I have always entertained the notion that I would eventually quit my day job and write full time, preferably apart from civilization on my own little patch of dirt somewhere away from it all. I plan to retire in a hobbit house, but before that I intend to do some more or less permanent vacationing in my RV. Until then, however, I remain another cog in the lumbering machine of corporate America. It's not my favorite place to be. But, unfortunately, I have little choice for the time being. For whatever reason, it costs money to stay alive, healthy, and fed.

I get a lot of my inspiration from music (doesn't everyone?). I am constantly spinning ideas around in my head, but only occasionally sit down to really pound out some serious script. I do have a small binder full of notes, on the other hand. One day I will get all of my ideas together in one place and then pummel myself to death when I can't remember where everything was supposed to go. I suffer from a relatively common brain defect known as "start over syndrome". I will invariably get a few chapters in and then suddenly realize that I hate all of my characters, abhor the story, and cannot for the life of me figure out where I was going with it in the first place. Then the entire thing death spirals into a vortex of edits, content-swapping, and other sorts of literary mayhem. What follows after is a gradual petering of interest due to mild depression and self-loathing. Eventually I ragequit and go play video games to clear my head, which is way easier than trying to write coherently.

In short, I daydream constantly but become paralyzed when faced with the prospect of actually putting my ideas into action. Does anyone else have this problem?

Nightfall 5/5/13 - And now I'm starting to think that I screwed this up again. As I reread and rethink, I'm no longer convinced that Nightfall should be a Tolkien-esque fantasy at all. Valen (formerly Valens) shouldn't be an elf. I usually hate elves. What was I thinking? Oh, right. I was playing Skyrim and got the bright idea of introducing some non-human racial diversity to the cast. I am not certain that this was a wise decision. On temporary hiatus.