Hey,
I have absolutely no clue how well i'm going to be able to explain myself, since I have almost no clue who I really am, but i'll give it a try.
On the outside, you see a normal, typical guy. Six feet tall, 14 years old, the type of guy that plays alot of sports, makes alot of jokes, and has a fairly normal social life. Slightly strict parents, although that doesn't bring him down too much. He knows they're just looking out for his best interests. He doesn't give his all academically because he doesn't see the point until it matters, until you eventually become a statistic in the machine the world has become. The teachers and some people with a lesser understanding of who he really is see him as a kind of hellraiser, a breaker of rules just for the hell of it, when really he breaks the rules when he views them as unjust and discrimination for an innapropriate or sometimes even inexistent reason. He listens to metal, mostly modern, and I suppose a few people think he may be a fake for that reason. He views metal as one of the only true forms of music today, one of the most lyrically talented, and often the only one he can relate to even glancingly. There are songs that break this mold, however. He is viewed as slow to temper, slightly arrogant, and maybe some with a strong sense of perception can view a bit of the pain it causes him to discomfort or even hurt others. He is viewed as a hopeless romantic, although he admits to it with no hesitation and no dishonesty whatsoever.
On the inside, there's alot more to him. He's depressed for reasons no one, maybe not even himself, knows. He has dreams that are more than dreams to him. Other people mean more to him than himself. He has a strange talent to predict how people may react, or what they're thinking at the moment. He has trouble letting people in completely, and also has trouble explaining anything about the way he feels or the way he thinks. He's not afraid of the dark, exactly, but he's afraid of what his mind may teach him or reveal to him while he's in darkness. He doesn't exactly trust himself, which probably has something to do with why he has trouble trusting others. He has low self esteem, and I suppose he may be insecure about some things.
All in all, he's not perfect, nowhere even close, but if you take the time to get to know him; you might be surprised.
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