hi guys.

UPDATE::

... my mom doesn't like the idea of me posting ... so .... sorry but yeah .... byebye

i'm not really sure what to say right here. i'm one of those people that act one way when i'mat school, a different way when i'm at home, and yet another when i'm in a place where i feel like i belong- and even then it depends on my mood, the weather, what song is stuck inmy head and what book i'm reading at the moment, wether i come out or not.

i find it difficult to ever express myself. the only person i've let witness the deepest part of my personality lives halfway across the country from me and i will never see him again. ever. and thats the only reason why he knows me so well.

i'm not a good writer, i know that. i don't have radical ideas or earth-shattering realizations and you won't read anything in my work that you haven't read a hundread other places. i don't have that huge of a vocabulary and my grammer sucks. ... wow and apparently i have no self esteem. but read my stuff anyway.

thanks.

that and this "3 days before you can post anything" thing sucks. i demand instant gratification!

so i'm new. sue me. i actually had a great account but iti deleted it after a school counciler found my site and used it to convince people i was unstable. again, sue me.