Helpless
I am clawing at bare walls
Trying to find a way out of this white room
The bright light blinds me
As I desperately scramble for an exit
How did I get myself trapped here?
My screams are swallowed by the emptiness
Or maybe my ears refuse to hear the endless echoing?
Breathe,
I am suffocating in the void of my cornerless room
Blood,
On the walls
I see my fists, my arms
Throbbing, raw and red
When did this happen?
Why do I crumble and splinter
But the walls do not move

Why did I not take their help?
Why did I not believe their promises?
They said they could make things better
But I refused to listen

Now I am trapped with no chance of escape

Please, please
Come back and save me
Save me from myself
From this blinding light
From the unmoving force my hands are pounding against
Slowly it built itself around my life
Starting small so I could barely see it
Then growing into a massive cell
It was built to keep the feelings in
To hide emotions burning in me
It became a cage
Didn't I build a trap door?
Or at least a window?
Oh, they've been locked for ages
They were no longer used or needed

I must unlock them! I'm desperate
But I no longer have the key
The wall is in control now
It chooses when to unlock the door
But these walls have no ears to hear my pleading screams

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I can no longer move
Blood stains the white floor
The pain engulfs my body
I can not take this any more

Oh sweet, sweet darkness
Where have you been all this time?
Take me into your arms
Where I will be safe from harm
Oh, dear, sweet darkness