I'm Sorry

I don't want to look at your eyes

All I can see in them is the pain I caused you in my own selfish way

It hurts more than you will ever know

And it's hard to think when I go to sleep

That I'll awaken to this pain again.

I was thinking of you when I tried to help out

And I was thinking of you when I saw my blood

I never meant to make you feel like this

I should butt out

Being me was a mistake this time

You tell me I overuse this phrase

But my heart tells me I haven't said it enough

You've told me I have no self-respect

I'm sorry that I'm me.

I guess for you I will alter myself

Like a dress that just doesn't fit right

I don't want to be me anymore

Cause "me" can't control herself

She hurts and does not reflect the inner me that is myself

Maybe someday I'll stop hurting you

And then stop hurting myself

I need to break away from this sickness inside

And I hope I wont have to be sorry.