* Penetration *

If there's one thing that I don't think I'll

ever be able to understand

It's the fact that you love me for who

I am

I love you with all of my heart and soul

You mean more to me than this life could

ever possibly hold

You trusted and believed in me right from

the start

You gave me your trust,your friendship,your

love,your heart

My insecurities have made me want to flee

from you

My overanalyzings have made me feel like I've

meant absolutely nothing to you

But,if I just stopped for a moment-if I just stopped

worrying,and feeling as if I mean nothing

Maybe I'd realize how great I have it with you,

with my life,that I have that incredible something

I know you love me more than life itself

And I know that I love you above all else

But why do I feel like I could never be good enough

for you?

Why do I feel like you could be out there loving

someone better ...someone more true?

I'm so insecure,I just don't understand myself

Sometimes I wish I could just hide away;just curl up

in some huge book shelf

I don't want you to ever think that I don't trust you

or that I could never trust you

But I've made you feel that way,which hurts me

so much more than it could ever hurt you

I want you to know that I trust you

I just want you to believe that I love you

I love you so much that sometimes,it

honestly makes me want to cry

Because you mean so much to me,you are my

sun ,my earth,my heaven,my sky

I want you to know that It was never you...it

was only me

It was me and my insecurities

But now I'm starting to realize how much your

love for me is true

Now,more than ever,I'm realizing how much I

really do love you

I want to believe that you really do love me

for who I am

I want you to know that I am capable of love just

as grand

I love you ,I need you,it's as simple as that

Yet,love never was simple...but it's definitely

something worthwhile...and something

that we all need to have

If there's one thing that I don't think I'll

ever be able to understand

It's the fact that you love me for who

I am

But now I'm starting to realize how much your

love for me is true

Now,more than ever,I'm realizing how much I

really do love you



~November 20,2002