A/N: Mindless ramblings that come to me when nothing else will. It's not poetry by any stretch of the imagination, God knows I couldn't make a rhyme with the word sad, I just stuck it in a category. In any case, it's just a bunch of nonsense about me, and not about me. So, anyway, I offer a cookie to anyone who finishes it. It's really not that long. . . Just looks that way ^_~ Have fun!
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SpokenI wonder what those people are thinking
I wonder where those people are going
I wonder what those people are like
What they like
Who they like
Where they like
I keep my mouth shut
I keep my eyes closed
Keeping my ears open
Listening to their every word
I just wanted the last word
What the hell's different anyway?
What's normal?
What's unique?
Individuality?
You know you can't explain it
Even if you wanted the last word
The last words are mine
Strive for it
He won't even listen to me
Talks like I'm still a little girl
Talks to me like he's seen the world
I haven't seen the world
You haven't seen the world
Littered with hatred
Violence
Love
Fears
Lies
Truths
Litter wrapped in pretty paper
Oh, it's going to be all right.
The last word's mine.
I wanted to be me.
I want to be you.
Normal?
Unique?
Individual?
You wish.
I have the last word.
She talked to me pretty one day
Wrapped her arms around me
Asked me what was wrong
Confusion blinding me
What's wrong
This is wrong
That is wrong
She's wrong
He's wrong
But she doesn't care
She had the last word
I had to walk away in defeat
You had to walk away in defeat
Shameful
I'm so ashamed of you
You're nothing to be proud of
I'm nothing to be proud of
Mindless ramblings
You say
He says
She says
They say
They know it all –
They've seen the world
They stole my last word
He talked to me pretty one day
You're my little girl
I know
You don't
What more is there to understand
There isn't more to understand
The words explain it all
I'm right
You're wrong
No in-between
Try to weasel your way out of this one
What are you working for
What are you living for
Motivation
Actuation
Impulsion
Inducement
Your reason
Your purpose
I don't know the word
He smacked me today
He told me that everything wasn't pretty
You try to hide it
Hide your pain
Hide your fear
Hide your hopes
Hide your dreams
Hide your insecurities
You're spineless
You believe every word they say to you
You believe it when they curse you
You believe it when they spit on you
You believe it when they laugh at you
Why laugh
You got your last word
What is life
Do you care
Is there any need for an explanation
You're selfish
Life
Why waste your time
Well, they don't care
Do they
They never care
You say you're all alone
Everyone's alone
You know you're not the only one
You wanted attention
You swore that wasn't why
You swear that it's okay
It is
Attention
Heed
Regard
Concentration
Consideration
Reflection
Circumspection
Vigilance
Application
Devotion
Solicitude
You're too blind
You don't have what you want
You say it's what you need
You have all you ever need
Want more
Hey, you've got more
Who needs life
It was your last word
He laughed at me
He made me feel worthless
Degraded
Trash
Scum
Vermin
Rubbish
Cheap
Useless
Good-for-nothing
Vain
Valueless
Waste
Petty
Hollow
Undeserving
You didn't care
You laughed at me
You made me feel worthless
It didn't matter how many tears were shed that day
You never took back you last word
I talk like it matters
It doesn't mean anything
No sentimental value
You're not allowed to get attached
Keep your distance
They're out to betray you
He betrayed me
She betrayed me
They betrayed me
Left me out for dead
Left my body out to rot
Left me alone to let my wondering mind eat me away
Don't leave me alone with my thoughts
Deranged
Discompose
Disturbed
Upset
Disorder
Dement
Distract
Who saw the warnings
Who caught her eye
Disease
Epidemic
Pest
Idiopathic
Infection
Contagious
Plague
Morbid
I knew you meant every word you said
So I'm not perfect
Too much black under my eyes
Too much sarcasm in my words
Jealousy
Envy
Her hair's too curly
His eyes too blue
Her pants to dirty
His family too poor
Her opinion didn't matter
His opinion meant nothing
They wanted you to be normal
They tried to change me
I was shunned
Who wants me
Who wants someone different
They shudder at that word
Different
Divergent
Motley
Discrepant
Contrary
Variant
Distinct
Distinctive
Special
Particular
My last word
What is normal
They're normal
Of course
Usual
General
Habitual
Average
Sane
Lucid
Rational
Feverless
Hey, be like me
It's better on the other side
My grass is greener
My smile is wider
Respect is all she asked for
Adoration
Deference
Esteem
Homage
Honor
Reverence
Worship
Consideration
Courtesy
Dignity
Ovation
Tribute
It was asking too much
A selfish demand
In or out
The choice is your
The influence clouded over you
Like a cloud ready to rain
The droplets of water splashing on your skin
On your shoulder
In your hair
On your clothes
On the ground
Only to go back and do it again
If only life were that easy
Easy
You wanted to it be the last word
I spit on the word
Easy
Effortless
Simple
Smooth
Elementary
Child's play
Manageable
Everything is manageable
You can handle it
Be strong
Suck it up
Grow up
Speak up
Stand up
Sit down
They don't want to hear it
I don't want to hear it
Who's listening
No one's listening
Ears plugged
Eyes closed
Mind's wondering
Left to go out without the leash
Lost
Mislaid
Misplaced
Deprived
Slipping away
Alone
Lonely
Forlorn
Solitary
You're on your own
Your last word
You can try to deny it
You liar
No one likes a liar
A cheat
Your fabrication
That one little white lie
Millions of little white lies
What could one more do
No one's going to get hurt
You know the truth
Speak the truth
It's better to lie
It's the best advice you'll ever get
Cover your own ass
It's every man for himself
Let the others suffer
As long as you end up on top
The conqueror
The victor
The winner
The master
Ultimate
Eternal
Never-ending
No limits
Endless
Undying
Deathless
Immortal
It's the last word
There's nothing left to be spoken
No more words need to be said
Everything ends
Nothing goes on forever
Legacies die
Legends fade away
You'll fade away
You're nothing
They tell me I'm nothing
Why try
Why worry
Everything will end
You'll be forgotten
He'll be forgotten
She'll be forgotten
I'll be forgotten
Try to cover that up with another lie
Who'll remember you when you die
Who'll remember me
No one
He knows it all
No one will remember me when I'm gone
He says to give it a year
Even the loveliest flower withers
Every vibrant petal looses its sparkle
Every leaf curls up brown and ugly
You'll loose your sparkle
It was his last word
Fuck the world
Fuck the system
Fuck your friends
Fuck your family
You don't deserve them
You wanted more
You wanted the immortality
You wanted to live forever
You wanted the world
You wanted everyone to listen to you
To bow down to you
To cherish you
Praise you
Worship you
Love you
It's not enough
It's never enough
Why stop there
The whole world is at your fingertips
She swears it to be true
You can have anything you want
She told me
It must me true
Everything is within your reach
Inches away
Taunting you
It's tangible
You can feel it
Smell it
You can't have it
You're greedy
But you have it all
Hell, what's the world
I can have it all
Potential
Delight
The mockery of it all
The derision
The scorn
The sport
Just play the game
He said I was nothing
I would always be nothing
Nothing more that simply that
Nothing
His last word
But I wanted the last word
Stand up on stage
Limelight
Spotlight
It's all the same
Everyone is entitled to their 15 minutes
They're allowed to shine
They're allowed to boast
It's their night
For just one night
The feeling of immortality
For just one night you had it all
Didn't you
You had the world
You could taste it
You could smell it
You could feel it
As quickly as it came
It left
The lights were dimmed
The crowd diminished
So what are you
Nothing
His last word
Who needs to be unique
If everyone's unique
Why strive for certain individuality
Everyone's individual
Unique
Individual
Exclusive
Sole
Original
Exceptional
Unprecedented
Unequal
Unmatched
Particular
Single
Odd
Unitary
Entity
The envy of us all
You believe what you will
That little white lie
Those little white lies
Haunts you like a nightmare
Never waking up in time
Cold sweat
Eyes bulged
Mindless stare
Thoughts wondering
Thoughts torturing
Thoughts scurrying through your head
Caught you running in circles
Her last word
Embarrassed to call him your own
Your mother made you do it
Your father insisted
It's not your fault
On the contrary
Nothing is your fault
The word of which you are
Nothing
You eat
Sleep
Breath
You have feelings
Concerns
Hopes
Dreams
Fears
Doubts
Secrets
Locked away
Packaged pretty
Shoved in the back of the closet
Lost in a sea of those lies
You're in over your head
Forgotten how to swim
Who will save you
Her last word
You stand alone
Naked
Reddened cheeks
Squinted eyes
Beating hearts
The nerve of it all
Abashed
Confused
Discomfited
Disconcerted
Ill-at-ease
Uneasy
Uncomfortable
Sheepish
Shameful
Self-conscious
Everyone's looking at you
Everyone's laughing at you
Everyone's judging you
They're better than you
She wanted to be just like them
Ah, them
Labeled as popular
Current
Prevailing
Prevalent
Accepted
Standard
Approved
Public
Social
Strike a pose
Everyone's watching you
Millions of eyes
And you believe every word they say
You're so gullible
Credulous
Naïve
Trusting
You give them your heart
It was their last word
Let's get down to business
Time so short
Time so wasted
Life is so short
You believe every word they say
They must be right
All knowing
All seeing
All hearing
All powerful being
Blind to our human eye
They
Always right
It's all talk
It's all show
It's all fake
Mindless fairy tale
Yet you believe it all
You believe every word
Role call
Sentences broken
Names forgotten
Faces shattered
Feelings crushed
Hearts run dry
Pure emotion
Left behind
You know they've forgotten your name
Gone on without you
Left in the dark
Eyes wet
Throat dry
Chest wracking in the pain of abandon
You swear they care
You swear it was a mistake
Even you don't believe your lie
Your little white lie
You see through it
Transparent
It's hard to see straight
It hurts to cry
They know your pain
Evident in your eyes
You're at a loss for words
Stuttered
Swollen tongue
Chattering teeth
The words never seem to come out right
Nightmares
Because you're not normal
Because you're not "cool"
Because you're not accepted
Because you're you
The person you despise the most
The person most mysterious to you
Surprise yourself everyday
Swearing you aren't really you
It's all political
Why be you
When you could be me
Be someone else
The words so tempting
It's like playing with fire
Out-smarted every time
Only seconds too slow
Only lagging a day behind
You don't stop
Even if you get burned
Stubborn
Obstinate
Determined
Resolute
Dogged
Firm
Persevering
Persistent
Tenacious
Pertinacious
Tough
Unyielding
Adamant
Inexorable
Rigid
Stiff
Stern
Stout
Sturdy
Opinionated
You know no one's listening
I speak out my heart
Speak loud enough for the world to hear
Throat raw
My last word
Said unheard
He laughs it off like nothing
I'm never serious
It's all a joke
My life's a joke
Laugh it up
A jest
A gag
A trick
They stifle their laughter
You see their reddened faces
Unable to breathe
Lungs burning
Head dizzy
Sight dim
Senses waver
He got his last word
The world's on my shoulders
No one to lean on
No one to help
I'm on my own
Who would help
Losers
A misplaced soul
A waste of space
A waste of a mind
Of a heart
No one hears her desperate cry
Top of the lungs
Glass shattering
No one listens
Stuck up noses
Heads turned
Who wants to hear
We want to hear of the good
The good for us
So what if you're suffering
So what if you're crying out for comfort
No one listens to me
They hear my words
They laugh
I'm just a joke
The jester in the crowd
I put on my show
Do what they want to see
Lightning Crashes
Thunder Rumbled
No one cared
Concerned with themselves
Their pretty lives
Their pretty faces
I would only dirty you
Scarred for life
Hideous
Ugly
Repulsive
Unsightly
Gruesome
Shocking
Frightful
Ghastly
Disgusting
Sickly
Nauseating
Squeamish
Horrible
Horrid
Outrageous
Call me what you will
Disgrace my name
Say you last word
They all stare at you
Stare in disgust
Stare in shame
Stare in resentment
You have something they want
Selfish
Grubby hands
They demand the world
Something you'll never have
Something they'll never have
Out of reach
The world is mine
Whatever you want
Whatever they want
Whatever I want
It was my last word
Tears fall
Salty drops of water
Wipe them away
Shameful
Disgraceful
Tears
Grow up
Be a man
Be a woman
Be an adult
Stop acting like a child
They always grow up too fast
Youth is temporary
Never attaining it again
Some haunting dream
Stalking spirits
Reoccurring voices
Taunting me
Laughing at me
No one wipes my tears away
Staining my cheeks
Gnawing on my throat
Raw
Choking
Smothering
Strangling
Strong hands
Fragile body
Limp and cold
Gripping tighter
Your voice isn't heard
Your cries never answered
No one cared
You knew it
The sickly song repeated
Back of your mind
Scratching at your brain
Claws stuck in your skin
Diseased once more
Dirtied once more
Disgraced once more
My last words
Just say it
End it all
Quick fix
Painful death
They say they won't miss you
Who will mourn you
How long will they mourn you
How long will tears be shed
They said no one would notice
Rubies
Red
Crimson
Crimson
Thick
Warm
Sliding like molasses
Between your fingertips
It feels so good
Power over something
Never good enough
You wanted more
Power over someone
Be the conqueror
No longer will I be the hunted
I was the hunter
I wanted power over something
Power over someone
Stalker
Who watched my every move
Slither
Unseen
Undetected
Get away with it all
Shiny
Sharp
Catching my eye
Lick your lips
Close you eyes
It won't hurt
I swear
Last words
Little white lie
Glittering
Sparkling
Shining
Flashing
Glowing
Beaming
Flickering
Glinting
Left alone
In the dark
In the cold
In the rain
You can see inside
You can see their smiles
You can hear their laughter
You want that happiness
Out of reach
So close
Inches away
Yet it slithers back
You can still see inside
You can still see their smiles
You can still hear their laughter
You despise the sound
Ringing around you
You clench your hands into a fist
Put up with it all
Suck it up
Go home
Sleep it off
Never wake up
She never got her last word
Take me seriously
Believe me
Your cry for help
Unnoticed
None concern
I'm not a threat
Threat to society
Threat to the world
What can one person do
What can one girl do
Retaliate
You know you can't
You follow their footsteps
Go down the same path
Follow the same road
Wear the same clothes
Buy the same cars
Speak in the same tongue
Laugh at the same jokes
Like what they like
Dislike what they dislike
You're the shadow
All you'll ever be
Backstage
In the crowd
Never getting the lead
One step behind
Two steps behind
You won't win the race
You can't win the race
Their legs are longer
Their hearts are stronger
Their will is bolder
They have the last word
I can't love you anymore
I am the disgrace
Scared of the sounds I hear in my ears
Scared of the sights I see around me
Haunting me
Surrounding me
I'm still the clown
Still the jester
Still the joke
Laugh it up
Always at my expense
It hurts you
To be betrayed
Stabs you deep
Stab them back
Revenge is sweet
I can taste it on my lips
Rubies
Red
Crimson
Crimson
Thick
Warm
Sliding like molasses
Between my fingertips
It feels so good
Power over something
Control
Open all their eyes
Open all their ears
Close all their mouths
Make them listen to me
Make them hear me out
Make them see through my lies
My little white lies
Finally Spoken
Any last words?