"Insanity is where you finally realize the world's fucked up and it isn't worth it, deciding to spend the rest of your life as a pessimistic cynic. But then the optimists decide that this enlightenment is harmful to the average person and label you 'crazy'." -Me

"I like bombs. They go boom!" -Me

"I hate Thursdays. They're always taunting me, 'It's not Friday yet, ha-ha!'" -Me

"Is it so wrong writing about a person torturing another person?" -Me

"God, I hate my characters, and then I love them. It's a love/hate relationship. Sometimes I just want to go skipping with them with our arms around each other, and other times I want to kill them off already." -Me, again...

As of Tuesday, November 2, 2009, So I'm now a freshman at a new school and it's been, oh I don't know, three months and I still haven't made any friends.

Goddammit, curse my wretched soul.

I written a bunch of short stories that I'm still in the progress of revising. Expect to see them at the end of this month. I apologize for not uploading any new stories or poems. I finally finished my novel, that's like 300 pages long (still shorter than my last one, which was like 700 O.O), and I've jumped into a new one. T_T I'll try not to make it too long, hopefully it'll only be 200 pages, but I don't know. I starting to get emotionally involved into it, but that's probably because my main characters are a chronic depressive and a bulimic. Yep. Mirrors my life.

Anywho, I got like four short stories and another one in the making (currently being held up by my latest novel). I'll wait a few weeks and then upload the new stories. But I have a new poem that I just uploaded, so read it if you'd like...

As of Wednesday, June 3, 2009, Dammit, I ended up getting writer's block so I wasn't able to upload the God Doesn't Exist Here Extended Version. But I'm almost done with it, so expect it to be here soon. ;) I uploaded a new story called The Brave Velveteen Rabbit. Go check it out. Come on, it has bunnies and cannibalism! (nudges you on) Anyway, because this had been bugging me for a long time now, I've decided to rant about vampires. Ok, here we go!:

I FUCKING HATE VAMPIRES! Wow, that got your attention. (lol) Anyway, my love for vampires had been destroyed by the YA vampires writers, because all they seem to write about is a girl finding out this guy is a vampire and falling in love with him. YES, THAT MEANS YOU, MEYER! STEPHENIE FUCKING MEYER IS ONE OF THE WRITERS THAT KILLED MY LOVE FOR VAMPIRES! Vampires DO NOT sparkle, fairies do. Sparkly vampires must be the dumbest shit I've ever heard! And then the majority of the book is "oh I love you I cannot live without you." There isn't any gore, which is strange for a VAMPIRE book (vampires suck people's blood), and I need my fucking gore or I'll go crazy with my dad's chainsaw! (lol just kidding) And it's not just Meyer. There's a happy little batch of women who think vampires are romantic and pair them with humans. They are all the same. Oh, look there's a girl! Oh, look there's a vampire! Oh, look, they're in love! Oh, look THERE'S A WEREWOLF! Why do people always make werewolves the vampires' mortal enemy. It's overused and boring and unoriginal! It's okay with the movie the Underworld because it looks cool, but it's boring with anything else. Vampire plots are all the same nowadays! Vampires have turned from the blood-sucking, nefarious, terrifyingly good vampires into remorseful, angst-ridden romantic heroes that make guy fairies look masculine! Vampires are evil! That's how they're are made to be! Not romantic bastards that are full of remorse! Now, I cannot look at a YA vampire book without cringing! And yeah, there's some vampire books that aren't about romance (House of Night series, but I hate the series because Zoey's a slut) but the vampire books that are killed my love!

GOD.

Anyway, that's my rant. If you actually read it, you can PM me and send me your opinion. I'd like to hear some replies. (I bet nobody will because people rarely read updates on profiles, but whatever, I'm trying a new thing called HOPE.)

P.S.--There are no doubt some SM fans that got angry when I dissed Meyer and her series. So, feel free to PM me and diss me off! But I do ask you to not use chatspeak and use correct spelling and grammar. I know not all fans are brainless, insane zealots that are OMG lyk LOLLL!!11, but if I had a silver dollar for every SM fan that is, I would be buying Sims 3 right now. :)

As of Friday, April 4, 2009, I've been extending God Doesn't Exist Here, but a little stuck on it. Don't worry, I'll upload it some time this month. I haven't been here much because of fucking school. Projects are overiding my time. Besides that, life's actually been good. I'm going to Disneyland for a field trip (yah!) with my friend "Allistare" and other people. (P.S.- Allistare, if you're reading this, just wanted to let you know that--YOU SPELLED MY NAME WRONG, YOU FUCKING BITCH! IT'S GREY, NOT GRAY! THERE'S A FRICKIN' DIFFERENCE!)

But for now, I'm just going to write a little review of a movie called, oh I don't know, DAWN OF THE DEAD, THE ORIGINAL BY GEORGE A. ROMERO!! OH YEAH!! I loved it. The special effects on the movie were weird: some zombies were white while others were green (WTF?!), so that kind of bothered me for a while. But besides that, the movie rocked! I found it amusing how they were just running through the mall, avoiding the zombies. I found myself screaming at the TV screen as Stephen kept missing when he tried to shoot this ONE zombie. I laughed when Roger and Peter fooled around in the department store. I wanted to kill the people who raided the mall and allowed all the zombies in the mall (thought I did laugh at the guy who took a blood pressure test. He was stuck at the machine as zombies surrounded him and began to eat him. It was funny!). I read the wikipedia article for the movie, and the original ending was to be two suicides committed by the characters left. I think the original, planned ending is better, instead of where they escape the mall together. It just didn't fit in with the rest of the mood of the movie for the last three minutes of the film. But besides that, it was pretty awesome. I suggest every horror fan watch it. :D

Grey of Solitude

I'm nice and respectful to everyone except for the asshole known as "Allistare" and my best friend, Reine.

If you've been to this profile before, you would know that my pen name has changed. For some reason I can't decide on one, so I just went with this. However, you should call me Grey (a pseudonym I use for almost everything). I am writer and I write almost everything: books, short stories, poems, even a play once. I am currently working on a book that is over 300 pages long. For that reason, I've dropped all my other projects so I probably, most likely won't continue my other books here or on Fanfiction. I apologize for any inconvenience.

If you haven't already guessed, yes I am a female. I'm 14 and I'm a rather strange and unique person. My family thinks I belong in an asylum for my hyper, random, crazy personality, and yet, my peers think I'm a serial killer since I never talk in school and am rather pessimistic, quiet, and intimidating. So, I am like a coin: I'm double-sided. It's like I have split personality.

I rather like dark, twisted, and ironic things. My poems are turning more dark than they already are. My favorite band of all time is My Chemical Romance. My inspirations are Stephen King, Darren Shan, R.L. Stine, and the dude known as Lurid Black (he's WAY better at poetry than me). I love any movie that Johnny Depp is in.

Before you call me emo or goth, no I am not. I don't slit my wrists and whined about the cold, cruel world. And I don't wear black all the time with fishnet stockings. I will not be classified as a stereotype. I'm unique and different from the average girl. I'm a feminist and will kick anyone's butt for dissing off women.

Loves: sushi, books, poetry, comedians, horror movies, psychology, dictionary, surfing the net, dark things, manga, writing (obviously), typing crap

Dislikes: most children, judgemental people, bubbly high-pitched optimistic people, religious zealots (religion is fine as long as you don't get obsessed with it), pink, obsessed Twilight fans

Favorite Movies: Eagle Eye, Saw, Halloween (both original and remake), Sweeney Todd: The Demon Barber of Fleet Street, The Ring, The Omen, Pursuit of Happyness, Dawn of the Dead (remake and original), Hard Candy, Ginger Snaps series, The Nightmare Before Christmas, Alice In Wonderland

Favorite Books: The Little Prince, Harry Potter series, Cirque Du Freak series, The Demonata series, Red Shards, Esperanza Rising, Harmony's Angel, Flowers for Algernon, Marley & Me, Blind Faith, Invisible Monsters, The Pearl--I'll add more to this list when I'll think of books

Favorite Authors: Stephen King (the master of Horror), Darren Shan, R.L. Stine, Nicholas Ifkovits (he's not that famous), Laura Resau, Chuck Palahniuk

Favorite Video Games: Left 4 Dead (admit it, zombies rock!), Gears of War series, Viva Pinata, Pokemon, Rock Band, Guitar Hero

Favorite Bands: My Chemical Romance, Linkin Park, Paramore, OneRepublic, Flyleaf, Korn, Three Days Grace, Within Temptation, Evanescence, Maroon 5, Slipknot, Leathermouth, Marilyn Manson, Nirvana

~Sayings~

"It takes 43 muscles to frown and 17 to smile, but it doesn't take anything to just sit there with a look of indifference on your face." -Unknown

"I'll admit, I go a little crazy sometimes." -Me

Misa Misa: "We catch Kira! I can't imagine a world without Light!"
L: "Yes, it would be dark."

"A demon can get into real trouble, doing the right thing." -Crowley, Good Omens

"I'm too weird to live but much too rare to die." -Bat Country by Avenged Sevenfold

"I'm nobody! Who are you? Are you nobody too?" -I'm-nobody by Emily Dickinson

"Light thinks it travels faster than anything but it is wrong. No matter how fast light travels, it finds the darkness has always got there first, and is waiting for it." -Reaper Man, Terry Pratchett

"The greatest harm can result from the best intentions." -Stone of Tears

"Dreaming dreams no mortal ever dared to dream before." -The Raven by Edgar Allen Poe

"Lord, grant me the serenity to accept the things I can not change, the courage to change the things I can, and the wisdom to hide the bodies of those I had to kill because they ticked me off." -Unknown

"First defense against evil - Open your damn eyes." -Reese, Forever Knights

"Sure, they were all going to die, but they'd go out with their middle fingers upraised in the oldest salute known to the world." -The Queen Of Swords

"I am the shadow on the moon at night, filling your dreams to the brim with fright." -The Nightmare Before Christmas

"Death is a mystery and burial is a secret." -Stephen King

"We strive to destroy the evil around us. Yet, we often forget that there is no light without darkness, nor darkness without light. Perhaps a plant it the best analogy. A plant realizes that too little light is deadly, but it also knows that too much light is equally deadly. It is the balance of the two that makes the world." -Lycorne

"I'm here to kick ass, or chew bubble gum, and I'm all outta bubble gum." -Duke Nukem

"Flying is simple. You just throw yourself at the ground and miss." -Douglas Adams, So Long, and Thanks for the Fish

"There are only two reasons to sit in the back row of an airplane. Either you have diarrhea, or you're eager to meet people who do." -Unknown

"Any girl can be glamorous. All you have to do is stand still and look stupid." -Unknown

"We say we love flowers..
yet we pluck them.
We say we love trees..
yet we cut them down.
And people still wonder why
some are afraid..
When told they are loved."
-Shoot For The Moon

"Everyone is a moon, and has a dark side which he never shows to anybody" -Mark Twain

"Kill a man, and you are an assassin. Kill millions of men, and you are a conqueror. Kill everyone, and you are a god." -Jean Rostand

I'm SKINNY, so I MUST be anorexic.
I'm EMO, so I MUST cut my wrists.
I'm a NEGRO so I MUST carry a gun.
I'm BLONDE, so I MUST be a ditz.
I'm JAMAICAN so I MUST smoke weed.
I'm HAITIAN so I MUST eat cat.
I'm ASIAN, so I MUST be sexy.
I'm JEWISH, so I MUST be greedy.
I'm GAY, so I MUST have AIDS.
I'm a LESBIAN, so I MUST have a sex-tape.
I'm ARAB, so I MUST be a terrorist.
I SPEAK MY MIND, so I MUST be a bitch.
I'm a GAY RIGHTS SUPPORTER, so I WILL go to hell.
I'm a CHRISTAN, so I MUST think gay people should go to hell.
I'm RELIGIOUS, so I MUST shove my beliefs down your throat.
I'm ATHEIST so I MUST hate the world.
I don't have a RELIGION, so I MUST be evil and have no morals
I'm REPUBLICAN, so I MUST not care about poor people.
I'm DEMOCRAT, so I MUST not believe in being responsible.
I am LIBERAL, so I MUST be gay.
I'm SOUTHERN, so I MUST be white trash.
I TAKE ANTI-DEPRESSANTS, so I MUST be crazy.
I'm a GUY, so I MUST only want to get into your pants.
I'm IRISH, so I MUST have a bad drinking problem.
I'm INDIAN, so I MUST own a convenient store.
I'm NATIVE AMERICAN, so I MUST dance around a fire screaming like a savage.
I'm a CHEERLEADER, so I MUST be a whore.
I'm a DANCER, So I must be stupid, stuck up, and a whore.
I wear SKIRTS a lot, so I MUST be a slut.
I'm a PUNK, so I MUST do drugs.
I'm RICH, so I MUST be a conceited snob.
I WEAR BLACK, so I MUST be a goth or emo.
I'm a WHITE GIRL, so I MUST be a nagging, steal-your-money kind of girlfriend.
I'm CUBAN, so I MUST spend my spare time rolling cigars.
I'm NOT A VIRGIN, so I MUST be easy.
I FELL IN LOVE WITH A MARRIED MAN, so I MUST be a home-wrecking whore.
I'm a TEENAGE MOM, so I MUST be an irresponsible slut.
I'm POLISH, so I MUST wear my socks with my sandals
I'm ITALIAN, so I must have a "big one".
I'm EGYPTIAN, so I must be a TERRORIST!
I'm PRETTY, so I MUST not be a virgin.
I HAVE STRAIGHT A'S, so I MUST have no social life.
I DYE MY HAIR CRAZY COLORS, so I MUST be looking for attention.
I DRESS IN UNUSUAL WAYS so I MUST be looking for attention.
I'm INTO THEATER & ART, so I MUST be a homosexual.
I'm a VEGETARIAN, so I MUST be a crazy political activist.
I HAVE A BUNCH OF GUY FRIENDS, so I MUST be fucking them all.
I HAVE A BUNCH OF GIRLS WHO ARE FRIENDS, so I MUST be a player.
I have Big BOOBS, so I MUST be a hoe.
I'm COLOMBIAN, so I MUST be a drug dealer.
I WEAR WHAT I WANT, so I MUST be a poser.
I'm RUSSIAN, so I MUST be cool and thats how Russians roll.
I'm GERMAN, so I must be a Nazi.
I hang out with GAYS, so I must be GAY TOO.
I'm BRAZILIAN, so I MUST have a BIG BUTT.
I'm PUERTO RICAN, so I MUST look good and be conceited
I'm SALVADORIAN, so I MUST be in MS 13
I'm POLISH, so I MUST be greedy
I'm HAWAIIAN so I MUST be lazy
I'm PERUVIAN, so I MUST like llamas
Im a STONER so I MUST be going in the wrong direction
I'm a VIRGIN so I MUST be prude.
Im STRAIGHT EDGE so I must be violent.
I'm a FEMALE GAMER, so I MUST be ugly.. or crazy.
I'm BLACK so I MUST love fried chicken and kool-aid.
I'm a GIRL who actually EATS LUNCH, so I MUST be fat.
I'm SINGLE so I MUST be ugly.
I'm a SKATER so I must do weed and steal stuff
I'm a PUNK so I must only wear black and date only other punks
I'm ASIAN so I must be a NERD that does HOMEWORK 24/7
I'm CHRISTIAN so I MUST hate homosexuals.
I'm MIXED so I must be screwed up.
I'm MUSLIM so I MUST be a terrorist.
I'm in BAND, so I MUST be a dork.
I'm BLACK so I MUST believe JESUS WUZ A BROTHA.
I'm MORMON so I MUST be perfect
I'm WHITE and have black friends so I MUST think I'm black
I'm GOTH so I MUST worship the devil
I'm HISPANIC, so I MUST be dirty.
I'm NOT LIKE EVERYONE ELSE, so I MUST be a loser.
I'm OVERWEIGHT, so I MUST have a problem with self control.
I'm PREPPY, so I MUST shun those who don't wear Abercrombie & Hollister.
I'm on a DANCE team, so I must be stupid, stuck up, and a whore.
I'm YOUNG, so I MUST be naive.
I'm RICH, so I MUST be a conceited snob
I'm MEXICAN, so I MUST have hopped the border.
I GOT A CAR FOR MY BIRTHDAY, so I MUST be a spoiled brat.
I'm BLACK, so I MUST love watermelon.
I'm BI, so I MUST think every person I see is hot.
I'm an ASIAN GUY, so I MUST have a small penis.
I'm a GUY CHEERLEADER, so I MUST be gay.
I'm a PREP, so I MUST be rich.
I don't like the SUN so I MUST be an albino. (Actually my skin is pretty dark.)
I have a lot of FRIENDS, so I MUST love to drink and party.
I wear tight PANTS and I'm a guy, so I MUST be emo.
I couldn't hurt a FLY, So I MUST be a pussy.
I support GAY RIGHTS, so I MUST fit in with everyone.
I hang out with teenage drinkers and smokers, so I MUST smoke and drink too.
I have ARTISTIC TALENT, so I MUST think little of those who don't.
I don't like to be in a BIG GROUP, so I MUST be anti-social.
I have a DIFFERENT sense of HUMOR, so I MUST be crazy.
I tell people OFF, so I MUST be an over controlling bitch.
My hair gets GREASY a lot, so I MUST have no hygiene skills.
I'm DEFENSIVE, so I MUST be over controlling and a bitch.
I'm a NUDIST, so I MUST want everyone to see my boobs.
I read Comics, so I MUST be a loser.
I hang out with a FORMER PROSTITUTE.. So I MUST be a whore myself.
I'm TEXAN so I MUST ride a horse
I’m a GOTH, so I MUST be a Satanist
I’m a CROSSDRESSER, so I must be homosexual.
I draw ANIME so I MUST be a freak.
I am a FANGIRL so I MUST be a crazy, obsessed stalker.
I WATCH PORN so I MUST be perverted.
I'm an ONLY CHILD so I MUST be spoiled.
I'm INTELLIGENT so I MUST be weak.
I am AMERICAN so I MUST be obese, loud-mouthed and arrogant.
I'm WELSH so I MUST love sheep
I’m a YOUNG WRITER, so I MUST be emo.
I’m CANADIAN, so I MUST talk with a funny accent.
I'm a GUY, so I MUST ditch my pregnant girlfriend.
I'm CANADIAN, so I MUST love hockey and beavers.
I'm DISABLED, so I MUST be on Welfare.
I'm a FEMINIST, so I MUST have a problem with sexuality and I want to castrate every man on the earth.
I'm a TEENAGER, so I MUST have a STEREOTYPE.
I WEAR A BIG SUNHAT when I go outside, so I MUST be stupid.
I like BLOOD, so I must be a VAMPIRE.
I'm an ALBINO, so I MUST be an evil person with mental abilities and is A MURDERER!
I'm ENGLISH, so I MUST speak with either a cockney or a posh accent, love tea and cricket, and have bad teeth.
I’m WHITE, so I MUST be responsible for everything going wrong on the planet: past, present, and future.
I don't like YAOI or YURI, so I must be a HOMOPHOBE
I’m not the most POPULAR person in school, so I MUST be a loser
I care about the ENVIRONMENT...I MUST be a tree hugging hippy
I have a FAN CHARACTER, so I MUST be an annoying Mary-sue.
I CHAT, I MUST be having cyber sex.
I'm PAGAN so I MUST sacrifice babies and drink the blood of virgins
I'm PAGAN so I MUST worship Satan
I'm CONSERVATIVE, so I MUST be against Abortion
I'm SWEDISH so I MUST be a tall blond blue-eyed lesbian.
I'm a LESBIAN so I MUST want to get with every single girl that I see.
I like CARTOONS, so I MUST be IRRESPONSIBLE.
I like READING, so I MUST be a LONER.
I have my OWN spiritual ideology; therefore I MUST be WRONG or MISGUIDED.
I am WICCAN, so I MUST be a SATANIST.
I DISAGREE with my government, so I MUST be a TERRORIST.
I am a WITCH, so I MUST be and OLD HAG and fly on a broomstick.
I love YAOI, so I MUST be GAY.
I'm a PERSON, so I MUST be LABELED
I DON'T CURSE, so I MUST be an outcast
I like GAMES, ANIME and COMICS, so I MUST be childish
I'm SWEDISH, therefore I MUST be WHITE.
I SPOT GRAMMATICAL ERRORS, so I MUST be a pedantic bastard.
I'm GOTHIC, so I MUST be mean. (Not exactly goth)
I’m STRONG so I MUST be stupid.
I'm Australian so I MUST hunt crocodiles and talk to kangaroo’s
I go to RENFAIRES, so I MUST talk weird, be a loser, and not be up with the times
I’m GAY so I’m after EVERY straight guy around.
I don’t want a BOYFRIEND so I MUST be Lesbian.
I'm NOT CHRISTIAN so I MUST just need converting.
I love marching band, so I MUST be a friendless freak.
I DRINK and SMOKE, so I MUST have no life.
I am friends with a CUTTER, so I MUST be a CUTTER too.
I cry easily, so I MUST be a wimp.
I can't help pointing out mistakes so I MUST be an over-controlling perfectionist
I'm a PERFECTIONIST so I MUST check everything ten times, then burst into tears at one mistake.
I DON'T LIKE to talk about my personal life so I MUST be having problems
I used to cut, so I must be emo.
I used to cut, so I must be goth.
I used to cut so I must be sucicidal.
I play Neopets, so I must be immature.
I play pokemon so I must be immature.
I have friends on the Internet, so I must be stupid.
I have friends on the Internet so they must be pedos.
I don't like Twilight, so I must not be a girl.
I'm into vampires, so I must like Twilight.
I'm atheist in a Catholic/Christan household, so I must just be rebelling.
I dress differently, so it must be a phase.
I like anime so I must be a weebo.
I'm a fangirl, so I must be immature and squee a lot.
I support yaoi, so I must hate het and yuri.
I support het so I must hate yaoi and yuri.
I support yuri so I must hate yaoi and het.
I play Kingdom Hearts so I must support RikuxSora.
I like yaoi, so I must pair up every hot guy I see.
I frequently get depressed, so I must be emo.
I have suicidal thoughts, so I must be emo.