It's kind of funny how much of this part I can identify with:

"Such a big part of me wants to walk away,

Give up. But I can’t."

I know what that's like. I'm seriously going through that right now.

Yay Fictionpress buddies! :D

wo! my accent IS sexy!

american accents are sexy too!

yay every1 has a sexy voice!

:)

That the people I've met on FP are freakin' amazing.

thats me right? right?

IT IS DONT LIEE!

xDxD

Guh, that's stupid.

You should beat him up

lol

Of course at age 15 you need privacy.

Everyone needs privacy!

You should try the ... "So you're telling me that when you were 15 you never had any privacy?" hehe

zack is still with that other girl?

and wants to be with you?

that doesn't sound promising you know..

You seem cool, and I like you. _

You also read my pillow book.

So I'll read yours from now on!

Just so you know, I'm not big on reading, so I probably won't read much past the five latest entries lol

Nut I will read every entry you put in now!

very powerful...

there's this longing in it

love it

i fucking love this pillow book.

it's like... on my favorites so far. :D

my god.

i'm not even joking when i say this is EXACTLY what happened with me and my mother when i told her the first time.

I kinda wish I went to highschool, like in America, cuz it'd be quite interesting because schools in England seem a lot different. And, cheers for the review by the way.

In the end though pillowbooks are about your thoughts, and if the five boys were in your thoughts then youd write about it?

Pah, I don't know. Well, you're interestin anyways :]

just because something was right for you back then doesn't mean it's going to be right for you RIGHT NOW.

female's especially, we tend to stick to what we are comfortable with, and seeing as you have History with Rick, that's what you want to do, but you have to ask yourself a couple of things.

1. Is not being with him working out? Because if it isn't, then try the second option and be with him. That way you won't think what if..

2. some of the boys you talk about just seem like crushes. you're young, have a laugh, don't get tied down so quick. maybe you just need to be you.. be alone for a bit. we don't always need a guy although I know exactly what you mean in your first paragraph.

's better to regret something you did... then regret not doing it at all. some people won't agree with that, but going through life thinking "what if" is ten times worse than going through life knowing what that "what if" was.

I'm kind of new to the world of dating, but from the sound of it a lot of girls who have dated a lot feel the same way. I know quiet a few girls who don't know how to be single.

Yeah, but according to some with the whole virgin thing that's going to be kind of difficult in the years to come. : l I mean, considering most every teenager ends up getting skull-fucked (as in getting their mind shoved into the gutter whether they want it to be or not) by the time they are 16.

Though I really do wish you luck. :) Though, from the sound of it you really do like Mr. Lip and Nose-Ring boy, see if things with him will work out first is my suggestion.