secrets, lies, and sins in masks...suffer me softly is all i ask

i have much to tell yet nothing to say, a contradiction in my own right...simply put...i'm complicated

Sort: Category . Published . Updated . Title . Words . Chapters . Reviews . Status .

Sort: Category . Published . Updated . Title . Words . Chapters . Reviews . Status .

1. Intrigue Only Goes So Far

This is for my new guy. He's amazing and deserves the best of me. It's terrifying.

Complete - Love - Fiction Rated: T - English - General/Poetry - Chapters: 1 - Words: 108 - Reviews: 0 - Updated: 2-5-08 - Published: 2-5-08

2. Ghosts in Waiting

And so he left...and took that last spark of hope with him. He'll always hold my wounded heart and he'll always haunt me...

Complete - General - Fiction Rated: T - English - General/Poetry - Chapters: 1 - Words: 222 - Reviews: 0 - Updated: 12-31-07 - Published: 12-31-07

3. An Ocean Between Amends

What else can I say about him? He's inspired so many poems containing so many feelings...

Complete - General - Fiction Rated: T - English - Poetry/General - Chapters: 1 - Words: 286 - Reviews: 0 - Updated: 12-31-07 - Published: 12-31-07

4. Consorting with Disheartedness to Drive Your Devil

I wrote this for Matt. I don't care to cleverly disguise it. It's for him. They usually are for him. He is the death of me.

Complete - Love - Fiction Rated: T - English - General/Angst - Chapters: 1 - Words: 158 - Reviews: 0 - Updated: 5-11-07 - Published: 5-11-07

5. Peering Past the Past to Find the Old in New

This is a new one for the one who still holds so many pieces of me...

Complete - Love - Fiction Rated: T - English - General/Poetry - Chapters: 1 - Words: 243 - Reviews: 0 - Updated: 1-5-07 - Published: 1-5-07

6. The Soldier One Letter Short of a Whole Identity

The easiest part of loving someone is waiting. It's the nourishing of that love that becomes the chaos.

Complete - Love - Fiction Rated: T - English - General/Poetry - Chapters: 1 - Words: 208 - Reviews: 0 - Updated: 11-9-06 - Published: 11-9-06

7. Pvt MC

I'm always waiting, only to be disappointed by the outcome.

Love - Fiction Rated: M - English - General/Poetry - Chapters: 1 - Words: 128 - Reviews: 0 - Updated: 10-12-06 - Published: 9-29-06

8. Ghosts reviews

I am dedicated and one with them in another world.

Life - Fiction Rated: M - English - General/Poetry - Chapters: 1 - Words: 200 - Reviews: 1 - Updated: 9-29-06 - Published: 9-29-06

9. Break and Release

He knows this is for him.

Love - Fiction Rated: M - English - General/Tragedy - Chapters: 1 - Words: 129 - Reviews: 0 - Updated: 9-29-06 - Published: 9-29-06

10. A Prayer to My Beloved Destroyer reviews

despair and love seem to go hand in hand for me...

Complete - General - Fiction Rated: T - English - General/Poetry - Chapters: 1 - Words: 150 - Reviews: 1 - Updated: 3-3-06 - Published: 3-3-06

11. Plagues and Pacifiers

this is about loving someone that doesn't know i exist...

General - Fiction Rated: T - English - General/Tragedy - Chapters: 1 - Words: 172 - Reviews: 0 - Updated: 2-22-06 - Published: 2-22-06

12. simple sin from my perspective

i love someone..and he wrote a poem here called Simple Sin...this is my reaction to his desires...

General - Fiction Rated: T - English - General - Chapters: 1 - Words: 182 - Reviews: 0 - Updated: 2-5-06 - Published: 2-5-06

13. smothered and covered

i have issues that i control, but there is one that destroys everything...

General - Fiction Rated: T - English - General - Chapters: 1 - Words: 102 - Reviews: 0 - Updated: 2-5-06 - Published: 2-5-06

14. sicknesssalvation

old habits ease new pains...

General - Fiction Rated: T - English - General - Chapters: 1 - Words: 117 - Reviews: 0 - Updated: 2-5-06 - Published: 2-5-06

15. Punisher

I hurt myself hurting him...only to try to heal things moments later

General - Fiction Rated: K - English - General - Chapters: 1 - Words: 200 - Reviews: 0 - Updated: 11-30-05 - Published: 11-30-05

16. Promises of Contempt

I don't know why I wrote this...I must have been thinking about my ex...

General - Fiction Rated: K - English - General - Chapters: 1 - Words: 106 - Reviews: 0 - Updated: 11-30-05 - Published: 11-30-05

17. Priceless reviews

I hurt him because I'm afraid of us...

Love - Fiction Rated: T - English - General - Chapters: 1 - Words: 218 - Reviews: 1 - Updated: 11-30-05 - Published: 11-30-05

18. In Love and Punishment

ah...to love and lose...all because I'm far too crazt for anyone's good

General - Fiction Rated: M - English - General - Chapters: 1 - Words: 224 - Reviews: 0 - Updated: 10-27-05 - Published: 10-27-05

19. Kiss Me reviews

i love so deeply...it kills

Love - Fiction Rated: T - English - General - Chapters: 1 - Words: 138 - Reviews: 4 - Updated: 7-6-05 - Published: 7-6-05

20. Tried and Tribulated reviews

my mind hates me as much as i do

General - Fiction Rated: T - English - General - Chapters: 1 - Words: 167 - Reviews: 1 - Updated: 7-6-05 - Published: 7-6-05

21. Image reviews

this is how i see me...

General - Fiction Rated: K - English - Angst/Tragedy - Chapters: 1 - Words: 161 - Reviews: 1 - Updated: 2-17-05 - Published: 2-17-05

22. Taunting Questions reviews

always searching...and always shocked at what i find

Life - Fiction Rated: K - English - Angst - Chapters: 1 - Words: 164 - Reviews: 1 - Updated: 2-13-05 - Published: 2-13-05

23. Askew Love reviews

i love deeply now...through tainted eyes

Love - Fiction Rated: K - English - Poetry - Chapters: 1 - Words: 211 - Reviews: 1 - Updated: 2-13-05 - Published: 2-13-05

24. So Lonely reviews

i was bored....

General - Fiction Rated: K - English - General/Poetry - Chapters: 1 - Words: 48 - Reviews: 3 - Updated: 2-13-02 - Published: 2-13-02

25. Forgive Me reviews

im so sick of always trying to be an adult.....im young...let me live...

General - Fiction Rated: K - English - General/Poetry - Chapters: 1 - Words: 61 - Reviews: 2 - Updated: 2-13-02 - Published: 2-13-02

26. mommy dearest reviews

im so pissed off at her.....

General - Fiction Rated: K - English - General/Poetry - Chapters: 1 - Words: 19 - Reviews: 2 - Updated: 2-13-02 - Published: 2-13-02

27. Scorned reviews

hell hath no fury...so very true....

General - Fiction Rated: K - English - General/Poetry - Chapters: 1 - Words: 122 - Reviews: 1 - Updated: 2-13-02 - Published: 2-13-02

28. Sickness reviews

im so sick & twisted eh?

General - Fiction Rated: K - English - General/Poetry - Chapters: 1 - Words: 125 - Reviews: 1 - Updated: 2-13-02 - Published: 2-13-02

29. Like I Do reviews

i just write now.....i dont think much about what im writing...i allow everyone esle ta do that for me...peACE

General - Fiction Rated: K - English - General/Poetry - Chapters: 1 - Words: 77 - Reviews: 1 - Updated: 2-13-02 - Published: 2-13-02

30. Vexation reviews

okie...so im a borderline...im sad happy....its hard knowing how i feel....bwahhaha....r&r..

General - Fiction Rated: K - English - Poetry/General - Chapters: 1 - Words: 80 - Reviews: 2 - Updated: 9-29-01 - Published: 9-29-01

31. Times reviews

i say alotta ppl are blind...but then i think...maybe i just feel more than most

General - Fiction Rated: K - English - Poetry/General - Chapters: 1 - Words: 112 - Reviews: 3 - Updated: 9-7-01 - Published: 9-7-01

32. People reviews

im just pissed today......its so hard to say that im the keeper of my fate when im tied back by so many fukkers & i cant seem ta free myslf.......

General - Fiction Rated: K - English - Poetry/General - Chapters: 1 - Words: 95 - Reviews: 4 - Updated: 9-3-01 - Published: 9-3-01

33. Demise reviews

this signifies two completely different problems in my sad lil life.....

General - Fiction Rated: K - English - Poetry/General - Chapters: 1 - Words: 91 - Reviews: 1 - Updated: 9-3-01 - Published: 9-3-01

34. Pity reviews

i get so pissed at my "dead" friends sometimes......

General - Fiction Rated: K - English - Poetry/General - Chapters: 1 - Words: 106 - Reviews: 2 - Updated: 9-2-01 - Published: 9-2-01

35. Tranquilize reviews

*sighs*.....i dont want to feel anymore.....

General - Fiction Rated: K - English - Poetry/General - Chapters: 1 - Words: 83 - Reviews: 2 - Updated: 9-1-01 - Published: 9-1-01

36. Defunct reviews

every day of depression is another piece of yourself dead......r&r

General - Fiction Rated: K - English - Poetry/General - Chapters: 1 - Words: 75 - Reviews: 2 - Updated: 8-30-01 - Published: 8-30-01

37. Break reviews

im not into drugs...i kinda was back then....this is more about some people i know....

General - Fiction Rated: K - English - Poetry/General - Chapters: 1 - Words: 75 - Reviews: 1 - Updated: 8-30-01 - Published: 8-30-01

38. Love?? reviews

well....i have serious problems with "love"...yeah...R&R....

General - Fiction Rated: K - English - Poetry/General - Chapters: 1 - Words: 108 - Reviews: 1 - Updated: 8-28-01 - Published: 8-28-01

39. Sleep reviews

i have sleep problems....& weird dreams...so do a coupla my friends...*sighs*

General - Fiction Rated: K - English - Poetry/General - Chapters: 1 - Words: 27 - Reviews: 1 - Updated: 8-28-01 - Published: 8-28-01

40. Mommy reviews

this is a spurt of hate towards my mother...sometimes shits good...sometimes its bad.....but i only write about the bad....so here ya go

General - Fiction Rated: K - English - Poetry/General - Chapters: 1 - Words: 123 - Reviews: 4 - Updated: 8-28-01 - Published: 8-28-01

41. Dead Memories

My pip wrote this fer me.....he's so great....

General - Fiction Rated: K - English - Poetry/General - Chapters: 1 - Words: 80 - Reviews: 0 - Updated: 8-28-01 - Published: 8-28-01

42. Dumb Girl reviews

another spurt of anger towards my ma

General - Fiction Rated: K - English - Poetry/General - Chapters: 1 - Words: 88 - Reviews: 1 - Updated: 8-28-01 - Published: 8-28-01

43. Black Roses reviews

this si short....blunt....yet open fer individual perception...

General - Fiction Rated: K - English - Poetry/General - Chapters: 1 - Words: 38 - Reviews: 6 - Updated: 8-28-01 - Published: 8-28-01

44. Beside You reviews

ummm...justa quickie...teehee

General - Fiction Rated: K - English - Poetry/General - Chapters: 1 - Words: 23 - Reviews: 1 - Updated: 8-28-01 - Published: 8-28-01

45. Born On Fire reviews

I'm just a crazee girl...r&r....

General - Fiction Rated: K - English - Poetry/General - Chapters: 1 - Words: 43 - Reviews: 2 - Updated: 8-28-01 - Published: 8-28-01

46. Color of Pain reviews

*shrugs*....another "thing".....

General - Fiction Rated: K - English - Poetry/General - Chapters: 1 - Words: 53 - Reviews: 4 - Updated: 8-28-01 - Published: 8-28-01

47. Dark Eyes reviews

yes....his eyes showed everything....

General - Fiction Rated: K - English - Poetry/General - Chapters: 1 - Words: 19 - Reviews: 1 - Updated: 8-28-01 - Published: 8-28-01

48. Fake reviews

just a lil spurt of writing......

General - Fiction Rated: K - English - Poetry/General - Chapters: 1 - Words: 36 - Reviews: 1 - Updated: 8-28-01 - Published: 8-28-01

49. I Am reviews

yeah well...i hadta write this fer scoo....its kinda good...*shrugs*

General - Fiction Rated: K - English - Poetry/General - Chapters: 1 - Words: 66 - Reviews: 2 - Updated: 8-28-01 - Published: 8-28-01

50. Killing Only Me reviews

lets see.....i have alot of built up pain....

General - Fiction Rated: K - English - Poetry/General - Chapters: 1 - Words: 44 - Reviews: 2 - Updated: 8-28-01 - Published: 8-28-01

51. Looking Glass

i reflect on life alot.....this is just a tiny piece of it.....

General - Fiction Rated: K - English - Poetry/General - Chapters: 1 - Words: 26 - Reviews: 0 - Updated: 8-28-01 - Published: 8-28-01

52. Secret Place reviews

well.....another one about that bastard

General - Fiction Rated: K - English - Poetry/General - Chapters: 1 - Words: 63 - Reviews: 1 - Updated: 8-28-01 - Published: 8-28-01

53. Ice

short lil thing about a coupla guys i know

General - Fiction Rated: K - English - Poetry/General - Chapters: 1 - Words: 36 - Reviews: 0 - Updated: 8-28-01 - Published: 8-28-01

54. Vampires reviews

just a short lil poem about one of my obsessions.....

General - Fiction Rated: K - English - Poetry/General - Chapters: 1 - Words: 22 - Reviews: 7 - Updated: 8-28-01 - Published: 8-28-01

55. Knowing reviews

knowing...& feeling...can sometimes be too much

General - Fiction Rated: K - English - Poetry/General - Chapters: 1 - Words: 75 - Reviews: 2 - Updated: 8-28-01 - Published: 8-28-01

56. Firefly reviews

this kinda sux....cept i really like the last stanza......it seemed like a waste ta just throw it away....*shrugs*

General - Fiction Rated: K - English - Poetry/General - Chapters: 1 - Words: 116 - Reviews: 1 - Updated: 8-28-01 - Published: 8-28-01

57. Answers? reviews

so many poems explain how i feel...here's another dark one....

General - Fiction Rated: K - English - Poetry/General - Chapters: 1 - Words: 107 - Reviews: 5 - Updated: 8-28-01 - Published: 8-28-01

58. Unwanted Desire reviews

i wrote this fer Nathan....

General - Fiction Rated: K - English - Poetry/General - Chapters: 1 - Words: 199 - Reviews: 3 - Updated: 8-27-01 - Published: 8-27-01

59. Used reviews

i love this one...this is exactly how i'll always feel.....

General - Fiction Rated: K - English - Poetry/General - Chapters: 1 - Words: 83 - Reviews: 4 - Updated: 8-27-01 - Published: 8-27-01

60. Wicked reviews

i seriously am a morbid lil chicka.....but i love it...bwahahah

General - Fiction Rated: K - English - Poetry/General - Chapters: 1 - Words: 129 - Reviews: 5 - Updated: 8-27-01 - Published: 8-27-01

61. Scars reviews

i like this one vedy much...*nods*..r&r...or dont...*shrugs*

General - Fiction Rated: K - English - Poetry/General - Chapters: 1 - Words: 98 - Reviews: 1 - Updated: 8-27-01 - Published: 8-27-01

62. False Mending reviews

yes....i wrote this about nathan & me....& sorta fer dan & me....back when "dan & me" still existed

General - Fiction Rated: K - English - Poetry/General - Chapters: 1 - Words: 148 - Reviews: 1 - Updated: 8-27-01 - Published: 8-27-01

63. Irony of Love reviews

this came out during my "dark" period

General - Fiction Rated: K - English - Poetry/General - Chapters: 1 - Words: 47 - Reviews: 2 - Updated: 8-26-01 - Published: 8-26-01

64. Alone Again reviews

ummm...i was listening to Deftones alot....but Dan was the true inspiration.....*sighs*

General - Fiction Rated: K - English - Poetry/General - Chapters: 1 - Words: 117 - Reviews: 4 - Updated: 8-26-01 - Published: 8-26-01

65. Porcelain Solestice reviews

this is actually about a girl name tiani who commited suicide...im seeing this through the eyes of my dear friend nathan who grieves over her death...*sighs*...then again...i feel this way about my dan too

General - Fiction Rated: K - English - Poetry/General - Chapters: 1 - Words: 150 - Reviews: 1 - Updated: 8-26-01 - Published: 8-26-01

66. Orgasm of Death reviews

black love...it seems ta be the subject of most of these crazee "poems"

General - Fiction Rated: K - English - Poetry/General - Chapters: 1 - Words: 73 - Reviews: 6 - Updated: 8-26-01 - Published: 8-26-01

67. Prey reviews

im obsessed with vampires & such dark things....so yeah.....it all goes hand in hand

General - Fiction Rated: K - English - Poetry/General - Chapters: 1 - Words: 66 - Reviews: 1 - Updated: 8-26-01 - Published: 8-27-01

68. R&R reviews

arrite...i know this is mad corny...but it was just flowing through my head so i hadta write it down.....bwahah

General - Fiction Rated: K - English - Poetry/General - Chapters: 1 - Words: 94 - Reviews: 3 - Updated: 8-26-01 - Published: 8-27-01

69. Claret reviews

this is truly heartfelt...as is most all my work....but this one brings out so much feeling ive never been able to bring out before....R&R please...

General - Fiction Rated: K - English - Poetry - Chapters: 1 - Words: 230 - Reviews: 3 - Updated: 7-20-01 - Published: 7-20-01

70. Daddy's Little Girl reviews

hmmm...this just came out...ive been watching too much Montel...

General - Fiction Rated: K - English - General - Chapters: 1 - Words: 47 - Reviews: 1 - Updated: 7-19-01 - Published: 7-19-01

71. DK reviews

i wrote this after he left me...i was able ta write the 3rd verse using his 1st & last name as the 1st letter of each line....it worked out quite easily...& fit nicely....bastard...hopw i do love him...

General - Fiction Rated: K - English - General - Chapters: 1 - Words: 66 - Reviews: 1 - Updated: 7-18-01 - Published: 7-18-01

72. China Doll reviews

this is newer than most of the other "poems"....i do like it...yes...

General - Fiction Rated: K - English - General - Chapters: 1 - Words: 91 - Reviews: 3 - Updated: 7-18-01 - Published: 7-18-01

73. Broken reviews

i actually wrote this fer my dear pip...we seem ta go through the same situations...*sighs*...

General - Fiction Rated: K - English - Poetry - Chapters: 1 - Words: 92 - Reviews: 3 - Updated: 7-18-01 - Published: 7-18-01

74. Need reviews

im not sure what or whom i wrote this about....its nice though...

General - Fiction Rated: K - English - General - Chapters: 1 - Words: 46 - Reviews: 1 - Updated: 7-18-01 - Published: 7-18-01

75. Over reviews

yet another poem i wrote about him....

General - Fiction Rated: K - English - General - Chapters: 1 - Words: 94 - Reviews: 1 - Updated: 7-18-01 - Published: 7-18-01

76. Time reviews

brief version of how i feel about him....

General - Fiction Rated: K - English - General - Chapters: 1 - Words: 43 - Reviews: 1 - Updated: 7-18-01 - Published: 7-18-01

77. No One reviews

...just read....

General - Fiction Rated: K - English - General - Chapters: 1 - Words: 52 - Reviews: 1 - Updated: 7-18-01 - Published: 7-18-01

78. Down

...another spurt of depression....read on

General - Fiction Rated: K - English - General - Chapters: 1 - Words: 39 - Reviews: 0 - Updated: 7-18-01 - Published: 7-18-01

79. Trapped

i feel like this constantly....even through "happiness"...

General - Fiction Rated: K - English - General - Chapters: 1 - Words: 242 - Reviews: 0 - Updated: 7-17-01 - Published: 7-17-01

80. Light of my Life reviews

I wrote this at work....i was bored...& certain things were on my mind...

General - Fiction Rated: K - English - General - Chapters: 1 - Words: 230 - Reviews: 2 - Updated: 7-17-01 - Published: 7-17-01

81. Why?? reviews

I started this figuring it would become a song...but i really wasnt into it...made it a "poem" instead...

General - Fiction Rated: K - English - General - Chapters: 1 - Words: 42 - Reviews: 1 - Updated: 7-17-01 - Published: 7-17-01

82. Plastic Society reviews

i tried ta write a "positive" poem...haha...it backfired...*shrugs*

General - Fiction Rated: K - English - General - Chapters: 1 - Words: 167 - Reviews: 1 - Updated: 7-17-01 - Published: 7-17-01

83. Confused reviews

this was the 1st poem i wrote in order ta get some feelings out...

General - Fiction Rated: K - English - General - Chapters: 1 - Words: 158 - Reviews: 3 - Updated: 7-17-01 - Published: 7-17-01

84. Contradiction reviews

i wrote this cuz someone told me i was a walking contradiction....haha...ppl are dumb...

General - Fiction Rated: K - English - General - Chapters: 1 - Words: 101 - Reviews: 2 - Updated: 7-17-01 - Published: 7-17-01

85. Modern "Love" reviews

mmm...my friend was in a relationship like this...

General - Fiction Rated: K - English - General - Chapters: 1 - Words: 79 - Reviews: 1 - Updated: 7-17-01 - Published: 7-17-01

86. She Survived reviews

i dunno why i wrote this...i felt this way a longgg time ago...i still kinda like it though...

General - Fiction Rated: K - English - General - Chapters: 1 - Words: 230 - Reviews: 4 - Updated: 7-17-01 - Published: 7-17-01

87. Simple Freedom reviews

ummm...i read a poem that inspired this one....someone held me down like this a bit as well...

General - Fiction Rated: K - English - General - Chapters: 1 - Words: 77 - Reviews: 2 - Updated: 7-17-01 - Published: 7-17-01

88. Society reviews

mmm...yes...they really are like this....

General - Fiction Rated: K - English - General - Chapters: 1 - Words: 110 - Reviews: 2 - Updated: 7-17-01 - Published: 7-17-01

89. The Beast Inside reviews

wrote this after coloumbine....& after my scoo got stoopid threats...

General - Fiction Rated: K - English - General - Chapters: 1 - Words: 273 - Reviews: 1 - Updated: 7-17-01 - Published: 7-17-01

90. Thorns reviews

i was listening to Korn alot....blah

General - Fiction Rated: K - English - General - Chapters: 1 - Words: 76 - Reviews: 3 - Updated: 7-17-01 - Published: 7-18-01