I have survived these last few years
To isolate myself
I have pushed on, ignoring pain
Not wanting any help
I haven't changed that much since then
Afraid of being weak
I haven't been a better person
Not finding what I seek

Still looking for a better way
To be a better man
Still looking for a better way
To be a better friend

I've always been quite cynical
I can't deny the truth
Don't find much value in our race
And all of its abuse
And yet, I have no room to speak
I'm just a hypocrite
No better than anyone else
Not even just a bit

Still looking for a better way
To respect everyone
Still looking for a better way
To be a better son

And I'm still looking…

Apparently I haven't been
Searching in the right place
Apparently I'm not improved
Unfit to show my face
Apparently I'm still scared of
Being someone's toy
Apparently I'm still the same
A frightened little boy

Still looking for a better way
To stand up to my fears
Still looking for a better way
To release all my tears

And I'll keep looking until I find
What's holding me away
From life as I had imagined
How it would be today