Angry, Guilty Tears



Angry tears sting my eyes

This broken heart within me cries

Sitting here, my soul dies.

I lost her.

She's gone.

Why?

I couldn't save her.

Try as I might.

The paramedics said

She just gave up the fight.

Guilty tears sting my eyes

This broken heart within me lies.

There must be something

I could have done

The words have etched themselves

Upon my broken soul

I lost her.

She's gone.

Why?

Everyone carries on.

Try as I might,

I feel like throwing in the towel,

Giving up the fight.

They say life goes on

They say, loves ones who have died

Are never truly gone.

How can I believe that?

My heart says it's lies.

It's broken in two.

I lost her.

She's gone.

Why?

My very soul shattered

My heart torn to pieces

Carry on? Continue to live?

Right. Forget? Forgive?

Forget the memories?

Forgive myself?

How?

I lost her.

She's gone.

While I slept,

She fell into the ultimate sleep

Never to awaken.

God sent his angel to take her

Why my Nannie? I want to ask.

Why her? They say it's wrong,

To question God.

I'll keep the questions inside,

But then again, from god can I really hide?

The true feeling of my heart?

They're tearing me apart.

One can exist without one's soul

An empty shell, all alone.

Deep inside, the secrets lie.

Angry, guilty tears sting my eyes.