Such clarity and maturity, you should be proud of yourself!
Also this was such a joy to read especially because it evoked such emotions, I felt like I was fifteen and having my first serious crush again! I hope all the happiness to you!

Props to you for how far you've come! I'm very proud of you and the progress you've made to move on from that douche bag. Whatever happens in the future, just be smart and remember that if it looks too good to be true when it comes to him, it probably is. :/