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Woooow, I haven't updated on here in a long while. It's not like I'm really active, especially since I'm devoting more time to my fanfictions, but I feel kinda bad. Sorry, profile, for neglecting you. -pets-

Anyway. I've removed the list of questions and stuff. I'm just not in the mood for them. They seem kind of silly right now, even though I did leave the random welcome banner at the top. xD Still, the questions filled the egostical side of me, so I guess that means I'm going to ramble about myself even without the questions. Don't you all feel special? -chuckle chuckle chuckle-

I'm not going to tell you my real name, but you can think of me as Elli Ray, short for Elizabeth Ray. Elizabeth is just an awesome name, and Ray is the name of one of my little brothers, so it all works out. However, you can also call me Shiny. Yes, the Shiny that means sparkly, glittery, and all that jazz. Ironically, someone called me the glitter fairy because of my shirt, and they didn't even know my nickname. I guess I was just meant to shine. (Horrible pun intended)

My family life is rather complicated. I have two little brothers, one of which has sadly passed away, and the other I haven't seen for about five years. My mother has lied to me about having these brothers, so I have believed myself to be an only child until last year, when it just finally clicked that I had a brother. You know those epiphanies, random revelations, that you sometimes have? That was what it was like.

My parents divorced and remarried, and my step dad adopted me. That's why I haven't seen my little brother, or my father (ex-father, is it? whatever it is legally, let's just call him Jim) or my cousins or my aunts, uncles, or grandparents. It's sad really, but I was just mad at Jim, for I felt that he loved Ray more than me. Supid, childish jealous. xD Now, I just don't have the courage to talk to them. Not yet, anyway.

More me me me. Uhm, I like music and writing, in fact I might love them. I love all my friends... maybe. Some of them I just like... Speaking of friends, don't they just piss you off sometimes? I have a stupid, childish, over reactive friend who we shall call Marker. Now, a while back, I was dating somebody, and lets call him Sped (dont ask), but Marker liked me too. In an attempt to make himself stop liking me, he followed me about, repeating the phrases "You wish I was dead don't you?", "You hate me, admit it. You want to kill me.", "Would you be happy if I died? Oh wait, I already know you would, bitch.", and more things that tended to be suicidal.

I, however, didn't want him to die. I thought of him as a brother, a little brother I just wanted to pat on the head and make laugh and smile. But my closest brother is deceased.

See the problem here?

Oh well. Let's just say I haven't trusted Marker since. I even explained to him why that bother me so much, and he still did it. He's an alright person when he's happy and gets his way, but sometimes I wonder why I hang out with him. But all my friends have little tweaks and quirks that make them who they are. I have them too. I'm over emotional and tempermental, and I can be so self-centered it's not funny. I hate myself, both who I am and what I look like...

But, oddly enough, I felt pretty today. And happy- happier than I'd been in a while. I mean, not the kind of happy that you have when you're laughing your head off with your friends, but the happy you get when you just feel... well, good. You could be all alone with nothing to do, and you are still content. That kind of happy. I haven't been like that in a while.

And I think I know why. See, there's a boy, let's call him Zeefa (Go watch NCIS now Foo), and we became good friends in the first semester of school. He always made me, and everyone else at our table, laugh. It was my favorite class, if I do recall. But we didn't have a class together in the second semester. At first, I thought nothing of it. Months went by and I didn't speak to him, until one day we met in the hall on accident.

"Hey, Door!" He called, using the nickname he had given me first semester (think hard. think really hard. think gutter). We asked each other how we were, and then went to our class... And from then on I always hoped that we would see each other again. I didn't realize how much I missed the fact he could always make me laugh.

Lucky for me, we met on the last day of school again, in the art room skipping class (None of the teachers were. Don't judge me. D

... Fine! Yes, okay. I like him. XD But he likes me too, so it's not all bad. 'Cept we probaby won't see each other a lot, so we aren't dating or anything... Though I am going to his house next week. -squee- x3

Hhm. that was fun. I feel better now since I rambled. xD Even if my arrogant side feels guilty now. x3

Some friends; (unupdated)
Jane Precious- She was one of the first friends I ever had on here, and her writing is very nice. I suggest you read her stories- if you like her brand of writing, that is. :3
Kayce- She's a friend of mine in real life as well as here, so naturally I'd say to look at her stories. However, please go with a kind eye and a constructive review... REALLY kind eye, please. ( She doesn't take criticism too well. Shhh. :0 )
Corporal Spivilles- Gave me the first review I ever had, if I remember correctly. Stories are also worth looking through- they are pretty good. ;3
Dark Shadou- She's like family to me, so naturally she'll have a little spot here. However, she also is a really good writer. Sure, her style isn't that of your average writer here, but it's in a good way. I'd say review her stories and read them, or course, for -if her Fanfictions are anything to go by- they'll be worth the read and wait. :3

Some quotes of thine-

"If you had all the time in the world to read a single book you haven't read before, and if as soon as you chose it the others would disapear, what genre of book would you choose?

'You and your friend are held at gunpoint. This friend being one of your best. The man tells you it's your life or your friend's and you have to chose. Do you spare your own life, or your friends?

'What do you think of the folllowing statement: Everyone has a right to their opinion, but has no right to force their opinion on others?

'Say there everything you know in the world will be demolished before your eyes, but you are given the chance to save one thing or person. That means one tree, one rock, etc.. Once given that chance, you must decide: What would you travel through hell and back for?

'Say everything in your little world was fine- All your friends were together and lived normal, happy lives, having no idea of what went on beyond their line of sight. Except you know. You know life is full of magic and mystery outside of your normal life, but while it's a gaurentee you'll survive to old age in this life, outside in the world you don't know if you would live to see the next moonrise. Would you give up your friends and family to take an adventure to learn the arts of magic and mystery, even if it cost you your life, if you were given the opportunity?

'What do you believe in: forgive and forget, forgive and put behind you but never forget, or never forgive and hold the grudge? And also, why do you believe what you chose?

'Say you have a dream to be something when you grow up, and you truly want and somewhere inside you believe that you could be this thing when you grow up (as long as it is realistically possible, no turning into a puppy). What if no one, not even your parents and friends, really thought you could be this thing? Nor do they want you to, for it's "for your own good". Would you still follow your dream?"

-Relic and I during our game of questions. You should answer them. You might learn some things about yourself.

And this is really a quote I said, tweaked to make sense with only one speaker:

People just focus on the negative stuff too much, but its understandable. Everyone has things going on in their lives, and I'd imagine some of it isn't very pretty.
But they also take it out on everyone around them, which just makes the world tumble down hill until it's very very dark. Sometimes, I think there is no way to avoid that. So that's whyyou have to make yourself a flashlight! :D
What I mean is that if you find someon who makes you happy... well, stay with them. Be happy. They'll become your flashlight in your dark world. And if you make them happy, drag them into that dark pit with you. You'll be each other's flashlights. Be happy together.
Two heads are better than one in this case.
:3

Elli: You just focus on the negative stuff too much, but just about everyone does that. And that's understandable. You have a lot of stuff going on in your life, and I'd imagine some of it isn't pretty.

Elli: Yes. And they take it out on each other, which makes a down hill spiral until it's very very dark. Sometimes I think there is no way to avoid that. So that's why you have to make yourself a flashlight! :D

Elli: Thanks. But what I mean is if you find something that makes you happy... well. do it. If someone makes you happy, stick with them. And if you make them happy, drag them into that little black pit with you. You'll be each other's flashlights. :3
Two heads /are/ better than one in this case. xD

Story(s) Information, ect:

Lingering Shadows:
Okay! Since I've... whatever. I realized the descriptions were too confusnig for some people, so I'm remodeling the book storyline so it'll be easier. Guess what! There is people! Shocking! XD

On Hiatus because of Fanfictions

Conditions:

Copywrite: You all probably know about this, but I just want to restate it: If it's not yours, no touchy. There- 'nough said.

Thank you.

Laterz,
Elli Ray

Thanks for taking the time to read this if you did! Merci! Gracias! Gratzi!