i need

i need something everyone else seems to have.
a thing that seems so special and so good.
i want this something so badly it hurts inside,
and i know my heart is breaking because of that.

i need something everyone else seems to get.
a thing that makes me want it more and more each day.
i want this something like it is life itself,
and i know i would die for this thing.

i need something everyone else can get.
a thing i have never truly had.
i want this something so much that i would gladly do anything for it,
and i know i would spend eternity in hell just for it.

i need something everyone else has plenty of,
a thing i have always needed.
i want this something and i know i will never have it.
and i know i don't deserve it.

i want love more then anything,
it is a need that will never be filled.
i know i will always be truly alone,
and will never feel this thing.
i wish for it but it will never come,
and i know i will never be worthy of it.