OMG there is a sequel ! I am So happy, it is wonderful! You are wonderful !haha

And I love the title ;)

I have rarely read a story that has such beautiful description in it. Every word you say paints a picture in my head I can actually grasp and that's amazing. You are a wonderful writer.

it was lovely. lovely lovely lovely.

matthias is such an intriguing character,

such a gut-wrenching, and simultaneously numb, storyline. the ending was superb and fitting, highly plausible rather than what other reviewers seem to be begging for - it was realistic and bittersweet and perfect.

thank you for sharing, and i would be highly interested in a sequel. (:

I would love for you to write a sequal. This was very good. I was already considering studying psychology and sociology but your story intensified my interest. Besides that it was altogether very good. All the characters were nicely developed and had seperate personalities. Usually authors on this site create characters that are very similar to each other, or it seems like they are forcing a character to develop. Your characters seemed real. You should really consider trying to publish this, if you haven't already. It's a great piece of work. I'ma add you to my favorite authors...and subscribe. I'd like to see what else you've written and what you'll write in the future.

Wow, I feel super depressed now. Thanks a lot. Ok, I'm glad Mattie didn't die, and I accept that he's a psychopath now- but all you gave us was 'brotherly love'? Disappointment. Maybe I don't have my priorities straight, but still...It was a bittersweet ending. But more bitter than sweet. Nice story overall (I'm just going to ignore the last few paragraphs), has some plot holes as you already know, but great first draft. I'm not sure if I should be excited for a sequel - were you still planning on one? Between Mattie and Erik? I was lucky, I got to read this when you had already finished. I don't think I would have been able to handle the suspense.

Oh, phooey. I wanted a sunshine, rainbows, and unicorns ending. D: But... I understand why it ended this way. I just wish we could have seen more of those two years. Anyway, I love this story and spent the whole morning re-reading it. I'd definitely read a sequel if you made one. _

I love this story, just really really hate the ending. i dont know its probably because somehow it seems as if all of it is back to square one. Matthias just seemed so off(i guess that should be expected) but still it was sad.I love your characters and seeing them end up in such a depressing state kinda killed your story for me. A sequel would be nice? Might help to wrap up the story a bit better and also mend the holes in their relationship Pretty please with caramel coated chocolate fudge on top?Seriously a bit of Erik/Matthias fluff would be nice...god knows they deserve it;)

I think this is the perfect ending for this to be honest.

Anyone who thinks otherwise is just...without.

Sometimes there are more intimate relationships than those that can be found in a couple type setting.

Soulmates, who will never make love and the like.

This is in a singular word: amazing.

You are amazing.

Don't let anyone else tell you otherwise.

"He bit his bottom lip and rested his forehead against the side of the bed just as he'd done so many weeks ago after Matthias ended up in the ICU. He didn't feel angry or bleak, only as though his heart was fully opened.

Dylan Thomas' words repeated in his mind over and over again as he drifted off.

Rage, rage against the dying of the light."

This is amazing to me, just this last little bit.

I want to read the end, but I don't because I know having this wonderful piece of literature be over will absolutely break my heart.

This is an amazing account of what Mattias is going through.

It is just...wow.

I can hardly believe how good a writer you are and it makes me jealous.

I knew it was Derek! I knew it couldn't be anyone else. That dirty little shit, I hate him!

Wow.

This chapter, I think, in the aftermath of everything is more powerful than the last.

This chapter made me ache. It absolutely made me ache.

I feel so bad for Matthias and it reminds me far too much of my own recent losses, which just goes to show how talented you are and how much you have to give the literary world.

I absolutely love this chapter. It's wonderful. The bit with the cat made me smile somewhat, I don't know why.

Your ability to write characters who are filled with such humanity and who you can empathize with is wonderful.

If I were to be completely honest, I'd have to admit that I completely hated this ending. Everything about it really. I never write scathing review where I completely bash a story, because I normally only review stories that hold my attention and intrigue me. Which should emphasize how bad I believe this ending to be.

Which sucks because I loved this story so much. But this chapter lacks any life or charisma that most, if not all the previous chapters contained. I had high hopes that you would somehow flip the dramatic death of Matthias' mother into an epiphany moment for him. A way to prove just how far he has come since the start of the story by demonstrating some new-found emotional stability.

But boy did I miss the mark on that one.

"somehow, any romantic affection on both their parts was lost along the way...In some ways, it was a deeper connection than could have ever been achieved through intimacy."

...huh? This is what I don't understand. To put so much emphasis on their intimate connection for 35 chapters, just for the conclusion to end like this? It makes me, as a reader feel like everything they've gone through until this point was a waste of time. All their romantic turmoil was ultimately leading to Erik becoming Mathias' big-boy baby sitter? Or older brother/ guardian figure?

You mention that "It's what I feel 'really happened' and writing anything else, happier or otherwise, would feel a bit like lying."

Maybe you were aiming for reality?

I didn't expect a "Happily ever after" ending or something super fluffy. That would have been just as ridiculous. But I would have much rather have had an open ending, where the reader makes their own conclusion about the status of Mathius and Eriks relationship, than this.

In some ways, I'm just happy it's over because it saddens me to think of how much i loved this story at the start.