Sepia Swirl, Not Strawberry

My mind is in confusion, like mud
Is it my fault that she screams
That she calls me the harsh words
I want strawberry swirl tonight

I cut, releasing the flowing pain
Is it my fault the blood relaxes me
Takes away all guilt for a moment
Give me strawberry swirl tonight

The visions haunt me of my future
Is it my fault I will be alone
Not a friend, not a beloved one
Take me out for strawberry swirl

Will I ever escape my tormentor
Is it my fault for these bruises
Can you save me, if not, don't try
Give me sepia swirl, not strawberry