Disillusionment

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I see you smiling back at me

But it's just not the same

That look in your eyes

Staring…

It isn't what I want it to be

You see me as a friend

A comrade, a pal

But that's as far as it goes

It doesn't really hurt

It only feels…

Empty…

I like it when you laugh

My heart breaks when you cry

But something's not right

There's a little thing

Missing…

That should complete the picture

Make it beautiful

But it isn't there

And never will be

Maybe I should have been honest

I should have told you the truth

Only now it's too late

I let go of you

Too soon…

So maybe it's better this way

For I don't want to hurt you

Or sever your trust

So I just smile back at you

Sadly…