I'm too happy to die,
But too depressed to stay alive.
I'm sitting in the middle waiting.

Days since I last smiled,
My mind's sunken and despaired.
So sick, shrunk to an all-time low,
Lost all remaining love at home.

See my third cut appear,
A week later all my skin disappears.
Red as blood yet white as bone,
I'm getting better.

Becki says I need some loving care,
Bev and Katy and Edward are unfair,
Problem is my lover's so far away.
And if I can't be with her,
I'd rather rot from view.

I want to walk in the snow,
And leave just an imprint.
I want to walk in the snow,
And never be seen again.

Been depressed all my life,
When I think the good stuff is gone.
Too little of it to hold on to,
Only buds that cannot flower.

My thoughts are getting blurred,
But when I see my lover I feel fine.
I'm trembling at the thought,
And I feel my hope is sinking.

Mother tries to choke me with pure hate,
And all she cares about is my sister,
That's the way you were born my father said.
I'll never change,
My blood is shedding.

I want to walk in the snow,
And leave just an imprint.
I want to walk in the snow,
And never be seen again.

Mort and Rachel and Adam Bat,
All things I like laughing at,
But why make a fuss when I'm gonna die,
My life's worse than even their shitty lives.

Got no choice but to hurt to frenzy,
Time slowly passes and life gets me tired,
All I need is to be with my Bikki,
I'm so sick of the horror that surrounds me.

Self-worth scatters self-esteem's a bore,
I long since moved to a lower plateau,
I know you don't care but please applaud,
Just look at my family who hate me so.

My depression's an epilogue of youth,
Such beautiful dignity in self-abuse,
I've finally come to understand life,
Through staring blankly at my girlfriend.