i want to be close to you
to feel your arms wrapped around me
and actually be happy,

but i hate being vulnerable

i want to spend every second with you
talking to you
or thinking of you,

but i don't want to lose myself

i want to tell you hoe much you mean to me
how without you i cannot live
and how nothing else matters

but i don't want to admit i'm dependent on you

i want to love you
and i do,

but i'm scared.