Thankful

What do I have to give thanks for?
My life with the unloving mother,
Looking at me like I am diseased,
Looking past me like I am no one.

What do I have to be thankful for?
The hatred radiating from everyone,
That I meet and try to be friendly,
That I might care about in the future.

Why should I be thankful today?
If everything I do is thrown away,
Into the discard pile with the garbage,
Into the back of all of the memories.

What do I have to be thankful for?
A friend who looks at me everytime,
I try to make a friend, I try to be me,
I try to be someone besides you.

Why should I ever thank anyone?
If all they do is throw me down,
And put me in the back of their minds,
I'll be thankful for being alone.