Author's Notes: Just wondering a few things...
Inspiration: Eh...the first few bits are inspired by one of my favorite
Evanescence songs, Imaginary (both versions)...the rest of it is inspired
by my own random thoughts.
Warning: If you've read my other poems, you know what I'm gonna say.
Disclaimer: It's MINE. NOT yours. MINE. Do NOT make me come after you, I am
PMSing, and in a bad mood cause I don't feel good.
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Which One Would You Miss?
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A sea of red, painted in my mind...
They say red is the color of fire, of love, of passion,
But all I see is my own blood and tears.
The blood from the wounds of my heart,
Blood trailing down my arm from cuts I dealt by own hand.
Tears from the sky, rain bringing a temporary peace,
Tears from my eyes, a dam unleashed from a hole in the heart.
I need to leave, I need to get away from you.
This is starting to hurt too much inside...
It's becoming more than I can bear.
The sky in my mind is red, the clouds are golden like your hair,
The sea is an ocean of my tears, the color of your eyes,
The flowers in the field are all pale pink as your lips...
I need to get away...I want to run away from you...
I want to hide, I want to give up on love,
Because love hurts too much.
It's only wonderful for a small period of time.
There is no forever love for me, not the way I want it to be.
There is no true happiness in a world where everyone wears a mask.
Slowly, all around me, I begin to see those masks.
Some are chipped, a few are bleeding from the inside,
But most of them are perfect, hiding the grime and impurity of the soul.
It's a morbid, fucked up world, where nothing is ever fair,
And love is only a tool to hurt people in the end.
If I could get away from you, break free of the chains,
Maybe then I could give up...
Maybe I could give up on love, happiness, maybes and mights,
I could just give up on the world and take my life.
But I can't do that now, not with you everywhere around me.
I wonder, though...what would happen if I said I didn't love you?
Even if it were a lie...would you cry?
Or would you just miss the knowledge that you are loved?
Or would you be hurt inside, deep in the heart you try to hide?
Would you actually start to feel something for me?
I'd like to know what would happen.
I'd like to know how much my feelings mean to you.
I want to see how much it meant to you
To have me sleep in your arms that night at your house.
If you are truly starting to fall for me,
I want to know which one of me you mean.
Is it the demon or the angel?
Or is it both of them, all of me?
If you are falling in love...which one would you miss?
If the demon in me left, would you not care for me anymore?
If the angel left, would you rejoice and make me yours forever?
If both of them left...if I left, if I ran away from you...
Which one of me would you miss the most?
Inspiration: Eh...the first few bits are inspired by one of my favorite
Evanescence songs, Imaginary (both versions)...the rest of it is inspired
by my own random thoughts.
Warning: If you've read my other poems, you know what I'm gonna say.
Disclaimer: It's MINE. NOT yours. MINE. Do NOT make me come after you, I am
PMSing, and in a bad mood cause I don't feel good.
============================================================================
Which One Would You Miss?
============================================================================
A sea of red, painted in my mind...
They say red is the color of fire, of love, of passion,
But all I see is my own blood and tears.
The blood from the wounds of my heart,
Blood trailing down my arm from cuts I dealt by own hand.
Tears from the sky, rain bringing a temporary peace,
Tears from my eyes, a dam unleashed from a hole in the heart.
I need to leave, I need to get away from you.
This is starting to hurt too much inside...
It's becoming more than I can bear.
The sky in my mind is red, the clouds are golden like your hair,
The sea is an ocean of my tears, the color of your eyes,
The flowers in the field are all pale pink as your lips...
I need to get away...I want to run away from you...
I want to hide, I want to give up on love,
Because love hurts too much.
It's only wonderful for a small period of time.
There is no forever love for me, not the way I want it to be.
There is no true happiness in a world where everyone wears a mask.
Slowly, all around me, I begin to see those masks.
Some are chipped, a few are bleeding from the inside,
But most of them are perfect, hiding the grime and impurity of the soul.
It's a morbid, fucked up world, where nothing is ever fair,
And love is only a tool to hurt people in the end.
If I could get away from you, break free of the chains,
Maybe then I could give up...
Maybe I could give up on love, happiness, maybes and mights,
I could just give up on the world and take my life.
But I can't do that now, not with you everywhere around me.
I wonder, though...what would happen if I said I didn't love you?
Even if it were a lie...would you cry?
Or would you just miss the knowledge that you are loved?
Or would you be hurt inside, deep in the heart you try to hide?
Would you actually start to feel something for me?
I'd like to know what would happen.
I'd like to know how much my feelings mean to you.
I want to see how much it meant to you
To have me sleep in your arms that night at your house.
If you are truly starting to fall for me,
I want to know which one of me you mean.
Is it the demon or the angel?
Or is it both of them, all of me?
If you are falling in love...which one would you miss?
If the demon in me left, would you not care for me anymore?
If the angel left, would you rejoice and make me yours forever?
If both of them left...if I left, if I ran away from you...
Which one of me would you miss the most?