What a horrifying picture you portray of yourself. I enjoyed the line "decent but feared", a good choice; there is something I enjoy about that combination.

The very wisest of us are able to accept that the only person's acceptance we should crave is our own; though this is of course easier said than done.

Keep writing,
Alan.

Almost too dark, but still the words got the idea thriugh, interesting. Thank you!

Crap dude I think I'm gonna cry-