I'm screaming.

I'm bleeding.

But my goal is to deceive you still.

And I don't want your help,

And I don't believe in myself.

Just when I thought I'd beaten this loss

All feeling returns and it burns

And I can't trust myself alone at night.
I've cried non-existent tears of anguish and despair is my middle name.

Maybe you'll let go of me

But you're always there.

And you don't hear me pleading to stop as you cut me deep

Again and

Again and

Again and

You're torturing me daily.

I'm defeated by you nightly

And I hate you because you beat me

But...

Where are you?

Are you there?

I'm lost...?

I lost to you again.

Go away!

I'm falling farther

And going under and suffocating

And I don't know
What's real anymore

Don't know at all

But...

I'll save myself

I will beat you and you wont hurt me at night when the lights are out

And my bed holds us captive

And I can't escape you grip on my life that you maintain illegally

And with out my consent

Raping my mind

And making me think of things

I don't want to think anymore

That I've pushed down

And I don't need help from anyone

It's not worth it

I'm not worth it

But...

How can I save myself from you,

When you

Are me..?