Fear
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Fear
Is what rules my life
Fear
Is what keeps my stomach tied in knots
Fear
Is what makes every second
Unbearable

I go to bed
Every night
Knowing
That in dreamless sleep
I am free of all that plagues me
I almost cry
When I wake up in the morning
And realize
I'm still alive
And still afraid
Of everything

I wish for death
In one breath
And the moment
Something frightens me
I wish for life
Fear
Is what causes my indecision
Fear that I'll live
Fear that I'll die
Fear
That it doesn't really matter
Either way

9/5/02