I've been an aspiring author since I was 11. Granted, I'm only 14 now, but everyone says I have talent, lol. Anyway, my point is, though I may not be the most experienced writer, I do try. I hope that'll be enough, once I finally get my first story up! I can't wait... I'm working on one right now, but I don't want to put it up until I'm a fair bit of the way through, so it may be a while. In any case, be assured I know what I'm doing (I think...LOL)
Anyway, since this is my profile page I thought I may as well tell you about myself, but I don't wanna make a list and stuff like most authors do, because it seems so...impersonal, i guess. But that's just my opinion. The following will probably be extremely random, so I'm warning you now!
Well then, I suppose I should start with my name, which is pretty odd. It's spelt Tobren, T-o-b-r-e-n, and pronounced as tO (as in the toe on your foot) - bren. Two syllables, not three. Don't ask me what my mother was thinking when she named me that, coz I really don't know, but I think maybe she was just looking to be different. That's how my mom is. She luuurrrves standing out; when she was in highschool she used to do her hair in crazy styles, wear wierd clothes, all that jazz. Back then stuff like that was unheard of. Now it's normal, so I guess you could say she was ahead of her time or something. Wow...go mom.
Yeah, anyways, enough about my freaky mom (jks, LOL) and my freaky name, which I suppose isn't that bad when you think about it. I don't have many friends, at least not real ones since all the people at my school are arsewholes, but the friends I do have (who coincidently don't go to my school) are the most wonderful, genuine people in the world. And also they're very tolerant; I freely admit that I am a very hard person to like. I tend to be very inconsistent (the word 'moody' comes to mind here) and also extremely self-absorbed, to the point where I don't notice much around me. I have a lot of confidence, which rather than attract people to me actually repels them; mostly coz I don't mind bragging! LOL, yes, I do come off as a huge snob, but I don't mean to! Really! It just happens...hehehe xp.
I like the beach but not the sun or summer; I am definitely a winter girl. I love rainy days and taking long walks, and I suppose you could call me a romantic (though as my penname suggests, I tend be a random one - I never know what will strike me as 'romantic' or just stupid). I want to go into pschycology or something when I'm older, because I love examining how people's minds work. They're just so fascinating! But also I'm good at art and music, and especially english but not Math wierdly enough...:p. I only have two real passions, and they're romance (mostly other people's love lives since mine is non-existent) and singing. I don't know what I'd do if I couldn't sing or if I lost my voice... it'd drive me to depression. My music is what keeps me sane and happy when I probably wouldn't be otherwise, and I thank whatever gods there are that gave me such a gift, both to hear it and to create it.
Speaking of gods, I should probably tell you that my opinion on the subject of religion is totally nonexistent. I'm not athiest, but I'm not christian either, and in fact the two best friends I mentioned before happen to be both of those things; one has been a christian since birth, the other pretty much an athiest. I don't agree or disagree with either really. I believe...well, I don't believe in much of anything I guess, only that I'm here and how I got here doesn't really matter too much. If there's a god, then that's great, but if there isn't then that's great to. Life goes on no matter what you believe, so for now I'm content to just sit back and live a little. I'll worry about having an afterlife when I'm dieing and not before.
I suppose you could say I believe that people make their own decisions, and those decisions take them where they will, but I also think sometimes that if you believe in something enough, it just might come true. Coincedence is just fate in disguise, or so I've always thought. The truth is that nothing is certain when dealing with religions and faith, but why should it be? Proof would kind of defeat the purpose, so if we knew for certain, then well what would be the point? I respect christians and the like immensely, but I also admire their naivety. It's rather cute actually, that they believe so blindly in something they can never really be sure of. And to be honest, I hope they aren't dissapointed in the end.
I generally believe that compassion is what makes humans humane, what really seperates us from the animals, not all this business about aposable thumbs :p. Most people do feel compassion for others, and those who don't... well. Let's just say they aren't all that different from the chimpmunks are they?
Now this next bit will probably explain why people find it hard to like me. You see, I respect honesty above all things, and though I lie to strangers all the time, they're just little white lies and with strangers, well it doesn't really matter too much does it? I don't really think that's bad. But if a close friend of mine asks a question and the truth might hurt, then that wouldn't hold me back. I'd expect anyone else to be just as harsh with me, which is why it annoys me to no end when I ask a question about myself and everyone starts going 'hmm' and 'well, not really i guess'. Hello, just say it people! I want to hear the cold hard truth! Don't coddle me or I'll never change! I freely admit I'm blunt, often rude, hypocritical, belittling, arrogant, self-absorbed, annoying, and more often than not a bit of a bitch. But I also know I'm not petty or judgemental (that I know of), and am never purposefully cruel. I don't think I'm a particularly good person, but I also don't think that's a bad thing, nor do I want to change how I am right now. So I treat others how I wish to be treated (a bit too much if anything), try to accept their faults, and eventually get pushed away because the kids my age can't often handle that rather harsh outlook on life that I have. Kind of sad really... But it doesn't bother me too much. All it means is that the friends I do have are all the more special.
I guess that's all for now, though it'll probably change again soon. I should probably let you know that I tend to rant, and I'll probably have a new subject to rave about next time I update my profile. Ah, the joys of teenagerhood and hormones... :p
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