Whoa! That wasa close one, you had me scared there for a second, I'm glad you guys didn't do anything and that you told him you justwanted to be friends.

I get the biggest netural highs too! I don't even need cafein or sugar, I just get high. But then again, my friends hate it when I'm high when they are having a "serious" talk, which is by no means serious but when I'm high, I really don't care how serious it is.

great laugh attack! I can't wait to here the big drama!

HI!. yeah family can really suck like I said about my crazy releves. well my parents are crazy too but in a good way though my dad's worse you know today my dad decided to buy some trousers for 50p I know my mum tried to tell him they were rubbish but he's having none of it he thinks £6 is dear.
anyway um ok so I understand your parents not wanting to speak to each other but they say bad things about the other to you that's a big no no their're still their parents.
though I can relate there have been many times when i thought my parents were heading for the divorce courts they were fighting that much and I mean they were fighting every day.
anyway please update soon
see ya

That sounded very fun, wish I was there! LOL(if ever).

sorry but I can't personally relate to your boy issues, but I understand how you felt, my friend(again) went through sort of the same thing.
that was also very rude for what Wade and Sarah did to you. And I think it was their fault all the way. Sounds like your other guy friends and Carly were more of your friends than Wade and Sarah.

Oh I hate it when friends leave! I must have cried for the longest time when my friend left, again!
I love reading your bio, you should change the title from badly written to very good written bio, cause it's gotten real good. And it doesn't sound all wish- washy like bios of other people.

OH my gosh, I know exactly how a reunion with friends feels like. I can remember when my best friend came back from Kentucky, it was great! Well I better keep reading, I have a lot of chapters to catch up on! BTW, I like this chapter, it's got a lot in it.

Parents are all alike, aren't they? Even though so many marriages break up, a lot of my friends' parents are still together, so I usually don't have someone who can relate to all the difficulties I have in my family. Yet, here you are, sharing all the same bull shit I've dealt with too.
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It's hard to decipher what should be shared about one parent with the other. My mom always wants to hear about who my dad is dating and always gets really anti-men and pissy when the subject innevitably comes up. She complains about money he owes her. And whenever they are together (for shared events in my sisters' lives or mine), there is always tension, and my mom gives him guilt trips and says things that are really inappropriate. It totally sucks!
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But she never wants us to tell my dad the things happening in her life. And we don't because we don't care. Plus, my dad hardly asks. He only asks about my mom when he can see us being distracted or upset.
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We are always put in the middle because both of them refuse to call the other up. It is SO annoying.
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Plus, it feels terrible not being able to talk openly with your parents. Sometimes, if I'm really mad at one of them, I talk to the other: venting or whatever. I regret it soon afterward. It's like I open a door to let in all the things they hate about each other, and I don't feel it's right for them to talk to me or my sisters about the things they hate about each other. It's such a delicate balance, isn't it?
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So, I'm sorry your dad is being so difficult. I wouldn't be able to stand not talking to him about an engagment. And I'd be absolutely livid if he didn't contact me for so long. He shouldn't be so scared. Even if your emotions and reactions are bad ones, he still must listen. Oi.
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I can't wait to hear what else has been going on with you. Update soon, okay?

Ha - I always wonder when parents tell us what our first words were. mine was apparently bugger (they still argue over who taught me that). Um... I'll just continue reading now.

Gah! Must review here, as I must leave soon. Interesting Idea. Does it really count as fictin? O well. Have fun!
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ah, i almost forgot, i wanted to ask you about Enid Blyton. You seemed to be so excited about her in your summary thingy. i tried to find her at barnes and noble, but they didn't have her in stock, and you had listed so many of her series, i didn't know which to order. so, which should i order first?
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oh, and i also wanted to tell you to NOT be afraid to be honest with Ryan. Jessica, when i was asking her advise about a boy i needed to have a littel talk with recently, told me not be afraid–i wouldn't find out what i wanted to know until i talked to him. same goes for you and ryan. you can't progress if you don't take a step, right? talking about how you once liked him is a light subject now. everyone knows nothing can come from it and can joke about how close it came to taboo. there are no worries about subjects like those. you guys can get so much closer now without fear.
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good luck, my dear!

It's kind of a shame that you and Ryan can't date, but being related by surprise can be good. I know every family is different, but I really enjoy how my sisters and I are such close friends. We can hang out and tell each other things so openly. My family has become such an open unit. We share every bit and piece of our lives, and I see that potential with you and Ryan. How cool would it be to have a best friend who you know you already like so well. Although, you've already got two brothers to share your life with. I don't know. I just think family is so nice. Don't be afraid to be honest with him.
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As for Guy, I'd tell ya not to worry about him. He seemed really cool and laid back, same with you. If you both want something to happen when you go back, then so be it. If not, that's okay too. You guys seem like very good friends, and everything will be okay.
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For me, I'm fine with christianity. God and I get along well with each other. What I don't like is the community based organization around religion. my spirituality is personal and private, and i'm not going to worship in front of other people just so they can see me do it and accept me for it. and jesus, well, i don't know about him. honestly, i was never taught nor cared to read about him. what people try to explain to me about jesus is how he died on the cross for me and all people, and that he is lord because he rose again. what they say doesn't make sense. it is abstract and i can't understand what they mean. religions are all created to explain and ease people's fears about death. what comes after death? no one knows, and no one will EVER know. not even the pope can convince me that there is life after death, but that doesn't scare me. i am not afraid of death. if this is the only place where we live, so be it. i will live my life and i will die, clueless as i was when i got here of what will come after. my body will furtilize the earth, at least.
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many years ago, i was walking through a book store and picked up one of those chicken soup for the soul books. i flipped to a random, short story, and read about a woman who used to scream terribly at her mother that her mother was a bad person, made her a bad person, it was all her mother's fault that she turned into what she was. and her mother responded with, "it might be my fault for what you've become, but it's your own damn fault if you stay that way!" isn't that a great quote? i LOVE that. and it's so true. whatever you are right now can change. you have the power to change it. hopefully, for the better.
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I can't wait to read more! Please update soon!

HI!. no I am not offended in fact I kind of agurre with you about the pagen thing did you know that chrismas was set aside by the romans to worship their sun god and Jesus was born round about october time.
yeah I think I saw that show it was on channel five I think. I wacthed it to see what people have come up with to explain it this time.
nothing like that has happened to me but I won't be suprised if one of my aunties uncles or grand parents have done something like that lets just say I got a crazy family and not in the good way either.
anyway I am really enjoying reading your bio
please update soon
see ya

Update soon!
Happy writing!
Tk.T~