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| Blood and Butterflies |
Author has written 27 stories for General, Humor, Nature, Life, Song, Love, and War. Wow. It's been a while since I've been on here. The internet is a scary place, kids. People go all emo and post things that will scare you. I've done so myself. Why do I write so much angst poetry? I don't know. Maybe I'm just a drama queen. Some of the stuff I write is "about my life," just multiplied by over nine thousand, and taken to the negative extremes. Other things I write to tell a story that I have in my head. It just so happens to be that few of those stories are cheerful and happy. But seriously, though. Don't let my poetry get to you. I guess I was just writing a bunch of emotional crap because it seems everyone else in my family actually has mental problems except me. You know. Middle-child syndrome. It happens all the time. I've grown older, though, and wiser... I hope. I know not to overdo things, and have learned that seeking attention via pretending I actually had worthwhile problems was overrated, and that it is much better in the long run to be happy, and to make others happy. As you can tell, I'm a fan of the Golden Rule, as well as Hugo's law: If you are feeling miserable, and someone does something to you as if a miracle has been granted upon yourself, spread the happiness to someone else. I love Jean Valjean. He's my role model, real or not as he may be. If everyone thought like Jean Valjean then the world would be such a better place. Well, anyway, since this is my profile, I'll give you guys a bit about me: I am an ordinary girl. Rather, I don't want to be, and don't think myself as such, but in retrospect I suppose I'm nothing more than ordinary. Oh well. We're all ordinary, even people like Hitler and Mother Teresa. A lot of people always associate me with that kind of girl who acts funny all the time, perhaps for attention, and with the mind of a child even though her actions speak differently. (A smart alec, pretty much.) Sometimes it's okay, but... if I could choose who people saw me as, I would want my first impression on people to be a quiet, intelligent girl with a bit of humorous wit somewhere deep down, getting funnier and more cheerful as they come to know me. Sometimes I even want - dare I say it - respect. But, ehh. What can you do, I still act weird and can't help it. I just wish some people would give me a chance to show my true self. I just need a little time to find out what it is, that's all. I am an ordinary girl, and although I don't have any dramatic backstories of my parents being abusive toward me or evil bullies on the school playground, I still have stories to tell, as we all do. It doesn't matter whether you impress and shock people with your stories, really. If you know that something isn't actually true, then it's called a "story." But some things that happened to people are true. And that's okay. But their experiences don't make them any better than any of us. Each one of you are special, and bad things that have happened to you don't define who you are. Take what you've learned from your experiences and make something good out of it. Save someone else. Make the world smile. I say this mostly for myself, because if I don't write it down, then it probably won't stick in my head. NEVER judge others. You can't judge people by how they act, what they look like, where they come from, or anything else. A lot of the time, and it is true, people bottle up how they really feel so you can't be sure you know ANYONE to their full extent. This doesn't mean that people who are naturally happy and peppy are guarenteed to be harboring a deep backstory. In fiction, it's clever the first time, but after a while… it's just a little overdone and predictable. Is it so impossible for someone to be in a constant happy mood without having any emo reason behind it? Oh wait, what am I saying. It's fiction. Okay. 5/11/13. I just finished writing out a little motto of mine, GO LIVE CAREFULLY. A lame acronym, but I couldn't think of anything else, okay? GIVE second chances, to yourself especially LOVE every living creature, because they love you too (even if you don’t yet know it) CARE for others, and you’ll be able to care for yourself | |||||||
1. Humans or DollsWe blindly follow in each others' footsteps, thinking that it's right because everyone else does it. Really, we are just dolls. We live to entertain someone by killing each other until the life is taken out of us, and we go back to being the clump of cloth we once were.Poetry: War - Rated: K+ - English - Angst/Spiritual - Chapters: 1 - Words: 674 - Published: 8-30-122. Forever With YouIs it possible to love someone so much that we even forget who we are? Can we doubt our own existence, just by saying that we live for someone else? Would there even be any more meaning to life? ...Yes... To be forever with you, I'd do anything, even erase myself.Poetry: Love - Rated: K+ - English - Angst/Hurt/Comfort - Chapters: 1 - Words: 819 - Published: 8-30-12 - Complete3. Steep HillIt's too late, the choice has already been made. It won't matter whether you've changed or not, because I'm leaving with or whithout you. And if you want to stay... if it makes you happy... then so be it.Poetry: General - Rated: K+ - English - Angst/Drama - Chapters: 1 - Words: 177 - Published: 6-28-12 - Complete4. I've Lost Myself reviewsShe used to know where to go, and what to do. But somehow she just can't remember what things used to be like. She's lost it all.Poetry: General - Rated: K+ - English - Angst - Chapters: 1 - Words: 428 - Reviews: 1 - Published: 6-26-12 - Complete5. I Love You, Love You So Much reviewsDedicated to all the yandere of the world. Free-verse.Poetry: Love - Rated: T - English - Horror/Romance - Chapters: 1 - Words: 411 - Reviews: 1 - Published: 6-24-12 - Complete6. Just Someone I Happen to Know...and this is what she's like.Poetry: General - Rated: K+ - English - Angst/Hurt/Comfort - Chapters: 1 - Words: 113 - Published: 6-24-12 - Complete7. Bad ApplesWhat do you do when you find a bad apple? Not eat it, certainly. Metaphor poem; unrelated to the English/Japanese song "Bad Apple".Poetry: General - Rated: K+ - English - Angst - Chapters: 1 - Words: 169 - Published: 6-19-12 - Complete8. If Only I Could Turn Back Time reviews...but this summer, I will mend it. Can you doubt your existence? A poem about regrets, choices, and fear. A little dark, so if you don't like unhappy things, don't read.Poetry: General - Rated: T - English - Angst/Fantasy - Chapters: 1 - Words: 1,094 - Reviews: 1 - Published: 6-9-12 - Complete9. The Letter I Will Never send reviews…but for the world to read.Poetry: Love - Rated: K+ - English - Hurt/Comfort - Chapters: 1 - Words: 636 - Reviews: 3 - Published: 5-19-12 - Complete10. Trapped in QuicksandI sink deeper into it with each day...Poetry: General - Rated: K+ - English - Angst - Chapters: 1 - Words: 433 - Published: 5-18-12 - Complete11. Mirrored Lies reviewsThis is what I feel every time I look into a mirror.Poetry: General - Rated: T - English - Angst - Chapters: 1 - Words: 277 - Reviews: 1 - Published: 5-18-12 - Complete12. The River's BeachIt could have been a perfect day. It could have stayed a normal beach. But that day, something changed it…. This is a true story.Poetry: General - Rated: T - English - Angst/Horror - Chapters: 1 - Words: 137 - Published: 5-17-12 - Complete13. Gas Station in the NightA true story.Poetry: General - Rated: K+ - English - Angst/Horror - Chapters: 1 - Words: 260 - Published: 5-17-12 - Complete14. Guilty Rope reviewsI thought I had ended it. I was wrong... stupid and naive.Poetry: General - Rated: K+ - English - Angst/Family - Chapters: 1 - Words: 299 - Reviews: 1 - Published: 5-16-12 - Complete15. Cat Panic reviewsA poem about kitties, and how much trouble they don't try to cause. I meant to make it happy. ...Yeah, you can pretty much figure out how THAT turned out... Cats are awesome, BTW. I have three.Poetry: General - Rated: K+ - English - Drama/Angst - Chapters: 1 - Words: 307 - Reviews: 1 - Published: 5-16-12 - Complete16. Song of the End reviewsWith everything else gone in the world, there's nothing I can do but sing...Poetry: Song - Rated: T - English - Angst/Tragedy - Chapters: 1 - Words: 687 - Reviews: 2 - Published: 5-5-12 - Complete17. One Star Without a NameAbout a prisoner who only has one thing that keeps him living. Not based off the song "Prisoner" by Len Kagamine, but I guess it IS a bit similar...Poetry: Life - Rated: K+ - English - Angst/Hurt/Comfort - Chapters: 1 - Words: 406 - Published: 5-3-12 - Complete18. Trapped in PoisonSometimes, the pain of living surpasses the fear of death...Poetry: Life - Rated: T - English - Angst - Chapters: 1 - Words: 579 - Published: 5-3-12 - Complete19. Painting Cities reviewsUnsurprisingly, I wrote this when I was supposed to be paying attention in art class. But this poem really has NOTHING to do with painting. It's called mass homicide.Poetry: General - Rated: T - English - Tragedy/Crime - Chapters: 1 - Words: 122 - Reviews: 2 - Published: 4-29-12 - Complete20. Punishment for Living reviewsI want to say that everything I do is because I'm insane, but I know that's not the truth...Poetry: General - Rated: T - English - Angst - Chapters: 1 - Words: 203 - Reviews: 1 - Published: 4-29-12 - Complete21. Paranoid of HerselfWhat being paranoid feels like. Like you're never free, never alone. ... Look, if you want an explanation, then read.Poetry: General - Rated: T - English - Horror/Angst - Chapters: 1 - Words: 246 - Published: 4-26-12 - Complete22. Nihilistic LifeFree-verse. Not like anyone reads this stuff, anyway. I don't really care. Hence the poem.Poetry: General - Rated: T - English - Angst - Chapters: 1 - Words: 786 - Published: 4-26-12 - Complete23. Protect Me From MyselfThere is nothing more dangerous than your own self, because it's something you can never escape from.Poetry: General - Rated: T - English - Angst - Chapters: 1 - Words: 174 - Published: 4-25-12 - Complete24. A Bird Without Wings Can Still Fly reviewsHunting for sport is stupid. Just look what happened to this bird. But when stuff starts killing you, it doesn't mean it's the end of the world. ...Okay, it DOES, but...Poetry: Nature - Rated: K+ - English - Tragedy/Angst - Chapters: 1 - Words: 222 - Reviews: 1 - Published: 4-25-12 - Complete25. A Cut to RepentWhat the title says. ...Sorry, the last two verses are a different rhythym... ignore it.Poetry: General - Rated: T - English - Angst/Tragedy - Chapters: 1 - Words: 241 - Published: 4-24-12 - Complete26. Tickle reviewsDepressing. Only... not. I wrote this one time when my friend was tickling me. I think I may have scarred her...Poetry: Humor - Rated: K+ - English - Angst - Chapters: 1 - Words: 63 - Reviews: 3 - Published: 4-24-12 - Complete27. Stare Into Space reviewsA poem about my life 24/7. My first published work on this site. Hope you enjoy... if you're the kind of person who delights in other peoples' pain, that is.Poetry: General - Rated: K+ - English - Angst - Chapters: 1 - Words: 102 - Reviews: 1 - Published: 4-22-12 - Complete
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