Wow... beautiful.

You just described... wow, I couldn't find words to express what I felt right now but you found them very well.

"Baby, I never expected you to love me, and yet it holds

such a bitter,sickening, horrible, utter disaster." - exactly, exactly how I feel.

"The adoration of a hopeful (stupid) dreamer." -yes, that exactly I was (am)...

Now I have tears in my eyes again...

Nicely, heart-breaking done.

Sincerly,

Nyrihaz (and her broken heart)

Truly beautiful. I think your writing really connects, flows from each verse to create meaning. I also like how you staggered the stanzas; that's a good technique for the reader to feel what the writer does. Keep writing.