Matt has built up this entire image on who he thinks Phoenix White is, and has been crushing on that person for a year now. But now he's finally going to man up and actually talk to the boy, find out who he actually is, and learn about himself on the way.
We weren't in love, we weren't infinite, we weren't anything special Noah and I. In fact, I knew he was only using me for a new beginning. But I was okay with that, because I was using him for that new beginning too.