I really like the last three lines. Interesting poem, the feeling really comes across.

the second sentence really got me, but then i guess all of it did, really.

wow.

What a contrast from the norm. I really loved this. I could just so relate, like there is no possibility of reaching the person you could be, you want to be. The delicious thoughts of being eccentric and everything that isn't what you are, of who you really should be. Beautiful. Great job.