"Silent Deception- My Solitude"
They can't see me, try to understand.
There's no one out there who knows
All that I've given to life's demands
And the toll it has taken on this soul.
Why do I act this way, why do I care?
I refuse to be broken and used again.
I will stop all those who would dare
As long as it means no more betrayal.
I've been cursed to eternal damnation.
Everyone's gone and left me to suffer,
You've left me trapped in desperation,
Forever clawing for a way out of here.
You misinterpret my good intentions,
Mistaking them for malice and spite.
You miss my cries for intervention,
Hoping for the rescue that I so need.
Logic and reason have all gone to hell,
While what little sanity I have is lost.
There's a demon within I can't expel;
It's eating away at my tortured mind.
Some shreds of past dignity and pride
Are destroyed by your taunts and jeers.
Whatever self-respect I had has died,
Crumbling under the weight of misery.
Mercy spits in my face as I reach out.
Is it my fault for pushing others back?
I try not to nurse these morbid doubts
For they only serve to drive me mad.
This is madness in its greatest power,
Yet I choose to hide behind my facade,
Showing my frailty in its finest hour.
Nobody seems to see through my mask.
Standing here alone, I've gone away
Begging for a morsel of peace at last.
So detached, there's nothing left to say.
No more sniveling, I will cry no more.
I'm done, and the tears refuse to fall.
No one here to lead me back again as
The shadows start to beckon and call.
Darkness creeps up and hope is lost.
It will end soon, the pain will perish,
And I will have my rest at long last.
Adieu to this life I no longer cherish.
Silver to red to gray to black as it ends.
~Standing here alone
All hope is gone.
The light fades away
As all is said and done.~
AN: I'm going through a relapse of depression right now. Reviews would be
much appreciated. Flames welcome.
They can't see me, try to understand.
There's no one out there who knows
All that I've given to life's demands
And the toll it has taken on this soul.
Why do I act this way, why do I care?
I refuse to be broken and used again.
I will stop all those who would dare
As long as it means no more betrayal.
I've been cursed to eternal damnation.
Everyone's gone and left me to suffer,
You've left me trapped in desperation,
Forever clawing for a way out of here.
You misinterpret my good intentions,
Mistaking them for malice and spite.
You miss my cries for intervention,
Hoping for the rescue that I so need.
Logic and reason have all gone to hell,
While what little sanity I have is lost.
There's a demon within I can't expel;
It's eating away at my tortured mind.
Some shreds of past dignity and pride
Are destroyed by your taunts and jeers.
Whatever self-respect I had has died,
Crumbling under the weight of misery.
Mercy spits in my face as I reach out.
Is it my fault for pushing others back?
I try not to nurse these morbid doubts
For they only serve to drive me mad.
This is madness in its greatest power,
Yet I choose to hide behind my facade,
Showing my frailty in its finest hour.
Nobody seems to see through my mask.
Standing here alone, I've gone away
Begging for a morsel of peace at last.
So detached, there's nothing left to say.
No more sniveling, I will cry no more.
I'm done, and the tears refuse to fall.
No one here to lead me back again as
The shadows start to beckon and call.
Darkness creeps up and hope is lost.
It will end soon, the pain will perish,
And I will have my rest at long last.
Adieu to this life I no longer cherish.
Silver to red to gray to black as it ends.
~Standing here alone
All hope is gone.
The light fades away
As all is said and done.~
AN: I'm going through a relapse of depression right now. Reviews would be
much appreciated. Flames welcome.