A/N: Mindless ramblings that come to me when nothing else will.  It's not poetry by any stretch of the imagination, God knows I couldn't make a rhyme with the word sad, I just stuck it in a category.  In any case, it's just a bunch of nonsense about me, and not about me.  So, anyway, I offer a cookie to anyone who finishes it.  It's really not that long. . . Just looks that way ^_~  Have fun!

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I wonder what those people are thinking

I wonder where those people are going

I wonder what those people are like

What they like

 Who they like

Where they like

I keep my mouth shut

I keep my eyes closed

Keeping my ears open

Listening to their every word

I just wanted the last word

What the hell's different anyway?

What's normal?

What's unique?

Individuality?

You know you can't explain it

Even if you wanted the last word

The last words are mine

Strive for it

He won't even listen to me

Talks like I'm still a little girl

Talks to me like he's seen the world

I haven't seen the world

You haven't seen the world

Littered with hatred

Violence

Love

Fears

Lies

Truths

Litter wrapped in pretty paper

Oh, it's going to be all right.

The last word's mine.

I wanted to be me.

I want to be you.

Normal?

Unique?

Individual?

You wish.

I have the last word.

She talked to me pretty one day

Wrapped her arms around me

Asked me what was wrong

Confusion blinding me

What's wrong

This is wrong

That is wrong

She's wrong

He's wrong

But she doesn't care

She had the last word

I had to walk away in defeat

You had to walk away in defeat

Shameful

I'm so ashamed of you

You're nothing to be proud of

I'm nothing to be proud of

Mindless ramblings

You say

He says

She says

They say

They know it all –

They've seen the world

They stole my last word

He talked to me pretty one day

You're my little girl

I know

You don't

What more is there to understand

There isn't more to understand

The words explain it all

I'm right

You're wrong

No in-between

Try to weasel your way out of this one

What are you working for

What are you living for

Motivation

Actuation

Impulsion

Inducement

Your reason

Your purpose

I don't know the word

He smacked me today

He told me that everything wasn't pretty

You try to hide it

Hide your pain

Hide your fear

Hide your hopes

Hide your dreams

Hide your insecurities

You're spineless

You believe every word they say to you

You believe it when they curse you

You believe it when they spit on you

You believe it when they laugh at you

Why laugh

You got your last word

What is life

Do you care

Is there any need for an explanation

You're selfish

Life

Why waste your time

Well, they don't care

Do they

They never care

You say you're all alone

Everyone's alone

You know you're not the only one

You wanted attention

You swore that wasn't why

You swear that it's okay

It is

Attention

Heed

Regard

Concentration

Consideration

Reflection

Circumspection

Vigilance

Application

Devotion

Solicitude

You're too blind

You don't have what you want

You say it's what you need

You have all you ever need

Want more

Hey, you've got more

Who needs life

It was your last word

He laughed at me

He made me feel worthless

Degraded

Trash

Scum

Vermin

Rubbish

Cheap

Useless

Good-for-nothing

Vain

Valueless

Waste

Petty

 Hollow

Undeserving

You didn't care

You laughed at me

You made me feel worthless

It didn't matter how many tears were shed that day

You never took back you last word

I talk like it matters

It doesn't mean anything

No sentimental value

You're not allowed to get attached

Keep your distance

They're out to betray you

He betrayed me

She betrayed me

They betrayed me

Left me out for dead

Left my body out to rot

Left me alone to let my wondering mind eat me away

Don't leave me alone with my thoughts

Deranged

Discompose

Disturbed

Upset

Disorder

Dement

Distract

Who saw the warnings

Who caught her eye

Disease

Epidemic

Pest

Idiopathic

Infection

Contagious

Plague

Morbid

I knew you meant every word you said

So I'm not perfect

Too much black under my eyes

Too much sarcasm in my words

Jealousy

Envy

Her hair's too curly

His eyes too blue

Her pants to dirty

His family too poor

Her opinion didn't matter

His opinion meant nothing

They wanted you to be normal

They tried to change me

I was shunned

Who wants me

Who wants someone different

They shudder at that word

Different

Divergent

Motley

Discrepant

Contrary

Variant

Distinct

Distinctive

Special

Particular

My last word

What is normal

They're normal

Of course

Usual

General

Habitual

Average

Sane

Lucid

Rational

Feverless

Hey, be like me

It's better on the other side

My grass is greener

My smile is wider

Respect is all she asked for

Adoration

Deference

Esteem

Homage

Honor

Reverence

Worship

Consideration

Courtesy

Dignity

Ovation

Tribute

It was asking too much

A selfish demand

In or out

The choice is your

The influence clouded over you

Like a cloud ready to rain

The droplets of water splashing on your skin

On your shoulder

In your hair

On your clothes

On the ground

Only to go back and do it again

If only life were that easy

Easy

You wanted to it be the last word

I spit on the word

Easy

Effortless

Simple

Smooth

Elementary

Child's play

Manageable

Everything is manageable

You can handle it

Be strong

Suck it up

Grow up

Speak up

Stand up

Sit down

They don't want to hear it

I don't want to hear it

Who's listening

No one's listening

Ears plugged

Eyes closed

Mind's wondering

Left to go out without the leash

Lost

Mislaid

Misplaced

Deprived

Slipping away

Alone

Lonely

Forlorn

Solitary

You're on your own

Your last word

You can try to deny it

You liar

No one likes a liar

A cheat

Your fabrication

That one little white lie

Millions of little white lies

What could one more do

No one's going to get hurt

You know the truth

Speak the truth

It's better to lie

It's the best advice you'll ever get

Cover your own ass

It's every man for himself

Let the others suffer

As long as you end up on top

The conqueror

The victor

The winner

The master

Ultimate

Eternal

Never-ending

No limits

Endless

Undying

Deathless

Immortal

It's the last word

There's nothing left to be spoken

No more words need to be said

Everything ends

Nothing goes on forever

Legacies die

Legends fade away

You'll fade away

You're nothing

They tell me I'm nothing

Why try

Why worry

Everything will end

You'll be forgotten

He'll be forgotten

She'll be forgotten

I'll be forgotten

Try to cover that up with another lie

Who'll remember you when you die

Who'll remember me

No one

He knows it all

No one will remember me when I'm gone

He says to give it a year

Even the loveliest flower withers

Every vibrant petal looses its sparkle

Every leaf curls up brown and ugly

You'll loose your sparkle

It was his last word

Fuck the world

Fuck the system

Fuck your friends

Fuck your family

You don't deserve them

You wanted more

You wanted the immortality

You wanted to live forever

You wanted the world

You wanted everyone to listen to you

To bow down to you

To cherish you

Praise you

Worship you

Love you

It's not enough

It's never enough

Why stop there

The whole world is at your fingertips

She swears it to be true

You can have anything you want

She told me

It must me true

Everything is within your reach

Inches away

Taunting you

It's tangible

You can feel it

Smell it

You can't have it

You're greedy

But you have it all

Hell, what's the world

I can have it all

Potential

Delight

The mockery of it all

The derision

The scorn

The sport

Just play the game

He said I was nothing

I would always be nothing

Nothing more that simply that

Nothing

His last word

But I wanted the last word

Stand up on stage

Limelight

Spotlight

It's all the same

Everyone is entitled to their 15 minutes

They're allowed to shine

They're allowed to boast

It's their night

For just one night

The feeling of immortality

For just one night you had it all

Didn't you

You had the world

You could taste it

You could smell it

You could feel it

As quickly as it came

 It left

The lights were dimmed

The crowd diminished

So what are you

Nothing

His last word

Who needs to be unique

If everyone's unique

Why strive for certain individuality

Everyone's individual

Unique

Individual

Exclusive

Sole

Original

Exceptional

Unprecedented

Unequal

Unmatched

Particular

Single

Odd

Unitary

Entity

The envy of us all

You believe what you will

That little white lie

Those little white lies

Haunts you like a nightmare

Never waking up in time

Cold sweat

Eyes bulged

Mindless stare

Thoughts wondering

Thoughts torturing

Thoughts scurrying through your head

Caught you running in circles

Her last word

Embarrassed to call him your own

Your mother made you do it

Your father insisted

It's not your fault

On the contrary

Nothing is your fault

The word of which you are

Nothing

You eat

Sleep

Breath

You have feelings

Concerns

Hopes

Dreams

Fears

Doubts

Secrets

Locked away

Packaged pretty

Shoved in the back of the closet

Lost in a sea of those lies

You're in over your head

Forgotten how to swim

Who will save you

Her last word

You stand alone

Naked

Reddened cheeks

Squinted eyes

Beating hearts

The nerve of it all

Abashed

Confused

Discomfited

Disconcerted

Ill-at-ease

Uneasy

Uncomfortable

Sheepish

Shameful

Self-conscious

Everyone's looking at you

Everyone's laughing at you

Everyone's judging you

They're better than you

She wanted to be just like them

Ah, them

Labeled as popular

Current

Prevailing

Prevalent

Accepted

Standard

Approved

Public

Social

Strike a pose

Everyone's watching you

Millions of eyes

And you believe every word they say

You're so gullible

Credulous

Naïve

Trusting

You give them your heart

It was their last word

Let's get down to business

Time so short

Time so wasted

Life is so short

You believe every word they say

They must be right

All knowing

All seeing

All hearing

All powerful being

Blind to our human eye

They

Always right

It's all talk

It's all show

It's all fake

Mindless fairy tale

Yet you believe it all

You believe every word

Role call

Sentences broken

Names forgotten

Faces shattered

Feelings crushed

Hearts run dry

Pure emotion

Left behind

You know they've forgotten your name

Gone on without you

Left in the dark

Eyes wet

Throat dry

Chest wracking in the pain of abandon

You swear they care

You swear it was a mistake

Even you don't believe your lie

Your little white lie

You see through it

Transparent

It's hard to see straight

It hurts to cry

They know your pain

Evident in your eyes

You're at a loss for words

Stuttered

Swollen tongue

Chattering teeth

The words never seem to come out right

Nightmares

Because you're not normal

Because you're not "cool"

Because you're not accepted

Because you're you

The person you despise the most

The person most mysterious to you

Surprise yourself everyday

Swearing you aren't really you

It's all political

Why be you

When you could be me

Be someone else

The words so tempting

It's like playing with fire

Out-smarted every time

Only seconds too slow

Only lagging a day behind

You don't stop

Even if you get burned

Stubborn

Obstinate

Determined

Resolute

Dogged

Firm

Persevering

Persistent

Tenacious

Pertinacious

Tough

Unyielding

Adamant

Inexorable

Rigid

Stiff

Stern

Stout

Sturdy

Opinionated

You know no one's listening

I speak out my heart

Speak loud enough for the world to hear

Throat raw

My last word

Said unheard

He laughs it off like nothing

I'm never serious

It's all a joke

My life's a joke

Laugh it up

A jest

A gag

A trick

They stifle their laughter

You see their reddened faces

Unable to breathe

Lungs burning

Head dizzy

Sight dim

Senses waver

He got his last word

The world's on my shoulders

No one to lean on

No one to help

I'm on my own

Who would help

Losers

A misplaced soul

A waste of space

A waste of a mind

Of a heart

No one hears her desperate cry

Top of the lungs

Glass shattering

No one listens

Stuck up noses

Heads turned

Who wants to hear

We want to hear of the good

The good for us

So what if you're suffering

So what if you're crying out for comfort

No one listens to me

They hear my words

They laugh

I'm just a joke

The jester in the crowd

I put on my show

Do what they want to see

Lightning Crashes

Thunder Rumbled

No one cared

Concerned with themselves

Their pretty lives

Their pretty faces

I would only dirty you

Scarred for life

Hideous

Ugly

Repulsive

Unsightly

Gruesome

Shocking

Frightful

Ghastly

Disgusting

Sickly

Nauseating

Squeamish

Horrible

Horrid

Outrageous

Call me what you will

Disgrace my name

Say you last word

They all stare at you

Stare in disgust

Stare in shame

Stare in resentment

You have something they want

Selfish

Grubby hands

They demand the world

Something you'll never have

Something they'll never have

Out of reach

The world is mine

Whatever you want

Whatever they want

Whatever I want

It was my last word

Tears fall

Salty drops of water

Wipe them away

Shameful

Disgraceful

Tears

Grow up

Be a man

Be a woman

Be an adult

Stop acting like a child

They always grow up too fast

Youth is temporary

Never attaining it again

Some haunting dream

Stalking spirits

Reoccurring voices

Taunting me

Laughing at me

No one wipes my tears away

Staining my cheeks

Gnawing on my throat

Raw

Choking

Smothering

Strangling

Strong hands

Fragile body

Limp and cold

Gripping tighter

Your voice isn't heard

Your cries never answered

No one cared

You knew it

The sickly song repeated

Back of your mind

Scratching at your brain

Claws stuck in your skin

Diseased once more

Dirtied once more

Disgraced once more

My last words

Just say it

End it all

Quick fix

Painful death

They say they won't miss you

Who will mourn you

How long will they mourn you

How long will tears be shed

They said no one would notice

Rubies

Red

Crimson

Crimson

Thick

Warm

Sliding like molasses

Between your fingertips

It feels so good

Power over something

Never good enough

You wanted more

Power over someone

Be the conqueror

No longer will I be the hunted

I was the hunter

I wanted power over something

Power over someone

Stalker

Who watched my every move

Slither

Unseen

Undetected

Get away with it all

Shiny

Sharp

Catching my eye

Lick your lips

Close you eyes

It won't hurt

I swear

Last words

Little white lie

Glittering

Sparkling

Shining

Flashing

Glowing

Beaming

Flickering

Glinting

Left alone

In the dark

In the cold

In the rain

You can see inside

You can see their smiles

You can hear their laughter

You want that happiness

Out of reach

So close

Inches away

Yet it slithers back

You can still see inside

 You can still see their smiles

You can still hear their laughter

You despise the sound

Ringing around you

You clench your hands into a fist

Put up with it all

Suck it up

Go home

Sleep it off

Never wake up

She never got her last word

Take me seriously

Believe me

Your cry for help

Unnoticed

None concern

I'm not a threat

Threat to society

Threat to the world

What can one person do

What can one girl do

Retaliate

You know you can't

You follow their footsteps

Go down the same path

Follow the same road

Wear the same clothes

Buy the same cars

Speak in the same tongue

Laugh at the same jokes

Like what they like

Dislike what they dislike

You're the shadow

All you'll ever be

Backstage

In the crowd

Never getting the lead

One step behind

Two steps behind

You won't win the race

You can't win the race

Their legs are longer

Their hearts are stronger

Their will is bolder

They have the last word

I can't love you anymore

I am the disgrace

Scared of the sounds I hear in my ears

Scared of the sights I see around me

Haunting me

Surrounding me

I'm still the clown

Still the jester

Still the joke

Laugh it up

Always at my expense

It hurts you

To be betrayed

Stabs you deep

Stab them back

Revenge is sweet

I can taste it on my lips

Rubies

Red

Crimson

Crimson

Thick

Warm

Sliding like molasses

Between my fingertips

It feels so good

Power over something

Control

Open all their eyes

Open all their ears

Close all their mouths

Make them listen to me

Make them hear me out

Make them see through my lies

My little white lies

Finally Spoken

Any last words?