the only way i know how to do this

is to numb the pain that tears me apart

i try everyday to do as im told

i try to give what i've never had

that moment when im weak

and vulnerable to evil's hand

my heart tells me not to

but it's my heart that got me into this

god damn it! why can't i fight this off?

you make it look so easy!

and you dont leave room for me to breathe!

i want this potion

to seal the punctures in my skin

i thought i was making it better

but insted i was creating a bigger problem

feeling inferior myself...i never knew.

i never knew that i was beating

down those around me that matter

creating a new kind of inferior

lower than i've ever been...