hello. my name is rebekah and i have only recently found this site. i'm sick right now, have been for two years. nothing life threatening, but i'm exhausted all the time and i tend to be awake from about 2pm to 4am. i love the alone time i get at night, and the dark and quiet that comes with it. i guess the day time is o.k, and sometimes the warmth i quite nice, but the darkness of the night is like a sanctuary to me. that's when i write my poems, and my story which i don't have the guts to post on here, i don't think it's good enough. people think i'm emo, coz i always dress in black, but i just like the shade, any colourful clothing repulses me. people think i'm happy most of the time, and most of the time i am, but that's coz i force myself to be. i find it easy to fake emotions, and it's almost as easy to make them real, even when i really don't want to feel that way at all. unless it's anger, i can't feel anything without prompting, but i'm really in tune with other people's emotions, so i can tell when it's time to put on the happy face. i think it's coz i'm sick, emotions take up energy that could be used doing more productive things, so i don't bother. people think i should be angry coz i'm sick, but i'm not. why be angry? i mean, another waste of energy, and i just don't see the point of being angry over something you can't fix.

i usually spend all my time on fanfiction.net, i haven't posted anything on there though. i mostly write poetry, and have been looking for a place to post anonymously for quite a while now, and this site seems perfect. i never claimed to be a good writer though, so don't expect too much.

i spend most of my time on my computer, either reading fanfics, original works on this website, searching music on youtube or finding new books on amazon. i'm an avid reader, and majorly passionate about music, and if someone hasn't heard of a book or a band i like i tend to take it as a personal offence and take it upon myself to tell that person all about it/them. mostly i listen to rock and metal, though i do have a secret love for the fray and james blunt that i tend to keep under wraps. but other then that if i like it i listen to it, and my favourite band right now is my chemical romance. i read mostly horror and fantasy, personally i think the ordinary human life, though not boring, has so little possibility. you get born, go to school, go to uni, get a job, then die. always the same couse, no matter how many smaller thing happen along the way. the thought depresses me.

anyways, on with the more cheerful things now. i absolutely love the series firefly, and the following movie serenity, and if you haven't seen them you need to now. resident evil one, two, and three are more faves, as well as st trinians and twilight of course. (I dislike both Edward and Bellaa though, I'm team Jacob and anti-Renesme), my fave tv series though is outrageous fortune, which is a kiwi series so anyone who reads this probably will have no idea what it is. like i said before MCR are my number one band right now, with Disturbed in close second. (Three Days Grace is third). also i just got a new ipod to play them on squee and my dad had it monogramed as a joke. now on the back of my awesome red ipod it says, and i quote, "my other ipod is pink with flowers" which is totally not true since my old one is a silver two gig and you couldn't even get those in pink at the time i got it. my favourite outfit is a my chemical romance t-shirt, and a pair of black jeans with jandals. and all this just cements the fact that there is no way in hell you could ever get me to buy a pink ipod with flowers on it.

i should probably stop ranting now, i just needed to put some stuff on my profile. anyways, bye bye!

YOU ARE A PROUD MEMBER OF THE MCRMY IF :

- THE SONG HELENA ACTUALLY SAVED YOUR LIFE

- THE VIDEO FOR I DON'T LOVE YOU MADE YOU CRY MORE THAN GERARD WAS

- THE MOMENTS IN WHICH GERARD ISN'T HAVING AN INTIMATE MOMENT WITH THE MICROPHONE MADE YOU WISH HE COULD HEAR YOU SCREAM HIS NAME

- YOUR ENTIRE LIFE REVOLVES AROUND THE SONG TEENAGERS ... AND YOU'RE NOT A PREPPY BITCH

- YOU BOUGHT THREE CHEERS FOR SWEET REVENGE JUST BECAUSE YOU KNEW IT WOULD PISS YOUR PARENTS OFF

- YOU ACTUALLY LET TRACK 14 PLAY THE VERY FIRST DAMN TIME YOU LISTENED TO THE BLACK PARADE CD

- YOU THINK GERARD WAY MADE BLEACHED HAIR EMO BUT MISSED THE BLACK HAIR ANYWAY

- YOU KNOW EXACTLY WHY THE HELL HE WROTE A SONG LIKE CANCER

- THANK YOU FOR THE VENOM IS YOUR FUCKING THEME SONG

- YOU CAN BALANCE YOUR PASSIONATE LOVE BETWEEN THE MUSIC OF MARILYN MANSON AND MY CHEMICAL ROMANCE BUT STILL UNDERSTAND WHY THEY HATE EACH OTHER SO MUCH

-GERARD SINGING ABOUT HOW YOU NEVER LEARNED A GODDAMNED THING ACTUALLY TURNED YOU ON

- GERARD ORGASMING AND GROPING A MICROPHONE MADE YOU JEALOUS OF THAT MICROPHONE

- YOU ACTUALLY PUNCHED THE BITCH THAT SAID THAT MCR WAS OVERRATED IN THE FACE

- YOU'RE HONESTLY JEALOUS OF FRANK IERO'S GUITAR

- YOU ARE PASSIONATELY CONVINCED THAT RAY TORO IS NOT ONE OF THE BEST GUITARISTS ON THE FACE OF THE EARTH ... HE IS THE BEST

- THE VERSE OF DISENCHANTED ACTUALLY MADE YOU FEEL LIKE CRYING LIKE A LITTLE GIRL

- WAYCEST MAKES YOU HOT

- YOU WOULD HONESTLY LOVE TO SEE GERARD LEAVE HIS WIFE FOR FRANK IERO OR BOB BRYAR

- BOB BRYAR AND THE WAY HE BEATS FRANK AND GERARD UP REALLY INSPIRED YOU TO STAND UP TO THE LOCAL BULLY

- MY CHEMICAL ROMANCE'S VERY PRESENCE ON THIS DESOLATE PLANE WE ARE FORCED TO CALL EXISTENCE INSPIRES YOU TO MAKE IT TO THE NEXT DAY AND THE ENTIRETY OF THREE CHEERS FOR SWEET REVENGE SAVED YOU FROM THE WORST DEPRESSION ON THE PLANET

- MY CHEMICAL ROMANCE'S VERY EXISTENCE MADE YOU REALIZE THAT YOU ARE NOT ALONE

Copy and paste this into your profile if you think that preppy blonde cheerleader bitches should never live to see the light of day merely because they pretend to understand why MCR is a crucial part of every emo kid's musical diet.

by the way, i think preppy blonde bimbos who hate heavy metal should all be murdered in horrible ways. they are the bane of my existence. (i am blonde though, so it's more against the people than the hair colour. i hate bleached hair unless it's on gerard way though.)

Thoughts on Gay Marriage!

1) Gay marriage is not natural, and, as Americans, we reject unnatural things like eyeglasses, polyester, and liposuction.

2) Gay marriage will encourage straight people to be gay in the same way that hanging around tall people makes you tall. (Raven Tiger: I wish xD I want to be tall! seriously I do...Stop laughing at me. xD).

3) Legalizing gay marriage will open the door to all kinds of crazy behavior. People may even wish to marry their pets because dogs have legal standing and can sign a marriage contract.

4) Straight marriage has been around a long time and hasn't changed at all. Women are still property, blacks can't marry whites, and divorce is still illegal.

5) Straight marriages would be less meaningful if gay marriage was allowed. The sanctity of Brittany Spear's 55 hour just-for-fun marriage would be destroyed.

6) Straight marriages are valid because they produce children. Gay couples, infertile couples, and old people shouldn't be allowed to marry because our orphanages aren't full yet and the world needs more children.

7) Obviously, gay parents will raise gay children because straight parents only raise straight children.

8) Gay marriage is not supported by religion. In a theocracy like ours, the values of one religion are imposed upon an entire country. That's why we only have one religion in America.

9) Children can never succeed without a male and female figure in a home. That's why we as a society expressly forbid single parents to raise children.

10) Gay marriage would change the foundation of society; we could never adapt to new social norms. Just like we haven't adapted to cars, the service-sector economy, or longer life spans.

If you've ever threatened your computer, copy and paste this into your profile

If you've been on the computer for hours on end, reading numerous fanfictions, copy this onto your profile, and add your name to this list: danyan, Zutara Lover, Black'n'red'Butterfly, Enrica, I'veComeToTakeYourCheese, Vampire Scooby, Alannaswarrior, Bookworm-Booklover, Jasper's Fangirl, vampirechick123, snow in my coco, Pepa333, SlytherinLuver, RavenTiger, Innocence is Dead11, black burning heart66

"I'd have a longer attention span if so many things weren't...OH! LOOK! SHINY!." (Seriously, I'm a freaking magpie.)

Last night I lay in bed looking up at the stars in the sky and I thought to myself, where the heck is the ceiling?

No I won't go to hell! It has a restraining order against me.

I'm not so good with the advice. Can I interest you in a sarcastic comment?

I live in my own little world- but it's ok, they know me there.

The dinosaurs' extinction wasn't an accident. Barney came and they all commited suicide

I was gifted, but the psychiatrist took away my super powers.

Oh, I have a photographic memory... it just hasn't developed yet.

"Tell a man there are 300 billion stars in the Universe and he'll believe you. Tell him a chair has wet paint on it, and he'll have to touch it to be sure."

I was going to take over the world, but I got distracted by something sparkly.

Don't hit kids. No, seriously, they have guns now.

People like you are the reason why we have middle fingers.

WARNING: Children left unattended will be sold to the circus.

Oh no! Barney's gone pimp! What has the world come to?

Please: Don't throw your cigarette butt's on the floor, the cockroaches are getting cancer.

Sex, drugs and rock and roll. Speed, weed and birth control. Life's a b#tch until you die. So f#ck this world, lets get hi!

Heaven doesn't want me, and hell is afraid I'll take over.

You've been a naughty boy, go to my room!

Eagles may soar, but weasels don't get sucked into jet engines.

We don't have many old people here, they can't outrun our wolves. (someone said that on the daily show, and i had to put it here).

You're just jealous because the voices are talking to me.

Protester holding a sign: "Homosex is a Biohazard!" Protestor behind him holding a sign: "Homosex is sin-sational!"'

There is nothing queer about loving another human being.

We the people...Means everyone...Rainbow

Marriage is about love...Not gender.

Everything good in life is either illegal, immoral, or fattening.

OMG. I think I just saw Paris Hilton. No, wait, that was a twig.

Cover your ears honey, because the magazines and celebrities scream "You'll never be good enough!" And if you hear their lies too many times, they won't be lies anymore.

If you support werewolf rights, copy & paste this into your profile.

I had a dream, and in it, something eats you.

You laugh because I'm different. I laugh because you're all the same.

He said, 'I don't know why you wear a bra. You've got nothing to put in it.' Then she said, 'Well, you wear pants, don't you?'"

"Every writer, without exception, is a masochist, a sadist, a peeping Tom, an exhibitionist, a narcissist, an injustice collector and a depressed person constantly haunted by fears of unproductivity." -Edmund Bergler.

Did you know the average American only reads 3 books a year? If you don't believe that it's even possible to read that little, copy and paste this onto your profile.

'Smile so the tears won't fall, laugh like you're not hurt at all.'

Guy's point of view

This is very cute! And even written by a guy!

You might agree with it, but when it actually happens 99 of girls don't
realize it 'til it is too late and that guy who did it is so frustrated that
he has moved on to someone who will take notice.

From a guys point of view:

We don't care if you talk to other guys.

We don't care if you're friends with other guys.

But when you're sitting next to us, and some random guy walks into the room
and you jump up and tackle him without even introducing us, yeah, it pisses us
off.

It doesn't help if you sit there and talk to him for ten minutes without
even acknowledging the fact that we're still there.

We don't care if a guy calls you, but at 2 in the morning we do get a
little concerned.

Nothing is that important at 2 a.m. that it can't wait till he morning.

Also, when we tell you you're pretty/beautiful/gorgeous/cute/ stunning, we
freaking mean it.

Don't tell us we're wrong.We'll stop trying to convince you.

The sexiest thing about a girl is confidence.

Yeah, you can quote me.

Don't be mad when we hold the door open.

Take Advantage of the mood I'm in.

LET US PAY FOR YOU! DON'T 'FEEL BAD'

We enjoy doing it.

It's expected.

Smile and say 'thank you.'

Kiss us when no one's watching.

If you kiss us when you know somebody's looking, we'll be more impressed.

You don't have to get dressed up for us.

If we're going out with you in the first place, you don't have to feel the
need to wear the shortest skirt you have or put on every kind of makeup you
own.

We like you for WHO you are and not WHAT you are.

Honestly, I think a girl looks more beautiful when she's just in her pj's
or my t-shirt and boxers, not all dolled up.

Don't take everything we say seriously.

Sarcasm is a beautiful thing. See the beauty in it.

Don't get angry easily.

Stop using magazines/media as your bible.

Don't talk about how hot Morris Chesnutt, Brad Pitt, or Jesse McCartney is
in front of us. It's boring, and we don't care. You have girlfriends for
that.

Whatever happened to the word 'handsome'/'beautiful'.

I'd be utterly stunned by a girl who greeted me with 'Hey handsome!'
instead of 'Hey baby/ stud/ cutie/ sexy' or whatever else you can think of.

On the other hand I'm not saying I wouldn't like it either.

Girls: I cannot stress this enough: IF YOU AREN'T BEING TREATED RIGHT BY A
GUY, DON'T WAIT FOR HIM TO CHANGE. DITCH HIS SORRY
DISGRACE-TO-THE-MALE-POPULATION , AND FIND SOMEONE WHO WILL TREAT YOU WITH
UTTER RESPECT

Someone who will honor your morals.

Someone who will make you smile when you're at your lowest.

Someone who will care for you even when you make mistakes.

Someone who will love you, no matter how bad you make them feel.

Someone who will stop what they're doing just to look you in the eyes...and
say 'i love you' ...AND ACTUALLY MEAN IT!

Give the nice guys a chance

Holding Hands- Girls : If you want to hold his hand, gently bump into it a
couple of times.
Guys : Grab it if it happens more than once.

Cuddling- Girls : When you want to cuddle with him, tell him you're cold.
Guys : Automatically move closer to her.

Movies- Girls : During a movie, if he puts his arm around you, tilt your
head on his shoulder
Guys : Lift her chin up and kiss her.

Loving each other- Guys : When she tells you she loves you, look deep into
her eyes, give her a peck on the lips, and tell her you love her too...
And
mean it.

Laying below the stars- Girls : When you're both laying under the stars,
put your head on his chest and close your eyes as you listen to his steady
heart beat
Guys : Whisper in her ear and link your hands with hers. Now
make a wish about something you would like to happen Between you and your
crush...

guys: no grabbing!

Stop!! Stop!! Stop!! Stop!!

If you haven't stopped seriously stop!

Guys repost this if you agree.

Girls repost this if you think it's cute.

Every Guy who isn't a jerk will agree with this, so we hope that all the
girls that read this will repost this