Agonizing Love

By Crystal

My heart pains

To see you walk,

My heart pains

To see you ignore.

You tell me you love me,

You tell me I'm your only one.

When you kiss the pain away,

I'm in heaven.

I see you as you joke and laugh,

With your popular friends.

I see myself talk,

With my nerdy friends.

I wonder why you like me,

I wonder why you asked me out.

You're a popular boy,

A funny one at that.

I wonder why you like me,

I wonder why you asked me out.

I'm not pretty nor ugly,

But you could get someone better.

When you're in the hallways

With your friends,

You ignore me.

I try to ignore you as well.

When you're with your friends,

I'm nothing but a girl,

When we're alone and together,

I'm more than just a girl.

I wonder if you like me,

I wonder why you like me,

I wonder why you asked me out,

I wonder what I am to you.

I feel the agonizing pain,

When you ignore me in the halls.

I feel the fluttering butterflies,

When you hug me close and tight.

Most of the time,

I wonder if it's worth it.

This agonizing pain,

For the heavenly feeling.

When you hug me close,

All thoughts vanishes.

When you ignore me,

All thoughts resurfaces.

My heart pains

To see you walk.

My heart pains

To see you ignore.

I am confused about my thoughts,

I don't know what to think,

But I know for one...

That I love you more than I can say.

I love you more than actions show,

I love you more than words express,

I love you more than I ever thought I could,

Because of this agonizing pain.

I never thought love could be like this,

I never thought love could be this strong,

But clearly I have been wrong...

This agonizing pain is love.