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since: 08-13-09, id: 684228, Profile Updated: 08-13-09
country: United States
Author has written 41 stories for General, Love, Sci-Fi, General, Life, and Song.

I was born to love this world, to find what binds me to the long history of life on Earth, to name the places where natural beauty quiets the overburdening of living, to study form as it invents and reinvents itself in the things of the world.

I live for the moments when everything smells wet and feral like it does before a thunderstorm, and I want to run, swift and eager, beyond the edge of what I can see.

I long for something not ugly, false, or confused. I chase the yellow-green bulbs of fireflies and cup them between my palms. I watch copter-seeds whirl from the limbs of great trees. I believe in the bare possibility of grace, in kindness and the memory of kindness, and in the fierce and sudden beauty of color. Sometimes, I believe that is enough.

And some days, I write about this. These are those days, collected together in one place. A little family of muddled thoughts and jumbled words, trying to make sense of each other and the world. Trying to build a home amidst the storm.

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1. Leonid's Storm reviews
There was a meteor shower last night. I figured that was a good enough reason to write.
Complete - Love - Fiction Rated: K+ - English - Romance/General - Chapters: 1 - Words: 495 - Reviews: 1 - Updated: 11-17-09 - Published: 11-17-09
2. Phoenixsong
The transition between relationships compared to the life cycle of a phoenix. Love, loss, and rebirth in the flames of one long year.
Complete - Life - Fiction Rated: T - English - Romance/Hurt/Comfort - Chapters: 1 - Words: 291 - Reviews: 0 - Updated: 9-23-09 - Published: 9-23-09
3. Water Droplets in the Mid Morning Sun reviews
After my shower this morning, I sat on my bed in just my towel, letting the sun warm my skin. And I looked at the beads of water clinging to my skin. This is my attempt to capture that moment.
Complete - General - Fiction Rated: T - English - General - Chapters: 1 - Words: 275 - Reviews: 1 - Updated: 9-8-09 - Published: 9-8-09
4. Camminare, Cariad
Not one of my best, mostly a need to get my feelings on this situation out there. Catharsis, I guess. Events depicted are roughly 98% true- I took a small amount of creative liberty with it, but not much.
Complete - General - Fiction Rated: T - English - Angst/Friendship - Chapters: 1 - Words: 341 - Reviews: 0 - Updated: 8-22-09 - Published: 8-22-09
5. Black Tie, White Russian reviews
Snow White. In a bathysphere. As the universe is ending. More of a discourse on being alone than anything else.
Complete - General - Fiction Rated: T - English - Fantasy/Tragedy - Chapters: 1 - Words: 219 - Reviews: 2 - Updated: 8-20-09 - Published: 8-20-09
6. Hush
A friend of mine had the Mac kernel panic error that flashes "panic: we are hanging here" on the screen. I was struck by how out-of-place that phrase seemed in an error message and ended up writing this piece based on that screen.
Complete - General - Fiction Rated: T - English - Horror/Supernatural - Chapters: 1 - Words: 263 - Reviews: 0 - Updated: 8-16-09 - Published: 8-16-09
7. Summer Waltz reviews
Another half-hearted attempt at a song.
Complete - Song - Fiction Rated: K+ - English - Romance - Chapters: 1 - Words: 314 - Reviews: 2 - Updated: 8-16-09 - Published: 8-16-09
8. Counting Sheep
Unable to sleep one night, I wrote this. It should speak to anyone who battles regularly with insomnia.
Complete - Life - Fiction Rated: K+ - English - General - Chapters: 1 - Words: 104 - Reviews: 0 - Updated: 8-16-09 - Published: 8-16-09
9. Vigil reviews
Written for a traveling boy from a landlocked girl.
Complete - Love - Fiction Rated: K+ - English - Romance - Chapters: 1 - Words: 354 - Reviews: 1 - Updated: 8-16-09 - Published: 8-16-09
10. Soap Bubbles on a Residential Street Past Midnight reviews
Walking home late one spring night, I composed this little poem.
Complete - Life - Fiction Rated: T - English - General/Romance - Chapters: 1 - Words: 142 - Reviews: 1 - Updated: 8-16-09 - Published: 8-16-09
11. Epistula Rasa »
An ongoing series of poetic letters to various characters in the lives of "S". Hopefully, as these letters accumulate, the personalities and relationships of these characters to "S" will emerge.
General - Fiction Rated: T - English - General - Chapters: 8 - Words: 1,132 - Reviews: 0 - Updated: 8-16-09 - Published: 8-16-09
12. Porcelain Papercuts
The only piece I've written under the influence of anything. Just goes to show that all those drunken writers knew what they were doing.
Complete - General - Fiction Rated: K+ - English - General - Chapters: 1 - Words: 484 - Reviews: 0 - Updated: 8-16-09 - Published: 8-16-09
13. Three Months Later reviews
A piece about picking up the shattered remains of your life and learning to move on and live again.
Complete - General - Fiction Rated: K+ - English - Hurt/Comfort/General - Chapters: 1 - Words: 1,146 - Reviews: 1 - Updated: 8-16-09 - Published: 8-16-09
14. The Calm Before reviews
Written on one of the longest nights of my life. Which, looking back, seems extraordinarily silly. Still, in that moment, I burned for that boy who would never want me.
Complete - General - Fiction Rated: T - English - Hurt/Comfort/Drama - Chapters: 1 - Words: 188 - Reviews: 2 - Updated: 8-16-09 - Published: 8-16-09
15. Formula For Disaster
Love Math. Two things that really don't make a lot of sense together, but I did it anyway.
Complete - Love - Fiction Rated: K+ - English - Romance/General - Chapters: 1 - Words: 137 - Reviews: 0 - Updated: 8-16-09 - Published: 8-16-09
16. Quartet »
Four pieces about love and music and the intricate way they bind people together.
Complete - Love - Fiction Rated: T - English - Romance/Drama - Chapters: 4 - Words: 754 - Reviews: 0 - Updated: 8-16-09 - Published: 8-16-09
17. Architecture of a Girl in a Dreamscape reviews
Another poem based on a dream of mine.
Complete - General - Fiction Rated: K+ - English - Romance/General - Chapters: 1 - Words: 126 - Reviews: 2 - Updated: 8-16-09 - Published: 8-16-09
18. Three O'Clock Girl reviews
At the end of a long day, I would climb into the shower, sing, and think of you. This is spring semester of my sophomore year, every night around 3 o'clock.
Complete - Love - Fiction Rated: K+ - English - Romance/General - Chapters: 1 - Words: 392 - Reviews: 1 - Updated: 8-16-09 - Published: 8-16-09
19. Danse d'Empathie
A good friend of mine whom I used to pine for went through a tough time when his girlfriend was in a serious accident. Note that, while this incident served as the jumping off point for this poem, this piece is entirely fiction.
Complete - Life - Fiction Rated: M - English - Hurt/Comfort/Drama - Chapters: 1 - Words: 398 - Reviews: 0 - Updated: 8-16-09 - Published: 8-16-09
20. 60 Minutes to Forever
Just two people living life at breakneck speed.
Complete - Life - Fiction Rated: K+ - English - Romance/General - Chapters: 1 - Words: 137 - Reviews: 0 - Updated: 8-16-09 - Published: 8-16-09
21. Brown Leather, An Epilogue
A companion piece to "A Series of Brown Jackets in Various Stages of Decay," this was written nearly a year after the original piece. A new boy this time, but the same worries and fears.
Complete - General - Fiction Rated: K+ - English - General - Chapters: 1 - Words: 238 - Reviews: 0 - Updated: 8-16-09 - Published: 8-16-09
22. As the World Falls Down
Based on a bittersweet dream I had one night.
Complete - Love - Fiction Rated: K+ - English - Romance/Drama - Chapters: 1 - Words: 212 - Reviews: 0 - Updated: 8-16-09 - Published: 8-16-09
23. Honey and Venom
For me, there is no more freeing a time than when I'm between love. It's at these moments that I truly live only for myself. There's also a startling clarity in these times, when I watch the people around me echoing a phase I've just left.
Complete - Life - Fiction Rated: T - English - Friendship/Hurt/Comfort - Chapters: 1 - Words: 280 - Reviews: 0 - Updated: 8-16-09 - Published: 8-16-09
24. The Lonely God reviews
Written one stifling August night, when the fireflies winked at me across fields of grass.
Complete - General - Fiction Rated: K+ - English - Tragedy/Romance - Chapters: 1 - Words: 319 - Reviews: 1 - Updated: 8-16-09 - Published: 8-16-09
25. Through His Eyes
An attempt to write through the eyes of a male character. I don't think I quite succeeded, but it was interesting to try to see a budding romance from someone else's point of view.
Complete - Love - Fiction Rated: K+ - English - Romance - Chapters: 1 - Words: 535 - Reviews: 0 - Updated: 8-16-09 - Published: 8-16-09
26. Series of Brown Jackets in Various Stages of Decay reviews
Written for two men in my life, it explores the complexities of our relationships both real and illusory .
Complete - Love - Fiction Rated: T - English - Romance/Friendship - Chapters: 1 - Words: 946 - Reviews: 2 - Updated: 8-16-09 - Published: 8-16-09
27. Avaritia
When you are in love, you covet the smallest things about your significant other, even the sound of their name.
Complete - Love - Fiction Rated: K+ - English - Romance/General - Chapters: 1 - Words: 184 - Reviews: 0 - Updated: 8-16-09 - Published: 8-16-09
28. Prague
Love found and lost in a distant land. One of the few times I've written in song format- it's not my strong suit.
Complete - Song - Fiction Rated: K+ - English - Romance/Tragedy - Chapters: 1 - Words: 354 - Reviews: 0 - Updated: 8-16-09 - Published: 8-16-09
29. Childhood's End reviews
For anyone who's ever felt alone in the world.
Complete - Life - Fiction Rated: K+ - English - General - Chapters: 1 - Words: 151 - Reviews: 2 - Updated: 8-16-09 - Published: 8-16-09
30. Let Me Sit Quietly
A sonnet written for a man I used to care deeply about.
Complete - Love - Fiction Rated: K+ - English - Romance/General - Chapters: 1 - Words: 134 - Reviews: 0 - Updated: 8-16-09 - Published: 8-16-09
31. And the Children Mourn the Man
Written in the fluttery, light phase of burgeoning attraction.
Complete - Love - Fiction Rated: K+ - English - Romance/General - Chapters: 1 - Words: 77 - Reviews: 0 - Updated: 8-16-09 - Published: 8-16-09
32. Castimonia Questus
A darker piece about desire and lust.
Complete - General - Fiction Rated: T - English - Romance/Horror - Chapters: 1 - Words: 106 - Reviews: 0 - Updated: 8-16-09 - Published: 8-16-09
33. Truth and Intellect
A short piece written when I was in the itchy, crazy moments of infatuation.
Complete - General - Fiction Rated: K+ - English - Romance/General - Chapters: 1 - Words: 57 - Reviews: 0 - Updated: 8-16-09 - Published: 8-16-09
34. Penumbral Shadows
The only remaining stanza of a longer work, written early in my sophomore year. I've always found it to be haunting, and I'll wake up periodically with the verse running through my mind.
Complete - Love - Fiction Rated: K+ - English - Romance/General - Chapters: 1 - Words: 104 - Reviews: 0 - Updated: 8-16-09 - Published: 8-16-09
35. Defiled reviews
Pseudo stream-of-consciousness character study. One day, I'll actually complete this woman's story.
Complete - General - Fiction Rated: T - English - Angst/General - Chapters: 1 - Words: 564 - Reviews: 1 - Updated: 8-16-09 - Published: 8-16-09
36. The Quantum Mechanics of Love reviews
A surprisingly sweet, romantic story. Blends love and science, two of my favorite things.
Complete - Sci-Fi - Fiction Rated: K+ - English - Romance/Sci-Fi - Chapters: 1 - Words: 1,557 - Reviews: 2 - Updated: 8-16-09 - Published: 8-16-09
37. 67 Percent
What if there is only a finite amount of love in the human heart? What happens as we age and give that love away? A fictional piece about the love-worn and the promise of happiness.
Complete - Love - Fiction Rated: T - English - Romance/Hurt/Comfort - Chapters: 1 - Words: 644 - Reviews: 0 - Updated: 8-16-09 - Published: 8-16-09
38. Creation
Written just as I was exploring the works of e.e. cummings in detail. Just a short drabble about getting a haircut.
Complete - General - Fiction Rated: T - English - Horror/General - Chapters: 1 - Words: 125 - Reviews: 0 - Updated: 8-16-09 - Published: 8-16-09
39. Misfortune
A brief bit of verse composed while washing my hands in the dorm bathroom freshman year.
Complete - General - Fiction Rated: K+ - English - General/Poetry - Chapters: 1 - Words: 30 - Reviews: 0 - Updated: 8-16-09 - Published: 8-16-09
40. Untitled Love Sonnet
Written in 10 minutes for a quiz in my English class senior year of high school.
Complete - Love - Fiction Rated: K - English - Romance/Poetry - Chapters: 1 - Words: 108 - Reviews: 0 - Updated: 8-16-09 - Published: 8-16-09
41. Contact
A brief, bittersweet look at relationships and the power of connection.
Complete - General - Fiction Rated: K+ - English - Romance/Tragedy - Chapters: 1 - Words: 132 - Reviews: 0 - Updated: 8-16-09 - Published: 8-16-09
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