An angel face smiles to me under a headline of tragedy, a smile that used to give me warmth. ~ Nightwish, Angels Fall First
About Me:
My name is Sarah. I'm a female, so you don't get me wrong, and I'm thirteen years old. I'm almost fourteen. I have red hair and grey eyes, and a furious temper. I also hold the potential to kill someone, but I have restrained it numerous times.
I believe in guardian angels and alter egos. I have both of these things. My guardian angel only tells me which path is the most exciting (dangerous, adventure, life-threatening, ect.) but not which will lead me to a happy future. People are so wrong when they say that is what guardian angels do. As for my alter ego, I have a darker side. My family has noticed it when I am ticked off at something - I turn into a down right bitch.
My idols include Jiraiya from Naruto. He was inspiring and had good hopes for the future. He wanted to change the world with his writing. Being that one of the movies from the same series was about, well, making a utopia, my dreams have become helping to make the world a utopia with my writing. Chris Chambers from Stand By Me. Chris was always a strong leader in front of his friends, never afraid of anything. But inside he kept many things bottled up which he only released when no one is looking. I want to be a leader like him - strong and fearless. Stephen King. He is so creative, and such a good writer. I just love his books, and I want to be able to write like that - king of horror and fantasy. Maybe one day I will get to that rank.
I'm deeply philosophic, believing everything has a deeper meaning. I'm also pagan in the way I don't believe in Jesus Christ, I'm more leaning towards Wiccan. I need to look into it a little more, but it seems like something I could easily believe in.
I suffer from a few phobias, but not many. Amnesiphobia, a fear of amnesia. I believe that if we lose our memories, it means we must start anew. We can't pick up where we left off - we become new people. Our old selves are lost. Arachnephobia, a fear of spiders. Small or big, an eight legged creature with many eyes is just creepy. No matter how strong I am. Hypsiphobia, fear of heights. I'm okay if I'm in a spot where I know I'll die if I fall, but if I won't die, then I panic. I fear feeling the pain and living with it. Nelophobia, a fear of glass. I accidentally sank my knee down onto a glass dish once, causing myself a scar inflicted my the glass cutting into my leg. Since then, I've had a fear of glass.
O quam sancta, quam serena, quam begnigna, quam amoena, o castitatis lilium... ~ Kumiko Noma, Lilium
Favourites:
In music I have many favourites. All of my favourite genres have meaning as to why I like them. Country because it's not just sappy love music. Although I do enjoy the romance, there is also some pretty humerous songs, and some very cheerful and spirit raising songs, too. It may not be the fashion at school, but I still prefer it over almost every other genre out there. J-Rock or J-Pop because each song sounds uniquely different. They have unique intruments that make each song sound it's own. Even the vocals are different for each song. Japanese people are also very creative using words which makes the English translations just as enjoyable to read. Rock because although some of it is just too much and too loud for my sensative ears, there are some very passionate rock songs. Some very meaningful and powerful songs with delicate meanings. They are a pleasure to enjoy. Dark Peace is a genre I made myself. So far it only holds two songs, Lilium and Angels Fall First. It is music that sounds almost emo or depressing, but it is really peaceful music with deep meanings. If you know the real name for this style music, please tell me. Otherwise, it will be known as 'dark peace' in my books.
There are many songs I like, but I will just mention a few since I don't want to bore you anymore than you already are by reading this. Angel of Darkness, Angels Fall First, Lilium, It Ends Tonight, That's Worth Fighting For, Sexy Naughty Bitchy Me, Brothers, Sunao na Niji, Wind Beneath My Wings, Kimi=Hana, Hollerback, Thanks for the Memories, Famous First Words, Old School, Boondox, Meteor, I Remember the Music, Shake It, Wish We Were Older, Miko Miko Nurse ~ Ai no Theme, Cancer, Meet The Creeper, and From This Moment. There's also three bands in which I will listen to any of their music; Simple Plan, Paul Brandt, and Rascal Flatts.
For books, I enjoy reading almost as much as I enjoy writing. Some of the books I like are Firestarter, The Body, Cujo, Warriors: Into the Wild, Warriors: Fire and Ice, Maximum Ride: The Angel Experiment, Maximum Ride: School's Out - Forever, Maximum Ride: Saving the World and Other Extreme Sports, Maximum Ride: Final Warning, Septimus Heap: Magyk, Septimus Heap: Flyte, Septimus Heap: Physik, Julie of the Wolves, Julie, Julie's Wolf Pack, My Side of the Mountain, Houdini, The Wind in the Willows, Trumpet of the Swan, and Old Yeller.
I hardly ever watch movies, but I'll tell you right now I hated the movie for Firestarter. But I have to say I got a kick out of it - bad acting. But it's an old movie. Anyway, I'll list you the ones I do like. I Walk The Line, The Fox and the Hound, Stand By Me, Grease, Dirty Dancing, Ninja Clash in the Land of Snow, Legend of the Stone of Gelel, Guardians of the Cresent Moon Kingdom, Shippuden the Movie, The Castle Beyond the Looking Glass, and Princess Mononoke. I absolutely loved Princess Mononoke - such a powerful message.
Yes, I do watch anime. Some of it leaves a great impact in my life. One I couldn't stand was Death Note, though. I like a lot of different anime, and all of them have their own messages. Naruto, Naruto Shippuden (only the manga), Inuyasha, Blue Drop, Gundam Seed, Gundam Seed Destiny, Loveless, Mahoromatic, Mahoromatic ~Something More Beautiful~, Lemon Angel Project, Elfen Lied (manga was better), Air, Sukisyo, Papa to Kiss in the Dark, Serial Experiments Lain, The Snow Queen, Spice and Wolf, and Shinigami no Ballad. I loved the anime The Snow Queen - Gerda's love for Kai was extremely powerful and motivating. I only watch a few TV shows, though. Heroes, Two and a Half Men, Seinfeld, That 70s Show, Friends, and Hell's Kitchen.
And I wouldn't change a thing, I'd walk right back through the rain, back to every broken heart on the day that is was breaking. ~ Rascal Flatts, Here
Like everybody, I have nicknames. I also have names which I refer to myself as from different shows/books/ect. I will now take the time to list these nicknames. They have all helped make me who I am, and I thank my friends who have given me some.
Celestialheart It's my warrior name in which I was given from the StarClan at a naming ceremony. (Warriors)
Clueless It's the name of my unit which I am the Fighter for. My twin sister is my Sacrifice. (Loveless)
Willow It's a name I gave myself in a game my sister, best friend, and I were playing when we were younger. We played in in my Nana's backyard and since then have refered to each other as these names. She's become a little distant now that she has WoW, so we never play these idiotic games anymore - the idiotic games I loved so much.
Wolf It's a nickname I picked up from a friend who once told me I was just like a wolf. She said quote, You're strong, beautiful, intelligent, and aren't afraid to fight alone if your pack is missing. I haven't seen her in a long time, but I keep the nickname as a memory.
Angel of Darkness, Angel of Darkness, the world is in your hand, but I will fight until the end. ~ Alex C ft. Yasmin K, Angel of Darkness
Quotes:
"Always as beautiful as the saddest rainstorm." ~ Unknown (If this is yours, tell me so I can give you credit)
"I'm not gonna stand down and wait." ~ Unknown (If this is yours, tell me so I can give you credit)
"We each owe a death, there are no exceptions, I know that, but sometimes, oh God, the Green Mile is so long." ~ Stephen King, The Green Mile
"Be brave. Be true. Stand." ~ Stephen King, IT
"When I look up between these narrow roofs, it reminds me of you, the one far, far away." ~ Kishimoto
"I yelled back when I heard thunder." ~ Creed, Six Feet From the Edge
"The most important things are the hardest to say. They are the things you get ashamed of, because words diminish them - words shrink things that seemed timeless when they are in your head to no more than living size when they are brought out." ~ Stephen King, The Body
"People like you walk a path thinking something you desire is waiting for you. I walk to confirm there is nothing there." ~ Gundam Seed, Rau Le Creuset
"Let them know this is a war." ~ Stephen King, Firestarter
"Freedom has a meaning for me: you can't tame me." ~ Unknown (If this is yours, tell me so I can give you credit)
"Why is it sometimes... strangers become blood... and blood becomes estranged?" ~ Unknown (If this is yours, tell me so I can give you credit)
"If I look behind me, my friends are there. So, why wouldn't I laugh?" ~ Kishimoto
"I just wish I could go someplace where nobody knows me." ~ Stephen King, The Body
"Die for the past, dream for the future, live for the present." ~ Unknown (If this is yours, tell me so I can give you credit)
"Save your tears for a day when the pain is far behind - on your feet, come with me, we are soldiers, stand or die." ~ Unknown (If this is yours, tell me so I can give you credit)
It's my fault when you're blind, it's better that I see it through your eyes. ~ The All-American Rejects, It Ends Tonight
Updates:
November 9: Okay, so it did take me two days to update everything. I've been pretty busy with my own stuff this weekend, but I managed to get something. One Friday I updated my fanfiction account (same name as here), Saturday I went to Chapters to get more Warriors books, and today I had to get up early to take my kitty to the vet. You can read Him to find out more about the guy. It wasn't for blatter crystals this time, though. Some other disease he might have that could lead to kidney failure.
November 7: I re-did my profile on here (finally) but I haven't updated anything. Tomorrow I will try to update everything. I can't guarentee anything, but I will try. If not tomorrow, I will deffenatly update everything by Sunday.
Sono te hanasanai yo hanasanai yo, futari de ireba iru hodo sabishiku naru nara. ~ Pigstar, Kimi=Hana
Stories:
Betrayal (Poem) Complete
Dream or Reality (1) Complete
Frozen Petals (4) In Progress
Good Bye (Poem) Complete
Him (Poem) Complete
Holding My Last Breath (4) Complete
Kujifuna Island (7) In Progress
Lunar Eclipse (1) Complete
Maybe Then You'll Know How I Feel (Poem) Complete
My Angel (Poem) Complete
Pheobe Thundaga (6) Complete
Shiro Ookami: The Great Battle (18) Complete
Shiro Ookami 2: Restoration of Peace (6) In Progress
Simply Written (12) In Progress
Thrice the Power (5) In Progress
Thunder's Story (10) Complete
Who I Am (Poem) Complete
I feel no shame, I'm proud of where I came from, I was born and raised in the boondox. ~ Little Big Town, Boondox
Farewell:
Well, that ends my profile. Not as long as my last one, at least. There is a hefty deal of information there, a lot about my personal life - a lot of information I really shouldn't be sharing with anyone. But I feel that even if it is on the internet, I don't care if people find it. They will just learn more about the real me.
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