diaries reviews
It's all about memories
Complete - Life - Fiction Rated: T - English - Poetry - Chapters: 1 - Words: 162 - Reviews: 1 - Updated: 10-28-07 - Published: 10-28-07

66. Romance Part Two Hourglass
The battle 'Love' and' Time'...
Complete - Love - Fiction Rated: T - English - Poetry - Chapters: 1 - Words: 132 - Reviews: 0 - Updated: 10-23-07 - Published: 10-23-07

67. Confessions Of A Delirious Mind reviews
The tile speaks for itself
Complete - Love - Fiction Rated: T - English - Poetry - Chapters: 1 - Words: 189 - Reviews: 1 - Updated: 10-14-07 - Published: 10-14-07

68. Passion
About great passion and deep love
Complete - Love - Fiction Rated: T - English - Poetry - Chapters: 1 - Words: 162 - Reviews: 0 - Updated: 10-7-07 - Published: 10-7-07

69. I'm Here Without You, But There With You
Inspired by love
Complete - Love - Fiction Rated: T - English - Poetry - Chapters: 1 - Words: 176 - Reviews: 0 - Updated: 9-23-07 - Published: 9-23-07

70. The Edge
A tragic story of forbidden love
Complete - Love - Fiction Rated: T - English - Poetry - Chapters: 1 - Words: 168 - Reviews: 0 - Updated: 9-2-07 - Published: 9-2-07

71. Heartwreck reviews
That's just what I feel about someone
Complete - Love - Fiction Rated: T - English - Poetry - Chapters: 1 - Words: 196 - Reviews: 2 - Updated: 8-27-07 - Published: 8-27-07

72. Perpetual
A romantic writing for the one I love
Complete - Love - Fiction Rated: T - English - Poetry - Chapters: 1 - Words: 219 - Reviews: 0 - Updated: 7-17-07 - Published: 7-17-07

73. If
My feelings at the moment
Complete - Life - Fiction Rated: T - English - Poetry - Chapters: 1 - Words: 202 - Reviews: 0 - Updated: 7-17-07 - Published: 7-17-07

74. Forgiveness reviews
Forgiveness' with a little sarcasm
Complete - Love - Fiction Rated: T - English - Poetry - Chapters: 1 - Words: 215 - Reviews: 1 - Updated: 7-4-07 - Published: 7-4-07

75. I Am Me
My outlook on life
Complete - Life - Fiction Rated: T - English - Poetry - Chapters: 1 - Words: 84 - Reviews: 0 - Updated: 6-2-07 - Published: 6-2-07

76. The Letter To You
A love letter
Complete - Love - Fiction Rated: T - English - Poetry - Chapters: 1 - Words: 235 - Reviews: 0 - Updated: 6-2-07 - Published: 6-2-07

77. Separated
My heart is separated from my mind
Complete - Love - Fiction Rated: T - English - Poetry - Chapters: 1 - Words: 154 - Reviews: 0 - Updated: 6-2-07 - Published: 6-2-07

78. Believe In Me
Another love song
Complete - Love - Fiction Rated: T - English - Poetry - Chapters: 1 - Words: 246 - Reviews: 0 - Updated: 3-13-07 - Published: 3-13-07

79. The shadow of my hope is fading
I'm just feeling sad...
Complete - Life - Fiction Rated: T - English - Poetry - Chapters: 1 - Words: 83 - Reviews: 0 - Updated: 3-5-07 - Published: 3-5-07

80. Novel reviews
Life is like a novel...
Complete - Life - Fiction Rated: T - English - Poetry - Chapters: 1 - Words: 112 - Reviews: 2 - Updated: 2-20-07 - Published: 2-20-07

81. I don't care I'm out of your lives
Reflections of a lonely soul
Complete - Life - Fiction Rated: T - English - Poetry - Chapters: 1 - Words: 82 - Reviews: 0 - Updated: 2-20-07 - Published: 2-20-07

82. Seconds
Counting seconds while waiting for the dawn to come...
Complete - Life - Fiction Rated: T - English - Poetry - Chapters: 1 - Words: 105 - Reviews: 0 - Updated: 2-4-07 - Published: 2-4-07

83. You're My Life
An old song lyric, now rewritten
Complete - Love - Fiction Rated: T - English - Poetry - Chapters: 1 - Words: 257 - Reviews: 0 - Updated: 1-28-07 - Published: 1-28-07

84. Bittersweet reviews
It's just the way I feel at the moment...
Complete - Life - Fiction Rated: T - English - Poetry - Chapters: 1 - Words: 112 - Reviews: 1 - Updated: 1-16-07 - Published: 1-16-07

85. Forgotten
Chips of glass and chips of porcelain...
Complete - Love - Fiction Rated: T - English - Poetry - Chapters: 1 - Words: 220 - Reviews: 0 - Updated: 1-8-07 - Published: 1-8-07

86. Just As It Goes
Just my reflections
Complete - Life - Fiction Rated: T - English - Poetry - Chapters: 1 - Words: 192 - Reviews: 0 - Updated: 12-28-06 - Published: 12-28-06

87. To Rise And Fall reviews
A semihappy song about getting over old feelings
Complete - Life - Fiction Rated: T - English - Poetry - Chapters: 1 - Words: 213 - Reviews: 1 - Updated: 12-24-06 - Published: 12-24-06

88. Silent Sorrow
My latest writing about losing the significant one
Complete - Love - Fiction Rated: T - English - Poetry - Chapters: 1 - Words: 256 - Reviews: 0 - Updated: 12-3-06 - Published: 12-3-06

89. Still You reviews
The love story of mine
Complete - Love - Fiction Rated: T - English - Poetry - Chapters: 1 - Words: 302 - Reviews: 1 - Updated: 11-15-06 - Published: 11-15-06

90. Shadow reviews
A story of lost love
Complete - Love - Fiction Rated: T - English - Poetry - Chapters: 1 - Words: 349 - Reviews: 2 - Updated: 10-17-06 - Published: 10-17-06

91. Letting Go
A song about lost love
Love - Fiction Rated: T - English - Poetry - Chapters: 1 - Words: 227 - Reviews: 0 - Updated: 10-3-06 - Published: 10-3-06

92. Statue
It's about my most missed memories...
Love - Fiction Rated: K+ - English - Poetry - Chapters: 1 - Words: 147 - Reviews: 0 - Updated: 9-25-06 - Published: 9-25-06

93. No Way
Losing love and frustrated
Love - Fiction Rated: T - English - Poetry - Chapters: 1 - Words: 189 - Reviews: 0 - Updated: 9-17-06 - Published: 9-17-06

94. Am I Alive?
Am I still alive? (a cowrite)
Love - Fiction Rated: T - English - Poetry - Chapters: 1 - Words: 108 - Reviews: 0 - Updated: 8-21-06 - Published: 8-21-06

95. You're My Life
A song for two - cowrite
Song - Fiction Rated: T - English - Poetry - Chapters: 1 - Words: 246 - Reviews: 0 - Updated: 8-21-06 - Published: 8-21-06

96. Lost
When the last hope is lost... (cowrite)
Love - Fiction Rated: M - English - Poetry - Chapters: 1 - Words: 192 - Reviews: 0 - Updated: 8-21-06 - Published: 8-21-06

97. Confessions reviews
Confessions of a broken heart
Love - Fiction Rated: T - English - Poetry - Chapters: 1 - Words: 186 - Reviews: 1 - Updated: 8-17-06 - Published: 8-17-06

98. Falling
Falling for love
Love - Fiction Rated: T - English - Romance - Chapters: 1 - Words: 156 - Reviews: 0 - Updated: 6-13-06 - Published: 6-13-06

99. You Fall I Fall
It's all about love...
Love - Fiction Rated: T - English - Poetry/Romance - Chapters: 1 - Words: 160 - Reviews: 0 - Updated: 5-5-06 - Published: 5-5-06

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