|Reviews for CUT|
| unknown.janus chapter 2 . 5/18/2010
I don't know weather you'll read this or not as it has been about 5 years scince you wrote this, but for whats its worth you said some very true things in here and helped me to understand myself more (I do this too).
| vitriolicvermilion chapter 2 . 7/3/2008
"Before then I didn't understand why she did it, and unless you turn the blade on yourself you never really will- not fully. It made me feel so much better. The pain and the depression seemed to vanish at the first cut that broke the skin."
Oh my god. Yes. You have just summed up what I have never been able to say.
This narrative was amazing-it was very true, and it helped my resolve to keep quitting. You have done well. (:
I hope to read more of your works..
| readaholic chapter 1 . 5/29/2005
hello its brill
| mi da un maldice busto chapter 1 . 4/19/2005
I was just wondering if it would be possible for me to contact you through e-mail. I'd like to talk to someone who's been through this too. I noticed you didn't make you e-mail available on you site. You can just go to mine and its on the page. I understand compleately if you decide not to talk. Thanks, Mi da un maldice busto
| mi da un maldice busto chapter 2 . 4/19/2005
It's good to find someone who feels the same way I do. Especially about this part:just becuase your a cutter doesn't mean your going to commit suicide.
And now that you've stopped, good for you!
| Shadowed Mind chapter 2 . 3/22/2005
I'm so glad everything worked out for you, your story is inspirational, it helps me believe there are others out there who have survived this, maybe i can too. thank you for writing this. stay strong. all my love, shadowed mind
| aki.ari chapter 2 . 3/13/2005
you seemed to have had an interesting night and despite the fact i wish i could write more now i have to go to see yet another fucked up councelor and i'm kinda pissed so forgive me for having such a short fucked up review.
| account not in use chapter 2 . 3/8/2005
Totally forgot the 2nd chapter was there...I'm willing to bet (from what I've seen and heard) that every teenager in the more 'free' countries (not one's like Iraq and such, more along the lines of the UK and the US, Canada, South America, etc)have harmed themselves in some way. Some pull there hair out on purpose, some pick at there skin, some won't let scratches heal, some dig there nails into there palms... , I don't think that many of the people who do cut are willing to stop...Myself, I know I can, I have before, but inevitably, something comes crashing down on me again and I am right back where I was...Very odd...anyway, this chapter was very inspiring, but I know for sure I won't be quitting anytime soon...I hold it to close to myself, one of the things I control, if you understand...
| account not in use chapter 1 . 3/8/2005
Very good...it's almost how I feel, but not at the same time. I to do alot to keep people ahppy, and I'm usaully a happy person, crazy, giggly, smart, stupid when I want to be...But I do use the term self-mutilation, becuase that's what it is, basically.
Mutilation:To deprive of a limb or an essential part; cripple. To disfigure by damaging irreparably: mutilate a statue. To make imperfect by excising -or altering parts.-
Altering:To change or make different; modify: altered my will.
We were born un-scarred and we alter our skin by scarring it...therefore...we mutilate...But then, that's me. Anyway, I liked this alot...
| aki.ari chapter 1 . 1/25/2005
i agree with mostly all of this and it's true no one can really undersand cutting if they've never done it. i was found out a few months ago and my councelor imediatly thought that i was trying to kill myself, if i was then i would have been dead. i have to see her a lot but i never really listen it's too annoying to hear someone tell you that you have issues and then list all the fucked up things in your life. anyways don't mind me. you have good points on the subject and i i'm happy to have read it.
| Shadowed Mind chapter 1 . 12/20/2004
this was the most honest piece about cutting i have ever read. every word came straight from the heart, i could relate to every word, as i know what its like to be just like the person described. i especially loved the part about having to stop for yourself. i've tried stopping before so i could stop hurting a friend, and failed miserably. i cut for the same reasons as listed here, everything gets too much, the pressure, the depression. just a word of warning...as much as you probably dont want to hear it, your friend is right. it starts off as once every few weeks, than it slowly takes over you. it happened to me. thank you for writing this. all the love in the world, shadowed mind
| Chienne chapter 1 . 11/25/2004
Thank you, thank you, thank you! There's nothing beautiful about self-mutilation. I used to cut myself with razor blades when I felt depressed and I found myself completely disgusting-and you're right about the scabs, not to mention that the cuts sting and itch. I wanted to destroy myself, in a way. I wanted to make my outside as ugly as my inside. As far as hurting goes, it really depends. The sharpest things (razor blades, knives) actually hurt _less_ than glass or safety pins. Self-mutilation as a term is not accurate all the time. Self-injury is a much more accurate way to describe cutting to relieve pain, depression, or anger. However, back when I was in high school, (as I mentioned before) I cut with the purpose to destroy myself. I wanted to be ugly. It makes very little sense, now that I think about it, but in the throes of severe depression, logic seldom comes into play.
| velvetstargirl chapter 1 . 11/14/2004
i have to say that you are very right, many people make light of this...and i wanted to thankyou for being so honest.
partially i can relate to the fact that i do hate myself sometimes and the pressure gets to be too much...
for me cutting...it started when i was anorexic...my doctors were more worried about the anorexia and i was admitted into a hospital for 5 months...and then released, with outpatient therapy...i talked openly about my eating problems *this was 3 years ago* but i didnt talk about the cutting...i was too ashamed.
the cutting didnt get to be such a bad habit until i escaped the worst of my eating disorder, i think it was a control thing...once one of my methods of release was gone, a new one began to take its place.
i have a very perfectionistic family, we are taught that we are never good enough...and so as my highschool career went on...i began to do it more often...i'd write about it in my livejournal...but it was something i kept to myself...it was almost like i felt so hurt...when i do it im not really even there...and i know what you mean, it is in no way beautiful, despite the image the goth community likes to portray...
in fact im no where near goth...i mean, i like some of its culture, but i wear colors, in fact i love colors..as a painter colors have always amazed me...and i was always the one at school playing in the orchestra...smiling a lot...pretending to be happy...wearing vintage and dressing up...but really, inside i felt disgusted with myself...i still do.
then, this summer i got to go to sweden to visit my dad for the first time in years...over there i didnt cut at all...i was so entranced, so in love...i think for me, and this just goes for me, that it is very much an environmental thing...
when i was over there, for 3 months, i met a boy who understood me..as cliche as that may sound...and hes still there for me...even when i left to return for my senior year, here, in america...
coming back to america was the hardest thing i have ever had to do...it was harder then overcoming anorexia even...it was hard because i had to face reality and unlike when i was anorexic, i actually had hope and some sort of wish for the future...i found myself unconciously reverting to old habits that i shunned...not eating meals, running...and cutting...because i just felt so alone sometimes, or maybe like everything i wanted would never work out...
so i finally came clean about it to my doctors...and im in therapy twice a week now instead of once like i had it for awhile...
because no one is perfect..
but i know what you mean...you get sick of the media glamourizing it...as it does everything...
i think the song that i most relate to when it comes to this though is bad habit, by the dresden dolls...
but seriously, sorry for dishing out my story, you didnt ask for that, i just wanted to tell you that i really am thankful that you wrote this...and that not all of us are trying to get attention...most of us are just as ashamed of the scars...but, i dont know...i know someday, with every day, i get stronger...and hopefully you will too...
just...thankyou for writing this...
| eyluvmusic chapter 1 . 11/14/2004
I like that story, you've explained it well, and truely. And you're right in the line
I mean really, some of the crap that is out there! I wonder how many of them have actually experienced it first hand, or if they're just writing for the reviews
That's very true.
You've expressed how I feel too. Thank you, and well done! Keep up the good work.