I want to believe in something
every time you tell me I'm beautiful
I wish I thought it were true
when you say you love me
I can't believe you
if you loved me you'd love me
not as a friend
but the way that I love you
and I'm sitting here alone
holding back tears

maybe I shouldn't
if I just let them flow
would it help?
does it even matter?
lost in the comparison between me and you
I don't know who I am
but I know you
and I know deep inside us
there's a link--I can feel it
binding us together but forever holding us apart
we're parts of the same whole

it may sound crazy
but I can always feel your presence
and yet there's still an ocean
dividing us forever
an ocean full of the tears I let flow
all for you
and it's so hard
writing what I know I've written before
all the words run together
and the same old emotions expressed
but they don't go away

I seek release from the pain
the physical distracts from the emotional
for a while, anyway
but the release doesn't come
it never does
all that comes is more tears

I want myself back
I want to be free of you
and I've tried so hard to escape
but everywhere I am you are
the heart ignores the mind
and I'm still here
as I will always be
only a whisper away from you