|The Thirteenth Flame|
Author has written 17 stories for Fantasy, Life, General, Sci-Fi, General, Romance, and Young Adult.
The name's Bookworm, but if you'd like you can always call me Axelea, Flame, Bridgette, Sage, or even Story. I was always partial to the name Story... You can even call me b--h if you'd prefer, as many people do, just know that I really won't give a crap. You're not the first to hate my guts, chances are you won't be the last either. And, for all of you wondering which one of these is my real name, the answer is...None of them. And if you're wondering what my real name is, you could be wondering a long time, because I've no intents of telling you.
I'm not kidding though. Please, feel free to call me any of the above listed names (though if you call me b--h, I probably won't respond). And for whoever figures out the trick with the first name and what it's referencing, kudos to you. Have an internet cookie. And while you're having the internet cookie, please tell me how to make them. They sound tasty. Even though I typically hate cookies...
So, now that I've introduced myself, there's a few matters to tackle of a tad bit more importance than my randomness. Like my writing style, my purpose on this website, stuff like that.
My writing standards: I'll be the first to admit, my stories are not always clean. I do curse, and I know it's an absolutely horrible habit of mine that I need to break. When I write romance, it will never go beyond kissing. Some of my characters tend to share my bad habits, cursing is a common one. In a lot of my stories, there's usually someone with an addiction, but I try not to make them go nuts with the bad traits and keep them balanced with the good. If I feel a character is too extremely bad, they end up going to an imaginary rehab in my mind, as one character currently resides in. She curses a little too much, even for me... Most of my stories will be rated T for violence and the cursing aspect. I will do my best not to abandon any stories, but updates may be slow in coming. Writer’s block sucks.
What I write: I really only write romance about once a year, and there’s a reason for that. Romance is not my genre. I leave it to the people who can actually write it decently. I write a lot of poetry, but I’m learning not to publish it on here because Fictionpress is really twitchy about the formatting. I tend to write a lot of action or adventure and Sci-Fi stories, often with a nice healthy dose of in depth thinking that borders on angst. I don’t really write spiritual stuff, horror, manga or mystery. I just don’t think that I do it well enough to warrant embarrassing myself in front of my peers-those of you who read it.
What I read: I read a lot of Fantasy, Action, Adventure, Sci-Fi, and Supernatural. I’m always open for a good romance, especially supernatural romance. However, note my definition of good. Good, adjective; 1. Not Lemons or Limes. I will never read these, so don’t even ask. 2. Character development on both sides, not just “She saw him, fell in love and kissed him.” I hate those kinds of stories. I love romances that start out with people hating each other and then they retain their personalities but fall in love. I’ll read most genres though, so if you ever would like me to read a story of yours, PM me or something to get the message across. There’s a very slim chance that I won’t read it, but I probably will if I have the time.
Why I’m here: I’m an aspiring writer. I have always loved the idea of writing and words. I live in a book, as anyone who knows me will tell you. And it has always, ever since I was like, five, been my dream to become published and affect one person’s life with the stories I tell. I know that sounds sappy, but it is and always has been my goal. And when I’ve been chasing it this long, I refuse to give up on it now. I love to help people who share my dream come along and progress in their lives as writers, and love to see their growth.
Giving and receiving reviews: I made this vow on Fanfiction, and I make it to you now. I will do my best to review every story I read. I will try to be honest and give you the best feedback I can, balancing the positives with the negatives. However, if I think your story is absolutely horrible and sucks, I won’t review. I can’t stand to give people such harsh criticism because it has happened to me before. I was told that it was hopeless and that the story had no plot, the characters were too weak, I was an idiot and the whole thing was a fail. And though it was put in very constructive terms for criticism, it still really sucked to be told that. Thus, I won’t put anyone through that kind of stuff, and will leave it to those who are willing and able to say that. Sorry. I try to really think about the pros and cons of the story and what I’m getting out of it when I review as well, rather than just saying “nice story”. As far as receiving reviews goes, I love it, even if they are just “Nice story” reviews. I love detailed reviews, simple reviews, getting reviews in general… I’m trying to get better with responding to them as well, and I thank everyone in Author’s Notes for reviewing. What I don’t like is flames. If you don’t like my story, tell me so in constructive criticism. But I can’t possibly know how to make it better if all you tell me is “This sucks”.
And now that all that’s been said… You probably all know the important stuff about my writing. But here’s a little more on current works.
Out of the Ashes: I have finished this story, but I need to upload the rest of the chapters. Maybe if someone ever showed an interest in it, I might.
Hell found Me: Yeah, about that…I’m working on it. Slowly, very slowly, but I am working on it.
And some unfinished works that I need to publish are…
The Last Timekeeper: Ro has always been haunted by visions of a past she doesn’t remember. But when she decides to follow them and take the Trials of Memory to figure out what it is she dreams of, what she discovers may reveal to her a purpose and a history bigger than she’d ever imagined. Again, coming slowly but surely. This is another one to be posted in the future at some distant time, when I actually know what to write.
Ryker’s Love: This is the full story behind my oneshot, Lost Love. However, as this is romance, it’s not going very quickly and I don’t think it’s overly good. I’ll probably post it sometime in the distant future, just not now.
Stone Angels: When Blake runs away from home to follow a mysterious note, she finds herself suddenly a part of an Organization formed to save light in the world. If she fails initiation, she’ll die. If she succeeds, she’ll become one of their ranks, a fighter for the worlds. But in the process, she may also learn more than she’d hoped to know…This one I keep getting plotbunnies for. Expect a very rough draft soon, coming to a profile near you.
Learning to Live Again: Ever since an accident on New Years shattered her world and claimed the lives of her friends, leaving Blair as the last one standing, she’s been falling into darkness. But when the people left around her force her into piecing her life back together, she might just learn that there’s still a lot left to live for. This story is currently dead, I have not worked on it in months.
Marked/Hunted/Run/Tattoo/I really need a title for this: Speeds. Stealths. Strengths. Brains. Hiddens. These are the classes of people that exist in Eddy’s world, their lives determined by the mark on their hands. She’s never had a mark, and has always longed for one. But when her wish is granted, and she finds out where she fits in her society, Eddy will discover that it was far safer when she didn’t have anyone to be. Work on this is coming slowly but surely. VERY slowly…
And that sums it up! If you want to know some more about me, read on! If not, thanks for reading what you have read and enjoy my stories. Thanks you guys. For all of you who took the time to read this, I appreciate it. Even a few minutes means a ton to me.
That said, I can go on to tell you some stuff about myself and my writing. But one last matter of business before that.
I apologize if I offend anyone with what I write on my profile. I have an opinion. Usually, it is a VERY strong one. If you disagree with it, I’m not going to try and persuade you otherwise, but don’t get your knickers in a twist and give me hell about the way I think. If you don’t like it, don’t read it.
Now, stuff about me.
Some likes and favorites of mine…
Authors: I read a lot. Some of my favorite authors I’ve run across so far are Margaret Peterson Haddix, Dan Poblocki (He is an AMAZING horror writer), and Darren Shan, though I love him and hate him in equal measure for what he did to his characters in Cirque Du Freak. Nancy Yi Fan is my absolute role model. Just…wow. Her first book, she published when she was twelve. And the prequel to the damn thing still makes me cry.
Books: So far, I have yet to be able to pick a favorite book or book series- here’s a list of some of the best I’ve read thus far though. I love the Dustlands series (Jack and Saba are a kick-a couple!), Divergent, Hunger Games trilogy, Inkheart trilogy, Kane Chronicles, Speak, Wintergirls, the Virals series, Beastly, Miss Peregrine’s Home for Peculiar Children, The 13th Reality series, Anna Dressed in Blood, the Nevermore trilogy (The Kelly Creagh one), Mortal Instruments, Infernal Devices, and Cirque Du Freak. Of course, that’s just part of the list, or all I can remember right now. Count yourself lucky that you don’t have to read the whole thing.
Reading: I love to read. That’s why my profile name used to be bkwrmnlvnit, or Bookworm and Loving It, before Kingdom Hearts ate my life. I read a lot of realistic fiction, dystopic fiction, horror, fantasy, holocaust memoirs, and such. There has only been one book so far in my life that I have not been able to read, and that is Little Women. I think it is the most pointless, plotless piece of literature that was ever published. I hate stories that have no plot, or where everything is just cheery happy. For the love of all things precious, give me some darn problems, alright?
Movies: I am in love with Tangled, the Hunger Games, League of Extraordinary Gentlemen (I cry EVERY stinking time Quatermain dies!), Sorcerer’s Apprentice, and Cirque Du Freak
Drawing: I love to draw, even if I’m bad at it. I often try to draw characters from books I read or am writing. Sometimes it works, sometimes it doesn’t. But there is a fair amount of the ones that didn’t work that look like something Picasso would have made, in a non-professional sort of way.
Libraries: I love them! They’re my own heaven on earth- mine even SMELLS good.
Country Music: I like Sugarland, Lady Antebellum, Taylor Swift, and those kinds of people. Don't ask me about the new Kesha (Did I spell that right?) or Usher or Green Day Song. I will ask you who they are, and in the case of Green Day, I will ask you when that holiday is. I don't know who they are, and honestly, I just really don't care to learn.
Taylor Swift: Go Tay! Everybody thinks I'm wacko for knowing the words to pretty much every song she's ever put out on an album, but hey. There are worse things to be called crazy for, I suppose.
Cirque Du Freak: Okay, this is one of my favorite and least favorite series at the same time. I love the series itself, because I consider a good series one that makes me laugh, makes me cry, and keeps me in suspense. Cirque Du Freak did all three, but boy, did it make me cry hard. Every single twist kept me on my toes, and I thought that it was well written. But at the same time, I hate it. So many good people, good characters died. Arra Sails. Gavner Purl. Mr. Crepsley. Kurda Smahlt(I had mixed feelings on him, but I can’t help thinking that his intentions were the best though his means were flawed.) Sam Grest. There was so much tragedy in this series, but in a way, that was what made it so stunningly, beautifully good, if you could read through the tears.
Larten Crepsley: Just had to put a separate spot for this character in Cirque Du Freak. He was the best of them all. He had his flaws, but his good so desperately outweighed the bad that it wasn’t even funny. Even when he was bad, he was still good within it. I cried so hard when he died. I physically COULD NOT read the series for a week, and then when I did, I ended up crying through almost the entirety of the last three books. I’m actually making a memorial for good old Larten. Poor guy… R.I.P. Larten Crepsley- Even in Death may you be triumphant!
Disabled children: There are so many people that may see the children with paralyzing disabilities as useless, but I feel they are so wrong. The children who have these disabilities are the most beautiful, innocent people you will ever know. They have great laughs, and they are never cruel. All that we take for granted is the biggest accomplishments for them, and those accomplishments are hard earned. They try so hard, and I have never seen one who is anything less than beautiful in their soul and spirit. They’re far better people than most of society, myself included, could ever hope to be.
Selfless people: The world needs more people like this. You know the ones- they’ll stand up for you when they don’t know you, throw themselves in front of a bus to push you out of the way. They’ll tell you hello and give you a shoulder to cry on, and help you pick up your papers when you drop them all in the hallway during passing period. They’re the people who go around, being the best that they can be, not because they want praise but because it’s the right thing to do. They are among the best of us all, and if the world was full of people like that, maybe we wouldn’t have the problems we have today.
Miscellaneous: Bubbles, neon colors, cupcakes, making up words, Germany (Jelly doughnuts for the win! Don’t ask.)
But, not everything in my world is sunshine, rainbows, and things I like. You know what I do like. Now here are some things I don’t like, hate, or loathe with my entire being.
Chocolate: Blech! With some rare exceptions, I can’t stand chocolate- it’s just too sweet! Everyone thinks I’m so weird for that fact, but I’m weird for many other reasons as well. Trust me, chocolate doesn’t even START to cover my insanity. :O)
Spelling errors: it drivs me crazee wen u cant reed sumthing becuz peepul cant spel and reli on spel chek. how can u reed it if u don't understand it becuz uv spelling? (Apologies for the terrible spelling here, I'm literally freaking out because it drives me nuts. For those of you who read this, do you get my point?)
Math: In my future, nine out of ten careers I've thought about going into will never in a million years require me to know how to solve for x using square roots, exponents, and all those wonky formulas. Besides, who was the goofball who decided to throw the alphabet into math anyways? I can do addition, subtraction, basic skills, figure tax, everyday life skills. I really don't care if the square root of x times pi is linear.
Wrong Terms: It is not your, it's you're! People really need to look at their work and find the right form of 'to' and 'your' and all those other fun words that most people can't seem to get right. It drives me crazy! (Well, crazier than usual.)
Nasty People: You know what? If the only thing you have to do is to make some smart-aleck comment on another person just to bring them down because you obviously lack the self confidence and moral capacity to stand out and stand tall on your own, just get a life and stay out of mine.
Analyzing stuff: Does it ever occur to English teachers that the author really could have had the character walking outside into the sunlight just because they wanted warm weather in the story? Not everything has ten tons of symbolism behind it, and it drives me crazy to no end when people pretend it does.
Cliff Hangers: Oh, come on. You can not end a book RIGHT THERE!
Stereotypes: Just because I’m a person, IT DOESN’T MEAN I NEED A LABEL!
Sad endings: Movies, books, whatever. I know that they are fake, and they didn't happen, but I absolutely hate sad endings. I will cry, look like a complete idiot, and half hyperventilate depending on how hard I'm crying. I get that life doesn't always have happy endings, but can't I pretend? Then again, I am a culprit for this in my own stories, but only if I have to and it really moves the story along. I even cry when I kill off characters, and then it's even more embarrassing when people ask me what's wrong, because I have to reply that I killed someone. Can you say Awkward Dot Com?
Judgmental people: I really, really, DETEST the people who walk around acting like they know everything. You know which ones- the queen bees who go about, talking about how much of a b-- so and so is, and how this person is so mean, and blah, blah, blah, blah, BLAH. Shut. The. Heck. Up. Did you know that so and so has grown up with no mother because their mother is in prison for drug abuse? Did you know that the boy who you ignore is quiet because he’s dealing with depression and cuts himself so he can feel? Did you know that the girl in the corner doesn’t trust people and keeps them away because her father is abusive? Did you know that the kid who everyone calls a loner has a sister who died in a car accident and a brother who killed himself? I didn’t think so. So why do you think you have some divine right to pass judgment on them without knowing their story? News flash- you don’t. And if you have nothing better to say, get some duct tape, do the world a favor, and use it on yourself to shut your piehole.
TEXTING ACRONYMS!: I do not text, I type in real words. I can not read what you write if you write it in a bunch of acronyms. Reading comments on YouTube, I have to go onto Google half the time just to read what it says. If I have to go to another website to translate what you're typing, I may not ever get around to reading it. Type in real words, please, at least when you are typing at me!
War: Not to be unpatriotic, but why can we all not just shut up, get over our pride, and work on helping the world as a whole, like with water shortages. Isn't that a tad more important than shooting someone?
Now that I’ve probably offended or annoyed at least half of the free world with my opinions, I have another random comment to throw out there- a list!’
How to Tell if You're a Writer
-If you talk to yourself.
And now, just a few copy and paste things because I can.
If you have ever tripped up a flight of stairs, copy and paste this to your profile (Every day, without fail…)
If you have ever spent so much time reading that your eyes crossed and you got a neck ache, copy and paste this to your profile. (Every time I find a good book…)
If you’ve ever read a book or more in one day, copy and paste this to your profile. (My record is four. Or is it five? I think four.)
If you have ever crushed on fictional characters, copy and paste this to your profile. (Axel, Snow Villiers, Eugene Fitzherbert, Will Herondale…)
If you think that books got all the cool guys, copy and paste this to your profile. (Oh, yeah…)
If you have more friends from books than you do in real life, copy and paste this to your profile.
If you have ever gone into a depression after a character death, copy and paste this to your profile. (Larten Crepsley. His death was the worst…I cried so hard…I didn't go into depression after Will died, but that pretty well sucked too.)
If you have ever gotten into a heated argument about the value of reading, copy and paste this to your profile. (We almost came to blows on that one…)
If FanFiction and FictionPress are to you what Facebook is to everyone else, copy and paste this to your profile. (I have no desire or want for Facebook, just for the record….)
If you have ever given death threats to your computer or other inanimate objects, copy and paste this to your profile. (Be glad you couldn’t hear them.)
If you couldn’t cook to save your life, copy and paste this to your profile. (Hope that zombie apocalypse survival doesn’t depend on feeding them something other than my brains…)
If you have so many nicknames for your friends, you don’t even bother with their real names anymore, copy and paste this to your profile. (Let’s see…One has 27 at last count, I believe, the other has about 15.)
If you are known for your fill-in curse words, copy and paste this to your profile. (Son of a flying Frenchman!)
If you write and read more than is probably healthy for you, copy and paste this to your profile.
If you are annoyed by copy and paste items but you do them anyways, copy and paste this to your profile. (Ah, nothing like a healthy dose of hypocrisy…)
If you know your librarian’s name and they know yours and you frequently get into conversations over books, copy and paste this to your profile. (Ah, so refreshing…)
If you think that it would be awesome to live in a fictional world, copy and paste this to your profile. (Oh man, Infernal Devices, Kingdom Hearts (World that Never Was), The Dustlands, Narnia, The inkscape… Panem, I could live without though…)
Most teenagers hear “Edward” and instantly think “Cullen”. If you’re one of the few who still thinks “Scissorhands”, copy and paste this to your profile. (Damn that movie! It made me cry.)
If you have ever laughed at the most awkward moment possible, copy and paste this to your profile. (Curse Kelly Creagh and her comments on talking hamburgers! Bad timing, Dave!)
If you think that writing could not exist without music or drawing, copy and paste this to your profile. (If I could not listen to Evanescence, Final Fantasy XIII music, Blackmore’s Night, or instrumental pieces while writing, I would die.)
If you have ever felt that plot-bunnies are a curse and not a blessing like writers make them out to be, copy and paste this to your profile. (They always attack in the night, and come in the most wacko order…)
If a world without books to you may as well not exist, copy and paste this to your profile. (Without those…NO!!!!!!!!!)
If you think Jack and Saba are the best couple ever, copy and paste this to your profile. (Awesome sauce!)
If you would absolutely love to live in The Infernal Devices, copy and paste this to your profile.
If you would love to be a Shadowhunter, copy and paste this to your profile.
If you desperately want a parabatai, or you think you already have one, copy and paste this to your profile.
If you think William Herondale is the best character Cassandra Clare has created to date in both Mortal Instruments and Infernal Devices, copy and paste this to your profile. (Gah, I cried so hard when he died...It was Mr. Crepsley all over again...)
If you are Team Will, copy and paste this to your profile. (I like Jem and all, but he's a little too complacent to me. Will, I have always loved his character, even in Clockwork Angel when he was a jerk.)
And, if you are done with copy and paste things for now, copy and paste this into your profile.
Sorry, I had to do that.
A girl and guy were speeding over 100 M.P.H. on a motorcycle
Girl: Slow down, I'm scared!
Guy: No, this is fun.
Girl: No, it's not. Please, I'm scared.
Guy: Then tell me you love me.
Girl: I love you, now slow down!
Guy: Now give me a big hug.
She gives him a big hug.
Guy: Can you take off my helmet and put it on yourself? It's bothering me.
In the newspaper the next day, a motorcycle had crashed into a building because of brake failure. Two people were on it and only one survived. The truth was, that halfway down the road, the guy realized his brake wasn't working but he didn't want the girl to know. Instead he had her hug him and tell him one last time that she loved him. Then he had her put on his helmet so that she would live even if he died. Copy this onto your profile if you would do the same thing for someone you love in a heartbeat.
Songs of the Now: Echo, by Jason Walker, Memories by Within Temptation, Kiss it Better by He is We, Darkness by Blackmore's Night, and Let it Burn by Red
Obsession of the now: Infernal Devices,Kingdom Hearts and Final Fantasy (Of which I completely understand and love the first, vaguely understand the second and have no understanding of the third.)
Artists of the now: He is We, Blackmore's Night, Within Temptation, Taylor Swift forever.
Quote of the now: You both think you can do whatever you want! Well, I'm sick of it! Go on, you just keep running! But I'll always be there to bring you back! Axel from Kingdom Hearts
Lyrics of the now: Will you play this game? Will you fight or will you walk away? How long will you let it burn? Let it burn...Let it burn... -- Red, Let it Burn
Theme Song: Cold as Stone by Lady Antebellum. (J, J, E and S...I miss you so much...)
Book of the now: Blood Red Road by Moira Young. This is right on par with the Hunger Games, and I'm not even kidding.
What I'm reading now: Because I am Furniture (Oh, my gosh.)
Just finished reading: Clockwork Princess. (SPOILER ALERT! SPOILER ALERT!) Blargh, I hate you, Cassandra Clare! First off, seriously? You have Jem run out of frigging yin fen, the one thing that is keeping him ALIVE with no refill, have him give permission to look for a cure again, just to revoke that permission shortly? What the fridge? Okay, so she freaking killed Jem, sweet, loving, selfless Jem, then brought him back as a Silent Brother. Then she paralyzed Henry and killed Jessamine. Had Will and Tessa get married just for him to die in the end, and she could only see Jem for an hour a year, and even that was illegal. I absolutely loved the character of Will, with his sarcasm and joking and his love of books and...It was bad. Like, first time I read about Mr. Crepsley dying bad. I was pretty much an emotional train wreck... Why'd you kill him, Cassandra? Why?!? SPOILER ENDED. I totally recommend this series, just know that the last book is really kind of depressing...I'm going to go mourn Will now and bang my head against a wall. Goodbye. Ave atque vail, Gwilym. Hail and farewell, William.
And now, one last sappy bit about me..and who I am.
I am Bookworm. I am someone who is always struggling to live up to my own expectations, whose greatest fear is failing those that are important. I am someone who loves deeper than I should, and who thinks that humanity isn’t a hopeless cause. I am a person who believes in equality, who will always be there to reach out and save those who I can. I am someone who looks for those who are outcast and lives to give them someone to depend on. I am someone who has almost given up on life before, and has come back to keep fighting and survive. I am a person who is talkative and random, who cries for books and humanity. I am a person who believes in second chances, but won’t take crap from anyone. I am someone who has many faces, the one of cold sarcasm, the one of warm friendship, and the one I try to make sure no one sees. I am someone who does their best to make sure no one sees them cry, because I am someone who needs others to worry about themselves first. I am bad about talking about my feelings, and I solve my problems on my own because I don’t trust others easily. I am someone who lets their temper get in the way more than I should and is far quicker to lash out than heal. I am undeniably flawed. I am the one who no one believes is selfless, who no one could see as giving a crap about someone else, but every day I resign myself in the morning to the possibility that I could be dead by the day's end, and that I don't care if I went out in someone else's place. I am the one who was named for someone brought out of the rubble and ruins of man’s cruelty manifested, and who tries to live on in that person’s name, as a memento to the one who didn’t survive, and a rock of support to the ones who did and do.
I am Bookworm. And that will never change.
If you’re still reading this, thank you. Thank you from someone who really appreciates you taking this time to learn who I am, and try to understand me. Know that across however many miles there are, I thank you, and I give bits of my soul to you, because you are some of the few who took the time to know me and learn me, and maybe, we’ll meet someday and you’ll know me for real. Until then, I thank you, and I think of you, across the distance, across the spaces, and across the worlds of letters. Thank you.
Regards and always yours,
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