Author has written 11 stories for Romance, Humor, Life, Love, General, and Friendship. Most people, when they find out I want to be a writer, smile and nod but their eyes betray them. Their eyes say, "I hope you have a back-up plan girl, or an arranged marriage with a very rich man." But I met this one man at a church retreat, an english teacher, who eyes didn't doubt me. He asked why I wanted to be a writer, why I liked writing. The answer I gave him is not the real one, well it's only a small portion of the real one. I told him I like writing because I had control and I liked putting my thoughts and feelings into fictional charcaters and letting them solve my problems, I said I liked it as a stress reliever. Like I said, I lied. Sure I like that part but there are two other much bigger reasons for my dream. The first one, the unselfish one, is that I want to make a difference in people's minds. I want people to stare at the final page of my books and say "wow, I never thought about it like that before." I want them to go shout to all their friends to get thier hands on my book, I want a treasured place on library shelves, a title on a reading list, I want to be someone who changes people for the better. You'll say those are lofty aspirations. I agree with you, it can be done, I witnessed it being done to myself, but it's unlikely a sheltered, surburban girl who never has and probably never will, really, suffer, will achieve that goal. As I said thats the unselfish reason. The selfish reason is a bit more down to earth. I want to open the eyes of those who know me, or rather those who think they know me. I want them to see I'm not the nerdy girl who never talks. I'm not the smart, bitchy girl who only talks to her firiends. I'm not the "faggot" who only has girl friends. I'm not the strangly dressed girl who walks the halls alone. I'm not whatever stereotype they've thrown on my shoulders. I'm a deeply romantic girl with dreams of true love. I'm a sarcastic character who makes her friends laugh. I'm a girl with dreams of a better future. I'm a girl who depends on her friends for everything. I'm a girl who's pressured, mostly by herself, to live up to people's expectations. I'm a girl who's thoughts remain trapped in her body becasue she lacks the self confidence, the trust in people, to voice them. I'm a girl who has a lot to say, a message to get out, but only one mean with which to do it. I'm not a girl who's looking for pity, for help, for understanding. I paved my own road, I know that. And so my dream is to turn the road, pave in a new direction. I will open peoples eyes, prove that they were wrong, I will show them what they've been missing.
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