I'm happy for now

But I fear going back.

Locked in the darkness,

'Don't want to react.

It's just my brain,

Don't I have control?

Will the demons return,

Along with my pained soul?

I'm happy for now,

Tears flow down my cheek no more.

Yet I always stay,

The pill popping, cutting, whore.

But I'm happy for now,

Things are really great!

Maybe everything is bliss,

And there's no such thing as hate.

Maybe it was just a phase,

That I went through long ago.

'Cause I'm happy for now,

Oh how I love life so.

But still my stomach clenches,

The truth is like a sin.

I'm happy for now,

But one day will I cave in?